ririakaashi
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ririakaashi · 1 year ago
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Okay so hear me out, Satoru is very adamant on never wanting kids. And by that, he means kids born from him, he somehow always manages to adopt every "problem" child that comes his way (Megumi, Yuta, Itadori, etc). And his reason for this is because he knows how badly the higher-ups want him to produce a child. They desperately want an heir to the Gojo-clan considering Satoru is the head. He's been listening to them discuss this since he was old enough to remember, which in turn has made him very against the idea of having kids.
Until he met you. Sometimes he finds himself envisioning what it would be like to raise a child with you, one that shares the perfect mix of your DNA and his. A world where he can have a child and raise them to not have a care in the world about curses and jujutsu. But he knows that it is a dream he'll never achieve so long as the higher-ups are alive and well. That child, as well as you, would be under strict watch at all times, just as he had been as a child with his mother. He didn't want that for you, never mind a hypothetical child.
Then, your period is late, and Satoru is breaking out in a cold sweat as you both watch the pregnancy test develop on the bathroom counter. He sees it before you, a faint second line that indicates it's positive. By the time you see the second line, Satoru is already thinking of ways to get you and your unborn baby out of Japan before the higher-ups learn of this.
However, Satoru would sooner kill them all before letting them know of the heir to the Gojo-clan growing in your womb. With that thought, he's seriously considering it. Until you tell him to save it as a last resort. You don't want to leave Japan and you want him to be present for your pregnancy as well as the baby's birth. So, Satoru conjures up a crazy idea, you'll hide your pregnancy and the birth of the baby. You'll continue living as you are now, nobody in the jujutsu world, not even his students, will catch wind of you being pregnant.
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ririakaashi · 2 years ago
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tokyo revengers ⇢ “I CAN HOLD THE WORLD IN MY HANDS”
how the tokrev boys react to you saying you can hold the world in your hands then gently cupping their face [part one]
ft. keisuke baji, takashi mitsuya, ran haitani & shuji hanma
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“look at me holding the world in my hands,” you tell BAJI as you gently cup his face. he’s not one to easily turn down some pda; plus, it’s near closing time when you visit the pet shop he co-owns so you don’t think too much of it until he starts grumbling, “babe, not in front of the guys…” you glance over his shoulder—chifuyu is at the counter, auditing today’s revenue while kazutora is checking store inventory—before turning back to your boyfriend. “you don’t like it when i do this?” as baji lowers his head, his hair falls over his face, concealing the blush in his cheeks. “i do but they’ll tease me forever.” you release a snort, holding in a hearty laugh. you know this isn’t baji trying to look manly but it can’t be helped that his friends relentlessly poke fun at him when they feel like it. “sorry,” you tell him in a carefree voice before letting go of his face to pat him lightly on the chest. “alright, tough guy. get to work.” he chuckles at the nickname, giving you a peck on the cheek. “wait for me right here.”
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“i used to do this with my sisters all the time. you can’t beat me,” MITSUYA boasts as you’re at the third round of your staring contest, your boyfriend winning the first two. “cheater,” you mumble which makes him laugh. “how am i cheating?” “you’ve had practice.” he remains unfazed while your eyes begin to sting. in a desperate attempt to distract him, you take his face in your hands and you notice his breath slightly stutter at the unexpected gesture. “what are you doing?” “holding the world in my hands,” you coo but to your dismay, he still doesn’t blink. “now, that’s cheating.” in spite of the subtle shade of pink blushing his cheeks, there’s a self-satisfied grin on his lips at the ineffectiveness of your little stunt. “why won’t you blink?” you grunt. “i told you…” mitsuya trails off, maintaining eye contact as he turns his head to mutter against your palm, “i’m good at this.” he punctuates it with a lingering kiss on your hand, prompting you to blink involuntarily. “i win again.”
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RAN has been coming home late due to his meetings so as promised, he takes you to a lookout spot that has a lovely view of the city, away from his gang life and alone with you. “it’s nice up here, isn’t it?” he tells you and you hum in agreement, basking in his warmth as he hugs you from behind. keeping one arm around you, he raises the other to point at a hill from a distance, directing your line of sight towards somewhere higher than your vantage point. “you see that? i’m gonna buy you a big house on that hill and give you the best view of the whole city. gonna make you feel like you’re on top of the world.” “what if you don’t?” you dare jokingly but you realize he’s serious when he pulls you flush against him to whisper in your ear: “i will. i’ll give you the world, baby. just you wait.” finally, you spin in his embrace to look at him, reaching up to cradle his face in your hands. “i already have it right here.” despite the twinkle of affection in his eyes, a smirk forms on his lips as he presses it against yours. “no need to flatter me. i’ll still give you what you want.”
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you’re sat on HANMA’s lap with your back against his chest as he encircles his arms around you to compare hand sizes. “your hands are tiny,” he teases, laughing when you elbow him playfully. “you just have really big hands.” “yeah. to keep your baby hands warm,” he snickers. “okay but can you do this?” you shift on his thighs to face him, your palms finding purchase on his cheeks. “i can hold the world in my hands.” the sudden tenderness in your tone catches him off guard but it doesn’t stop the smirk from creeping onto his features. “easy. i can hold it in one.” he gently grips your face, tightening his hold just enough to squish your cheeks and give you a smack on your puckered up lips. when he pulls away, his mouth is stretched into a shit-eating grin but the gleam in his eyes is nothing short of loving. “what else you got?”
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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tags: 18+ MDNI, college!au, characters both 20+, roommates, alcohol, pervert!chifuyu x fem virgin!reader, masturbation, virginity loss, dubcon (reader is drunk), corruption kink, panty theft, marking (hickeys), oral (f!receiving), facesitting, vaginal fingering, unprotected sex, overstimulation, dacryphilia, spanking, dumbification, creampie, cum shot.
summary: after a string of failed roommates in the dorms, you end up moving off campus for your junior year of college.
a/n: this is my submission for the and they were roommates collab hosted by @chifuyuslilkitten tysm for letting me join! ❤️ also a big thanks to @islascafe​ & @rueren​ for beta reading for me  ❤️
tagging: @planetonet & @shibuyawardnetwork 
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Your freshmen year of college had been pleasant, peaceful even. You’d been rooming with someone just as studious and academically driven as you. She’d been quiet and considerate, and sometimes you’d even study together. 
Nothing of much interest had happened that first year and before you knew it, the year had come to an end. The summer was likely spent relaxing and vacationing, hanging out with friends, and going to parties for most students. 
For you, it had been spent visiting home and tutoring to earn some extra cash to pay for the new textbooks you’d need for the upcoming semester. 
When you got back to campus, you were excited to see your new roommate, whom you’d befriended the previous year. So you’d been surprised when you’d arrived at your dorm to be met with a complete stranger.
Your old roommate had applied for a transfer to their dream school and gotten accepted. You’d felt a little sad at the time, wishing they’d at least said goodbye.
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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More of him please 🥰🥲
MIRRORBALL
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Character/s: Souya Kawata
Warnings: f!reader, hurt to comfort, mature language, fluff, and suggestive themes.
Note: commissioned by @sohya 💙 hope you like it love!!
Synopsis: At the end of a storm, comes a rainbow shining just for you.
✃WC: 2.5k
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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😂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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JEALOUS MIKEY!
» ft. inui seishu (1.5k)
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Just a few minutes ago you were in your classroom sharing your bento with a friend, there were 5 more people that fortunately for you liked the quiet too, your mind was a little exhausted after ending this week that seemed to have exams in every corner of it, now that you could finally have some rest time you let your head fall to rest in the chair, with nothing in mind until heard someone ask for your name
looking at the door you saw one of your classmates talking with kokonoi, one of the school heartbreakers, that wasn't a rare sight, to see him talk to a girl was everyday deal but what really stood out for you was how she pointed right at where you're actually sitting, watching as he was making some hand gestures towards you indicating for you to come closer
your friend was quick to notice
"is that koko-kun calling your name y/n?!" she pouted "I wish he would call for me too"
sighing you stopped the want to pinch the bridge of your nose, irritation starting to get at you
"you can go ask him what he wants, I'm on my break hour and I'm very hungry and very very tired to just go and talk to him who knows for how long"
"but you're missing your chances y/n!"
now looking at her directly in the eye you said "chances? could it be you forgot I'm already dating someone?" her wide eyes told you she did "like I said, you can go talk to kokonoi-san and tell him I'm having lunch, if he wants to talk then he can come when school is over"
"you're really no fun y/n...."
but damn will she be too dumb to let this opportunity slip through her fingers
as she stood up you continued eating away, watching from the window some students walk outside, the day was a nice one, sunny windy days were more your thing that the gloomy ones everyone seemed to love nowdays
"l/n-san"
the soft voice pulled you out of the trance the view had you on, quickly glancing to your side you saw Inui-san from the same class kokonoi was in, standing at your side looking at you expectantly
"can I privately speak to you for a little bit? It won't take too long.."
you were reluctant at first, your encounters with the boy being minimal, but nonetheless always pleasant, he was a nice, gentle and quiet boy, quiet like yourself so how could you say no when he asked in such a nice way?
letting out a sigh you closed your bento tucking it safely in your bag before walking towards him
passing by the door you saw your friend talking with koko in what looked like an exciting conversation and silently you cheered for her as you left the class
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after draken dragged him away from you to discuss "serious matters" mikey's mood was worse then ever, a y/n deprived mikey is a very whiny mikey
"I wanted to eat lunch with my girlfriend ken-chin!"
"you eat with her everyday idiot!"
"any day can be my last!"
and when he saw the chance to get away from them he took it, now making his way to the classroom his girlfriend usually used to eat when he wasn't with her, still puffing his cheeks irritated at the thought he opened the door to your class
"y/n-chaaaaan-?"
seeing your seat occupied by someone that clearly wasn't you mikey was seriously starting to get annoyed
in your place was f/n and infront of her a boy who he recognized as koko
walking towards her he directly asked "where's y/n?"
much to his surprise it wasn't her the one answering but a smirking koko
"ah y/n-san.. she's currently with inupi"
"hah?"
koko only smiled at him before continuing his conversation with the girl Infront of him
yes, mikey was very very mad
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"I'm sorry l/n-san, koko got there before I could come get you myself"
waving your hand carelessly you replied "don't worry about it, what is it you wanted to talk about Inui-san?"
"ah.. I actually wanted to ask you something"
"ok go ahead, what is it?"
you nervously looked all around you, the trees looking really interesting today, anything that stops you from looking directly at the boy Infront of you
meanwhile Inui tried calming down his mind and heart, his palms were sweaty and he felt lost, feeling like it was now or never he mustered all the courage in his body and shouted his question "are you happy in your current relationship?!"
"wh-what-! what are you talking about?!"
you were expecting a lot of things from the private talk he wanted to have with you, you expected many things, but none of them like this one
"are you happy with mikey-kun?!"
"y-you-!"
"I always see that he keeps you all to himself!"
"inui-san!"
he looked down at his shoes, he seriously needed to calm his beating heart, but it seemed imposible when the girl he was so hopelessly in love with was right Infront of him
"I know we have had little to no time to get to know each other, but the few times we really did talk I- I enjoyed them very much l/n-san" you felt your cheeks heat up under his soft gaze "I liked you ever since we last spoke, and before I had the chance to court you I heard the rumors about mikey-kun having a girlfriend, a girl being able to attract his attention or something" sigh "at first I didn't care, cause the only girl I ever cared for is you l/n-san, but when I saw you and him together... I felt devastated"
deeply engrossed with what he was saying, you didn't notice someone watching the two of you from afar
"a quiet and dainty girl like you with someone like him... I really can't imagine it l/n-san, that's why I ask you.. are you happy with him?"
the soft breeze swayed your hair around and in Inui's eyes you looked ethereal, the prettiest girl he's ever met
you parted your lips to answer all of his questions,
that is until someone spoke before you could do it
"don't you think I should be the one asking that to her?"
hearing that voice made you snap out of your trance to look at the person that now stood next to Inui, letting a quiet "mikey!" fall from your lips
said boy looked like he was ready to commit murder, looking at Inui he laughed "quiet? dainty? do you know her at all?"
it was time for Inui to ask him "what do you mean-?"
"did you know she burps like a middle aged man?"
"mikey!"
"she kicks like a horse when she's mad too"
"stop it!"
"and she's actually really loud if you know what I mean"
your mouth can really touch the ground now, the embarrassment you felt making you feel like passing out at any moment
mikey got closer to Inui, the boy could only watch with wide eyes as mikey with a scowl on his face said in a both threatening and childish manner "she's mine! you don't get a chance with her!" now fully rotating his body to you he grabbed your hand before speaking over his shoulder "now if you excuse us, my girlfriend is going to have lunch with her boyfriend so bye-bye!" mikey sent him a mocking smile and just like that he left hand in hand with you
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walking down the corridors neither of you spoke, he was still very much annoyed by the fact someone tried to steal you from him, and you were still thinking about the past events
now moving your gaze to him, you saw that he had a frown on his face and a little too obvious pout on his lips, you would have laughed at him if you didn't know that he was having some conflict going on his mind, coming to a conclusion of why he was acting like this you carefully asked
"are you jealous mikey?"
"don't talk to me"
seeing him not wanting to look at you made you smile, even if he wasn't facing you, you can still see his angry puffy cheeks making him look like a squirrel
"you're the one holding my hand"
"like I care"
you laughed before grabbing his face with both hands though he still refused to look at you
"I'm happy with you mikey, you know this, there's no need to be jealous"
"he was really close to you"
"but you're closer to me now"
letting out a sigh he grabbed the hands holding his face and spoke in a very childish way
"you're allowed to only go out with me, I won't ever forgive you if one day we break up and you start dating someone who's not me!"
"whatever you say mikey"
"shut up"
"why don't you shut me up with a kiss?"
"I'll shut you up with something better"
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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Yes to ran being the best husband 🧎‍♀️❤️❤️❤️❤️
a promise to you
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Character/s: Bonten!Ran Haitani
Warnings: f!reader, cursing, mentions of past miscarriage, suggestive themes, mentions of bleeding, pregnancy, reader has a fear of needles, hurt to comfort, pet names used and lots of fluff. Minors do not interact.
Note: this is for ran simps, enjoy love💕
✃WC: 1.5k
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Defusing a ticking time bomb was what it felt like as Ran Haitani maneuvered his way around the hospital’s winding halls that smelled of antiseptic in search for your room. Staff and patients alike to avoid, especially anyone who’d recognize him due to the notorious reputation he had flashed in every homes’ television as a warning. It wasn’t a hopeless case, however. The people he had hired were not paid to laze around when occasions like these arose. So, when he received a message from them that you were rushed to the hospital, Ran beat all reds to get where he is now.
Chanting the three-digit number texted to him minutes ago in his head over and over like a crazed man, scared they’ll dissipate into the freezing air that coated the establishment. And just before a wandering nurse approached him to ask what he was doing all the way here in the private quarters' area, Ran pushed the door to your room open and locked it behind him. A sigh of relief escaped his lips, his search was over but such a feeling was merely momentary once he remembered why he had to leave despite being in the middle of a meeting.
The sound of his dress shoes clicking on the floor caused your heavy eyes to blink open, rolling to the other side of the bed. About to question who it was until your tired gaze landed on your husband’s approaching form. You sat up at the sight of him, speechless at the unannounced visit. The eerie silence between you two lasted almost a minute before Ran finally closed the distance, hands quick to wrap themselves around your shocked frame and embrace you. Your eyes wide in surprise while returning it, throat dry.
“Baby, I came as soon as I could.”
Millions of questions as to how he knew you were here and whether he found out raced across your mind. But Ran had questions of his own, pulling away to have a closer look at you while mumbling, looking for answers. The IV drip attached to your left arm had him wincing, knowing all too well you weren’t a fan of needles. Upon closer inspection at the puffy lids of your eyes, he was sure you had shed a tear or so during the process. Still, his inquiry was not answered, prompting him to lift your chin and force you to stare into his purple hues clouded with concern.
“What happened to you?”
Fists around the thin sheets, your lower lip wobbled a bit as you whispered your response. “I-it’s nothing, really. Just a bit of bleeding. You shouldn’t have left—”
“A bit wouldn’t put you in an ambulance, love.” His gaze was hard, telling you not to lie further. Closing your mouth, you turned your head away. When you heard him sigh, your heart dropped to your stomach. This is what you were afraid of. After weeks of knowing your pregnancy, all you ever wanted to do was tell him. Yet, keeping it a secret was your initial choice. Disappointing him was the biggest dark cloud looming over your head these past few days, but you never thought lying to his face was like a dagger to the heart. It was for the best, you thought, rather than getting his hopes up. Of course, a secret shall never remain one forever. “I didn’t come here to hear excuses or be lied to—”
“Alright, alright.” Instantly, you were facing him once again with unshed tears that had your husband alarmed. Pushing his reaching hands down to your lap, you pleaded with him to listen first. “I’ll tell you, okay? But please don’t be angry…” Conflict flashed in those eyes of his, but nevertheless, Ran didn’t press further. Seeing him nod softly, you were grateful for his cooperation and continued. “After you left, I went out to water the flowers. I didn’t know the hose was leaking and I slipped.”
“You… slipped? That doesn’t add up—from the ambulance to having an IV drip. How did that make you bleed?” Violet pupils were immediately searching for any bandages or any telltale sign that you had a cut. Yet, you appeared unharmed except for the IV drip on your bedside that spoke otherwise. Sensing your hesitation, he lowered his tone into a soothing one. “Baby, don’t keep me in the dark forever. I can take it—I won’t be mad.”
Taking his calloused hands that may have taken countless lives, they were the very same ones that held you during your lowest and helped you achieve your dreams one by one—especially the growing life inside of you. Intertwining your fingers, you kept your eyes focused on your husband’s hands and squeezed them before your words slipped through your lips like a silent prayer for things to become better.
“I’m pregnant, Ran. For three weeks now.” Refusing to glance up and see his reaction, be it of happiness or shock, the guilt in you for keeping the news all to yourself ate up your confidence. For once, you were expecting him to lash out. Yet, Ran remained silent. And that was even more nerve-wracking. “I-I was afraid to tell you because of… what happened last time.” Recalling that day has been hard on you just as it was like forgetting it. If Ran hadn't been patient and stayed by your side most of the time, you would’ve broken down faster than the speed of light. Still, his sorrow didn’t go unnoticed to you. The stolen glances at unworn baby shoes to drinking in the late hours. This is why you were keen on being silent the moment you found out. To save him from the pain in case things went wrong. “You can hate me or even be angry. I get it. I just kept it from you ‘cause I fear that you’d be disappointed if I had another miscarriage. Wanted to make sure first that the tests weren’t bluffing and that the baby would at least survive—”
“Why the fuck would I be angry at you?” Ran’s soft voice didn’t match the intensity of his words, leaving you confused until his heat enveloped you once again. Arms hugging you tightly, holding you close to his chest that was quivering. The dampness of your shoulder was a confirmation in itself that he was crying. “You having my children is the fucking best thing you could ever give me aside from becoming my wife. I’ll never hate you for that. Never.”
Your surroundings turned blurry due to your own tears rolling down your cheek, clutching to Ran as you would to a floating vest at sea. A stream of apologies pouring out to which he hushed with chaste kisses, intent on showering you with it.
“Shh, it’s alright, pretty girl. Don’t cry and apologize.”
“I’m sorry…” Holding back a sob, you then cleared your throat and try to smile. “Shit, now I’m apologizing because I apologized. I’ve been quite emotional these days.”
Ran chuckled, the pad of his thumb brushing away your teardrops. “Yeah, that explains all the sudden mood swings and the cravings. Should’ve known since we went and had fun during your birthday.” Expression falling solemn again, his palm brushed against your stomach, lips in a tight line. “So, about the baby, are they...?” Ran couldn’t dare to finish his sentence. He hasn't forgotten why you were here and you mentioning about bleeding. If anything, he was prepared for the worst the moment he exited Bonten’s building and ran to his car. Yet, the small smile on your face brought his pounding heart to a serene rhythm.
“The baby is alright, love. The doctor advised bed rest and not to get stressed out. Said that the cramps and bleeding may last for a couple of days.” Putting a hand above his, you meekly whispered, more so to yourself. “I should’ve been more careful. It’s like fate is teasing me—the more I try, the harder it gets sometimes.”
Pressing a kiss to your forehead, Ran smirked playfully, bringing more comfort than the usual annoyance. “You have me, baby. You’re never alone.” Glancing at your stomach where his child was growing, a grin was plastered on his face while leaning down to kiss your abdomen. “Do you hear that? Daddy is right here. And I promise you and your mother that I’ll keep you safe. So you better grow up healthy no matter what.” Giggling at his statement, you couldn't help but shake your head. Your husband then sat up straight, looking right into your eyes with an expression that made no room for argument. “And you, Mrs. Haitani, should focus on yourself. Leave the housework to me, to the help or Rindou if he comes by. No more working, understand?”
“I don’t think Rin would like the sound of that.”
Fishing his phone out of the pocket of his suit jacket, Ran pressed on his brother’s contact, waiting for the latter to pick up to tell him the good news.
“He will once he learns he’ll be an uncle.”
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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😭❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Hanma Shuji— who usually seems cold and distant when the two of you are in public, less so when his arms drape over your curves possessively around the rest of Bonten. Small kisses pressed against your temple or random shapes traced against your thighs, you couldn’t help but find comfort in those little less noticeable gestures and the way he lets you climb right into his laps when nothing practically serious is happening. With your head resting against the crook of his neck whilst loud music hammers at your eardrums, hearing the way he sucks his teeth whenever someone points out how spoiled you make you giggle.
Hanma Shuji is almost a different person entirely when he learns that you’re sick, sniffling and whining about how heavy your body feels or how your brain feels foggy and don’t want to move. It’s rare to see him taking days out of work but when you sound as though you’re dying, how could he leave you behind? Shuji would’ve simply told you to go back to sleep when you tug at his sleeve and beg for him not to go with this pout across your lips, assuming he’d already be gone by the time you wake up and drags your feet to the kitchen only to find the same tall man there making you some food. Needless to say, for the rest of that day, you’d be babied as if he don’t already do it most of the time. Make sure your fever is down, stay hydrated and well-fed. Laying beside you when you snuggle up to him in the afternoon, “Hm? ‘M not going anywhere so rest, I’ve gotcha.”
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Self indulgent Hanma fluff because I’m sick ✨
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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❤️😫
Back and Better
Hanma Shuji X Gn!reader
-News of Hanma being back inspired me
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It had been weeks.
No, months.
No, a year. A year since he left.
Without a trace, he was gone. He left your life just as sneakily as he entered. You kept thinking he was gonna come back, it was hope. Dumb hope.
When you talked to your friends about it, they told you to move on. That you’d find someone else. Someone better. Someone who cared. Someone who would actually be there.
But you couldn’t.
I mean, it’s pretty hard to find someone as crazy, fun and dangerous as Hanma.
No calls. No texts. No letter. Nothing.
You knew Kisaki’s death hit him hard but you hoped he’d come back.
For you.
But you knew he wouldn’t. So after a couple of months of sadness, you finally moved on. No more tears and definitely no more worrying. He was out there doing what he could with his life, so why couldn’t you do the same?
You put all that energy into school, and life.  Sure, your boyfriend leaving is shitty but failing school and becoming homeless is shittier.
Before you knew it, you were top of your class. Seriously, you were a trophy student. A trophy person.
Until..
It was Saturday, and Saturday meant you studied at your favourite café.
The café you used to go to with him.
But now, it was your regular study spot. It was quite secluded and no distractions so it was perfect. Naturally, you ordered your tea and muffin and sat, staring at the words in your textbook.
The bell rang which meant someone walked into the shop. Obviously, you paid it no mind. You had to stay focused.
“Do you guys still sell cans?”
That voice. Awfully familiar.
Just concentrate on the book, you kept telling yourself.
It wouldn’t hurt to turn around and see who it was though.
So, you turned around and sipped your tea. It was some tall guy, like really tall. His shoes were muddy and his hair gelled up. And his demeanour…It all reminded you of him.
Probably some delinquent wannabe.
“Thanks.” He said as he paid and turned around only to lay his eyes on you. “Holy shit..”
You couldn’t believe your eyes.
It was Hanma.
It was your Hanma.
The Hanma that played with your hair to annoy you. And the Hanma that was too loud to take anywhere. The Hanma that would come to you after every fight so you could patch him up and so he could boast on how well he beat the other guy up.
He was in front of you.
And you were in front of him.
Everything was telling you to leave. So you did. You couldn’t go through that heartbreak again. Seeing him just triggered a million feelings that you were trying to store away. Seeing him just threw that hard work out the window.
“[Y/N], wait-” Hanma said but you were already out the door, carrying everything with you. You walked fast and you walked far. But you could hear footsteps quicken behind you.
And that’s when he grabbed your arm, stopping you.
“Are you gonna let me talk?” He asked but you didn’t want to hear it. You tried to pry your arm away but to no avail. “[Y/N], stop.”
“I need to go somewhere..”
“Literally, where? It’s nearly 5.” He scoffed. “Just let me explain-"
The words coming out of his mouth sounded careless, but what did you expect? It’s Hanma Shuji.
“Explain what? The fact that you left me without a word?!” You yelled in his face. “Shuji, I spent months crying over you. You’re not gonna just waltz back into my life like nothing happened.”
He sighed. “I’m sorry.”
“No, you’re not. You could’ve said something. Anything!” You frowned. “At least to let me know you’re alive..I mean, fuck, Shuji..I loved you. And I trusted you and you just leave.”
He could hear how your voice broke and he could see how much he hurt you. When you were most in love, he left and that would obviously leave you a wreck. He knew that.
However, he was just happy to see you again. In the flesh. He missed you so much. But he couldn’t put it into words. So he tried avoiding you but of course, he bumped into you.
Amidst all your yelling, you didn’t notice the tear that fell from his eye. And when you did, you stopped.
“You’re crying.” You say. “Why?”
“I’ve missed being around you. Seeing you. Even if you’re angry as fuck, I miss seeing your face.” He smiled. You still remained angry and desolate. “I’m sorry.”
He stepped closer.
“I’m so sorry.”
Without looking at him, you spoke. “Why did you leave?”
“I just needed a break…From this shit. I never had someone as close to me die like that. I was scared that I’d lose you too..” Shuji admitted. “I didn’t want to hurt you.”
You’d be lying if you said you still didn’t understand why he left. He was hurting, and tired. He needed a break. Not from you, but maybe from himself.
But, it didn’t matter now. Because he wad in front of you. Looking at you.
“I’m sorry, [Y/N].” He said once more, voice shaky.
Finally, you took his hand into yours with a smile. “It’s okay.”
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[I like Angst with sad endings, not happy ones🙄]
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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I want someone like him plsssssss 😫😭❤️
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a morning with rindou
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a/n: I’m just taking a quick break from requests, because I really wanted to write this for Rindou
I LOVE RIN RIN💘
word count: 1.0k
character pairing: Rindou Haitani x you (reader)
rindou might be a bit ooc
tw: cursing
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(credits for picture above to the person who colored! Unfortunately, I can’t find who did it tho)
The morning was a quite one.
The light sunlight of dawn peaked through the small crack in the curtains, and the room became warmer as it continued to rise, almost making the room more prone to sleep.
But, even then, your boyfriend, Rindou, rose with the sun as he always did.
His eyes fluttered as he adjusted to the newfound light, and slowly he began to wake up. Slowly, he came to his senses. His gaze then immediately moved towards the sleeping figure next to him, as a small, rare smile formed on his face when he made contact.
You, were still sleeping soundly. Little snores come from your mouth as you cuddled into the warmth of your bed. Your chest steadily moved in a constant, almost comforting rhythm, reassuring Rindou from any previous nightmares he had the night before.
His smile became even larger as he saw the cute expression on your face. He couldn’t help but let his hand cup your adorable face, before he finally allowed himself to move closer and cuddle you. Instinctively, your head buried deep into Rindou’s chest, as you nuzzled your nose against his bare, warm skin.
Your comforting presence always made Rindou so happy when he first woke up. After all, you were just so…soft in the mornings. You often slept with a small smile, which only became bigger when Rindou pulled held you in his arms. Your skin reflected the bright morning sun, and your beautiful {h/c} was a frizzy mess. It went all over the place; it’s ends even tickling Rindou’s bare chest.
“Mmmm” you groaned, as your own eyes slowly fluttered opened. A sour, unhappy expression formed on your face as the sun shone right into your eyes, you quickly turning away in response. It was only when you made eyes contact with Rindou’s purple eyes, that your face turned soft, once again.
Rindou, once again, smiled as he noticed your now awakened blushing form. “Good morning, Y/n”
“Moring Rin” you quietly replied, a shy smile gracing your features.
“Sleep well?”
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Here|| c.matsuno
tw: mentions of blood, death, depression, and curse words?
reader is also gender neutral!!!
pairing: chifuyu matsuno, you
word count: 2.1k+
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A peaceful night alone was just what you needed and exactly what you got. Your Mom was currently at work and your friends were out doing their own things. You could've joined them but you really didn't feel like doing anything. To be honest, you really hadn't felt like doing at all in the last couple of weeks. It didn't matter how much you slept, you were still always tired. What you found fun in the past was no longer interesting. You had truly hit an all time low.
A sigh escaped your mouth. Ever since he died, nothing had been the same. Every night you'd wish it was a bad dream that you'd wake up from, but it never was. The only you wanted was for everything to go back to to normal. You just wanted to be happy again. But to you, it seemed that you would never be happy again. After all, you lost everything that day.
'Maybe I should get up and do something. Maybe I'll take a shower...Even I'm feeling a little gross right now.' You hadn't take a shower in god knows how long, so you figured you should at least get it done now. When you were alone. When no one could hear you.
The hot water was beating down on your back as you rinsed out the shampoo that was in your hair. You could feel the tension in your body go away as you sat down on the floor of the shower. Times like these were the most relaxing for you. When you were left with yourself and your thoughts. Though, these past few weeks you've been trying to avoid exactly that. Unless your mind was occupied, you couldn't help but think back to that day. The day where your life changed.
Flashback:
You could see blood not only pouring out of the stab wound, but out of his mouth too. There was blood on the cars, on his jacket, on his clothes, there was just blood everywhere. You saw him fall on his knees and his eyes close. In that moment, everything in your mind went blank. You could hear some fuzzy yelling. You could feel yourself moving. You felt yourself beating up some random Valhalla guys. You could briefly hear someone yelling your name, but you ignored it. But before you knew it, you were standing over his body.
" Keisuke" you sobbed out. You fell on your knees next to him and pulled his weak, bloody body into your arms.
" Come on, wake up. You can't die here!!" Your chest was tightening up more and more as each moment passed. You could barely breathe from sobbing. Tears were streaming down your face and fell on his blank face. You felt like it wasn't real..... It couldn't be real.
" Y/n?" his voice whisper out.
"K-K-Keisuke?"
" Y/n! I'm so sorry!" he said as he slowly tried sitting himself up. He was being a stubborn as he always had been. You could see tears building up in the corners of his eyes. You knew this isn't what he wanted to happen. You knew he wanted to live with everyone. You knew he wanted to be happy. He deserved that all of that. But life was so cruel......and now your little brother was dying in front of you.
" I'm so sorry! I'm sorry for what I'm about to do." He said as he stood up. You couldn't understand what was going on. Why was he doing this?
" Hey, Y/n. Promise me no matter what happens you'll take care of yourself. I care for you and I want you to be happy even if I'm not here..."
" Huh? Well I mean sure, but you really shouldn't be moving! You need to lay back down! You'll be fine as long as you do that!!" You were trying your best to convince yourself that everything would be fine. Even if deep down, you knew otherwise.
A grim look appeared on his face as he turned away. "I'm really sorry" he said. Before walking away.
"MIKEY" you hear him yelled. You looked down towards the ground, only to see Mikey beating the shit out of Kazutora. You couldn't see any emotion in his eyes. He was just blank. Truth be told, you were quite scared to see him like that.
"You got mad.... Just for me? Thanks man" a smile appeared on Keisuke's face.
"You gotta stay down Baji-San!!" you heard Chifuyu yell. You had only just now noticed that the blonde was next to you.
You and Chifuyu both watched him walk down the pile of cars with blood pouring out of his wound. Chifuyu tried chasing after him, but he was too late.....
You on the other hand froze. You wanted to get up, you wanted to try and stop him, but you couldn't. Your mind was so lost and confused that you couldn't even control your body. So, you just sat there and thought.
'This can't be happening! It's impossible! He can't die! Not now, not here! This has to be some sort of bad dream. Everything that's happening right now is literally impossible!!'
" I’m not gonna die........ This wound ain't gonna kill me!!..... So don't worry about it Kazutora."
The next thing you knew you saw him pull a knife out of his pocket. Panic. Fear. Anxiety. Grief. That was all you could feel. You knew what he was doing, but you couldn't move. Not even then.
"Keisuke!!! Don't you do it!!" you screamed out as loud as you could. You tried to get yourself to stand up. You really did try to get there in time!! But it was too late.
" You... are not going to kill me..." he pulled the knife out further and then lodged it into his stomach. He had stabbed himself. Your little brother had just killed himself.
The rest is a blur for you. The moment it happed you felt yourself fall to you knees. Ringing was in your ears and all you could see was black and white, as if you were watching an old show. Everything was so blank. You had now failed to protect your little brother. You were now worthless.......
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You could feel yourself choke up. Tears were streaming down your face as clasped your hand over your mouth. You opened the shower door and grabbed a towel and sobbed into it. You could feel yourself grip onto the towel tighten more and more as sobbed harder and harder. You rarely let yourself break like this, but you couldn't help it. You just felt so broken. You just wished everything would be over. You'd couldn't help but think about what you could've done different. Maybe if you hadn't just sat there like an idiot he'd be here now. If only your brother was here....
Eventually you calmed down enough and decided to get out of the shower. The pounding headache you now had was making you want to head to bed, but you wanted to at least stay up until your Mom came home. So, you dried yourself off, got dressed, and checked your phone. The time was 9:30 p.m, which meant you had spent about an hour in the shower. As you glanced at the notifications you had, you noticed 5 messages from someone you new very well. Someone that came to visit you everyday. The one person that made you feel just a little bit happy. Chifuyu Matsuno.
                                   Idiot
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Hey Y/n, you up?
Do you mind if I come over for a bit??
I'm taking no answer as a yes!!
I'm here. If you don't mind I'm gonna use the spare key to get in.
Y/n are you okay?? I'm worried about you....
The moment you stepped out of the bathroom, you heard the tv on. From the voices you heard, you assumed he was watching Criminal Minds.
'Damn he really is here', you thought, as you were hoping that he was lying, even if you knew he wasn't.
You could feel your nerves build up as you neared the living room. The last thing you wanted was Chifuyu thinking you were weak. You were someone he looked up too and you really didn't want to seem weak in front of someone like that. You wanted him to continue to see you as someone whose strong.
As you approached the couch you saw the familiar poof of blonde hair. Originally, you thought about just not facing him at all. You could just go back to your bedroom and not face him......That was until you stepped on a piece of floor that made a loud creaking sound. You cringed at how obnoxious it was.
The blonde obviously heard you behind him and turned his head. The moment he saw you he stood up.
"Y/n-San!! I-umm are you okay?"
Chifuyu's blue-green eyes held a lot of concern. His eye brows were furrowed as he looked at you. It was as if he studying you, which he probably was.
" U-uhhh, yeah of course I'm okay! Why wouldn't I be? You chuckled nervously.
'Damn that was a really stupid thing to say'
Chifuyu obviously didn't buy it. And it certainly made you nervous as he started stepping closer and closer to you. By the time he stopped, you guys were face to face. You could feel your checks heat up at the close proximity. When suddenly, a pair of arms wrap around your waist. You felt yourself get pulled closer to his body as he squeezed your waist a bit. He lowered his lips closer to your ear.
" Y/n-San, I heard sobbing earlier..."
"Ohhhh, ummm what makes you thinking I was sobbing!! Hahaha, I was just taking a shower!!
' Ughh...That was such a obvious lie'
" Mhmm... I know you aren't as okay as you make it out to be... and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you.."
'Huh why is he apologizing?'
" .. But I'm here now. Y/n-San I know you feel like you have to hide your sadness. You don't want to seem weak right? I know you think you have to be strong for me and your Mom."
"I- uh nooo"
"Y/n-San, it's okay to be weak. It okay to cry. It's okay to rely on someone."
Your eyes widened in shock. His words were so simple, but they hit you like a truck. You could already feel the tears coming back to your eyes. You bit your mouth as you tried to hold your sobs back.
" Y/n-San I really care for you. I'm going to be here for you no matter what. I'll never leave you. So let me ask you again, Are you okay?"
You could feel yourself break. It had been so long since someone had asked you that. His words were so comforting too. You couldn't keep yourself from breaking all over again. You were just so tired.
"No!! I'm not!!! I'm sorry!! I'm so weak but I'm just so lost!! I don't know what to do!! I feel so broken!!" you sobbed out.
Your wrapped your arms around his torso and you gripped onto him as if the world was going to end. You could feel his hold tighten even more. You could smell his scent as you buried your head into the crook of his neck. You could tell you were ruining his shirt, but you didn't care. It just felt nice to have to have someone there. To have someone who will let you cry on their shoulder.
" Shhh... Don't worry. It okay. I promise you... I'm here.."
You could feel a pair of soft lips on your cheek. You couldn't help but blush at the feeling. The feeling you hadn't felt in a long time. The feeling of comfort and love.
" That's right Y/n-San! Not matter what I'll always be here. You can rely on me. I'll never leave your side. Just know that. I will always be here" he whispered
That was the first night you had gotten a good nights sleep. You felt content. You felt safe.
Because you now knew he'd always be here.
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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😫❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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♡ Nerves
pairing: Hanma/fem!reader
rating: e for everyone, fluff with a tiny bit of angst
summary : Hanma realizes he has never been kissed before
a/n: Hiii. This is my first time writing after a really long break. So I thought I would start with something short.
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Hanma’s hands were slightly shaking, his heart was beating noticeably faster than normal. And the cause of all of this? Being close to you and the thought of finally getting to feel you. Part of him was afraid you’d be disgusted or disappointed. Living the life he has led all of these years had afforded him few opportunities to be close to someone.
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Ah, can I suggest you writing headcanons of asking for a kiss from some tokrev boys (Shinichiro and Wakasa if you'd like?) they give you a kiss on the cheek but eventually won't stop peppering you with kisses while holding your face!!!
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Characters/Pairing - Shinichiro Sano, Wakasa Imaushi, Shuji Hanma x Fem!Reader Fandom - Tokyo Revengers Type - Headcanons Tags - Fluff, Kissing, Cuddling, Teasing (playful) A/n - Okay I just made myself soft for Wakasa writing his 🥺 Also added Hanma in there for wifey!
Reblogs much appreciated! ♡
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∞ Shinichiro wants something from you. So he tries to act all sweet and kiss your cheek.
∞ You look at him a bit skeptically and raise a brow
∞ He chuckles and leans in to start kissing all over your face a bit more
∞ Your giggles are music to his ears, but he never touches your lips with his. Just your cheeks, forehead, temples, everywhere BUT your lips
∞ When you ask for an "Actual kiss" he looks at you confused. "But I am kissing you~"
∞ With a roll of your eyes you point to your lips, "No. Here."
∞ Shinichiro takes the invitation and leans in to kiss you softly but just for a few fleeting seconds. So if you wanted more, you'd have to ask again or take one yourself.
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∞ You and Wakasa are cuddling when he kisses your forehead
∞ You look up at him and smile. But you didn't expect him to keep doing it.
∞ His lips pressing light kisses to your nose, your temples, your chin
∞ Soft giggles leave your throat and your hand moves up into his hair, whining his name playfully
∞ He stops to look at you before asking why you're whining
∞ "You keep missing~"
∞ Wakasa smiles at you and cups your cheek before leaning down and pressing his lips to yours
∞ Kissing you soft and passionately. Taking all the thoughts from your head and leaving you breathless
∞ "Don't think I missed that time.." he'd mumble against your lips only to kiss you more
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∞ It starts off with just a peck on the cheek, but your reaction of smiling so big to it, Shuji decide to do it a bit more
∞ With you giggling and trying to push him away (playfully) Shuji takes your face in his hands "Nuh uh, you're not going anywhere~"
∞ It makes you giggle more and roll your eyes at him, "If you're gonna kiss me then kiss me right, you ass~"
∞ The command would stop him and he'd look at you with a raised brow. Only to smirk at you and quickly press his lips to yours
∞ The kiss might start off hard, but it softens and it lasts a good bit of time. Making you dizzy even after years of being together
∞ When he pulls away he'd look at you and grin "Better~?"
∞ After you nod Shuji giggles that signature giggle and kisses you more
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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The red flag that I want to date
Shoelaces
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hanma x reader
summary: you ask hanma to tie your shoelaces at a valhalla meeting.
warnings: gang stuff. hanma threatening people
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leaning into hanmas neck, you flipped the page of your book. you were currently situated across his lap, on his “throne” at a valhalla meeting. how you ended up here, you have no idea. but you have attended enough of his meetings to know what usually goes down, and since you had no interest in involving yourself in his gang, you sat patiently waiting for him to finish what he had planned. of course, it came with a price - every time he dragged you to the arcade you would require that he buys you yakisoba from your favorite stall on the way back. but seeing that the shop wouldn’t close for quite a bit of time, you took to peacefully finishing your book, drowning out everyone else’s voices.
but something felt different. peering up slightly, you noticed that one of your shoelaces had untied, which is why your left foot felt a large difference in pressure. you looked up at hanma; he was listening quite ardently to whomever was speaking in front of him, hand smoothening down your thigh ever so often. you smirked - it was time to mess with him just a little bit.
“hanmaaa…” you sang, directing his attention to you. he looked at you immediately, and the conversation that was happening before you paused. raising his eyebrow, he asked you what you wanted. you answered simply.
removing his other arm from your waist, he lifted your feet to stand on his armrest. and quite shockingly, he obediently tied them securely. there was not a single word uttered throughout that pause - as hanma’s significant other, it was expected that everyone under him treated you with the utmost respect and care, and that meant ensuring that they don’t interrupt a single moment you both spent together without his permission.
it was interesting even to you too, especially since you had expected hanma to tie your shoelaces together and make you trip, or something like that. you assume you had made a weird face at him, because he rolled his eyes and asked you a “what??”
you giggled. “nothing,” you reacted, bringing a palm to his face and kissing him sweetly on the cheek. he deserved it. but of course that small gesture didn’t go unnoticed when he grinned all cat-like and leaned down to press a similar kiss to your own cheek. your laughs filled the open space and hanma couldn’t love it more.
“almost done, baby,” he assured, patting your head slightly and returning his hands to where they originally were. you nodded looking down once more at your book.
“and you,” he narrowed his eyes back to the person he was talking to, “hurry the fuck up before i rip out your tongue and make you do something actually worthwhile of my time.”
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a/n - yall should know by now im a sucker for villains and them being nice only to their s/o 😏
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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🥲❤️❤️❤️
Heated arguements
Hanma x fem!reader
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A/n: this gif gave me hanma vibes I had to use it 😩
Summary: you and hanma get into an argument and things get out of hand at one point.
Warnings: cursing, reader gets slapped (unintentionally), angst to fluff.
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You don't even know what your arguing about anymore. One thing led to another and now you and hanma were at each other's throats screaming at eachother, neither of you wanting to back down.
"WOULD YOU JUST FUCKIN SHUT IT ALREADY??" hanma screamed his temper was getting the best of him. "SHUT IT? HANMA IM FUCKIN TIRED OF TAKING YOUR SHIT EVERYDAY!!" you screamed back as you were tired of hanma antics for the past few days. How he would grumble at you or be irresponsible around the house leaving his things scattered leaving you no other choice than to clean it.
"WELL IF YOU THINK THAT BEING WITH ME IS SHIT THEN YOU SOULD FUCKIN LEAVE ME" "MAYBE I WILL LEAVE YOU" Silence...
Hanma stared at you a lump caught in his throat as he registered what you said. You on the other hand regretted not being able to control your words.
You covered you mouth with one hand heart aching to see how broken hanma looked by those words. "Shuji- I- I'm sorry I didn't mean it-" "get out" hanma said in a low cold voice.
"babe I'm sorry I swear I didn't mean it-" you walked closer to hanma reaching out to touch him. "Y/n just-just leave " hanma said giving you a glare that sent a chill down your spine.
"hanma please just-" the sound of hanmas' hand that had "punishment" coming in contact with your cheek stopped you mid sentence.
You slowly brought your hand up to the spot where he had slapped you which most probably left a bright red mark. You felt a sting once you touched it.
Hanma had never laid his hand on you. Until now. You started at him wide eyes as tears pricked your eyes trying your best not to cry.
Realisation hit hanma as hard as he slapped you. His eyes went wide, he didn't know what he was doing with his temper getting the best of him. And he knew that was no excuse either.
"y/n i-" you didn't give a chance for him to speak as you took your jacket and left slamming the door behind you.
Hanma held his hair in frustrating as he mentally beat himself up for letting the argument get out of control. And mostly for laying his hand on you. He never wanted to do that.
Hanma finally cooled down took his jacket and an umbrella as it began to pour. He locked the door and left knowing exactly where you would be.
Sighing you walked on the dark streets. Some of the street lights flickering as you walked under them. Soon enough it started to drizzle and pour in no time "your fuckin kidding me right now" you said looking up but you didn't give a damn that you were getting cold or that you were starting to freeze.
You walked not knowing where you could go. You didn't have friends since you only hang out with your boyfriend, the Valhalla members and kisaki.
You weren't that close to any members and you didn't wanna bother kisaki either. So you walked in the rain to where you originally planned to go.
Once you reached the familiar rusted gate you slowly opened it and walked into the abandoned park. You walked until you reached a set of swings and sat on the one hanma would usually sit in. Letting the rain soak you and mix with your tears as you cried.
You never had anyone to call your own until you met hanma. Now you were scared you had lost him, you knew you couldn't be without him. It was like you were his other half and he was yours. And the thought about leaving have you both scared.
Suddenly you didn't feel the rain drops falling on you yet it was still raining. You looked up and saw hanma silently standing holding the umbrella over the two of you.
Holding the umbrella over you hanma took a seat on the swing you would sit on. Not bothered that he was getting wet from the rain.
He didn't know how to apologise so he stayed silent thinking of his words carefully.
"babe I'm sorry. I- i-dont know what got into me and I let my anger get the best of me but that isn't an excuse for laying my hand on you like that." Hanma paused as he felt a crack in his voice. "I promise I won't do it again and you don't even have to forgive me right this moment just-" hanma stopped as he now felt tears streaming down his face. He never usually showed his vulnerable side. but he didn't care right now he didn't want to loose you.
Hanma got up and kneeled in front of you not bothered that his jeans would get dirty in the wet sand. The umbrella fell from his hand as he hugged your stomach burying his face in it. "I'm sorry baby. You- you don't have to forgive right now but please just- just don't leave me" he said as he hugged you tight not wanted to let go.
Your eyes went wide hanma wasn't a person to apologise. Especially not like this. He would usually wave you off with a small sorry. Tears fell from your eyes as you hugged him back just as tight. "I'm sorry too love i shouldn't have said that. And I should've controlled myself too I'm so sorry" you said as you played with his hair.
"guess we both fucked up huh" hanma said as both of you had now stopped crying but stayed in the same position. the rain had even stopped and the moon the only sorce of light. "Yeah, I guess we did" you said as you giggled a little as Hanma smiled hearing your laugh.
"and babe?" Hanma hummed in response "I'm not washing your jeans that's on you love" hanma opened his eyes at your statement as he realised his jeans had got from blue to dirt jeans "what the fuck?! This was my favourite pair!!" Hanma cried out as he got up dusting his jeans and cursing at the sand.
You laughed as you watch him almost crying again cursing that if the stain didn't come off he would go on a killing spree.
"alright you big baby let's go get you pants into the washing machine before it dries up" you said with a grin and the both of you ran home holding hands with hanma telling how time is everything and you need to save his jeans before it's too late.
Once you reached home hanma made a b-line to the laundry room rinsing his jeans before putting it in the machine and turning it on. He let out a sigh of relief happy he saved his jeans.
The both of you changed into your night clothes before getting into bed. You faced hanma leaning into his chest and one arm wrapped around him like he was your teddy bear while he had his arm resting on your waist with his thumb rubbing small circles.
"I love you" hanma said as he kissed the crown of your head "I love you too shuji" you said and he felt you smile against his chest which made you smile in return.
Hanma let out a sigh of content. Once he noticed the light mark that was still on your cheek his heart broke a little. Leaning down he left a soft kiss on it. Hugging your body closer to his which you didn't complain. His chin on top of your head. As sleep slowly took over him and he promised himself that he wouldn't let things get out of control again.
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Hey!! Requests are open I might be a little late on them since I have and exam on Monday and it's the last one so I'll do them after that!! Just read the rules before putting in your request thankyou!!
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ririakaashi · 3 years ago
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PREPARING – MITSUYA TAKASHI
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"So, what do you think we should go with? A traditional kinda wedding or do you want to spice it up a bit?" You ask your soon to be husband. You're preparing one of the many obstacles before the wedding, the outfits.
"We can do a traditional with a twist maybe? Let's focus on what we're planning to wear first and get that out of the way because I need time to make them." He lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding. "I want them perfect and the best pieces I've ever made."
"Kashi, you don't have to—"
"But I want to." He takes one of your hands in his and walks you both over to his sketchbook full of his designs on his desk, flipping over a pile of pages to one specific page. "I want to make something I designed for you."
"I have a lot of clothes you designed, and made."
"But our wedding is different, it's . . . our wedding. It's supposed to be a day to remember for the rest of our lives and it'll be more sentimental if I made your outfit." He looked into your eyes with gentle ones, waiting for your confirmation. His smile's tiny yet somehow pleading.
"I know but won't that burn you out, we still have a lot of things to do, and you also have other stuff to do besides wedding arrangements." You point out matter of factly. You both have cake testing, venues to look at, invitations to send out. The wedding's small, only close family and friends being invited instead of an iconic grand wedding, catering to people you don't even know or have seen in your entire life. You didn't mind the grand wedding because you thought mitsuya would like to invite some of the people he's met on his road to success, but he preferred the small one.
He likes them, don't get him wrong, but he prefers the people he considers to be his real friends and family at his wedding, not the people he's only had small conversations with about business transactions and fashion.
"Doing this will give me all the energy I need, trust me." He swings both your arms from side to side, nuzzling his head into your neck and you burst out in laughter at his childish antics. "Fine. You would have done it even if I said no." He chuckled at your truth and looked at you admiringly.
"We could start with these then." He points to his sketchbook. "There are a few designs here you can look at, and you'll let me know which one you like and best suits you, okay?" You nod enthusiastically."Okay." It's exciting. This wedding has your blood pumping. You're nervous but anticipating the day to finally arrive. 
Mitsuya walks away from you to somewhere in his office, no doubt going to work on another piece of the many he has hanging around, and you make yourself comfortable on his office chair, flipping through the numerous designs he came up with.
They're all beautiful. You don't know how you'll be able to pick just one. If only you could change the dresses as you're walking down the aisle or go back in time and experience each dress again and again, but you can't, sadly.
You sat there for an hour, an entire hour looking at his designs, and you've narrowed them down to three. As you're flipping between the three trying to decide which is best for you, you see little scribbles of writing on one of the three pages. You didn't notice those before.
Looking closer, you realise it's just a date. The date of when he completed the design. Now that you look at them closer, they all have dates—not just the three you picked, all the designs he let you choose from had dates on them, along with all the other sketches in the book.
It's not rare for artists to put dates on their pieces so you're not that surprised.
Some were finished recently, then others were finished a year ago, or years ago. The oldest design happens to be one of the three you love, and mitsuya finished it three years ago on his birthday. There are surprisingly fewer wedding designs for a span of three years. "Takashi, do you have any other wedding designs by chance or are these all of them?"
"Those are all of them. Why?" He doesn't spare you a glance as he's working on a handmade piece, something he only does in his free time since an actual project has due dates and can't be finished in time by hand.
"Well, the first one goes back to three years ago, and I just thought there would be more. You seem like you love doing them." Mitsuya walks behind you in his office chair and hovers over you, resting both his hands on your shoulder. "Why do you think so?" You shrug your shoulders. "I don't know, just a feeling."
For a moment you're both surrounded by sounds of your breathing until mitsuya breaks you both out of that bubble. "Well, the first one I made was late into the night. You were already sleeping in bed after we did all of the things you planned for me and I just had a design in mind so I drew it, fast too." He flipped the page to the second one.
"This one was on the day you first came to my office. It was unfinished for weeks but I got the boost I needed to finish when you came bouncing around, asking about everything you don't know about." He laughed at the memory, and you do too. He let you help him with a piece he was working on that day, it turned out to be life-changing in the fashion industry.
He went on telling you about the other designs and you listened. All of them were linked to you. "I made all of these specifically for you, no one else." He says, now sitting on his desk, one of your hands in his while he drags his finger along the back of your hand. "You made these for me?"
"Yep." It was definitely flattering, but the dates went back to three years ago. You both started dating four years ago. "So, what you're saying is, you've wanted to marry me since . . . three years ago?" He nods, chewing on his bottom lip but looking at you as if it's no big deal at all. "That's so cuteeee." You practically tackle him and you both fall flat on his desk. Mitsuya lets out a groan. "What?" He looks down at you who’s cuddling into his chest.
"You wanted to marry me for three years." You squeal into his chest then look up at him. "Yes, I did." 
“Mitsuya, were you like, I don't know, sent from the gods?” He chuckles, he’s flattered you think so but he doesn't think he is. “I’m not, but I'm sure I was sent to be your boyfriend—I mean, husband, and it so happens the gods gave me someone amazing.” He smiles at you and you kiss him. Short and sweet. 
“I love you.” You tell him. “I love you more.”
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this has been in my mind for a minute and I surprisingly did this really fast but hope whoever reads this likes it :>
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My standards 😍😍🥰🥰🥰
𝐯𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬
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𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
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𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: easy; Valentine's day kisses - listen to the playlist!
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: some good ass music, canon typical violence, disgusting romance, cursing, alcohol, usage of guns
𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬: Kazutora Hanemiya, Baji Keisuke, Draken, Hanma Shuji, Ran Haitani, Rindou Haitani, Shinichiro Sano, Manjiro Sano, Wakasa Imaushi, Sanzu Haruchiyo
𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬: I got hyped and made a romantic playlist because I want to fall in love and now y'all have to go through this with me. Reblogs and tags very much appreciated 👉👈
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𝐁𝐚𝐣𝐢
this isn't just puppy love, girl you really got a hold on me -me and your mama
Oh Baby, baby, baby, I kill anybody that hurt you -mckay&cassie
❥ you think he forgot valentine's day but low and behold, Baji actually had a whole day planned for you two. From dinner at the beach to a possible street fight he can win for you, he has everything covered.
❥ he's quite nervous when he picks you up on his bike, a, from the drive crumpled, flower in his hand that he puts in your hair because the stem snapped of in his pocket.
❥ the whole day is spend with you two fooling around, playfighting over food or running down the beach into the cold ocean to see who how far the other dares to go into the water
❥ Baji picks you up at one point and throws you into the water and you nearly die from a cold shock. When he doesn't see you swimming to the surface again, he jumps after you to save you. When you both are out of the cold he shakes like aleave but still insists that you take his jacket.
❥ He gets his kiss on the beach, while he tries to get you to wear his things and monologues about how he would never get sick from being a little wet. It's a simple thank you kiss but he acts like you just proposed to him.
❥ the date doesn't end when he brings you home, no, Baji wants you to meet his mother, who baked a whole heart shaped cake for you as a secret surprise. He gets another kiss at his front door and when you help him do the dishes for his mom
𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧
I'm on the back, I'm holdin' tight, I want you to take me for a ride -harleys in hawaii
You fell asleep in my car, I drove the whole time, but that's okay I'll just avoid the holes, so you sleep fine -tear in my heart
❥ Of course Draken doesn't want to go the normal date route and takes you on a small road trip, destination unclear. He wants to just drive around and talk with you, listening to music and drinking cold soda in drive-ins. Luckily he got himself a car a few months ago, it's more comfortable.
❥ The playlist he made for the ride was carefully put together with Mitsuya and his sisters so everything suits your taste. It gets a little bit too sappy at times but no one of you really cares. It's actually very cute to see him sing along wholeheartedly to old love songs
❥ While he drives you are in charge of looking up where you two should go to not end up in another country by accident. More often than he likes to admit he confuses left and right for a second and you scream in horror everytime he rotates the car in an action movie worth move.
❥ After a few hours you find a fast food drive thru and eat greasy food and drink milkshakes at the side of the road.
❥ On the way back you fall asleep and Draken snaps a few pictures, one for his lockscreen and the rest for looking at when he misses you. He drives extra careful to not wake you up.
❥ You kiss him when he parks in front of your home and awkwardly stares at you because he doesn't know if it's okay to kiss you. He doesn't let you out of the car for another ten minutes with his lips on yours
𝐇𝐚𝐧𝐦𝐚
Baby, come here I get so lonely at night -come here
I wanna be the first man you look at tonight, I wanna be stuck in your head and make you go wild -for your love
❥ Hanma, ever the gentleman, throws stones at your window movie-style to take you out on a surprise date. He accidentally hits you when you open the window at the exact moment he throws another one at
❥ It's okay for him of you were already in bed, you don't need to be pretty to commit some romantic crimes with him. He gifts you your own crowbar and off you are to break into old abandoned buildings
❥ He dances with you on the roof of an old car park - he even got candles so you don't trip and fall to your death. The music on his old phone sounds horrible but it's still perfect
❥ Spins you around until you have to hold onto him to find balance, which he uses to steal a kiss from you. Hanma thinks he's so sneaky but you can still see him blush in the dim candle light.
❥ He walks you home, that sap. You can also keep the crowbar and the pretty lighter he stole from an old guy who was too pushy, after he punched him straight into oblivion.
𝐑𝐚𝐧
I wanna touch your body, so fucking electric, I know you scared of me, you said that I'm too eccentric -I wanna be your slave
And think about you almost all the time, all the time and If I wanna see you, I drive by -met me in the pale moonlight
❥ Classic valentine's day date, he takes you out to an expensive restaurant where he pays for everything before he tells you to get on his bike to go shopping (such a Regina George move)
❥ Gets you everything you want. He wanted to buy jewelry and maybe some shoes but when he sees you all dressed up ge drags you around town to buy you everything he thinks could look good on you
❥ The romantic part isn't the dinner or when he tells you how beautiful you look in the clothes he picked out, no, it's when he asks you if you maybe want to go home with him and watch a movie after eating with him and his brother.
❥ It's such a personal setting, seeing him joke around with his brother or dotting on the stray cats that walk over the balcony where you two sit to watch the sunset.
❥ He kisses you while three cats got comfortable in your laps, purring and demanding attention when he stops petting them to lean over and capture your lips in a gentle kiss
𝐒𝐚𝐧𝐳𝐮
your love is scaring me, no one has ever cared for me as much, as you do, I need you here -scary love
When I'm alone slowdancing in the dark, don't follow me you end up in my arms -slow dancing in the dark
❥ To be honest here, Sanzu didn't really plan on doing anything for valentine's day but after seeing Kokonoi going all out for a certain someone he might have felt a little inferior. So an impro-date it is.
❥ Good thing he's a creative mind. He takes you to a shooting range. And because he wants it to be special he booked out the whole range and printed a picture of the person he knows you hate across the targets
❥ You actually have the time of your life with him showing you how to shot someone dead at first try. Only Sanzu can make killing someone romantic.
❥ Has an arm around your waist and guides you while he leans his head on your shoulder and kisses you on the cheek proudly everytime you hit the target perfectly. Wow.
❥ His own target is Takemichi by the way. You have to take him away by force when he goes a little bit off the rails and starts shooting like a maniac. Good thing you can calm him down with more kisses.
𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐨
I've been watchin' you and I've been tryna decide If I could ever remind you of what you really liked -useless
Pretty Lady you got me so weak, weak for your love -weak for your love
❥ A fool. A fool in love but still a fool. Wakasa has to help him so he has enough money to take you out, only form him to lose it on his way home. It doesn't matter though because there is nothing better than trespassing and picking flowers from his neighbours. Ruining a garden is worth your smile.
❥ Kinda didn't plan further than giving you flowers and chocolate. So you two just hang out in his room and watch old movies.
❥ He cries. Shinichiro gets more emotional with every new movie you put in and breaks down when you two watch pale flower because the characters are just so cool.
❥ Emma and Mikey come in just when he finnaly finds the courage to get closer to you and he never wanted to hurt his siblings, never, but at this moment...
❥ You kiss him. In front of his siblings who both fake gag -but he doesn't even realize it. He's to caught up in the moment and look at that, the rest of the night you make out on the couch.
𝐊𝐚𝐳𝐮𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐚
But I'll be fine, I have to set delay, Before I try to fall in love, not pain, yes I'll be fine -love 2 fast
I wanna give it to you, just to see what you'd do 'Cause I'm so drunk on you, vaby, you're all that I want, I want you all to myself -you know me too well
❥ Super nervous but tries to play it cool. He invites you to go with him to a funfair meets you there and already won you a rose to greet you with properly.
❥ This smart guy goes in for the kill right at the start and kisses you instead of a hello. Honestly, it works. He's charming like that and he knows.
❥ You walk around holding hands, he wins some more flowers and a teddy for you and you buy him food in exchange. Because it's already late you eat outside and watch the stars before he talks you into a roller coaster ride.
❥ Tries to kiss you again right before the drop and fails. You have fun while Kazutora holds onto you for his dear life and screams his heart out. You buy two copies of the photo from the ride where he looks like crying
❥ To calm him down and not fight the guy behind you who laughed at him you take him to the ferris wheel and kiss him at the top
𝐑𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐮
And her lips are like the galaxy's edge and her kiss the color of a constellation falling into place -arabella
Don't you give me up, please don't give up, honey, I belong with you, and only you, baby -dark red
❥ Rindou is the total opposite of his brother. He doesn't even think about eating when he asks you out. He's more the 'let's get drinks and pierce our ears together' guy.
❥ The Bar he wants to go to is kinda shady but the old music, candles and darts games are cozy when you ignore the two or three people who look like they want to kill you.
❥ Rindou takes on all the dudes in arm wrestling. Some are angry, some are impressed - all in all you end up making new friends and drink for free
❥ 'Piercing your ears' turns out to be a tattoo appointment. Of course he wasn't thinking about partner tattoos ( butwouldn't be opposed to thag) the artist does small ones too. He gets the first letter of your name behind his ear.
❥ The younger Haitani is shy when it comes to making the first step so the whole date is filled with many 'are we gonna kiss or nah' moments. It's his brother who screams down the balcony to please just kiss. And he does.
𝐖𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐬𝐚
I think I wanna miss you, purposely leave so I can come back to you -kiss u right now
I don't wanna leave, but I gotta go unless you show me something crazy make me lose control -Lady in the wall
❥ Wakasa goes ice skating with you. It's perfect for being active, getting closer and it's romantic too! Perfect date idea.
❥ On valentine's day the skating rink turns into a little ice disco with red lights, ballons and romantic music. He didn't know that and was a little confused when you two got in for free as a couple.
❥ Even though he definitely knows how to skate he stays close and links arms with you, hugging or circling around you a few times to tease you.
❥ While you two are spinning around in the middle of the rink a headlight finds you and cheering for him to kiss you. When you two kiss the crowd gets wild.
❥ Wakasa sleeps over that night because it got so late and makes you breakfast in the morning, still smug about the whole thing at the skating rink.
𝐌𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐲
Caught in a river of records and dreams will you keep up with me? Everyone's looking for someone to hold but I can't let you go -gimme love
I want you to know you can run right back baby, I quit the show you know my soul -sunflower
❥ Takes advantage of the day to turn it into a baking activity. Popcakes, muffins, dorayaki -he has an recipe for everything.
❥ Baking with Mikey turns out to be really fun. He is playful yet concentrated, throws some flour at you but still doesn't dare to make the kitchen counter too much of a mess
❥ He demands a kiss when you get the tray of cookies you decided successfully in the oven
❥ One kiss turns into two, three, four...you lose track of time and almost let the cookies burn. Emma saves them in time and you sheepishly offer her a few as a thank you.
❥ Your date doesn't really like that idea at first. When shinichiro joins you three and inhales the cookies like a black hole while whining about his failed valentines date even Mikey laughs.
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🥲🥰🥰🥰🥰
hanma is the kind of guy you start off having just casual sex with, no strings attached on either side
but hanma cannot help getting attached- the world is so dull that he believes that there is no permanent joy- only a thrill that needs to be chased
and one day, while he is with you, he breaks down- maybe kisaki, maybe something or someone else- but it all suddenly becomes too hard to bear
but you remain there with him- no filthy jokes, no quick remarks, no words, no nothing
just a quiet somber embrace in your warm arms, fingers brushing through messy hair you joke about being oh so terrible
and after that, things just cannot stay the same- never again. hanma has grown attached. he may not be the smartest or the strongest for that matter but for as long as he can stand, for as long as he can stay conscious for as long as he breathes- he vows to spend it with you.
am i in a tender loving mood for a change? maybe.
- 🌌
are you trying to kill me????? cw: fem!Reader, manga spoilers, mentions of death, eludes to fwb, fluff word count: 1.8k ⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯
Shuji Hanma is a paradox.
From day one he's always been this way. You knew this. You accepted this. Much like accepting the warped version of a friend's with benefits he casually dropped in your lap over a year ago.
Those late nights. Early mornings. Middle of the day. Actually Shuji basically existed in your life at any point of the day. Somehow always in it while even being gone. His idea of this arrangement wasn't classic. Wasn't exactly tactful. Wasn't a lot of things in fact. But a lot of it was exactly who he was.
You never dreamed of seeing anyone else. He never entertained the idea of another human touching his flesh if it wasn't in a fight. Both of you staring at old flip phone screens at odd hours of the day seeing each other's names light up in them. Like it mattered what a simple hook up might want. These were just hook ups. Right?
Simply thinking of the last time you'd slept with Shuji left you stumped. Had it been a few weeks? No. As you stared at him on your bed wrapped in a towel you'd used this morning. Hair hung in his face and dark circles under his eyes. You couldn't even remember the last time you slept together.
Silent in your own room. Like speaking would alert someone to his presences. The fact he was clean and safe was enough for now when you set his only other set of clothes down next to him on the bed. A top of the folded laundry rest a handful of crumpled bills.
Even looking over at your desk Shuji noticed the cash sitting a top his things, "What is this?"
"Money. For your gas."
"You just gave me some I don't-"
"You needed gas around this time last month." You shake your head refusing to have it back, "Save it then. For when you need gas."
He was pensive and quiet. Naked completely under the towel. Not the first time he was naked in your room, "....is that an acceptance letter?"
Shuji's mention caught you off guard. What he saw in your room and what you saw weren't always the same. Now though you got the idea he spotted the college headed letter on your desk well before he ever got cleaned up.
There was no reason to beat around the bush with someone you'd been sleeping with for over a year, "...Yeah. It got back quicker than I expected."
Your jaw twitched as you gritted your teeth. His back mostly to you but still you could see the corners of his eyes staring over at your desk with something behind his expression that you couldn't quiet pick.
Something between tired and lonely.
Shuji nodded slowly, "You were always pretty smart."
Quietly you sat on your bed behind him. Hands in your lap when you glanced up at the shallow dip in his shoulders. He'd yet to eat after sneaking in, "It's one of a few options. I'm weighing them out. Along with some other stuff."
If you counted right. Today marked the six month anniversary of Kisaki's death. And exactly six months since he'd really taken to running away from his trial. Without even his friend to stand it with him. Shuji would have been sentenced alone. While Kisaki sat quietly in his resting place.
Lost in thought. His voice surprised you, "You should go. Could be fun."
The bile of your decisions weighed in your throat. Things you hadn't even admitted to yourself yet. Making their way to the forefront of your lips.
"...what about you?"
"What about me?" Shuji craned around to look at you seated behind him.
"What will you do if I leave?" It was an honest question. A worry that plagued you between the hours and days that you saw him.
Shuji produced half of what his old cocky smile would be. Bags under his eyes dampening whatever arrogance he might have left, "I'm a fugitive. What are you even talking about? I'm doing this now."
The idea weighed heavy on your heart. Something that shouldn't have but much like his six five frame sinking into the foot of your mattress. His well being sunk heavy in your chest.
"Shuji...it's been six months..."
He shrugged like it didn't matter. The leopard print on his bike was no longer there. Scratched and taped over awhile ago so no one would recognize him. He hadn't styled his hair in weeks. Dark roots almost taking over the blond streak in the front. It looked like a different man in reality. Some what good for him. But still it was the same person who'd crawl though your window at night and send you pixilated memes at lunch time.
"It is what it is. Though, it's getting kinda tiring being a fugitive." Shuji admitted quietly, "Would have been better if there were two of us but...I'm just tired now."
A million and one times you'd touched the skin in front of you. Raked your nails along his back so hard that he joked about it later. Found every inch of him that made him squirm and react like a virgin all over again. You'd spent months feeling that body until you forgot where yours ended and he began. But now you worried touching him would be too much.
Aware your thoughts took you over. It was jarring when you decided to scoot closer to him. Coming beside him to realize Shuji was crying.
Globs upon globs of fat tears rolling down his pale cheeks. Gold eyes glossed over with a film he wasn't able to blink away any time soon. They followed his jaw and dripped down to the towel in his lap. As he sat there with a complacent look cast over to your desk. Where the acceptance letter sat alone.
Like it was the first time you ever touched him. The hands you reached out to him with were shaking. Just like the night you both agreed to benefit each other. Taking what was his. And Shuji taking what was yours. Ages it felt like. Now leaving you to grab him into your arms and press his wet cheek to your chest.
"Come with me." You pressed your nose into his clean hair. Still damp but it smelled like home. Because it was your shampoo after all. You held him tighter when you felt the frog creeping up into your own throat, "Come with me. Please."
Unsure of what he would do. Pull away. Joke it off. Tell you off. Shuji's reaction was uncertain just like the last year had been. And even more so with the last six months. So when his long arms snaked around your waist. Grabbing you as tight as you were holding him. You weren't ready for what came out of his mouth next.
"...who'll visit him though?" Shuji's voice, though low, almost gave way like it was wavering. His cheek smashed into your chest as he felt the corners of his mouth want to dip. Willing them to stay where they are even as the tears came forth like a broken dam, "If I leave....who'll visit Kisaki?"
The weight of death came to rest on your heart. He was dead. There was no changing that. You didn't have to like him to know Shuji got something from him that now left him more shaken than being a fugitive did. If he took your offer, it meant leaving a part of him behind.
"...well," you spoke softly above him, "Even if I send it back tomorrow. It'll take a while for things to be processed. And saving enough money for another ticket...we'd work something out with the passport. There's a bit of time before I'd leave." words hanging heavy between the two of you in the small room, "...I could go with you as much as you wanted to visit him. And maybe we could do something special once you were free. Do something tactful and technical to get you out of here. Even Kisaki would be impressed right?"
He understood the sentiment behind it. Understood deep down the feelings that weren't just for friends or benefits that he shared with you. The only other person he valued in this life that still he could see and hear and feel. Shuji felt the crush reality of it all at once.
"...They'll know because of my name." He tried to shoot it down all at once. Be it for his sake or maybe just reason and logical. Kisaki wouldn't have done anything that played in his favor and your idea didn't play in anyone's favor. But Shuji didn't understand how to think like that or plan it out. Only act. And acting right now sounded so tiring to the man.
Taking a deep breath you feel him lean into you. Like you were going to push him off after what he said. Instead you hug him tighter and stare over at the letter sitting on your desk. There's really only one thing in your head that makes sense. And your lips spill it before you're able to think it over, "...then take my last name."
Rightfully so Shuji tensed up a little under your touch.
"Take my last name. Come with me. Leave. And..." That was it. You couldn't hold it anymore. For all the tears that had spilled past his lashes. Your own broke free. Causing you to clutch him tighter as the idea of being away was worse than death, "Leave with me. Please...please don't leave me."
Shuji broke the embrace. Only to look at you nearly at eye level with how he leaned over on your bed. His eyes red and teary. Emotions you weren't familiar with hinting on his placid face. It seemed surreal to look at him like this. Even as your foolish words hung in the air.
The lump in his throat bobbed a little. When he swallowed hard and looked down at the space so close between you two on the bed. Certainly you'd both been closer. And much more naked before. But now he had such a mix Shuji wasn't sure what felt more real.
"...You're so annoying, you know that?" You crack a smile through the tears on your face. Reaching up to cup his cold face and laugh a little, "You've been annoying since day one. And yet I've never cried over you. But now, I can't seem to stop it."
His complacent stare. Your laughing tears. Shuji couldn't find the words. He was annoying because after all this he couldn't even form a coherent sentence to answer you with. All he had was actions after all. That was all he was good for.
Crashing his lips against yours. Shuji let you take him into your arms once more. Assuring the worry in his mind that this would be the last time he let you go. That nothing new to him would ever be let go. Not when it was this good.
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