rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

yup

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

I feel like shit !!!!! WOAH WHO WOULDA THUNK!!!!

I'm so fucking depressed. What do I even do rn. (Lmao common theme with me).

I feel so trapped constantly. I feel like I can't talk to her. I'm already starting to distance myself from my ONE NEW FRIEND. god. Whats wrong with me.

Idfk if she's my fp. Idk what's going on with her. I don't know where I stand with her. We haven't fully talked in like 2 weeks. I miss her. I feel awful.

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

bpd culture is

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[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

why did you leave me in read should i die so you would care uh??????

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

pinterest "jirais" make me want to throw up UGHHHH they're just so annoying

anyway here's a short compilation of stupid things i found

edit :

sorry to break it to you but you love dark girly then because the point of Jirai kei is that it IS problematic TT

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One of the worst parts about not having someone in your life anymore is being unable to send them stuff you know they'd love.

I know they'd be obsessed with this, but I cannot send it to them. :(

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

It is MY mental illness

And I'm going to romanticise the HELL out of it

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I have to go do stuff. I just feel worthless. I need her. She doesn't want me.

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BPD culture is my FP making me feel like shit every time i talk to them but i cant not talk to them bc they’re the only person i can tolerate but bc they’re the only person i like i don’t wanna make new friends bc i wont like them anymore but i’ve liked them for so long the thought of not liking them is terrifying so i’m just staying friends with them bc i feel like i have to so i am trapped in evil brain cycle hell

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She doesn't want me to cvt without her, but I want to go deep. She won't let me. I feel awful rn. I want to cover myself in them. I want to prove I can. I've done it before. I don't want to lose that.

I'm so lost.

Fuck.

[rip-me-apart-and-say-you-love-me]

and the worst part of it all? i dont think its affecting you in the slightest.

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bpd culture is why the FUCK is my fp not responding to my messages does she not fucking care? does she not fucking realise what she does to me when she ignored me like this? {she is majorly jetlagged after a 15 hour flight... yet I still end up feeling and thinking like this...}

~👉🏼㊙️👈🏼

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Lol.

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Hehe haha what do I do now!

She's going to fucking leave me. She doesn't love me. She never has. She has no interest in me. She doesn't want me. She doesn't like me. She's mine. She's all I have. She is all I need. All I live for. Ive cut myself off from everyone else. Literally what the fuck will I do. I need her. Fuckfufkfudfjfucufkufjf.

What.

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I wish it didn’t kill me so much every time she had so give anything else her attention. I already get most of it but it never feels like enough unless I’m getting all of it. It eats me up inside that there’s something worth her attention more than me.

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I feel nothing. But also everything.

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how i treat my piercings vs how i treat my sh cvts