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I AM...FLATTERED?

okay was it just me or was death from good omens kinda…….

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this is killing me. get cherried idiot

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why

WE HAVE BEEN OVER THIS BEFORE.

i know

DO YOU?

yes

my question still stands

YOU HAVE NOT BEEN REACHING OUT.

i'm reaching out right now

THIS DOES NOT COUNT AND YOU KNOW IT.

if i don't say anything then i'm fine

THAT IS NOT HOW IT WORKS. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE FINE.

yes i am

DO YOU EXPECT YOUR FRIENDS TO BE FINE?

no

THEN WHY DO YOU HOLD YOURSELF TO A HIGHER STANDARD?

i don't want to be a bother

ARE YOUR FRIENDS A BOTHER?

no

WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU ARE BOTHERING THEM, THEN?

i'm not good with grief

i think i'm doing it wrong

THERE IS NO WRONG WAY TO GRIEVE. YOU SUFFERED A GREAT LOSS, AS DID YOUR FRIENDS. IT HELPS WHEN YOU REACH OUT.

i'm just looking for pity

AND?

and i shouldn't

i should be fine

I WOULD BE CONCERNED IF YOU WERE FINE.

why is that

BECAUSE IT WOULD MEAN YOU WERE PUSHING DOWN YOUR EMOTIONS. GRIEF MEANS THERE WAS LOVE. IT MEANS THERE IS STILL LOVE. FOCUS ON THAT.

okay

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hey i'm still mad at you but completely theoretically what if i also had a job for you because you're a great uncle who cares for his family???

I AM NOT GOING TO KILL HIM.

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why

YOU KNOW WHY. THE CANCER SPREAD TOO FAR. IT WAS THEIR TIME.

but it's not fair

WOULD YOU HAVE RATHER HAD THEM BE IN PAIN?

no. i just wanted to meet them. i was almost there.

DO YOU THINK THEY WERE NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MEETING YOU JUST AS MUCH?

you're not helping with the whole "feeling selfish for grieving" thing

THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM HERE TO HELP WITH. THAT IS WHAT YOUR FRIENDS ARE FOR. I AM HERE BECAUSE YOU ARE ANGRY.

because they died! it's not fair!

I AM NOT FAIR. AND NOT EVERYONE GETS A MIRACLE.

but they were worth a miracle. they were worth however many miracles it took.

I KNOW.

i'm still mad at you

I KNOW. AND I AM SORRY.

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i hate you

I UNDERSTAND. AND I AM SORRY.

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i'm still mad at you

I KNOW.

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it's not fair

IT IS NOT.

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HE LOOKS LIKE A VERY GOOD HORSE.

imagine someone thinking of you and buying you flowers

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I DO SO MUCH PREFER WHEN SHE STARTS FIGHTS THAT I DO NOT HAVE TO CLEAN UP.

???

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YES, I WOULD SAY SO.

this is my daughter now