remyhelena

[remyhelena]

La panique. Elle s'installe sans prévenir. Elle t'enfonce ses doigts dans ta gorge avec une force herculéenne. Elle te pèse contre la poitrine comme un éléphant. Quand elle se pointe le bout de son nez et que tu la sens grandir, ton monde s'écroule soudainement. Elle m'a habitué à venir sournoisement sans prévenir. Toutefois, elle aime bien faire le contraire ces derniers temps. Me prévenir et s'allonger sur moi jusqu'à ce que je l'accueille à bras ouverts. Elle sait que je dois le faire sinon elle ne s'estompera pas. Elle augmente mes craintes quand elle me joue ce tour. Je l'aimais mieux quand elle jouait à l'araignée. Au moins, elle partait sans crier gare.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

Aurores

La nuit est tombée et elle ne se lèvera pas de sitôt. Mon esprit est à l’autre bout de l’hémisphère, plongé dans la noirceur. J’attendais les aurores boréales, mais j’ai pas l’impression qu’elles vont se montrer le bout du nez. J’avais envie de voir ces belles couleurs peindre le ciel, mais j’ai dû m’assoupir avant de les voir. Maintenant la nuit est calme, dénudée de couleurs et de sons. Même la lune n’avait pas envie de se pointer. Rien ne bouge. Même les animaux n’osent pas déranger cette étrange paix qui s’est installée. Tout est si calme ici… mais je sais que cette ambiance sera éphémère. Bientôt le soleil se lèvera et la vie reprendra son cours sans se soucier de gâcher la vie d’autrui.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

I don't know why the Universe put you on my path, but I'm glad it did.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

Loneliness came knocking at my door tonight. I did not want to open it. But she kept creeping on me. And like an uninvited guest, she came in.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

Rain

You are there to hide my tears

You wash me down from the grime

You let me live my intense feelings

Screaming, crying, pleading for them to come back to me

You motherly wrap me in your hold

You cling to me as a mother would

For her hurting children

You do not judge

You keep falling harder over me

You cleanse me from my sins

You purify me from the heartache

Slowly healing me

Unlike some

You never fail to show up when I need you

-Remy

[remyhelena]

We started this journey that life gave us together. Now there's only me.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

I used to think that you and I were endgame. I never foresaw we would be growing apart. And that nostalgia would be the only remaining of our story.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

“Two souls are sometimes created together and in love before they’re even born.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald; The Beautiful and Damned

[remyhelena]

Have you ever not known? Have you ever not noticed? How I feel about you. How I crave your warmth. How often I wish I would be the one you hold in the middle of the night. How many times I wish I were the one you kissed. Every day I wish for your love. Every day, I wish I were yours.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

You and I's path seemed so straightforward. We took every turn together as one. We saw eye-to-eye on every matter. Then, the path started to keep us on different sides, bushy bushes thickening in between us until we disappeared from each other's view.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

I crave your touch like a drunkard without its booze. I know we aren't meant to be. This story will end soon. Sooner than I expected it to be. I just want you. I just want your love. Please. Come back to me. For I will love you the way you deserve. Fiercely, devotedly, loyally. Anything you need from me I will provide. If you tell me this is our end, then I'll understand and let you go. For I once loved, love, and always will. To you.

-Remy

[remyhelena]

Devil

You're hurting me,

But I can't see it.

Your love is addictive,

And the greatest poison.

You speak your truth,

But you silence mine.

You talk your ears out,

But you shut me out.

I'm healing myself from your scars,

But you keep stabbing me with your knife

Creating new wounds

And opening the old ones

Is this your definition of love?

Or is this what I deserve for loving you?

You gained your wings,

And you slashed mines.

You are the devil in disguise

And I'm the angel who succumbed to your charm.

-Remy