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Update April 2023

For those of you who are still here and interested, thank you!

I’m sorry it’s been such a long time.  Life. Ugh. (I’m sounding like Reg now).

I’m planning on continuing the story soon and it’s exciting because if any of you were around when maraudertexts was a thing, soon it’ll be the point when this story matches up to that story. Some things will be different but the general story will be very similar.

I’m going through a rough time mentally at the moment but I have two really great best friends who I met through maraudertexts who keep me going.  I’m actually travelling to another country in a few days to see one of them and the last time I saw this friend was the day the old regulusblacksdiery was deactivated.  

So... it all feels poetic, I guess.

I love you guys, and I love Reg and this story, so can’t wait to start posting again!

:)

[regulusblacksdiery]

Hi Where can I find your fanfic on ao3?

Hi, it’s here.

Enjoy :)

[regulusblacksdiery]

Hi! I was wondering if I could print your ao3 fanfiction-the diary of regulus black. I won't sell it or anything but it would be so awesome to see one of my favorite fics in print form.

That’s fine by me, I’m honoured ☺️

[regulusblacksdiery]

Tuesday 4th May 1976

Dear Diary,

Today I hung out with Potter for a little bit!

By “hung out”, I mean I was sitting alone because Barty was in class and I was just enjoying my own company and Potter must have seen me alone and thought I could use his company and sat with me for a while.

It was really sweet, actually!  There was no teasing or animosity about the Quidditch match a few weeks ago, which I was grateful for.  It was going really well and I was having so much fun until Sirius randomly appeared and ruined it with:

“Ew, why are you hanging out with my BROTHER?”

And then Potter got up and walked off, not even saying goodbye.

Well it was nice while it lasted…

-RAB

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Wednesday 28th April 1976

Dear Diary,

I’m getting a little bit worried because lately I’ve been seeing Sirius and Remus acting like a couple in public – kissing, touching etc.

I don’t have a problem with that, but if Mother and Father find out they will go CRAZY.  I just don’t want Sirius to get into trouble.  I don’t want him to get disowned.  I don’t want him to leave me at that place all alone.  He’s the only brother I’ll ever have and if he goes, I’ll be miserable and I’ll have to deal with Mother and Father on my own.  Plus, all the pressure will come down on ME to marry and produce a worthy heir.

Ugh, it’s not fair to be worrying about this stuff at the age of FOURTEEN.

I wish I could live someone else’s life.  A life with a normal family.  I drew the short straw.

-RAB

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Friday 23rd April 1976

Dear Diary,

Today we learnt Colloportus in Charms.  That is the locking charm.  I could definitely use that one in the future for locking my bedroom door and more importantly locking my diary (you) so that Sirius doesn’t get into it. Not that I’m legally allowed to do that till I’m of age, and by that point Sirius won’t live with me.  So, pointless.

Barty messed up, as usual.  His locking charm became more of an explosion and he is now in the hospital wing.  He also put Alecto in the hospital wing with his explosion, so I’m grateful to him.  I’m not a fan of violence, but when it’s against Alecto it’s perfectly okay.

I visited Barty earlier with sweets and he was really happy to see me.  He was a little bit high on pain medication and said a few things I don’t think he’d say if he wasn’t on pain medication.  Things like:

“I wish you were my boyfriend”

“You have the best face”

“Cuddle me”

I pretended like I didn’t hear him, and he fell asleep soon afterwards so hopefully he won’t remember that.

-RAB

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Monday 19th April 1976

Dear Diary,

Sorry I left you with such miserable news last week.  I didn’t feel like telling you that we lost because of me.  My stupid feelings for stupid Potter.

Yes, I was staring at Potter scoring a goal when the Gryffindor seeker caught the snitch.

I have no other excuse.  I was preoccupied. Ugh, when did I become this sort of idiotic lovesick fool? Barty says it’s not my fault but he’s just being nice.  He thinks I can do no wrong.  He’d be correct in most cases, but in this case I really did wrong.

So Gryffindor wins the Quidditch cup this year.  Thanks to me. Well done, Regulus.

-RAB

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Thursday 15th April 1976

Dear Diary,

Slytherin lost.

-RAB

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Wednesday 14th April 1976

Dear Diary,

Tomorrow is the day.  The day I have been anticipating all year.  The day Slytherin goes up against Gryffindor in Quidditch.  More importantly, the day I face Potter.

Barty has been giving me pep talks and his main bit of advice was to “not focus on Potter, he might be hot but we better not lose because of that”.  And honestly, he’s right.  Potter is a fine specimen of man, but I won’t let that stop me from playing to my full potential.  I’ll make Potter stare at ME.  I’LL be the hot one.

So wish me luck for tomorrow, it’s going to be the match of a lifetime!

-RAB

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Wednesday 7th April 1976

Dear Diary,

What did I say in my last entry?  That I didn’t think Barty’s relationship would last…

Well, it ended.  They were together for A DAY!

He’s crying right now so I’m going to get him some comfort food from the kitchens and help him through his “heartbreak”.

I’m such a good friend.

-RAB

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Tuesday 6th April 1976

Dear Diary,

Barty has got another girlfriend.  This time she’s a fifth year Slytherin.  Her name is Maya.  She’s pretty but bears no resemblance to me so I have no idea if she’s just a distraction from me…

You’d think he’d go for people who look similar to me if I’m his type?  Anyway I don’t think this relationship will last more than a few days because she’s already acting entitled and telling him he has to keep their relationship a secret like she’s embarrassed to be with him.  Barty, as usual, is infatuated.  He thinks she’s the best thing in the entire world.  I feel like reminding him that he’s felt that way about every single crush he’s had and they’ve all lasted less than a week and then he forgets about them.

Is it weird I feel kind of flattered that I’m the only person he’s had a crush on that’s lasted through all of this?

-RAB

[regulusblacksdiery]

Friday 2nd April 1976

Dear Diary,

Today Professor Slughorn had a chat with all of the fourth year Slytherins about our OWLs next year, informing us that we really needed to buckle down and start thinking seriously about our futures.  I was annoyed because he was acting like all of us were imbeciles who mess around in class and don’t take school seriously.

I take school every seriously, thank you very much.  

It isn’t my fault that my peers are stupid and have no care for their futures.  I wish I wouldn’t get banded with the rest of them and I wish I’d get appreciated for all of my hard work.

Ugh.

-RAB

[regulusblacksdiery]

Saturday 27th March 1976

Dear Diary,

I just got back from Potter’s birthday party and… well, it was interesting.

Me and Barty wore the most red items of clothing we could find in hopes we would blend in with all the Gryffindors, but everyone knew we were Slytherins so I don’t know why I thought that would work.  Some Gryffindors gave us dirty looks.  I glared back.

I gave Potter my gift and had to say it was from Barty too because he didn’t have time to buy a gift.  Watching Barty and Potter interact was funny for me because I could see that Barty was clearly intimidated and also jealous, but he covered it up well by acting his normal awkward self.  

(He spent most of the evening curled up by the fireplace in a blanket sipping butterbeer and watching me from afar.  It was cute, actually.)

I admit I got a little jealous when Evans came down to the common room later in the evening to scold Potter for throwing a party that was so loud, and then Potter started getting flirty back. Ugh, not what I wanted to see.

Sirius and Remus kissed.  A lot.  I love them, but not enough to want to see THAT.

A first year fell over and broke his leg. He had to be rushed to the hospital wing.  Then Professor McGonagall came to see what was going on and everyone rushed to their dormitories leaving just me and Barty in the common room standing awkwardly.

She sent us to answer to Professor Slughorn, but we didn’t tell whose party it was.  I’m sure she knows it was Potter.  It’s always Potter.

Anyway, Slughorn didn’t seem to care and just told us to get to bed because it’s late.  In my opinion, I think we interrupted his Saturday night drinking session with Professor Flitwick, who looked a little drunk.  We got away lightly.

Overall, a fun night!

-RAB

[regulusblacksdiery]

Friday 26th March 1976

Dear Diary,

Tomorrow is Potter’s birthday and apparently he’s throwing a party in the Gryffindor common room like Sirius did for his sixteenth birthday.

Surprisingly, I have been invited!!  I’m grinning like a fool. Ugh, embarrassing.  I don’t know if it was Potter’s idea, Sirius’s idea, or Remus’s idea to invite me, but I’m flattered nonetheless.  I asked if I could bring Barty too, because I don’t want to be the only Slytherin there, and Potter said he could join too!

So Barty and I are going to the Gryffindor common room for the first time tomorrow! I’m excited but apprehensive because I’m sure there will be alcohol and I don’t want trouble.

-RAB

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Sunday 21st March 1976

Dear Diary,

I’m having a bad day.  It’s not even midday and I’m writing in you because I’m angry and need to vent.

I saw Potter and Evans “chatting” by the Black Lake this morning and she was SMILING.  She never ever smiles when talking to Potter.  Maybe she’s starting to like him back?  If so, then kill me now.  I stand no chance.  I don’t know if I’d be able to bear seeing them together as a couple if they every got together.  Let’s hope she’s smart and realises that he’s an idiot and isn’t worth the hassle.

I felt like walking up to Potter and asking to speak to him about some irrelevant thing just to end their conversation, but I realised that was petty so now I’m telling you. UGH.

I WOULD talk to Barty about this, but I don’t like talking about my Potter-Feelings to him because I don’t want to hurt HIS feelings.

WHY IS LIFE SO COMPLICATED, DIARY!?

Take me back to the days when I was young and innocent and didn’t have feelings for anyone romantically.

-RAB

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Thursday 18th March 1976

Dear Diary,

Today was the Quidditch match between Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw.  Surprisingly, Hufflepuff won.  It won’t make a difference to the scoreboard though, because we are in tied first place currently with Gryffindor and the final match of the year will decide the winner…

Me vs Potter

I can’t wait.

Speaking of Potter, it’s his birthday soon.  He’s going to be sixteen.  Feels a little bit wrong to be in love with a sixteen year old, but he’s really not that much older than me.  When I was in Hogsmeade the other day I bought a gift box of assorted nuts for him, plus some Quidditch trading cards.  I will give them to him for his birthday.  I hope it doesn’t seem too out of the blue.  We’re kind of friends… in a very strange way.

-RAB

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Saturday 13th March 1976

Dear Diary,

Today was an interesting day.  It was a Hogsmeade day, so I assumed I’d spend all day with Barty as usual walking around and browsing the shops, but at breakfast I was approached by Lupin and a reluctant Sirius.  They invited me to spend the day with the two of them in the Hog’s Head. They (I think it was Lupin’s idea rather than Sirius’s) felt that I should get to know Lupin since one day I could be his brother-in-law.

I gladly accepted their offer, trying not to think about when I walked in on them doing unspeakable things recently.  I told Barty I was sorry that I couldn’t spend the day with him, and he ended up just staying at Hogwarts all day.  I think he slept all day.  Lazy.

Anyway the time I spent with Sirius and Lupin was actually pleasant.  You know what, I’m going to call him Remus from now on.  He’s Sirius’s boyfriend and he gets to be on a first name basis because I highly approve of him.  He is very smart and I can have real intellectual conversations with him. Remus and I got into a very intense discussion about house elf rights and Sirius tried to contribute but he was completely out of his element.  I think he was a little jealous that I could have deep conversations with his boyfriend. Shame, Sirius.  Get a few more brain cells then.

I really like Remus and I think he’s good for Sirius. I’m so happy they’re together. 

(Mainly I’m happy Sirius didn’t go for Potter, because IMAGINE!)

-RAB