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Happiness is within you

This took me 26 years to realize

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Perfection only stops pursuit… so be you flaws and all

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It’s like I was put here to change the lives of others

Forever taking on their problems

Pain Fear Addictions Hopes Dreams Demons Generational curses Trauma etc.

And when they’re ready to stand on their own and fight

they go ….

And I’m left all alone

Smiling with watery eyes

The process is so painful …

At least I know I helped

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Prone to chaos and loss

Forever stuck in the fire but immune to the results of prolonged exposure to it ……

Forever recovering from what should be life ending

Forced to constantly pick myself back up and put the pieces back together

The scars will always be visible

I one day hope to turn this curse into a gift

The curse of a unbreakable soul the soul of a fighter

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I can’t escape it

Madness at every corner

If not every day then every other

Not matter where i go

Unyielding and unrelenting just as I am

As always I will stand in fight with restless eyes

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I was scared all my life

I did everything everyone wanted of me

Everything wasn’t enough

I was scared to let my anchors down

When I let my anchors go I realized everything was so much more lighter

I was free from that weight and burden

I could breathe freely and it scared me more because now I have to figure out what I wanted

I had never learned to do for me

I could fly as high as I wanted but to where

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Original

Trust in you

Have you ever failed you

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Before I lay myself to sleep

I pray to you my soul to keep

I hope it’s not too late for me.

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Life moves on

And so should you

It’s okay to return to those places where you felt

But don’t stay forever

They want to see you grow from a far

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I’m not good at saying goodbyes

I really mean it when I say I will always be here for you

No matter the distance

The time that’s past

I leave my heart with all no matter the cost

Forever connected and grateful we’ve met

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I hope you make a decision when the time comes.

Keep me aware.

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All this love in my heart

For free

They choose to steal it every time though

I just replace it and smile because I know they needed it

But couldn’t ask

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You left me here all alone

This hurt but I survived

Got stronger

More detached but stronger

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Let me rest here

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As I sit awake

Alone

In a home full of people

I find myself sad

Wishing I had someone who would share this curse

Insomnia

I’m sorry I’m selfish

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I want to be there

In the sky

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Through it all

The pain

The lies

The broken promises

The abuse

The envy

The hate

The sideways looks

The constant rejection from this world

The struggle to survive.

I will always have love for you.

I can’t change that.