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It's hard for Jun to recover from a cold when THE LITERAL ICE WALL is always next to her.

(also, yeah, i'm having a cold with the nonstop coughing and runny nose, i'm in agony)

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A Match?

Bi-Han x Ariem (OC) comm for @jojodawson thank you for commissioning me! 💕

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Lethal.

OC comm for @/RazorKindZero on X. thank you for commissioning me! 💕

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Happy birthday @fishiiwasdrawing 🥳💕

May you always be happy and joyful, and may all your wishes come true! Thank you for always being so positive and cheerful, for being your amazing self!

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Study.

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Aurora Storms, OC comm for @redtherogue0117 Thank you for commissioning me 💕

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"Because you're a hard soul to save,

With an ocean in the way."

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Another batch of MK art pieces. The top pic i have been delaying for months so i wanted to finish it before moving to other things

2nd pic is a JunXBiHan gift art i made for @redara 's birthday! ❤️ pictured here is Bi Han laying with their OC Jun Tenshikiri, ty so much for being my friend ❤️ (and listening to me ramble on about my sad fics like a ted talk😭😂😂)

Last pic is a rain rough sketch i made for studying lighting

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OH MY GODDD AAAHH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE GIFT FISHIII 😭😭💕💕💕💕💕

(ngl this gives me the angst idea of them being separated as souls, and they spend an eternity to be reunited again, and finally they meet, and THIS IS BEAUTIFUL I'M CRYING AGAIN)

"You know where to find me!"

"And I know where to look..."

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Saibot is happy to be included :3

@redara I need someone to draw a Boop Saiboop and a Boop-Zero booping it out.

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Deliverance.

Bi-Han x Jun (OC). Inspired by The Kiss of The Sphinx painting by Franz von Stuck (1895).

Ref below the cut. Thank you for the inspiration, Mawwy :3

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Manly man and his manly tank.

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Some life rant, so please excuse me if it sounds like i'm complaining. Trust me, i am grateful for everything this year, and excited for the year to come.

It's just... seasonal depresso happens. The last few months i've been overworking myself because i'm having trauma related insomnia, and i thought "hey i should just use the free time to draw and write". Turns out drawing drowns out the noises and it's been therapeutic. But drawing every day while keeping another job is tiring.

So, backstory, i have a veeery low chance of pregnancy. Last year i found out i was pregnant, and it was life changing. Hubby and i were excited, we planned for the future, the whole deal. Unfortunately, we had to terminate the pregnancy; there was no heartbeat.

To keep myself from spiralling, i kept myself busy with the fandom, specifically Mortal Kombat. I joined discord, found new friends, found joy from drawing and writing and reading the hcs and fanfics, replayed the old games again with Hubby, i had the opportunity to grow, to laugh, to be happy. I told myself to always see the positive; there is always ease after a hardship.

Last month, i had a pregnancy scare. I thought i was pregnant but the tests said "nope". And that false hope just sucks all the energy out of me.

Adding on top of that, the depresso makes me question everything in the bad way.

"why me?", "what did i do?", "where are my friends?", "does nobody care about me?", "they hate me, huh?", "of course they do", "i'm a nobody, just a grumpy old lady", "why do i bother making stuff?", etc, etc, etc.

So... yeah... It's a bit hard staying positive right now. I'm saying this not because i'm looking for pity, but because i wanna clear some stuff up; my mind is telling me there are people who hate and spin lies about me -- if there are any, i won't be surprised, but i just want to put my thoughts out; i haven't had the chance to properly vent/rant. Right now, i'm taking small steps to recover.

To everyone who has read this, and to those who know my struggle, thank you. I'm glad our paths have crossed. I hope happiness will always find you 💕

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Saw ur post, whatever ur goin thru, pls take care :((

Thank you, Fishii 💕

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Sorry, due to irl stuff, i'm gonna close my comm possibly until November.

See you (hopefully) 💕

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☆ put this star into the inbox of your favorite blogs - it's time to spread positivity !

MERRYYYY 🤗🤗🤗💕💕💕💕💕

Thank you dear! I miss you so much! I hope you have a wonderful day 💕

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An unexpected guest in Shirai Ryu