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Its not a choice

Reblog if you think having depression and anxiety is valid.

I have a point to prove. For everyone that reblogs this, your URL will be written in a notebook and given to my psychology teacher, who believes that depression is a choice. You have until June 1, 2016.

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“WARNING - Before you make that first cut remember: You will enjoy this. You will find the blood and pain release addictive. Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren’t deep and will heal easily, they will get deeper. They will scar. They will take sometimes months to heal. And years for the scars to fade. If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body, think again; it will spread when you run out of skin. “Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live, you will find yourself lying to the people you love. You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison. You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched. Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don’t know how bad it will be. Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100. “Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting, cutting and covering up cutting. And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep.” And you freak out because the blood won’t stop, and you are gaping, and you feel yourself shaking all over. You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can’t tell anyone. So you sit there alone, praying it will be ok swearing you’ll never let it go this far again. But you will, and further. “Don’t worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER. And the better you get at treating your cuts, the deeper they get. You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find yourself spending 20, 30 or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy. You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat every time you go to the counter to ring up your order. Butterfly strips, 3 or four different kinds of dressings, Betadine, antibiotic cream, medical tape, scar reducers. You will tap your foot impatiently, hoping the line will just move and no one will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things. And at the same time, secretly hope someone will notice; someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies; someone who understands but of course that never happens. "Medical supplies won’t be the only thing you spend all your money on. Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe; long-sleeve shirts in summer colours, bracelets, wristbands , boots, gloves, the list goes on and on. You will start looking at everyone in a different way, scanning their bodies for any signs of SI just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don’t feel so terribly alone. You won’t even think about it as your eyes scan their wrists arms, hoping, just hoping, they will be like you. But they are not. You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone. You will start doing a lot of things alone. "You will always have to wash your laundry in private so know one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels. You will always be cleaning up the blood, scrubbing your bathroom floor, wiping the blood off your keyboard. You won’t be able to make it through a day without cutting. "Next thing you know, you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies. When you get really desperate anything will be a cutting tool; scissors, a car key, a needle, a paperclip, even a pen. Doesn’t matter what it is if you need to cut badly enough, you will find something. "Say goodbye to things you took for granted. Like wearing shorts or sandals, pedicures, sleeveless tops. A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you. Get ready to itch. Because you will itch and itch, "so much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.” You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully. You will dream about cutting, you will dream about being exposed. It will haunt you day and night and take over your life. You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely HATE cutting at the same time you love it and can not live with out it…“

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Idk

Tumblr is filled with randomness... Just like all tumblr rooms. They're like never ending DIY projects.

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When you’re mentally ill, people tell you to do your best, but when you start to get better, their expectations rise and suddenly you have to be amazing at everything

Life (via suicidescallingme)

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You need a private talk? Just message me(send me an ask) !:)

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Depression

Have you ever noticed that when you have to deal with depression you feel like nobody understands  and that you can’t have a relationship because nobody understands what you’re going thru and you can’t date someone with depression because it just causes more sadness

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I feel like this is how all counseling goes with teens

Recovering isn’t easy, but it’s possible.

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THAT AWKWARD LESBIAN MOMENT

when your best friend asks you to give her boyfriend sex tips :/ 

(submitted by paranormal-funtivity)

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reblog if ur gay and u don't go to bed on time

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Fuck This Shit

When you’re in love with your best friends sister.... Lol fuck it!

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March 1st

March 1st is self harm awareness day. Repost if you or someone you know is struggling with self harm or has in the past. Also, if you are struggling with self harm try doing the butterfly project. I will post the rules for that later.

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"Cause sometimes, you just feel tired. Feel weak. And when you feel weak, you feel like you just wanna give up. But you gotta search within you. You gotta fine that inner strength, and just pull that shit out of you. And get the motivation to not give up and not be a quitter. No matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse."

Eminem