reallifeidiot

[reallifeidiot]

Once in a world of magic and myths, 2 people from opposite sides fell in love. She was from the righteous light, a knight. The other was from the darkest secrets, an assassin.

After several years they went their separate ways, the knight true to the calling left and gave reasons. The assassin continued to walk the depths of the shadows watching over her from afar, until he succumb to the light.

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Scenario

That kind and soft voice still echoes in my head. That sweet smile imprinted in my head now makes me cry. How can these fond memories now make my chest hurt. Some how I cannot escape this world where I might end forever.

I always pass by the place where we stand in the crowd, I still remember the smell of your hair As I hug you and we are embraced by the sweet songs. That was the time I regret not telling you I don't want to let go, but I am not to decide alone.

After that tragedy, I endlessly wander Met many but still unhappy Decades had passed and still I remember The sweet days that did not last forever

Things had settled and I feel secured But a sudden scenario triggered it The once forgotten past is once again hurting me Until the day I feel calmed, I will long again again for that same memories.

あの優しくて優しい声が今でも頭の中に響きます。 あの優しい笑顔が頭に焼き付いて、今では泣けてきます。 この懐かしい思い出が今になってどうして胸が痛むことでしょう。 なんだか、永遠に終わってしまうかもしれないこの世界から逃れることができないのです。

いつも人混みの中で私たちが立っている場所を通り過ぎるのですが、 あなたの髪の匂いを今でも覚えています あなたを抱きしめると、私たちは甘い歌に包まれます。 言わなかったことを後悔した瞬間だった 手放したくないけど、一人で決めるわけにはいかない。

あの悲劇のあと 果てしなくさまよう たくさん会ったけどまだ不幸だった 何十年も経ちましたが、今でも覚えています 永遠には続かなかった甘い日々

事態は落ち着き、安心しました しかし、突然のシナリオがそれを引き起こした 忘れてしまった過去がまた私を傷つける 落ち着くその日までまた憧れます 同じ思い出のためにもう一度。

Ano yasashikute yasashī koe ga ima demo atama no naka ni hibikimasu. Ano yasashī egao ga atama ni yakitsuite, ima dewa nakete kimasu. Kono natsukashī omoide ga ima ni natte dōshite munegaitamu kotodeshou. Nandaka, eien ni owatte shimau kamo shirenai kono sekai kara nogareru koto ga dekinai nodesu.

Itsumo hitogomi no naka de watashitachi ga tatte iru basho o tōrisugiru nodesuga, anata no kami no nioi o ima demo oboete imasu anata o dakishimeru to, watashitachi wa amai uta ni tsutsuma remasu. Iwanakatta koto o kōkaishita shunkandatta tebanashitakunaikedo, hitori de kimeru wake ni wa ikanai.

Ano higeki no ato hateshinaku samayō takusan attakedo mada fukōdatta nanjūnen mo tachimashitaga, ima demo oboete imasu eien ni wa tsudzukanakatta amai hibi

Jitai wa ochitsuki, anshin shimashita shikashi, totsuzen no shinario ga sore o hikiokoshita wasurete shimatta kako ga mata watashi o kizutsukeru ochitsuku sonohi made mata akogaremasu onaji omoide no tame ni mōichido.

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ViViD -  Memories in White

Under the wintry sky I just serched for the memories with you Touched you with fingertips The certain warmth was only a clue

Memories in white Only now for a little while Memories in white I want to walk without looking up...

"I love you forever" I can’t say it to you anymore I wish you are smiling somewhere at least Closed my eyes gently to forget sorrow

Tears will disappear someday like fallen snow The smell of spring is coming soon in this town

Memories in white Closed coldly Memories in white Goodby to happiness

"I'll never forget" Can't reach you anymore Please watch over me somewhere in this sky On a new morning snow melts little by little

I"ll never forget the days you give me a lot of happiness Actually I want to see you soon but you will scold me Someday I"ll go over there I believe we can meet again then I"ll never forget

"I love you forever" I can’t say it to you anymore I wish you are smiling somewhere at least I look up just a little to forget sorrow

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Alaala

Ako'y iyong pakawalan sa tanikala, tanikalang gumagapos sa aking diwa Diwang hindi makaalis sa nakaraan, na may mapait na naranasan. Datapwat sa iyong paglisan kasama na dapat ang damdamin Ngunit hindi lumiban sa isang kadahilanan. Ika'y ayaw pakawalan, kaya ngaun ang aking kalooban ay nasakluban ng kalungkutan. Rehas ng kahapon, paulit ulit, nangungulit sa isipang laging gising Ngunit laging nananaginip na ika'y babalik sa aking piling.

Minsan nang naisipan, na ang mundo ay malisan, upang ika'y kalimutan. Akin nang ibabalik ang iyong mga iniwa

Dahil mabigat dalhin ang mga masasayang alaalang nagtatapos lamang sa kalungkutan. 

[reallifeidiot]

Yin Yang (Nephilim)

Don't wait for a future others decide, Those feelings will never coincide. You will never know until you try. Do it now, take it all for yourself. Cause the help you seek comes from ones self. From the light but conceived by darkness. You can't change it, cannot ever deny it. Never understood, different from everyone. You take all those weight on your own. Secluded from harsh reality, living in fear. You don't know where to turn cause your all alone. Never fear those who doesn't understand. Ignore those whom you can't stand. Those wings are not for you to hide. You carry the balance Even though for you it is at distance. Spread those embracing the horizon, Seeing the dusk and dawn of eternity. You seeking the true serenity. You don't hate those who condemned you. You just don't want them to sin further. Never you've ever felt those emotions. All those never ending confusions. You once held your hand up Trying to reach the moon and the stars. Don't forget those.

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Our Own Train

With a pack we can go away Waiting for your price today I heard something hard happened today Let’s go Can’t take a time What are you waiting for? Have you forgot anything important? Is there nothing you’ve blamed and run away from? We feel like that Joy and pain are the spices of life we live for Yes, try to try, keep moving on I have to, I can’t see the light Losing everything really makes you focus only on painful experiences Just hold on tight, it can be all right We take it back, get it back My past self becomes the basis for my present self So I return to escaping from reality It’s wasting time for your blaming yourself Are you ready now? We are ready now for tonight Can’t give it up You’re the only one The one thing you can believe in What can be sacrificed by not giving your all Yes, try to try, keep moving on I have to, I can’t see the light Losing everything really makes you focus only on painful experiences Just hold on tight, it can be all right We take it back, get it back My past self becomes the basis for my present self So I return to escaping from reality It’s wasting time for your blaming yourself Are you ready now? We are ready now for tonight Don’t you take your times to blame yourself? Times you’re taking back are times I’m taking back I can do anything 24 hours a day Are you ready now? We’ve got nothing to be taken! At the end of it all, because I wasn’t allowed to say “The past was like this! So the future will be too!” Pointlessly disliking everything like that Thinking more than, “Whatever, I’ll die this way” Because I foolishly live on Check it out, notice how I’m still singing today Just hold on tight, it can be all right We take it back, get it back My past self becomes the basis for my present self So I return to escaping from reality It’s wasting time for your blaming yourself Are you ready now? We are ready now for tonight

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Kagerou

I wander around unable to convey My feelings for you that sparkle in my thoughts When realization hit me, I stood here Feelings I had no intention of embracing in my hand Could I see my affection if I tried to rewind? I wonder if it’ll stay if I fast-forwarded “Yeah, right,” I try to say with a laugh But even my smile’s strained My feelings for you sparkle in my thoughts I can’t be honest with myself yet Even though I’ve realized the truth My body’s throbbing with the words I can’t get out I’ll fade away if I’m too aware Why does that seem so lonely? Why do my words spilling out with a “whatever” attitude Make them colder than usual? My feelings for you sparkle in my thoughts I can’t be honest with myself yet Even though I’ve realized the truth I’m still just here with the words I can’t get out Maybe I was nonchalant, but you’re the only one my eyes were chasing When I think about it, I might have already fallen for you How far away did I hide my true self the day I decided to meet you? When I think how much being hated scared me, I was in love

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You&Me

We know life is hard and unfair. But hold on until you reach the point That the pain you hold will not Bother you or hinder you. But will mature you. Never doubt what's inside Instead let it linger until you know Those glitters that's inside Means a lot and not just broken pieces Of your lonely heart. Those are pieces of you That you can gather and put together. And one by one it will create A beautiful picture of yourself. And then think. What will I be if I am not myself? Could I be someone else That you will see, I think not. At the least I still have my own. I'll start on what I have. A little seed called hope Struggle will be part of it. And then happiness will come after it.   I will open a path Until a chance is created. Which I will never regret. After the picture has neen put And a frame is ready to be set. Maybe include someone That makes you complete and happy. Then title it YOU&ME.

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Eternal Melody (My Heart's Rhythm)

Many times over and over, I just can't get over. How I wish I could just runaway maybe fly away. Leaving these feelings behind,  so no one can find. These memories and tears, that can't fade through the years. My heart sings this song, I wish I can play along. But I can only hear faint whispering, I am wondering. That I could say I don't want you to go away. Come back again to see your smile again. This feeling is like dusk,  just like sadness. Please do not ask it will may turn in to madness. Maybe I am asking to much, to ask things like such. I always feel something is missing, it's you darling. I cannot get away from the past, even though it happened so fast. What is reality, just a mix of insanity. Without proper tune and harmony. What is my purpose without you as my focus. I think it's worthless to live a life that is hopeless. I wrote these with tears flowing,  love for you still growing. Thinking this will be last song my heart will sing. I bid you farewell, always be well. I love you and only you, sayonara aishiteiru.

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Shift

I don't know, know how. Did not really think this will, this will happen that I'd stay still. Never was able to forget things never got this before. That smile I rarely see, that voice I don't everyday hear. will be right here beside me. The night changed to day , the desert got filled with life. just like a sudden hype. Baby, I wish even though it's just a maybe you will be the same. The wild me you've just tame. And i know the reasons are so lame. I change my gears when I'm with you, and I don't know why. I will open up and show all, coz to you I won't lie. Maybe there something that hit me while running. And notice something, something different. And I wish this to be permanent. You've made the gears of my time moving again. Hoping this will be forever so I can't get stuck again. In the cage called never once more, seeing the light no more.

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Words

I've heard enough of your sweet words. I've felt enough of this discord. I cannot feel it anymore, I can see it no more. The reality you've provided, were I was once secluded. You said it was fine , no it was not . All you said before are lies. I don't know what happened, it was all so sudden. You changing, the sadness almost never ending. Someone grab my hand and pull me out of this misery. All to me what happened is still a mistery. I don't know what to believe, and who to seek. All this feeling inside, doesn't coincide. With the reality which turns into misery. All those days were just a dream, just a fucking dream. I was shattered into pieces, soul doesn't only contain bruises. I was stabbed, I was burned, I was imprisoned by your words. Words which I took as real, but in turn created wounds that may never heal. I think I will never be the same towards you. I don't know If what I feel is hate and shame. Because of your fucking game. Someone help me, I cannot see anymore. I got blinded, I got deaf. I cannot turn back the time, all I can do is whine. Never ending darkness, never ending pain. All because of your words, which you never kept. All are lies, all are just fake. I don't know if I anymore I can take. I wish this is just a dream which is I am about to wake.

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Sora

I was looking at the sunset, thinking of how we used to be. You and me smiling and laughing together. It is still very clear in my head, the times before our love was dead. We as one, all of those times are gone now. My sins cannot be undone, you are gone now. How can I make that mistake, I still have it me. That flame that we thought has gone cold. All I do is look at the sky and I can see your smile. All I do is think about you and I'll be fine. All I want to be is with you, because I still love you. All I need is you and to be forgiven by you. It was a long time since we last saw each other. Still like yesterday since we parted ways. I cannot really remember the count of days, Since that day we said our goodbye. I am sorry everything was my fault. I was not good enough, saying sorry and writing this song is not enough. To ask forgiveness and get you back. I know you are fine, but I am still wishing and waiting you'll comeback someday. Still looking at the sky everyday, when you come back..... I am praying when will it come, ...... that day.

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Hana

Just like yesterday, I still look at your picture. Maybe I have't moved on, from the heartache when we went our separate ways. You who stayed with me when I am alone and down. You who always make my darkest day go bright. I thank you for memories, I thank you for the love. I wish those moments never end. I hope we can be together again. I regret my action which made you walk away. This love stayed still inside my heart, Like a melody that keeps playing even when you are sleeping. Like drops of water filling in the cracks in my broken heart. And I hope that it will heal it. Your voice calms my unsettling feeling. Your hands removed my cold feeling. Your kiss makes my heart warm. Your arms gives me security.

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The Same

I don't know what to do I feel exhausted, I feel burned out. Like a candle being eaten by darkness. My heart feels such pain and loneliness. I don't know who I am. I can't seem to find the me who smiles. I can't seem to know the me who cares. I can't pickup myself from these pit of pain. I don't know If I'll ever be the same.

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Reach You

I don't regret my actions nor my feelings. I don't hate you but instead keeps loving you. I just don't like the way you treat me. Like a thing that when you had enough you just throw away. You said it is your problem, I did not mind. Maybe it just hurts so much that I can't contain all these In this fragile heart of mine. I am ready to blow, I'm so much pissed. Remember I don't hate you but I just hate this feeling. I don't want to be angry with you but only on what you've done. If these feelings are just to shallow. Maybe others will say that it's too hollow. I can just forget what happened and just go on. I hope this can reach you. I hope I can say this but I know I can't. But truthfully I want to say this. I think I've really fallen in love again. Not with others but with you.

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Regret

I keep myself being silent, Even being hurt, still resilient. connect the dots and see a picture, a picture of my heart being torn apart. Letting you see a smile and making you believe. Everything is fine even though I'm grief. Let go and release to set myself at ease, Then what will be the consequence? Sacrifice the peace? Then never to hear that voice, because of the choice. And always look back, even though I can't get you back. Those memories of happines, got replaced by sadness. I won't ever see the ending credits, And the epilogue with full of merits. So it's better to fake it. Life is so easy they say, just make the right choices And then everything will be ok. What if there are only two options, and everything's full of emotions. It's either you suck it up, or worst mess it up. The ending story is simple and clear. I know no one ever wants to hear. It's either one of us, who gets it. if it's you then I,myself will forfeit it.