raspberrylovc

[raspberrylovc]

i have two drafts rn butttt idk which one to finish and post first soooo

or i can write something completely different (both options have more of an angst theme so it i do smth diff it’ll be a fluff plot)

[raspberrylovc]

HALF RETURN - jj maybank !

-- you cant seem to get over jj's death, seeing him everywhere you went and seeking comfort.

word count 621

!!' sad!reader dead!jj

warnings mentions of death (lmk if i need to add any)

notes i havent watched s4 yet, so this may be inaccurate

YOU WALK right past the chateau, subconsciously holding your breath as you do so. you couldnt bring yourself to actually look at it, knowing youd probably break down into tears if you did.

but you practically freeze after passing it. it was almost as if a magnet was pulling you in to draw your attention. so you walk back, stopping and staring at the chateau as you stand in front of it.

it was raining all day long, so the ground was muddy as your rain boots sunk into it. you could hardly move due to the mud sinking you into the ground. not that youd be able to bring yourself to move anyways.

you could feel tears pricking in your eyes, swallowing the lump in your throat in hopes that they dont spill out.

you stare at the porch of the small building, almost convincing yourself that jj was still on the small couch. convincing youself he was still alive and would pull you into his arms if you set a foot into the chateau.

and god were you good at pretending. you had thought you heard him calling your name for a second, rolling off his tongue like it usually did.

but it wasnt him at all. it was john b. you hadnt talked to him or the pogues after getting back home. you had basically stayed home, not being able to get out of bed the whole time.

this was the first time youd been out of the house since you entered it a few weeks, possible even months ago. so you werent surprised to see john b shocked at your presence.

"are you ok?" he warily asks. you pause for a second, taking his question in. were you ok? no. you hadnt been ok since jj died. you hadnt been anything but sad.

"..yeah! im good. perfect." you fake enthusiasm. you try to blink away your tears, john b obviously noticing the action.

"are you.. sure?" he seemed to be on edge. almost as if he were afraid to break you. you softly nod your head in response, the action almost unnoticeable.

neither of you said anything after that, him staring at you worriedly, and you walking back home. you had forgotten why you were walking down this path in the first place.

at least until you completely tuned back in, focusing back into your music. thats right. your mom insisted on you going outside like you used to, not wanting you to be stuck in your room any longer. you agreed to make her happy.

you remembered why you came down this specific path too. because one thing your mom didnt know, was that you never 'went on walks' to actually just walk. you were always going to see jj.

you hadnt purposefully taken this path. it was just the one you were so used to taking, so you subconsciously walked here once again.

you had to remind yourself that you werent supposed to be down here. not again. not without jj.

a/n the angst returns, and probably wont leave. i dont think it was too inaccurate, at least not to my knowledge. its more s4 based then actually taking place in s4. anywayssss hope you enjoyed.. or cried wtv.

taglist none ! comment on masterlist to be added !!

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[raspberrylovc]

MASTERLIST//ABOUT ME

about me salem - sal | she/her | pisces - feb 25

not too much to say. i usually write angst, and occasionally fluff. a bit shy at first, but ill get used to posting on here. i love writing, music, and horror. thats pretty much it !

interests/what ill write for outer banks, yellowjackets, stranger things, pjo - tv show, the spiderwick chronicles - tv show, cobra kai, that 90's show, and squid games

BLURBS

jj maybank

love to keep me warm - holiday special

half return

more to be added..

[raspberrylovc]

LOVE TO KEEP ME WARM - jj maybank !

-- on christmas morning, on vacation, jj refuses to let you even as much as get out of bed. he insists on staying in bed during the cold day.

word count 702

!!' soft!jj, fwb!jj, fwb!reader

warnings implied sex (lmk if i need to add some)

notes this is my first time writing on tumblr (usually writing on wattpad) so sorry if this wasnt as good as expected. im open to writing tips if anyone has any !!

SOMEHOW, you had, once again, convinced the pogues to spend vacation in your hometown. it was the one place you knew would always snow on christmas day, which you absolutely adored.

you all stayed at your parents house. your mom had insisted for you to, due to having just enough beds for everyone. well, enough for two to a room, and one on the pullout in the living room.

the sleeping plan was quite simple. pope and cleo in room 1, sarah and john b in room 2, you and kie in your old room, and jj on the pullout.

however, jj had convinced kiara to let him bunk with you instead, going on about how it was impossible to fall asleep without another person in the room, and refusing to sleep in a room with any of the others due to the couples being paired together.

she hesitantly agreed, mainly just to get him to stop rambling. so she took the pullout, while jj slept in your room with you.

CHRISTMAS MORNING was definitely the most exciting thing to you. all you wanted to do was get up, dress warmly, go shopping, get hot chocolate, then come back to surprise the others with the freshly bought gifts you got for them.

only, of course, jj had found a way to stopping all those plans. the second you tried to get up, you felt his arm tighten around you. he was still half asleep, but awake enough to know he wanted you to stay.

you turn around to face him, very obviously confused. you hadnt realized he was already awake. that alone ruining your plans, let alone him not even letting you get up.

"jay, i need to shower." you complained. he pretended to think for a second. "mm, no." he eventually disagrees. "just stay in bed, mk?" he wasnt really giving you a choice, his tone supporting that theory.

you groaned in response to his protest. "i have plans." before you can continue on, jj presses a sweet kiss to your lips.

jj kissing you wasnt too surprising to you. what caught you off guard was that he didnt do it in a state of lust, as he usually did. it was soft and slow instead of his usual kisses. but you kissed him back nonetheless.

"s'too cold to be going out anyway. cmon, we can celebrate tomorrow." he says after pulling away. it was a tempting offer, really. only you knew youd have to confirm with the others first.

but then again, he wasnt really asking. he was more just trying to get you to agree. but it was safe to say you were not making it out of the house without him immediately pulling you back inside.

"fine." you reluctantly agree. you were already getting cold anyways, what did you really have to lose?

jj smiles, pecking your lips time after time, causing a small smile to appear on your face. he eventually stops, tugging you closer as you bury your head in his chest.

you could faintly smell his cheap cologne, and what you assumed to be the cookies everyone made the night before. you surpringly enjoyed the smell.

he plants one final kiss onto the top of your head, before drifting off back to sleep. you let out a hum of amusement as you hear his soft snores, before falling asleep yourself.

a/n kinda short, but i just wanted to write something to end my block. its a few hours late to post this depending on time zones, but i hope you liked it anyways !!

taglist none !

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