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Bojack is too real.

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And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.

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eu tenho pavor de pensar na morte. De imaginar que esse momento um dia vai chegar pra mim. Que a vida vai acabar, que vai tudo se apagar. Mas eu tenho muito mais medo de viver o resto dela sozinho, sem seu sorriso, sem te ouvir... eu não tenho coragem de me matar, mas as vezes eu queria muito ter, parar de me sentir assim, e parar de te fazer mal, porque aparentemente é o que eu faço. Enfim, se alguém um dia ler isso entenda. Eu não quero mais estar aqui, to aqui por medo e com medo.

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i'm sorry i lost you. I know i'll never find anyone like you. i just hope you can be happier, even if it means never having you again. That's the part tha kills me...

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ta foda. essa coisa que me consome por dentro ta pior do que nunca. as vezes parece fome, as vezes parece que eu to sem ar, as vezes é a cabeça rodando. é complicado, eu não acho que alguém me entenderia, não acho que isso seja normal em algum nível. Queria ser mais forte. Não sei o que fazer. Não sei como mudar.

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- Sabe quando você sabe que tão mentindo pra você? Pois é.

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Don't think i ever been this down before. Weird.

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Game Xp. 👾🎮 (em Game Experience) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnhaDBOlRww/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1poe356sicjtz

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🥃🍺

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All that I can remember is waking up here. At the start I thought it was a dream - a nightmare to be more exact - but after a while I realized that I had already been here. It looks like a weird forest. Like a black forest. The type that you read about in a Tolkien Tale or something. But this one was real. So real that I  start to feel cold, and my heart beat started to slow down.

I'm scared, but not because of the forest or of the creatures that might be hiding in the shadows. I am scared because I am feeling familiar with this place, wich is not good. This place is bad, cold, and it smells like something was rotten all over it. But, for some reason, that doesn't bother me much.

I am ok in here. A little uncomfortable, but I feel a sense of belonging here.

I think we all know this place. That place so deep, so intrinsic in ourselves. I believe that we all come here sometimes, but most of us don't stay here this long. I've been here for so long that I am not a visitor anymore, I'm not scared of being here. I'm scared that I belong here. That I am not someone visiting. That I may be one of the creatures hiding in the shadows.

I've been here for so long that I recognized it as soon as i opened my eyes. This is not a nightmare. This is were I live now, or at least this is were my mind lives now.

Do you know that place?

Some call it Oblivion, some call it depression.

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A classical classic. 👾🎮

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I think I lost my mind round the same time I lost my six pack.

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Coffee's lifespan ☕️! (em Pedra Menina ES)