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I cried. I had an anxiety crisis. I received a 10 though but I'm having so much agony in finishing this cycle god

just had my last day of college I wanna cry

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just had my last day of college I wanna cry

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just you wait until my final paper defense is over do I can finally go back to writing

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YOU BELONG WITH ME

[sarah cameron x reader]

summary: Falling for a straight girl who was only looking for some fun is a canon stage in every queer woman's life.

Sarah Cameron and you couldn't be more different. And maybe it was foolish for you to think you could be more than a summer fling. But every time she felt cornered, she dropped your hand as if she's been burned, when it reality? It all came crashing down on you. The edge between you two grew when summer ended and you tried to move on. Sarah didn't. She couldn't. And she would do everything in her power to prove that you meant more to her than everyone else's opinions about the two of you.

[an outer banks au] main pairing: bi!sarah cameron x lesbian!genrette!reader

side pairings: jj genrette x kiara carrera; pope heyward x cleo anderson; rafe cameron x ??? warnings/content: falling for your best friend's sister trope; internalized homophobia; least favorite child struggles; forced coming out; invasion of privacy; everyone is slight ooc on this one bear with it's an au for a reason; bonding moments; fluff; bestfriendism at its best!; angst; happy ending (i promise); pov alternation!

A/N: welcome to the kook academy OBX au! I was listening to you belong with me and immediately had this idea so I decided to write it. I plan for this to be a six chapters series. brace yourselves for ex-fling to enemies + enemies to lovers and a looot of drama.

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DISCLAIMER: I do not own the rights to Outer Banks. All rights belong to Netflix and the Pate brothers. I do own Reader's story and every other original character that is not in Outer Banks mentioned here and the respective plotlines added to the story. Collages and moodboards to build the characters aesthetics are made by me, except for the GIFs, which are not mine I just got it from Pinterest.

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PROLOGUE

1. standing by and waitin' 2. I know your favorite song 3. been here all alone 4. how could you not know? 5. can't you see? 6. you belong with me

BLURBS/ONE SHOTS

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does anyone also desperately feel like they shouldn't be alone when depression knocks or is that just me

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guys I just had the greatest idea 💡

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danny devito 2022 directioner real

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something about characters with the last name buckley

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The Waterfront 1x05

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writing the "3 times reader + 1 time" with grumpy!jj maybank and sunshine!kook!reader

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this is so lovely and endearing to me

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why are there suddenly so many random shit under the obx tag? get your thirst traps out of here

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it's all the small things.. I swear he is even more beautiful - all the goodness radiating from him

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the worst part about grief is that it feels like the world should be horrendously earth shatteringly changed, and to an extent it IS but its also the same. to everyone else it's just another tuesday. the world moves on. you have to go grocery shopping.

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uncle rafe

[rafe cameron x reader]

summary: valerie routledge is rafe cameron's soft spot. 

pairing: rafe cameron x maybank!f!reader 

w.c: 981

warnings/content: literally no warnings, just fluff; suggestive 

content towards the end.

AN: this is technically part of the 

fallen star au, but you can read it as a standalone. 

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request: maybank!reader and rafe babysitting 

sarah's kid maybe?

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“Sarah's comin' to pick her up.”  

Your voice cut through the comfortable silence carefully to not wake up Valerie who slept soundly in Rafe's chest. His gaze was lost but his fingers trailed up and down the little girl's back so very gently without a break.  

Crouching down near his arm where Valerie's cheek is squished against, her breathing coming out in soft breathes. You smile at her tiny fingers twitching to hold onto Rafe's shirt.  

Those small moments are so precious to both of them and Valerie will definitely remember them when she grows up.   

You snap a photo quickly before pulling one of Valerie's dirty blonde strands behind her ear. 

“She sleepin'?” You look up to see Rafe's eyes on you expectantly. You nod, standing up with a soft grin. 

“Great pillow you are.” 

With an eye roll, he carefully positions Valerie's head back in its previous position on his shoulder since it head tilted down. She's almost drooling.  

“Sarah's comin' to pick her up.” You plot down on his bed, groaning softly as you stretch out your limbs. Valerie has infinite energy, she's not satisfied with her toys so she puts both you and Rafe to work alright. You're exhausted.  

“Thought she'd stay here tonight?”  

His frown doesn't go unnoticed by you. Rafe was never a guy obsessed with children, you actually recall he calling one annoying.  

“Yeah, me too. Guess they're comin' back earlier, dunno,” you mumble while completely distracted by Valerie's giggles as you play with her hands. “Look, Val. Your Uncle wants you to sleepover. He's completely whipped for you.”  

“Shut up.” 

“Sleepo!” She replies and then holds her blue bunny against her chest “Bring bunny?” 

“'course you can bring bunny, he's invited.” You gently poke her belly and she shrieks and starts to laugh. 

When your gaze reach Rafe's, he's watching the two of you from the edge of the bed, the corner of his lips lifting slightly as he enjoys the view. 

Ever since Rafe made amends with Sarah and she got pregnant, he's been there every step. Even if his first reaction upon knowing about pregnancy was you're kiddin' right? and you stopped him halfway through a judgment comment with an elbow to his ribs.  

He became Uncle Rafe the moment he got to hold Valerie in his arms for the first time. And then he babysits, visits Sarah's and John B's place whenever he isn't working — dragging you with him, obviously.  

For moral support.  

And to keep him on check, making sure he doesn't say anything stupid that can fuck up every progress he's made.  

Rafe is extremely scared to screw up and go back to two years ago. Bloodied hands and a reflection he wasn't able to recognize in the mirror because he had no idea who he was, only the kind of monster he could be.  

If someone told him he would be holding his sleeping niece in his arms in the future, he would have laughed in their face.  

He's grateful for everything he has right now. Especially the bonds he got back in his life with his recovery.  

And you.  

Oh, you.  

Rafe balanced on a tight rope his whole life. He was pretty used to the masks and white lies his family told everyone. But there was no stage with you. Your sincerity kind of threw him off at first, you didn't let anyone walk all over you and you lived by your truth no matter what.  

He loved that about you. 

While you saw chaos in yourself, he saw safety.  

He wouldn't jeopardize that in a million years, not for all the money in the world either. He's not his father, after all. He's glad he finally understands that. 

“You're the one who's whipped,” he teases, his tone gentle. Kind. His smirk softening the moment Valerie takes a hold of his thumb, grasping it with all her strength. She let go to rub her eyes, lips pressing into the cutest pout.  

“Not more than—” Your sentence is cut off by the doorbell. “I'll get it. Must be your mama, Val.” At the mention of mama she rolls around the bed but Rafe picks her up before she reaches the floor, settling her in his arms with ease.  

“At least pretend you'll miss me, sweet girl.” Valerie giggles. She wraps her arms around his neck and squeezes it, Rafe pretends to choke in an exaggerated manner by the time you get to the door. "See you soon, alright?" He kisses her temple and she turns to give him one wet kiss on his cheek before getting off his arms to run to crash into her mother's legs as soon as the door opens.  

When John B and Sarah drive off, you walk back inside and shut the door, leaning against the wood with a contemplative look in his direction.  

"We could go to that new restaurant- What?" He raises a brow in confusion, noticing your look. 

You muster your most serious face and say, "Val has you wrapped around her little finger." Then he rolls his eyes and your lips split into a smug grin knowing you're right. "Did she give you baby fever yet- Ow." You laugh as he softly bites your neck before burying his face in it.  

“I guess.” He mumbles into your skin, and you can feel his lips turning into a smile. “You're the one who's gonna have to deal with that.”

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EVERYONE SHUT UP MY SHOW IS ON

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I'm feral about Drew's newly released pictures istg he's the only good thing I look forward to when I hear about that fking s5