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As of two days ago, I am no longer an escort. I now work for Bill at one of his clubs. I am a manager. I’ll make sure the girls he has there are good, and all that stuff.

This will be interesting...

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I am ready to go. I wanna go. I want to crawl out the window. I can't breathe. I can't function right now. This is a mess. A mess. Everything. I heard Noah's voice in the bathroom.. He's not here. Right? Right?

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Halloween Haunter Headcanons 👻🎃

• The first day of the festival I went as Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas, though it wasn’t a traditional costume it was Dapper Day version. I painted several faces that day, and one of the ones that stood out the most was the little girl wanting me to paint a pumpkin on her face. Kinda like Jack.

• The second day was Movie day, and Bill and I went as Bonnie Parker and Clyde Barrow. It was fun, and I was so content to be in an outfit like this. I normally don’t like being in heels that are short, but it was all good. I didn’t paint many faces that day, but I did catch some panels, and helped people get to where they wanted to go.

• The third day was by far my favorite. I went as Zombie!White Rabbit from Alice in Wonderland. I spent hours on all of the details on that outfit, and it was just perfect. I painted a lot of Zombie faces that day. And I enjoyed every bit of it. I had a little boy wanting to talk to me about the head I had made to go along with my outfit.

• The day off was spent talking and hanging out with Bill. We disappeared up to Salem for a few hours, and got back in the early morning of my Birthday. I got a lot of things while I was up there, but it was a perfect little trip I had. When we got back, we laid in bed and talked. Up until the sun was coming up just barely. 

• Birthday, Ball. Today/Tonight was perfect. Magical, even. I felt like I was on cloud nine, despite only having a few hours of sleep. We decided to go as an old world vampire couple. Bill helped me get ready since I was having trouble staying awake.

• After the ball, birthday end. We are back in the suit, and I am make up free. We’re gonna fly back to LA, so I can get my Birthday trip suitcase, and then go on my birthday trip. I need it. I want to get away from the world for awhile, and Bill is gonna be there, so that helps.

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⤷ Disney Day: Bill and Lyric went as Dapper Day Jack and Sally.

⤷ Movie Day: They went as Bonnie and Clyde.

⤷ Zombie Day: Lyric went as a Zombie!White Rabbit from Alice in Wonderland.

⤷ The Ball: Bill and Lyric are going to go as a Old World Vampire Couple.

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Secret Life. ☟☟

↘ Check under the cut for her secret. ↙

⤷ When Lyric was just sixteen years old, she was sold to a man named Ezekiel by her father. It was due to money issues as to why she was sold into an escort business so early. Because of this her father and mother, divorced. It was shortly after the twins turned ten years old.

⤷ At the age of eighteen, Ezekiel could no longer afford to keep her so she was sold to another, a woman by the name of Aberdeen. Aberdeen was not a kind woman. She didn’t care about her girls at all. Most of them were missing fingers or even their eyes due to bad guys who would rent the girls out for parties, or whatever.

⤷ Due to being part of Aberdeen’s hoard of females, she met a guy named Noah. Noah was probably one of the worst things that ever happened to her. She was just nineteen when this man took her, and ruined her. She was on drugs, drinking more than she possibly should. Anything so she couldn’t feel the pain that Noah put her through. 

⤷ Her mental state wasn’t always clear. Even when she was a young girl. She suffers from the following disorders ➜ Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder,  Schizophrenia.

⤷ When she was twenty-one/twenty-two years old, she met Liam Payne. They became really close friends, and partners in a way. Just after she turned twenty one years old, Lyric wound up pregnant by Liam. She never told him that it was his child. She couldn’t tell him because she was afraid that he would leave, laugh at her, tell her no. So, she kept it a secret. He doesn’t know yet, though she’s unsure if she’ll tell him or not.

⤷ When Luna was six months old, Lyric got in trouble with the law. And she had to give Luna to her mother, so she wouldn’t be taken away from her. She’d still be with the family. She spent three months in a women’s correctional place, due to a schizophrenia flare up.

⤷ After she was out of the correctional place, she went back to her party life, but it wasn’t as heavy. And during a freak accident, she met The Skarsgård Brothers, at a party in Las Vegas. She spilled her drink all over Bill, thus sparking their friendship, dating/courtship.

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Well, I don't know how this is gonna happen, but I am gonna buy out my contract from Aberdeen. Even if I have to get someone to do it, and I have to go work as something else, until the debt is paid. I just can't keep living like this.

In other news, I don’t know what is going on with Bill and I, but we’re not really talking. Maybe I fucked up. Or something. Who knows.

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Family Life. (Headcanons)

Lyric's Father (Samuel) ⇢ Her and her father have a very estranged relationship with each other. While the man does love his daughter, but due to financial reasons it caused him to sell her to an escort house when she was just sixteen years old. The man she was sold too, was amazing, much like a father figure to her.

Lyric’s Mother (Rosalie) ⇢ Her mother and Lyric have a very good standing relationship. They are pretty much like best friends. Lyric can go to her mother with anything. When Lyric got pregnant with Luna, she was the one person she told. Due to the nature of Lyric’s life, her mother has sole custody over Luna. But Lyric is still very much apart of Luna’s life.

The Twins (Kyra and Elijah) ⇢ Her siblings and her have such an outstanding relationship. Lyric is older than them by a few months, but they look up to her like a role model. She isn’t quite sure, but she makes sure that they aren’t in trouble. When growing up they were inseparable. Lyric keeps them out of the light because she doesn’t want them to get backlash for anything she does.

Luna Rayne Monroe (Daughter) ⇢ Luna is the one thing that Lyric is proud of in her life. Everything made sense when Luna was born. Lyric wanted to change her ways and make sure that things were good for her daughter. And that her daughter could have a mother that she was proud of. And that’s what she strives to be all the time.

Lyric’s Father Figure (Ezekiel) ⇢ This was the man she was sold to at sixteen. He took care of her, and made sure that she was in a good way, and never let her to be rented out to anyone that could harm her. However, when he could no longer pay her, he had to sell her to a woman named, Aberdeen. Aberdeen doesn’t take care of her girls, and least of all Lyric.

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// I am gonna write up everything tomorrow, when I get on my computer. I will have everything set up for everything. xo @luminaryrp

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What do you want out of this?

To be your somebody.

You are my somebody.

Lyric x Bill - moodboard.

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Everything is getting ruined, and I feel like I’m gonna go back down a path that I haven’t been down in a long time.

I’m sorry that you can’t have him or whatever, but stop trying to ruin my happiness. My better life, for me and for my daughter.

Bill is the first person, I’ve ever let in this far. That I’ve wanted to be with. I don’t let people in. I’ve never let people in. So, please stop trying to ruin everything.

I’m hiding from him because I think this is my fault. And its not. I like him. He’s good to me and for me. And its being ruined all because someone can’t let go.

This is all I have to say besides the Thank you for doing this. I hope you get everything you want.

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Whelp. My birthday is ruined. My favorite holiday is ruined. What a good way to wake up.

So, much for my Birthday vacation on my birthday which is Halloween. I’m so thrilled. Excuse me while I just go completely emotionless.

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Kill me.

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゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜

nobody hates me more than i hate me 

゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜

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Here is the escort definition.

a person who may be hired to accompany someone to a social event.

So, tell me how that equals sex?