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The sorting hat has spoken! I'm a Gryffindor. 143 fellow Gryffindors have been sorted into this house today!

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Intertwined

At the end of the night, when body just asked to get rested, I think what I have done today. Wil I be remembered by the humankind? Will the things I do may harvest beautiful things in future. Feel lonely at the same time, and

Actually, you are there.

And a soul bursts into something you can not imagine and hold, it sparks as if a colorful fireworks.

- September 21st, 2022

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Yup, I finally finished my reading on my very first webtoon I ever read, simply and solely, Cheese in The Trap by Soonkki. No way, it is way tooooo late to finish this! I have started reading CITT since 4 years ago (quite long-ago, huh?), got distracted by my whole campus life (Noooo, I miss Seol, the main lead character in CITT, who is surely a diligent and campus-oriented-yet-romantic-something girl!), and just realized I have abandoned CITT for such a long period of time. Back then, I just heard about the korean drama adaptation of CITT, knew that it's not a good ending for most of the viewers, and yet I hold back to know the spoilers (and actually it's just a soulful story, different ending, compared to the drama)! I have read this webtoon till season 3 before (at that time, after reading from the local webtoon in Bahasa, then, to catch up more chapters, I even read webtoon in english, also the Webtoon Naver, hahahaha LOL). And when I decide to re-read CITT again ("Again!", Monica's way), no way.......... I got back to season 2 and finish it in about a week to reach the final. No regrets, no more, I am way too happy and teary at the same time. This story is so epic, yet complicated, and the most importantly, it's so relateable to our habitual life. What a dreamy characters and story flow. It's always been recommended!!!

Image source: SensCritique,

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Something so surprising to find out such track. yup, the song, lyrics, and plus the branding way, anatomical icons and the band’s name itself........... 

The selection of the lyrics ...

“ 

You were alone left out in the cold Clinging to the ruin of your broken home Too lost and hurting to carry your load We all need someone to hold

You've been fighting the memory all on your own Nothing washes, nothing grows I know how it feels being by yourself in the rain We all need someone to stay We all need someone to stay

“

Good night, and thank you for being a person to hold on to, in certain time I do not predict.. 

Regards,

A citizen of an ‘ice-cream-sky planet’, coded BR061

p.s. it’s the code of my KKN group, lol

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Listen, and you may find that you are listened. Now or later on.

Recommended playlist, this night

1. Jikustik - SKTD

2. Jikustik - Maaf

3. Adithia Sofyan - Secrets

4. Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Someone to Stay

and, some for the next post.

p.s. the paint is my personal document

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About me and yesterday

it is quite hard, to seem strong, and don’t know whom we should destine our secrets, deep stories, such private life parts. It’ hard to hide tears and hold our own breath whereas time is so arrogant to keep running, and sure it’s impossible to hold on without breathing itself. But, no matter how hard something is, yes in my head at least, we just need to be opened to ourselves, be tearful is okay and make sure, they are the revealing tears. So hard to just stare to the air and to pretend that we just can get quiet....... not concrete yet to release all obstacles banging in the head. So, so much better to assume this wall as the air and... pour the words, the feelings..... be grateful for everything even you might think it’s just so horrible to live life we’re in...

And let me post a song, for everyone who might think secrets are just.... sweet part of life, and you will find someone to go along the way understanding the secrets themselves..

Secret -  Adithia Sofyan

Can you keep a secret, Just a little secret It wont take much of your time Maybe it's the weather, I don't really bother I'm just trying to make you mine Leave your boring castle Run with me

And when you hold my hand I'll be all right I would not cry In to the open air We'll see the light along the way Will you take a moment, just a little moment It wont take much of your plan If destiny is waiting, tell her I'll be walking Cause I'm not playing the waiting game

#bridge Maybe it's the weather I don't really bother I'm just trying to make you mine If destiny is waiting Tell her I'll be leaving Run with me Run with me

So, yup, secrets won’t hurt, Raisha.

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I think, being back won’t hurt. Missing puzzle will always have its hole to match up and be a whole version. I think, “being unstoppable” is one of life principles to remind you, come back and continue, be a whole version.

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It’s just OSCE

Today, my second OSCE is DONE. Literally, hopefully.

So, I got my turn, the second day of the given OSCE week. Well, OSCE is a skills examination (ONCE AGAIN, skills examination) where we, as the medical students, must act as a doctor, demonstrate all of the skills that we learn for a semester, across the ‘blok’-s (blok, means like the chapter that we focus on for each month). Okay, for the sake of the success of the skills examination, we somehow memorize ALL of THE STEPS to do those skills. 

And what about me? 

I..... tend to memorize the theories or even the skills’ steps(a.k.a checklist) through what I understand, not what I can wholly read from the hard-copied materials. Well, my friends, due to their fear of the exam results’ perfection, memorize all of the points contained in the checklist, no more left out. And, me..? I dare myself to challenge my heartbeat, please keep boosting when I try to memorize the checklist, as I think it is logical to be memorized. i kinda think that.... I just need to memorize the logical things like, like, like... Oh come on, you don’t need to be so rigid as a doctor, do you? Doctor is not a robot, plus just do your role as natural as possible. 

Shortly, I’m afraid that I can’t have a good final result for OSCE. Ya Allah, please give me a chance to have “One Shoot” result (pass it ONCE).

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The truth for every single individual, the truth behind someone's appearance, even for a demon itself..

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caffeine, it gets you addicted surely

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Hmm.. Sorry because I've just posted this.. Happy Birthday, Man ^^ Pretending that today is April 6th 2016, Hoping everything is alright upon your life, and have a good life...

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What A Life

Walking through the labyrinth, finding the bend by bend, no clues how I will be in the end of this labyrinth. Am I trapped thereupon? Will I be struggling as the best of me? Don't know why, I am feeling curious...

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Exhausted of being a 'masky' one. Swinging mind, don't you know it? (Well, this is my first try, making quotes from song lyrics via musixmatch lol)

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Staring to the sun, the radiation gets lower. The violet sheaf slowly moves closer to the crimson and pink sky. It creates memories in my thought, 'Are we still under the same sky?' , my mind asked.

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Loving someone is somehow hallucinating. A feeling that radiates no where in your days.. Lift up, carry the love, do you know? Swing me all of your line, do you know? i've been walking solo, dreaming to be with you

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Tanzaku stars, lasso the moon

Coldplay-Army of One When you have an army to set you in safe zone, and he tries so hard to hold and build life as he's dreaming to be. As hard as you wanna swim in your wish of tanzaku stars in reality, lasso the moon as well. Thank you for re-energizing me to post something here, after so long.