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Life

No matter how hard you try to control the events in your life, it will not go the way you want it to. Life does not follow you plans and your decisions. It has its own mind. :)

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Well

I am anxiously waiting for the 5th of July. Dunno. 🐼😆

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Gshshs

Just came home from coaching. A lot of things to improve.

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The importance of healing

I guess I was too lonely that month that I came to you for some comfort. Oh. But I knew it at that time, that you were also– also searching for someone who can join you in your little world. I felt ecstatic at first, but it wasn’t enough. The feeling wasn’t enough..because I knew deep down I wanted some sort of genuine connection and not at all just shallow conversations that we were engaging in..And so, I started to crave everything emotionally satisfying about you. I did not care whether I sounded stupid and clingy, because what I was after was the kind of unusual love where you just get crazy head over heels over someone. I have always desired to fall in love hard because I often read about it in some novels..and it puzzled me how easy it was to yearn for someone so hard it breaks you down. And when I reached it, I panicked so hard I wanted to get out of it. I was not meaning to get into something serious. Not yet. I’m still young. I was only about to reach 25. So no. I still want to go to different places. I had to choose..and my choice shattered me in a million pieces of regret because I discovered that whatever I do, I won’t have you back again. After that I desperately used someone to at least numb all of my hurts, all the broken pieces. I know it was pretty stupid, but it was better than emotionally torturing myself. I tried to talk to you. I tried for several months, right? Eventually I gave up. I have learned my place..and that I have none in yours. Funny thing was, I have hurt another person other than you and myself..and it was the person who helped me to get back on my feet again. It hurts that I lost another significant person in my life again. But what else can I do. I have no other choice. It hurts to deceive him. It hurts even more to deceive myself. It hurts most to actually pretend that he is you. You who I fell in love with for a short while. You who I'm still loving continuously and hopelessly. I felt disgusted with myself after some time. I knew that I have to leave and let everything go to somewhere they should be. I think I appreciate what you said back then, I was just a chapter. You just cross my path so that I can learn something from you and vice versa. Right now, I'm still feeling kind of lost...but the pain has remarkably toned down. Time has proven its usefulness again. Hehe. I know...whatever is it I am searching....I will find. So thank you..it's been so long. I wanted to talk to you. But I guess this is as far as I can get. Well, at least I poured my thoughts out.

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Eheheheheh

Mej naloka ako sa pinanood ko na...I stayed up late yesterday, sobrang late namalayan ko may araw na ahuhuhu 🍻 i am so close na gyud. Onti na lang. mga 2% more and full recovery na. Thank you Lord for guiding me. 🤗

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:)

That silence bore a lot of things I’ve desired to tell you but, in truth, I can not anymore. We’re past that line where we can afford to make small talks. And though I may have stopped showing and declaring my undying love for you, one thing is constant… that is my sincere wish and prayer that you may find the one for you. Honestly speaking, it’s quite hard to let go of the memories, let alone the words and the feelings that came with it. I hate that my memory is too sharp about relatively everything concerning you. It dragged my time and stretched it for so long when I meant and needed to hasten the process of moving on from you. You. The one I deceived and ,ironically, loved truly. In the end I realized that I can never be the one for you no matter how much I daydream about it. The truth slapped me hard in the face. I have to let you go as you did to me. It was a fair memory though. Thank you for everything.

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:)

That silence bore a lot of things I’ve desired to tell you but, in truth, I can not anymore. We’re past that line where we can afford to make small talks. And though I may have stopped showing and declaring my undying love for you, one thing is constant… that is my sincere wish and prayer that you may find the one for you. Honestly speaking, it’s quite hard to let go of the memories, let alone the words and the feelings that came with it. I hate that my memory is too sharp about relatively everything concerning you. It dragged my time and stretched it for so long when I meant and needed to hasten the process of moving on from you. You. The one I deceived and ,ironically, loved truly. In the end I realized that I can never be the one for you no matter how much I daydream about it. The truth slapped me hard in the face. I have to let you go as you did to me. It was a fair memory though. Thank you for everything.

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You will always be in my memory along with the love, the elation, the comfort, the fantasy, the regret, the roller-coaster emotions, and the never-ending heartache enclosed in that story..Our chapter was finished and it was a rich one. Thank you for everything. Love, Yen.

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🍾🍻

With so many news about murders these days...I'm not even sure if you're still alive. I don't care though. I just find it funny how I went from a crazily worry-freak to a careless stranger in a span of four months. I'm amazed.

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Tonight

Tonight I just wanna cry. Seriously.

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A Better Man

Little Big Town

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Because of

The convenience The 'short time' that you'll be around Just a chapter

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Freaking out

Oh man. I'm going crazyyyy

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See the point is

He’s not man enough to fight for you and for what he truly wants. He’s too afraid to get hurt. He doesn’t deserve you struggling for him. You deserve someone who’ll love you a hundred percent, without any reservations. Someone who’ll be courageous enough to take what’s truly his' from the other people who try to steal you away. He’s not like that. You deserve someone who’s passionate enough to do crazy things for you.

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Okay

I've had enough. Finally.