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WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN MY NICHE FUCKING CHILDHOOD ULTRA HYPERFIXATION IS GETTING A FUCKING XMAS REUNION SPECIAL LIKE TEN FUCKING YEARS LATER???? I LITERALLY JUST GOT NOSTALGIC FOR IT ALL OVER AGAIN THIS WEEK THIS IS CRAZY

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CHRISTMAS REUNION ????????? HELLO ??????????

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i love my girls 😋💘

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society and makeup companies to women at all times: you have to wear makeup, like you literally have to or else you look like a corpse, so wear it you fucking corpse. aren't you terrified of getting old? aren't you insecure about your little blemishes? we have the $80 solution.

someone online: you don't have to wear makeup

someone else in response, without fail, every single time: yeah but it's okay if you want to wear makeup :). I mean, it's a personal choice, which involves no coercion from the constant social pressures that dictate how women should present themselves, so go ahead! Don't let mean people bully you into thinking it's okay to have flaws in your skin.

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Faceless (1988) dir. Jesus Franco

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female vampire (1973) and punish by ethel cain

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@/hisethelcain. “i'd save you but the world's bent” twitter, 14 nov 2020.

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DON’T OPEN TILL CHRISTMAS (1984)

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Seeing all the praise the movie Anora is showered with, with its star Yura Borisov (a russian actor living and working in russia, who had previously starred in russian propaganda projects, some of which were filmed in occupied Crimea) getting nominated for prestigious international awards, while another movie, "Russians at War", which is a piece of literal russian war propaganda filmed by a former RT employee, is being shown at international film festivals, and remembering all the non-stop whining about canceling poor uwu russian artists and the great uwu russian culture...

I sincerely wish you all "russian culture" enjoyers to be visited by this "culture" as it really is. At least a little bit. At least to have a few nights like my past few nights in Kyiv have been. Not even like what my grandma has in Sumy. Which is just a tiny little fraction of what this culture is.

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I'm finally done with my Sienna/Vicky fic! it takes place after Terrifier 3, and it was hard for me to think of any way to develop their relationship, considering we know close to nothing about the next movie. a pretty popular theory about it is that Sienna will have to travel to Hell and fight some demons, so I went with that. this fic was supposed to be an exploration of Sienna's dark mental state and how her hell isn't really demons as much as it is being trapped in her head. all about the tragedy of being a final girl.

it's the first fic I've ever written in english, and I'm very nervous to be posting this since it already got people excited, but I hope you'll like it! tagging people who asked <3 @xzombiegirl @dummywholikesfrogs

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@/hisethelcain. “now u just wait a minute, mister” twitter, 31 mar 2020.

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this!! the thing about life-changing events is that, once enough time passes, you know you could never go back. you're not the same person, and you feel changed in many ways because of what you survived. you couldn't be the person you were and the person who made this past life work. it's one thing to wish to turn back time and live somewhere you never experienced what you experienced. it's completely another to go back with your baggage still with you. it's such a depressing concept, but marvel made it look like steve's perfect ending

i might be self-projecting a bit, but it feels kind of personal to have a story about someone with youth taken away by the war, since it's something i'm living in for 10 months already. it just captures… a lot. steve's time travel isn't only about time travel to me, but rather about a deep sense of not belonging. deep sense of the world moving too rapidly and the feeling that you'll never be able to keep up, because you've never felt truly happy since the life went to hell. the thing about steve is that his life was never truly stable, but it kept pushing him further and further and ultimately bringing him somewhere where everybody he knew have already moved on and lived a life. and he's just stuck. and i feel it on a very personal level in a relation to trauma if you take the journey metaphorically. that's literally what it's like to grow up in an unstable world where nobody can promise you anything. steve's arc captures what it's like having your story to be bigger than you and how it's a constant fight against the circumstances that just starts to feel like an endless cycle.

i get not being able to move on; i get thinking of yourself as disposable and just giving and giving and giving; i get living only for your own beliefs that don't always form certain goals; i get ultimately believing in people even if they disappoint me; believing in world even if it disappoints me; i get the lack of "shared life experience" with people around me and how it fucked up a lot of my relationships lately, but also made others ten times stronger. i just get a lot of it.

and it still hurts that we never saw steve settling down in the present. it was a story about overcoming trauma, learning to live and to cope with the pain and wrong choices. about the power of strong beliefs and adaptability. about how much it's worth just to be a good human being when you have nothing but yourself. it was never a story about the past and the need to come back. it was the story about how you get up after ten thousand lowest points, because how can you not? it was a story about the power of character and how it can give you meaning even when there's nothing else you can hold on to anymore.

endgame doesn't only contradict steve's character choices throughout his journey and sends him to p-ggy who hired zola. it also leaves no meaning to his story and makes it seem really shallow and hurts people who found it personal. and i'm just mad and mad and mad, no matter how much time passes.

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thank you so much <3

so... i think i made something

it's so confusing to be a girl when the only person who could 100% understand your trauma is somebody you're supposed to fight against

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it's definitely coming soon!!!

actually considering writing a sienna/vicky fic, i know there's an audience for that

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At some point "fanfic can be as good as professional writing" became "fanfic should be as good as professional writing" and that's caused major damage to fandom spaces.

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you want me to go out?? take breaks from sitting in my dorm room and studying?? you want me to do the thing that got victoria heyes possessed? crazy

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i literally forgot how silly terrifier 2016 was. dawn randomly deciding to sit on art's lap to take a selfie and hitting his face with his hat, art randomly deciding to propose to tara and her taking the ring, him randomly deciding to trash the toilet, and dawn talking about him jerking off all happen in the span of like ten minutes. sometimes i don't believe this franchise is real