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but dad my depression isn’t something that can be fixed with panadol or cough syrup sometimes, not even fluexotine cures it it isn’t something that I want Sometimes I feel on top of the world as if I’ve conquered it all but no I haven’t it’s an illusion but just enough to make me feel something more again dad I’m not being lazy, it takes away everything of, and from me it lives in my head, on top of all the existing conditions that I already have dad, cancer within the heart kill and so do this except that it can’t be fucking seen please believe me, I’m doing everything I can but dad, it’s killing me

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she shaved all her hair because you used to run your fingers through those locks you used to say was the most beautiful your eyes ever seen bet you're saying the same and more to another girl she smashed her own heart against those mud and trampled on it more than she could count she changed her phone because she couldn't bear to unlock it just to see remains of a couple that almost should've could've been a guy destroyed a girl, and she destroyed herself

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Just Breathe

“Just Breathe”

Whenever the pain is to much to bear Whenever you’ve given all you can spare When the sights in front of you are too gory to see Remember to close your eyes and just breathe

Whenever your smoke rises to high Whenever you think about wanting to die Whenever you lose and drop to your knees Stand up again and remember to breathe

Whenever you feel like you’re becoming undone Whenever you feel like everyone is gone After you lost all the blood you can bleed Stitch yourself up again and remember to breathe

Whenever you’re lost and and can’t find direction Whenever your shadow stops casting reflections Whatever egg shells you broke beneath your feet Buy a new carton and remember to breathe

Whenever you feel like there’s nothing left Whenever you have days you want to forget                           Whenever you feel like screaming in sheets Lower your voice and remember to breathe

Nothing is ever as bad as it seems And this sounds absurd coming from me With the lives we lead, but I’ve already seen Things aren’t as bad as long as you breathe