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Ok, first of all, I swear I’m not a jealous kind of person (I have to say this even if nobody will read it).

Alright, now that that’s clear, let’s start.

Since my friend started her Tumblr account to upload drawings and stuff, she gained a lot of Internet friends, fine by me. But the thing is... it’s getting annoying. Like, we’re on holidays right now but when we have school the only thing she talks about is her friends, if you try to talk about something else, she’ll be like “Oh wait, this happened too...” or “that reminds me of the time we...” I swear, it’s like she’s like a teenage girl talking about her crush (well, she is a teenage girl and she had a crush on at least two/three of her internet friends).

The other day, I invited her to my house, I have a pool and we were just chilling because it was really hot and my family was there too and at one point I wanted the dart to swallow me. Every two minutes, my friend would ask me to take pictures of her or record her doing something so that I could send it to her friend. She was like “Oh, X is gonna love this, oh take one while I do this, send it to her”. IN FRONT OF MY FAMILY. Like, they saw that I was every two second going to look for her phone to take a picture of her. Now, I know it’s stupid, believe me, I know, but it was damn humiliating.

Another thing, she is one of my best friends. Note that I said “one of” because I have two. At least, I think I have two, since well, I’m gonna tell you now. We were in Religion class, I don’t remember what the topic of the class was about, but a boy said something and she raised her hand and said “That’s not true, because my best friend did this and blah blah blah” talking about another internet friend. Again, I know it’s dumb, but it fucking hurts. (Jesus Christ it sounds even dumber when I read it but oh well i need to vent)

The last thing for now, in Argentina, we have this expression clavar el visto. It’s when on iMessage, WhatsApp or whatever someone reads the text you sent them and doesn’t answer but you know they read it because of the tick thingy (it can also be used IRL when somebody is not answering you or seems too distracted to answer properly, but that’s not relevant). Well, my friend, me clava el visto a hella lot. Our private conversation is really one-sided, and it’s not like I send her so much texts. Once in a while, I send her something and she won’t answer me and I don’t want to send her another text unless it’s really necessary because she probably won’t answer me and our chat will be full of my texts and devoid of hers. I’m staring to think I would get more reaction from a beheaded chicken. And we have another group with her and my other best at friend, I could make it out to be my private conversation with my other friends, because she rarely answers. Even when we send a text specifically to her.

Oh but if YOU don’t answer her, God fucking protect you.

seriously, I don’t know what to do

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OC asks

What is your OC’s favorite color?

Does your OC collect anything? What do they collect?

What kind of things is your OC allergic to?

What kind of clothing does your OC wear?

What is your OC’s first memory?

WWhat’s your OC’s favorite animal? Least favorite?

What element would your OC be?

What is your OC’s theme song? 

Do you have a faceclaim / voiceclaim for your OC?

What deadly sin would best represent your OC?

What are your OC’s hobbies?

How patient is your OC? How hot-headed are they?

What is your OC’s gender / sexuality / race / species / etc.?

What foods does your OC like to eat? What are their least favorite foods?

If your OC could have any pet, what would they choose? Why?

What does your OC smell like? 

How do they make a living? What kind of job do they want / not want? What is their dream job? What do they think of their current job?

What are your OC’s greatest fears? Weaknesses? Strengths?

What kind of music do they listen to? Do they have a favorite song?

If they came from their world to ours (if not already in our’s) how would they react? What would they do?

What personal problems/issues do they have? Pet peeves?

What kind of student were they/would they be in high school?

What is a random fact about your OC? 

What is their outlook on life? What is their philosophy / what do they think in general about living?

What inspired you to create them / how did you create them? Were they originally a fancharacter? What was their personality / design like when you first made them?

Who is the most important person in their life? Why? Who is the least important to them (that still has an impact and why?

What kind of childhood did your character have?

What kind of nervous habits do they have? Do they stim? Do they have any kinds of addictions?

If they could choose their epitaph for their grave, what would they choose?

Do they want to get married? Why or why not? Would they ever want kids? Do they have kids? Why?

What is their most traumatic memory/experience? What is their favorite memory?

If they could have one thing in the world, what would it be?

Would they ever kill someone? What would someone have to do to push them to kill someone? If they would kill someone, why? 

What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?

How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?

What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?

What’s something that your character does, that other people don’t normally do?

What would your character do with a million dollars? 

What is in your characters refrigerator right now? On their bedroom floor? Nightstand? Garbage can?

Your character is getting ready for a night out. Where are they going? What do they wear? Who will they be with?

What does your character do when they’re angry? Why?

Does your character have any scars? Where did they get them from? 

What was the most offensive thing your character had ever said?

How does your character react/ accept criticism?

If your character was given a slice of pineapple pizza and they HAD to eat it (or something bad would happen), how would they react? Do they even LIKE pineapple pizza?

Your character is given a voodoo doll of themself. What do they do with it? Do they see if it actually works?

Can your character draw? What do they like to draw? Do they doodle?

What were their parents like? How has that affected how they are as an adult?

Does your character like candy? Do they get sugar rushes? What are they like when they get a rush?

If your character was presented with imminent and unavoidable death/fatality, how would they react? Would they try to avoid death anyways? Would they try to make their last days count? 

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Please die bruxism

Omfg I HATE bruxism.

My mouth hurts, my ears ring and my brain is trying to get out of my head

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AAAAGHH OH MY GOD I WANT TO KILL HER???

Not really rational but meh. My friend (let’s call her A) blocked me on WhatsApp. You know why? BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE TOLD HER TO KISS A GUY SHE WANTS TO KISS AND PROBABLY WONT SEE AGAIN.

But oh, that’s not all :). She told a friend that doesn’t even know what the conversation (because it was a conversation, not an argument) was about, that we (that ‘we’ including me and other people that hadn’t even read the messages) had forced her to do something she didn’t want to. And then the guy starts talking to me and another friend (let’s call her B) about bullying and that when someone says Stop, you’ve gotta stop. So, we re-read our conversation with her. The thing is, she never asked us to stop. The only thing she said was “well, let’s talk about something else” and kept talking about the same thing.

Also, for the matter, this dude talking about bullying doesn’t even know us. He doesn’t know what we were talking about and doesn’t know that I wasn’t involved in it. I don’t blame him. Friend A always blames me about stuff I don’t have anything to do with, like when she was sick for a while and couldn’t go to school and she had a lot of homework to do and suddenly it was my fault??? I didn’t make you sick, girl, get your shit together.

I am SO mad right now. I am fed up with her and we can’t even talk like civilized people because she is throwing a tantrum. After she unblocks me, she is gonna be like “everything is fine, I forgive you” but nope, everything is NOT fine. You always ignore us and I’m tired, we were supposed to be best friends, weren’t we? Lately, I’ve been glad that she doesn’t come to school, it’s a lot of pressure taken from me. I feel bad saying that, I really do. But our friendship is not working, I try to make it work but I can’t do it alone and I don’t want to lose a friend. I’m not the social type and he has always been a really good friend. And she is a good person too, but since she started talking to some guys she’s been different. Different is not always bad, I know that, but in this case... I can’t say I like it. I’m sad, I’m tired, I’m crying, I’m leaving this here. Thanks for reading if you managed to get to this point. I don’t think anyone will read it. Better if they don’t. He he. Bye

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Person: Hi! How are you?

Me (totally socially awkward): Me too :S

Person: What...

Me (to myself): crap

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At the supermarket

My bro: your head is like an earth globe

Me: and your IQ is lower than the room’s temperature

Bro: heh, good one

Me: :D

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Why the hell are my knuckles blue/green. Wtf

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Person says about my best friend in front of my best friend: yeah because when she’s like that she gets mad at me for some reason hahahaha

Me (I have my earphones on): It’s not nice to talk about people like that in front of them

Person: was I talking to you? No. Then keep listening to music and shut up.

Me:...

My best friend:...

Person (keeps talking to the other person, now about me): she has been like this for a few days now. I am so fed up.

What the hell? That person is SUPPOSED to be my friend. What kind of person says that??? And what’s “keep listening to music and shut up” supposed to mean?? What? I can’t stand up for my friends now?? If she thinks that then she doesn’t know me AT ALL. FUCK OFF BITCH.

Also, it’s not that she didn’t know we were listening. We were sitting at the same table. She deliberately sat next to us when class started. And she has the nerve to talk about us like that??

Now I got that settled, I can’t stop thinking on Hamilton singing “sitting there useless as two shits. Hey turn around, bend over, I’ll show you where my shoe fits”. I kinda wish I could have said that to her XD