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I’m not dressed up for costume day. That’s ok honest to god I’m too tired.

Recently I started thinking about my attraction to women. Every time I crush on a girl it ends poorly, truth being I’m probably the problem. I feel jealous constantly, almost like I will never be enough. Maybe it’s because I hold this idea of girlhood so high on a pedestal. Something I will never properly grasp.

I want a girlfriend. I want one I can understand.

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Tempted to start writing like I live in omega verse univers

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Convinced I should try a mukbang.

I’m getting used to the routine of school now and it’s kinda mind numbing. I see why people have outside distractions. It’s been a dreary week weather wise I don’t mind it, makes my neighbors garden outside my window smell really nice and earthy.

Hope you have a good day. Get though It buddies

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I want to turn myself into a character. I want to exist in peoples minds as a concept

That’s not too weird right

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Build me up like Lego

I don’t have a direction booklet

Just bright colored little bricks

It will take a while but ultimately

I’m worth the wait

A colorful display of our experience

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I’m so in love with my best friend. Not in a romantic way, she is my muse, my darling little snow globe, my favorite color.

I miss you. Forgive me but don’t forget. I’m sorry

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Sometimes it feels like I’m not doing human the correct way

I eat so much more than my friends and family, they’re all full much quicker than I am

I eat less and can’t loose the weight the right way maybe I’m not doing hunger properly. It feels insatiable telling me to consume every and anything, but nothing will satisfy the void in my chest or my stomach. I end up full, and empty at the same time. Every bite digs me deeper and deeper it’s exhausting.

I wish I could just push these thoughts away, just be stronger, be kind to yourself.

Inner me… little me, you’re going to have to wait a little bit longer

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There’s a huge difference between someone telling you, you are the problem and knowing you are the threat in every single one of your relationships

Cross referencing between every argument, eye roll, stalemate. Where did you go wrong what didn’t you do in that moment. Then how can you correct that behavior.

Perhaps you didn’t communicate what you were feeling in that moment. Ignored an issue until it festered and infected the both of you. Your own unchecked ego.

It’s my turn now

Wish me luck

-past me

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shinkamimomojirou has the same energy as lukadrigaminette

1. Shinsou/Luka: punk/goth, chill tall boy with cool-colored hair, lowkey abandonment issues, kind of a loner, idolizes his dad

2. Kaminari/Adrien: sunshine boy fluffy-haired blonde, can play an instrument, makes mari/jirou embarrassed with compliments, highkey an oblivious idiot, disaster bi

3. Momo/Kagami: Gorgeous sheltered rich girl, dark hair, not-so-secretly really loves to make friends/hang out with friends, not-so-secretly a precious girl who must be protected

4. Jirou/Marinette: smol bean dark-haired badass, iconic style, really passionate about their hobbies (music/fashion), disaster bi, usually seen as independent and cool, but really needs support from her friends

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2/5/2023

Mad awkward when you’re having a bomb day and suddenly one thing ruins the moment. That’s all it is a moment, remembering it’s a moment is the hardest part.

If we found a way to give humans wings I’d be the first to sign up, flight like a harpy would be immaculate. Really fizzles the brain

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Jan 27th 2023

Today was strangely productive. I’ve never felt so good in a long time. Unlike the beginning of this week I feel excited. I’m alive breathing and coping. Maybe it’s hanging out

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Jan 26 2023

I really do wonder what I look like in the halls. Knowing a decent hand of people but not approaching them for some unspoken social rule I don’t know about. I’ve been saying that a lot recently “I don’t know if I can” it’s eye opening to how ignorant we are about a lot of stuff .

Polished my nails recently, that takes sooo long for no reason.

Avoiding a person for a situation made up in your head feels like the epitome of human interactions.

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Jan 22 2023

You can’t just walk into my life make me smile and think you can keep getting away with it

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Sometimes things get really boring

Jan 22, 2023

I didn’t realize how much time I spend on other people. I don’t mind being alone-however it’s never been enough. It’s about find happiness with yourself, filling the time in-between major events . So I’ll read a book I’ve been putting off, finish a show, eat a snack. Consume. We’re constantly consuming something, it’s not inherently wrong humans are selfish. Selfishness shouldn’t be so sinful that’s my thoughts.Time

And a nap feels like you’re wasting it.