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Pet sitting for the in laws

Had to bring Mami with me 🧡

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~🟠🧡~

I wanna brag about Santisima because I love her so much

Everyone else is confused about who their God's are. I'm not. I woke up after the car accident knowing Santa Muerte was my Mother 🧡🧡🧡

Yeah, we had to switch to fake candles because of the reptiles. So I have to take the incense burner outside with Santisima then bring it back inside. Nobody else is doing the work right now. They are all panicking. So I got to focus on Santa Muerte 🧡

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Being a newly discovered system and doing intensive therapy is wild.

Because what do you mean I got fired from my psychiatrist because when I said 'you calling me *my name* is causing me significant distress, could you not?" when she didn't listen, I completely exploded? So the psych I had 3 years ago came down from the heavens to give me appointments 3Xs a week?

Immediately, immediately was like

"Yeah, okay, so this is definitely Dissociative identity disorder, because you are not the same patient I had before. Are you on T? Why do you have face hair? Are you growing a Beard? How?"

*picks up book, while also searching online*

"I am so glad I started researching this when I got promoted. *rummaging* See I thought I saw it, but it was so small before *looks into my soul* say water."

"....water?"

"Ahaa! I knew it!"

*looks around self conciously while rubbing the beard that is indeed starting to show*

"What's your favorite color?"

"Orange"

"I'm sold, I will talk to the team, we are going to be doing some tests. I want you to try and notice when you change. Just notice how often, when, what you notice. Is it okay if I talk to *partner* about this?"

"Yeah?"

*leaves* let's partner talk to her. *Goes back*

"You two have a task, give them names."

Y'all we got 3 big personalities, each have at least 2 offshoots. One of them is specifically to hold all my religious information, I know who worships which gods from which religions.

I know why I kept loosing interest then having it slam back into me. I was switching in and out.

I still haven't told people irl

So idk if I will either.

Later ima give a post run down of colors and gods to go with them - 🟣

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I've been AWOL

Had some extreme trauma happen(my wife was assaulted for being transgender and I got in the middle and now we all got hit with a charge). Which put me into what my psych is calling crisis.

Had an appointment with her. It went bad. When I found out I'm gonna catch my first charge, I called my old psych. She got promoted, so she's my psych boss.

Anyway. Guess what? I've been diagnosed with DID and am doing a whole thing to figure out what kind and have to do special therapy to figure out how many brains are in my brain. We know of 9.

Isnt that cool? 😭

Anyway. I'll be signing off with colors. Because I'm just now figuring it out and that my thoughts are not how thoughts work, and that I haven't been passing out like I have narcolepsy. The new Host was integrating. My wife caught it. Made me make an appointment.

Now, Messy 🟢(who is green) is pretty dormant. Any time she pops up she sobs and then falls out.

So they made me! I'm 🟠 and I was told I can't tell people my name. So I use colors. I'm a FtM transman and I'm in the wrong body. This one's too small.

I think the plan is to integrate me into 🟢. That will make a weird brown color 🤔

Anyway that's why Messy hasn't been posting content regularly. I didn't know, I don't use my phone nor am I as chronically online.

No clue what the plans are.

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The world has decended into madness.

For the first time my bring has no pull to patriarchal type Deity/God. Even my connection to Loki, which has remained firm and steady no matter what for years has been effected. Loki isn't gone. Just as Lucifer, Hermes, Apollon, Hypnos, Thor, and even Odin; aren't gone. However I still am far more connected to Loki than any of the others.

It's just not their time. It's like they took a big step back. So the Divine Feminine stepped forward.

But not with calm feminine nurture. But running, searching; not Burning with the passion of a mother's love. Bloody from the fight. Watching. Waiting.

Beautiful

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Freya Goddess Symbols- Nordic Goddess of Love and War

Freyja is technically not a name. It is translated in old Norse to mean “lady.” The modern spelling of her name is Freja which was anglicized to Freya. She had a brother named Freyr, which meant “Lord.” They were the offspring of Njoror, the sea, and Herta, the earth. Freyja goddess symbols are just as powerful as the goddess herself.Freya Goddess Symbols

Although she went searching for pleasure and passion, she was a complicated character. The Vikings saw her as a mighty force, a goddess on the same level as Odin and Thor in Norse mythology.

Freya Goddess of Love

Although Freya was known as the goddess of love, she was also the fertility goddess and goddess of war and death. Old Norse literature highlighted her insistence on everything sexual. However, she has been completely omitted from childbirth, which is an element of fertility within the confines of other goddesses of similar nature.

According to Norse myth And Freya goddess Symbols, Freya was the Norse goddess of love, fertility, sex, war, death, magic, beauty, and witchcraft. She supervises battles, can grant and remove fertility, can be beseeched for love, and was born knowing the sacred secrets of witchcraft and the Runes. Because she belonged to the Norse Vanir tribe, people thought she practiced witchcraft and was strongly connected to the earth.

She considered pigs sacred and rode a boar with golden bristles. She also had a chariot drawn by cats as another means of transport. Freya was privileged to have the opportunity to choose half of the warriors slain in battle for her great hall in Folkyangar, while the rest were taken to Valhalla by the god Odin.

She had a famous necklace known as Brisingamen that was stolen by the god Loki, the trickster, and later recovered by Heimdall, a watchman to the gods.

Freya is believed to have done the evil act of teaching the Aesir, a tribe of gods, witchcraft.

Like the Egyptian goddess Isis and Greek goddess Aphrodite, Freya traveled the world looking for a missing husband while shading golden tears. She had four nicknames: Horn, Mardoll, Syr, and Gefn.

Freya’s themes included strength, devotion, the sun, passion, and magic. Her symbols consist of lions and strawberries.

Freya was not a mysterious goddess; on the contrary, she was loved and worshipped all over European territory in places such as Iceland, Greenland, Scandinavia, the Germanic lands, Anglo-Saxon Britain, and Holland. She remains among the most loved and idolized Pagan goddesses to date.

The spirit of Freya angered Christian authorities. Ironically, this anger propelled Freya to survive more vividly than any other European female spirit. Continuous condemnation ensured Freya remained relevant.

Freya was criticized as the Queen of Witches. Women who idolized her were automatically labeled as “witches’. Freya’s rites and traditions encouraged magical practice, shamanism, mediumship, and female autonomy, while Freya acted as a role model. The new regime viewed this behavior as an abomination and symbolizing deadly sin.

The Vanir

The Norse gods are divided into two: the Vanir and the Aesir. Freya and her family belong to the Vanir, and unlike their counterparts, little is known about the rest of Freya’s family.

All that is known is that there was a war between the Aesir and the Vanir, with the Aesir emerging victorious. Freya and her brother Freyr were sent to live with the Aesir as part of the truce agreement.

According to Norse mythology, the Vanir lived in what is presently referred to as Scandinavia when the Aesir arrived. The Vanir provoked greater hostility from the Christian church than the Aesir; therefore, limited information concerning the Vanir survived.

The only information available about the Vanir was retrieved from those sent to live in Aesir.It is believed that the Vanir were shapeshifters linked to creative energy, magic, the sea, eroticism, fertility, prophecy, and shamanism.

According to the myth, Freya shared all her knowledge with the Aesir after being taken hostage. The Norse god Odin was the first member of the Aesir to befriend Freya. By becoming close to Freya, the god Odin learned about the ways of Seidr. Seidr was a form of magic perceived as a woman’s magic and unsuitable for men.

Freya knew all about the Runes, but according to the myth, her knowledge of the Runes directed Odin to gorge out one of his eyes and hang himself from Yggdrasil upside down while looking into the Well of Wyrd. After staring into the well for nine days and nights, he finally understood what the Runes meant.

Freya and Warfare

Freya, the queen of love and war who goes by the name Valfreya, leads the Valkyries into battle. The Valkyries are angels of death who transport the souls of the recently departed to the next realm, and in battle, the souls are transported to two different destinations.

The Valfreya get the first picks of the departed souls, followed by Odin, but finally, all the souls of the dead are evenly split. The souls chosen by Odin are taken back to Valhalla, whereas those chosen by Freya are taken to her realm, which goes by the name of Folkvangr, a meadow with a large hall known as Sessrumnir. In Folkvangr, love songs are always played.

Freya and Frigg

There are similarities between Freya and Odin’s wife, the Norse goddess Frigg. Some people have reasons to believe that Freya and Frigg are one person. This argument is supported by the fact that Freya is technically not a name but a title, whereas Frigg is a name.

Frigg is also referred to as the “well-beloved lady.” She can also be called Frigga, Sacka, or Fricka. She is the goddess of childbirth, fertility, matrimony, and divination. It is unclear whether she is part of Aesir or Vanir.

Since she is the wife of Odin, she is linked to marriage and fidelity. In the afterlife, married people spend their time in Frigg’s hall, known as Fensalir. It is not easy to differentiate between Freya and Frigg.

They are two different spirits in Scandinavia but seem to have merged into one spirit in German land. The distinctions can still be made even if some information has been lost or suppressed.

Ironically, even though Christian authorities were against Freya, there is still substantial information about Freya and her beliefs.The theory that Freya and Friggs are the same people is exacerbated by the belief that Freya’s husband, Odr, is Odinn, and their two daughters go by the names Hnoss and Garsemi. Not much is said about the two daughters.

Freya Attributes and Association

According to Norse myth, the beautiful Norse goddess Freya has long blonde hair. We must know that she is a shapeshifter capable of assuming any form. She has a magical falcon cloak, which she uses to fly. She also wears a necklace mentioned earlier in this article that the Brisingamen dwarfs made.

Her chariot is pulled by two silver cats, which some people think are called Bygul and Trjegul. These cats might be lynxes. Freya is associated with different animals, such as cats, rabbits, falcons, cuckoos, ladybugs, swallows, boars, and oxen.

Her preferred colors are green, red, yellow, light blue, pink, and white. Freya’s materials of choice include gold and amber. She is also a fan of flowers. Plants associated with the queen include:

Primrose

Opium poppy

Rose, clover

English daisy

Hemp, Arnica

Almond, Bedstraw

Bird Berry

Benzoin

Henbane

Strawberry

Essential oils linked to her include sandalwood, Birch, Benzoin, Cypress, Myrrh, and Rose. You can include any of the mentioned items when offering to the goddess. You can also add her favorite foods: pork, honey, mead, ale, apples, edible flowers, and barley.

Because of her love for cats, you can pay homage to the goddess by treating cats well. The goddess of love is a fan of love poems and songs continuously playing in Folkvangr.The Freya goddess can be considered a source of inspiration among ancient and present cultures. The mythology also proves that the Nordic people had a rich culture that is present to date.

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I Have Written Books!

Hello all! I'm happy to FINALLY announce the reason for why I've been so quiet this past however long, and that's because I was busy writing books! Books that are now published!! :0 Wow!!!

These are the first two of the series, one on Odin and one on Loki, and they go into dang near everything I know about each of them, respectively. These books are also beautifully illustrated by the Saxon Storyteller, so you're in for a real treat!

So far I know they're available on Amazon, but I'll keep you all updated on where else you can find them, when I know!

Update!

Apparently they're available at most major retailers including Barnes & Noble, so you can get them ANYWHERE you want!!! WOW!

I recommend checking your local metaphysical shop or bookseller first!

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Mother Witch ✨

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"We're all equal in death."

Happy pride.

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Saints and Ecological Spirituality

The following list consists of saints and other prominent Catholics who are associated with nature or herbalism on some level. May be expanded upon in the future.

St. Francis of Assisi, patron of animals and nature, known for his liturgical chant “Canticle of the Sun,” starting the Franciscan Order, and for utilizing nature in his preaching, Italy

St. Kateri Tekakwitha, patroness of ecology, known for her devout faith in Jesus; would make crosses through out the woods she walked in to remember to pray, Mohawk-Iroquois 

Servant of God Nicholas Black Elk, catechist and preacher, associated with indigenous Catholic worship and decolonization, Oglala Lakota

St. Fiacre, patron of gardening, a monk sought after by his community for his skills with herbs and healing, Ireland

St. Hildegard of Bingen, Benedictine nun and mystic, prolific writer of many subjects including herbal medicine and sought after for political advice, Germany

Servant of God Dorothy Day, activist and humanitarian, known for jump-starting Catholic social justice activism for many concerns including ecology, United States

St. Bibiana, virgin martyr who was persecuted along with her family during the Early Church, her grave was said to miraculously spring up herbs that cured ailments like hangovers and headaches, Rome

St. Martin de Porres, the first Black Dominican member originally apprenticed under a barber, and as a result also learned how to use healing herbs. He left the trade to become a monk and used his healing training to help the poor and service his brothers, Peru

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Legend of Lalita

The story of Goddess Lalita, often referred to as Lalita Tripura Sundari, is rich with themes of cosmic balance, divine beauty, and the transformative power of love and wisdom. Lalita’s story is most famously recounted in the Lalita Mahatmyam, which is part of the Brahmanda Purana.

The Story of Lalita Tripura Sundari

Long ago, a powerful demon named Bhandasura arose, created from the ashes of Kamadeva, the god of love. After Kamadeva was incinerated by Lord Shiva’s third eye, Bhandasura emerged, embodying hatred and darkness. Bhandasura performed intense penance and received a boon that he would be invincible and could only be destroyed by a goddess who had not been born. Believing himself to be unstoppable, he unleashed destruction across the heavens and earth, wreaking havoc and spreading ignorance.

The gods, helpless and unable to stop Bhandasura, appealed to the Supreme Mother, Goddess Parvati, for aid. Parvati, in her infinite compassion and wisdom, manifested as Goddess Lalita Tripura Sundari. In this form, Lalita embodies the “Beauty of the Three Worlds”—the physical, mental, and spiritual realms. She radiated love, grace, and unmatched power, prepared to restore cosmic order.

The Battle Against Bhandasura

Lalita took command of an army of divine forces and rode into battle on a chariot known as the Chakra Raja Ratha, a grand chariot with the Sri Chakra (Sri Yantra) at its core. Her army was led by various deities, each representing aspects of creation, wisdom, protection, and destruction. She wielded a sugarcane bow, symbolizing sweetness and the mind’s creative force, with five arrows made of flowers, each representing the five senses. With these weapons, she could conquer not by force but by overwhelming darkness with divine beauty and love.

The battle was epic and complex. Lalita, using her wisdom and grace, finally destroyed Bhandasura with a gentle but powerful glance. With his fall, peace and cosmic balance were restored. This victory symbolizes the triumph of divine beauty, wisdom, and compassion over darkness, ignorance, and hatred.

Lalita’s Teachings and Legacy

Goddess Lalita is venerated as the embodiment of divine love and the beauty of creation itself. She is associated with the Sri Chakra, a sacred geometric design representing the universe. Her thousand names in the Lalita Sahasranama describe her qualities and powers, revealing her as both a nurturing mother and a fierce protector.

The story of Lalita encourages us to seek beauty, love, and wisdom within ourselves and to rise above ignorance and negativity, illuminating the world around us. Lalita’s teachings emphasize balance, harmony, and the understanding that true power is derived not from force, but from love and compassion.

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The Divine Mother Lalita showed in a reading recently. To let me know I needed to step into my Divine feminine Era. Just in time for my own mother to shatter my heart, causing me to choose to go no contact.

So while I know nothing about Her. I will add her to my learnings of Santa Muerte.

A Saint also showed.

-"Kateri Tekakwitha is showing up for you through the Orphan archetype."

So.

I've had to take a look at how I have been viewing Christian/catholic>abrahamic. Realize my dislike of it is because it stole my mother from me.

After my father died she found Jesus and I no longer fit in her life.

She called the 5O on me, which lead to an altercation because I was not expecting and officer to show up and try to bust down my door. So I went after them with a bat and a Mag light. He pulled on me. I was 10 seconds from being "helped" by the 5O, helped to the mortuary that is.

So I had to cut her off.

Then these two Females I didn't expect showed up, unexpectedly.

I'm now over here like.

That openes a huge array of Saints. If I am willing to get over my fear of the cultivated church. I don't have to go to church to find love and joy.

Right?

I don't need to fear them?

THE DUS MAHAVIDYAS IN TANTRA SADHANA

The Dus Mahavidyas, or the "Ten Great Wisdom Goddesses," are a group of ten aspects of the Divine Mother or the Supreme Goddess in Hindu Tantric tradition. Each Mahavidya represents a distinct manifestation of cosmic energy (Shakti) and embodies different attributes, ranging from the fierce to the benevolent. These goddesses are central to Tantra Sadhana (spiritual practice), as they symbolize various aspects of consciousness, transformation, and the cycle of creation and destruction.

The Ten Mahavidyas

1. Kali – The fierce goddess of time and change, often depicted with a dark, terrifying form. Kali represents the power of destruction, necessary for renewal and transformation. She is also the force that dissolves the ego, helping the practitioner transcend the material world.

2. Tara – The goddess of compassion and protection. She guides devotees through difficult times and leads them toward spiritual liberation. Tara is often seen as a savior figure who can ferry people across the ocean of suffering.

3. Tripura Sundari (Shodashi) – The goddess of supreme beauty and grace, also known as Lalita. She represents the energy of divine love, beauty, and creative power. She embodies the fullness of bliss and consciousness and is associated with spiritual attainment.

4. Bhuvaneshwari – The goddess of the universe or space (Bhuvana). She is the embodiment of the cosmos, representing the space within which all creation takes place. In Tantra, she symbolizes the realization of the unity of the self with the cosmos.

5. Bhairavi – The fierce and fiery goddess of destruction, similar to Kali but more directly associated with personal empowerment and inner fire. Bhairavi is the force that burns away ignorance and ego, transforming the practitioner’s consciousness.

6. Chhinnamasta – The self-decapitated goddess who symbolizes the cutting off of the ego and the realization of the void (Shunya). She is a symbol of self-sacrifice and awakening, teaching the balance between creation and destruction in the spiritual journey.

7. Dhumavati – The goddess of poverty, darkness, and death, representing the inauspicious aspects of existence. Dhumavati shows the devotee the reality of suffering and the impermanence of life, guiding them to transcend worldly attachments.

8. Bagalamukhi – The goddess of paralyzing speech and action. She is worshipped to gain control over enemies, both external and internal (such as negative thoughts). Bagalamukhi represents the power of stillness and the ability to immobilize obstacles in the path of spiritual progress.

9. Matangi – The goddess of inner knowledge, speech, and music. Matangi is associated with the power of thought, communication, and creativity. She represents the outcast and those who live outside societal norms, showing that wisdom can be found in unconventional places.

10. Kamala – The goddess of wealth, abundance, and prosperity, similar to Lakshmi. Kamala embodies material and spiritual wealth, showing that prosperity is not separate from the divine but can be integrated into spiritual practice.

Tantra Sadhana with the Mahavidyas

In Tantra Sadhana, practitioners engage in rituals, meditations, and mantras specific to each Mahavidya to unlock her unique powers and qualities within themselves. These practices often involve:

1. Mantra Japa – Reciting specific mantras associated with each Mahavidya.

2. Yantra Puja – Worshipping sacred geometric diagrams (yantras) representing the goddess.

3. Visualization – Meditating on the form of the Mahavidya, her attributes, and her qualities to invoke her presence.

4. Offerings – Presenting items like flowers, incense, and food to the goddess as a form of devotion.

5. Tarpana (Offering of Water) – Offering water to the goddess as a form of purification.

Symbolism and Significance

The Mahavidyas collectively represent a complete spectrum of divine energy, including the dark, the fierce, the nurturing, and the compassionate. They symbolize the multifaceted nature of reality and consciousness. Through the worship of these goddesses, practitioners aim to overcome dualities, such as good and evil, creation and destruction, or pleasure and pain, and experience the non-dual nature of the Divine.

Liberation from Fear: Many of these goddesses represent terrifying forms of the Divine, but their worship is intended to help the practitioner overcome fear and attachment, leading to spiritual liberation (Moksha).

Transformative Power: The Mahavidyas are seen as powers of transformation, both at the personal and cosmic levels. They help the sadhaka (practitioner) face and transform their deepest fears, desires, and ignorance.

Inner and Outer Wisdom: The Mahavidyas offer wisdom not just in the spiritual sense, but also in worldly matters, such as success, prosperity, and relationships. The practices associated with each Mahavidya lead to insights that help balance spiritual growth with worldly responsibilities.

The Dus Mahavidyas are powerful goddesses who represent the diverse manifestations of Shakti in Tantra. Worshipping these goddesses in Tantra Sadhana is a path to deeper self-realization, the transcendence of ego, and the ultimate experience of divine unity. Each Mahavidya has her own unique energy, teachings, and sadhana methods, and together they provide a comprehensive spiritual path for the practitioner.

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The whole "you're not valid/disabled unless you're diagnosed" is evil and it is killing people. A diagnosis does not make you disabled. Your disability makes you disabled.

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Common crystals and their corresponding Hellenic/theoi deities: a masterlist.

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Amethyst: Clymene, Circe, Eirene, Mnemosyne, Zagreus, Athena, Dionysus

Agate: Kratos, Ares, Demeter, Pan

Aventurine: Demeter

Aquamarine: Britomartis, Tyche, Tethys, Amphitrite, Aphrodite, Hermes, Poseidon

Amazonite: Gaia, Artemis

Amber: Aristaeus, Apollo, Dionysus, Hestia

Bloodstone: Asklepios, Tyche, Kratos, Ares, Demeter, Dionysus

Bornite: Iris, Hera, Persephone, Uranus

Citrine: Deipneus, Hebe, Apollo, Eos, Demeter, Hestia

Carnelian: Aglaea, Kratos, Ares, Hestia, Pan

Chrysocolla: Gaia, Athena, Artemis, Zeus

Celestite: Morpheus, Melinoe, Hermes

Coral: Britomartis, Amphitrite, Poseidon

Diamond: Clymene, Cronos, Theia, Aphrodite, Hera, Uranus, Zeus

Emerald: Artemis, Demeter, Hera

Fluorite: Iris, Persephone

Garnet: Asklepios, Kratos, Nike, Ares, Dionysus, Persephone

Goldstone: Aether, Hebe, Apollo, Hestia, Hephaestus

Hematite: Nyx, Heracles, Ares, Hades, Hephaestus

Howlite: Aeolus, Morpheus,

Iolite: Chione, Athena, Zeus

Jade: Demeter, Dionysus, Pan

Jasper: Aristaeus, Deipneus, Eos, Nike, Ares, Pan

Kunzite: Antheia, Hygeia, Aphrodite

Kyanite: Mnemosyne, Zagreus, Athena, Zeus

Labradorite: Astraeus, Coeus, Proteus, Nike, Hekate, Uranus, Zeus

Larimar: Britomartis, Amphitrite, Poseidon

Lapis Lazuli: Coeus, Athena, Zeus

Malachite: Proteus, Nemesis, Demeter, Hermes, Pan

Moss agate: Gaia, Artemis, Pan

Moonstone: Circe, Endymion, Proteus, Artemis, Hekate

Moldavite: Cronos, Heracles, Hekate, Uranus

Opal: Iris, Theia, Dionysus, Hera, Hephaestus, Uranus

Obsidian: Deimos, Nyx, Hades, Hephaestus, Persephone

Onyx: Melinoe, Nyx, Heracles, Ares, Hades, Hekate

Peridot: Nemesis, Apollo, Hermes

Pearl: Britomartis, Tethys, Amphitrite, Aphrodite, Hera, Poseidon

Pyrite: Aether, Apollo, Demeter, Hephaestus, Persephone

Quartz: Coeus, Circe, Cronos, Theia, Athena, Hera

Rhodonite: Aglaea, Aphrodite,

Rose Quartz: Aglaea, Epione, Hygeia, Aphrodite

Rhodochrosite: Antheia, Aphrodite

Ruby: Clymene, Heracles, Ares

Sapphire: Zagreus, Athena, Zeus

Sunstone: Aether, Endymion, Eos, Apollo,

Selenite: Endymion, Mnemosyne, Artemis

Smoky Quartz: Deimos, Nemesis,

Serpentine: Heracles, Apollo

Topaz: Aristaeus, Hebe, Hestia

Tourmaline: Melinoe, Nyx, Heracles, Hades, Hekate

Tigers eye: Dysnomia, Nemesis, Nike, Ares, Artemis, Dionysus, Hades, Hermes, Pan

Tanzanite: Athena, Zeus

Turquoise: Chione, Athena, Zeus

Unakite: Gaia, Artemis

Vanadinite: Eos, Aphrodite

Zircon: Asklepios, Ares

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Finally moving things around.

It's like every time I get my alter spaces set up, I need to tear it all down.

Its wild to see the progress though

Now I have spaces I won't share here 😅🤣

Thems my personal alters with whichever Gods are the most prominent at the time. As well as my alter to my ancestors and to Death.

But you do get to see how I move things around in my working space

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Had to have a mental health break. Slipped right on into psychosis after I ignored my intuition, then got Tboned directly after.

I had forgot my meds that day (was out and on the way to get them and forgot due to the accident) that triggered everything mentally bad.

Both me and my partner feel like we died in that accident.

Both of us remember the car rolling onto its hood ontop of other cars.

We both remember it.

But my drink didn't spill and my ducks didn't even move off the dash.

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This set me on a brain blah. So been listening to books and music doing personal readings.

Not been working that well.

I just keep getting the same thing. So I took it to a different reader. *sigh*

Tell me how it is I paid this woman that much for her to tell me

*I'm getting Underworld type vibes. But feminine. The Hozier album with Son of Nyx comes to mind. Seeing dogs and coins. Death is very prominent, psychopomp by Hozier keeps showing up. It appears there is a smaller deamon energy as well? Maybe the Greek Ferry man Chiron. Let's pull more cards.

I think its Isis and Osiris possibly Anubis.*

Then she ended it abruptly mid sentence ?

I didn't ask for a refund when I got a clearly AI reading.

This one was an obvious real person.

But it's for real. It's like she got to the Ferry man, forgot you need coins for payment and Keys for access? So she just told me it's Egyptian because she doesn't do Underworld workings. That's all I got out of that.

I need to find a worker of Hades specifically. Or any death worker. I feel a pull to Santa Muerte as well. So this didn't help me at all

I know it's death. The house of death. The Underworld. I just don't know the Pantheon. And everyone is just like

Use your own intuition

I paid you for you to use yours? Ma'am? Excuse me ? Why did you stop like that 🥲

I should of SS it. I saw a weird out of context comment saying to go to the bookstore to answer my question. Then she tells me to read the Divine Comidies. On the same day I saw that comment and went to the book store and considered getting Dante's Comidies, but didnt 🫠

Anyway heres some birds after the Sun Rise