poetryinspiredbyfandom

[poetryinspiredbyfandom]

Starting a trauma and LGBTQIA+ therapy private practice! Looking for support!

So, I've decided to leave my job as a clinical director at a large agency and start a private practice with a couple of my colleagues to support trauma survivors, LGBTQIA+ teens and adults and families. I'm looking for support to get initial startup costs covered so I can get started as soon as possible.

Any signal boosting or a few dollars you can send our way would be appreciated! Thank you!!

[poetryinspiredbyfandom]

i don’t know who i am

i don’t know what my role is

i don’t know how to live

i feel like i spend each moment just doing what i can to try to figure it out

all while never figuring anything out at all

am i here

i don’t know

what is here?

is it me

is it life

is it now

is it never

is it fate

is it anything

is it nothing

lost barely scratches the surface

more like screaming black screams into the night

while the sky swallows them whole

and i am left here alone

silent

i know there’s a point though i never seem to actually

grasp

what it might be

where do i even begin?

[poetryinspiredbyfandom]

I appreciate all the folks who have followed me on here. I've begun a long and arduous therapy journey and my poetry has evolved into more of an emotional journey than a Fandom one as a way to manage and cope.

I would love to share them but not sure if folks would be interested. Please like or comment if you would be so I can gauge interest!

Thank you and take care!

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Started therapy.

What’s something you did to get out your comfort zone this year?

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my soul, you see

it knows you

(I think)

it slides through time

(as it always has)

searching for what truth?

(this truth)

what are we but dust

from the same star

our blood running together

and our pain too near

let us walk this dark path

two travelers seeking the sun

we can find our own truth

as long as you let me keep

your hand in mine

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I would find every way to worship you

sweet words of peace

howled cries of pain

at knowing there is

never enough

(never enough)

that I could do

to make you love me

as much as I love you

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bring me to the land of sweet dreams

let me slide my lazy gaze

down the length of your body

drinking in the curves and

bow string taut muscles

that you call your own

how unfair it seems

the only way I can go

is to follow you there

in thoughts only

I would, if I could,

speak aloud this need

so it fills this space

we keep between us

and instead you could

take my hand

bringing me there yourself

how nice.

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Do you mean to say

that after all this

you’d still choose me?

I can’t see with your eyes

and don’t know why

or how

you might make such a grave mistake

don’t you know

what a piece of work

I can be?

I don’t get it.

Will you show me?

One day I might even believe you.

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well, hello.

you know, at some point

I just sort of

noticed

that there’s a lot about you I admire

in ways that seem

appropriate

like your wits, and your laugh

(but, then)

also the way your hair falls just so

and how your hands, and those fingers

(Dear God)

wave about as you speak

and then,

suddenly

I just sort of

noticed

I might be in love.

(with you)

(oh no)

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Only you know how

to crack open my ribs

and expose all

those horrors

in the hollows

and the gaps

I can’t say why

they lurk so deep

but I know they are

ready

for your steady hands

to reach beneath

my skin and

bring them into the light

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I care nought for the drama

of this world

Not when I can imagine

how your strong arms might feel

wrapped around my shoulders

The ache in my heart

will be filled with the scent

of your skin

against mine

teach me how to find peace

and I will teach you how to find love

Let us leave all these cares outside the door

to our hearts

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Howl your heart at the stars

and I’ll follow along

riding your screams

with the wind through the

black night

Our shadows,

they will dance and get lost

in the dark

and our souls,

how they will twine ‘round each other

like smoke

until the sun creeps

over the horizon

at

last

settling us like dew

among the flowers

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I wish I knew what it feels like

to be wrapped safely in your arms

feel the comfort of your heart beating inside your chest against mine

To know how your back moves as you breathe

and to feel the sweet hot warmth of your skin

I wish I knew what it feels like

To tell you the things I think

Every moment we are together

Instead of keeping them trapped behind my teeth

Until they spoil in the back of my throat

I wish I knew what it feels like

To let my guard down with you

Laugh at those things I know we shouldn't

Cry when my heart breaks

Welcome you into the me behind the mask

I wish I knew what it feels like

To tell you that I love you

And for you to say it back

Without having to hide it underneath words that come close

But aren't enough

I wish I knew

I wish you knew, too

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I was staring at your legs;

those shapely,

beautiful

parts of you

I never knew were so full

of what I needed

to be complete.

So I stared

oh, how I stared,

eyes walking those lengths

as one strolls a hot summer day

in the park.

How can it be

that I feel so compelled

to make art

about those

legs

of

yours?

it’s ridiculous.

really.

but not enough to stop staring.

(I mean--

let’s be real.)

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you have music in your soul

for I hear it each time

your eyes flash

the light of your smile leaks

all those melodies

you save only for me

play for me darling

alight upon my hand

like a songbird

freshly awake in the

early days of Spring

for the harmony that creeps

in the shadows of your footsteps

brings joy and life in a way

the requires

me to dance

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Bend your body

(that long, strong, beautiful body)

the one I know will be mine

all too soon

I can taste it

in the back of my throat

as your soul seeps down to my own

let them mix

(as they should)

in my aching hot core

‘neath the dark space

my heart once held

there’s a chance

(a good chance)

you might have what I need

in that body of yours

so let us try

dear heart

let us try

and who could possibly know

what might come

but perhaps

with some luck

we’ll find out

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I can’t possibly imagine

life without your

sweet hot blood

under that flushed skin spread thin

across your strong

silent bones

calling to me

howls so deep

they sink into my toes

this is my night

and you

are my stars