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aphmau

aaron

garroth

lucinda

kim

emmalyn / ghost

travis

katelyn

melissa

blaze

ein

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zoeymau is just what if we 😳 😳 kissed in the ruins of old phoenix drop after i sacrificed my immortality to drag you out of your time prison 😳 😳 (and we are both girls)

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what the hell is an “aphmau stories”

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aphmau characters ranked by how willing i am to visit a waffle house at 2 am with them

12. Ein

Ein is a garbage man, and will not be invited to Waffle House. 

11. Zane

Zane beats Ein due to not actually like, murdering anyone, but it would not be enjoyable to visit a Waffle House with him. He would bitch and moan the entire time and order a black coffee that he would drink despite it tasting like absolute hell to him. He’d make me pay for the liquid eyeliner he ruined after crying over his dirt coffee too. 0 stars.

10. Lucinda

Straight up would not go.

9. Garroth

Garroth is a nice lad, who would promptly rack up fees in both property damage and excessive waffle ordering. I am broke, and so is he, and as a result we would both earn a permanent ban from Waffle House. It would be pretty entertaining, though.

8. Kim

Kim is very sweet, but probably wouldn’t grasp the point of visiting a Waffle House at 2 in the morning. Which is reasonable. She’d pay the bill for me, but Ghost would probably harass customer service, so the night would still end with permanent bans from Waffle House for both of us.

7. Dante

Would hit on the customer service. As well as me. Definitely has at least one rewards card, though. Unfortunately Dante is just not that entertaining, and would probably assume that our night of Waffle House debauchery was a come-on. 

6. Laurance

Laurance would order an obscenely huge bowl of hash browns and attempt to throw them in my mouth so I could catch them like a trained seal. This alone makes him deserving of an invite, but unfortunately, Laurance has no money.

5. Kawaii-Chan

Would absolutely, without a doubt, eat an entire can of whipped cream and then vomit for half an hour in the shitty unisex bathrooms while I held her hair back behind her head. There’s also a fair chance of her straight up refusing to go like Lucinda. These things are not negatives, however - they are positives. Uncertainty is the spice of life, and rubbing a catgirl’s back while she throws up is a valuable life experience for anyone. 

4. Katelyn

Would call it stupid, would call me stupid, but would secretly have a wonderful time. Afterwards she would drag me into a nearby 7-11 and buy me gum. Happens to look fantastic beneath abominable convenience store lighting.

3. Travis

Travis would argue with me for at least half an hour about whether or not it was ethical to take someone’s moped out for a quick joyride upon seeing it in the parking lot. I would prevent him, and then he would construct an elaborate tower of waffles and lose at Rummy to me. Would also drag me to a nearby 7-11, but would make me buy him gum.

2. Aaron

Aaron would be a wonderful early morning Waffle House partner, if only because he would immediately understand what the point of going at that time was. The point is, of course, for this aesthetic, but also because the two of us lounged around in a depressive slump all day and hyperfixated on video games, and thus forgot to eat up until that point. More than anyone else on the list up to this point, Aaron would actually feel like a partner in this endeavor, someone who has a mutual understanding with me.

1. Aphmau

I am, admittedly, somewhat biased, but Aphmau would never in a million years treat a 2 am Waffle House excursion as anything other than a quest from God. This means bringing a tambourine and serenading me while I eat. This means dumping packets of arcane spices into her lemonade and attempting to drink the disgusting concoction afterwards. This means karaoke. Aphmau is entirely attuned to the philosophical and psychological relevance and importance of a 2 am Waffle House jaunt, and the respect she would treat it with is unparalleled. 

thanks for watching i am open to criticism but by open i mean i will laugh.

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aarmau rlly is just the chorus of i don’t smoke by mitski, huh. sequel to my previous post.

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im thinkin about how aarmau is just the mitski lyric if you need to be mean / be mean to me / i can take it and put it inside of me

it works in both directions. aph tends to sacrifice integral moral aspects of herself to make the people around her happy which of course does manifest as just grinning and bearing being jerked around by others - see, everything with kai in pdh season 2. aaron, on the other hand, hates himself and doesn’t think he has any integral moral principles, and given that he perceives aphmau as someone who offers him kindness and love he does not deserve, he is willing to put up with a lot from her if it means keeping her happy and him still loved. i like aarmau for a lot of gooey personal reasons and just because i think theyre really funny together but they both do need to grow a lot as people tbh. 

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michi just goes “i think i will cause problems on purpose :)” and i think thats very epic of her

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literally obsessed with the narrative position of ein as being a completely horrible, irredeemable monster who also just.... Exists in the minigames with everyone around him entirely aware of his crimes and how much of an awful person he is and yet he. remains there. i know this is of course because jess worked with chris, was like “this is a funny dude”, and kept him around as his character but it definitely supports my perception of the minigames as a sort of character afterlife where everyone exists when not furthering the narrative, aware of how their actions are not completely of their own volition. 

theres like, a lot of stuff i could write about how mystreet being a youtube series with the voice actors involved being Hirable Personalities reinstated for more lighthearted antics actually shapes the story being told in a really interesting way, from a meta perspective, but i HIGHLY doubt that would be a compelling read to anyone but me lol

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oh yeah, it definitely wasn’t intentional, especially at the beginning. i think by season two jess realized what she had unintentionally set up and delivered on it in some respects, but much of aphmau’s character was a complete lucky accident that i’m reading too much into because that’s what i do. i still really love it though.

her: what’re you thinking about babe 

me, internally: aphmau has always sacrificed everything to make other people feel less alone. her morals, her sense of justice, all of that she will throw away in an instant to protect those she cares about specifically those she acts as a mother for. her very first memories were of complete and total isolation and lacking understand and her frayed sense of self due to her amnesia brings her to pour every inch of herself into caring for other people like a mother. she’s endlessly empathetic and doesn’t want anyone to ever be alone like she was, she doesn’t want anyone to ever feel abandoned, and specifically takes on an incredible amount of duty and baggage for the sole purpose of ensuring that no one, especially no one young and vulnerable, has to feel the way she feels. her being dragged into the irene dimension and spat out fifteen years later is her worst nightmare come to life, as her children come to know her only through legend and story and went through the most formative years of their existence robbed of her presence and thinking she had either abandoned them or was dead. aphmau blames herself for everything and throughout the entirety of season two she is dealing with gigantic repressed misery over leaving alone the people who needed her most, and we see all of this culminate when she is the one abandoned, after aaron leaves her and lilith alone in order to get vengeance, and this pain she believes she “deserves” for abandoning levin and malachi entirely undoes her and every inch of strength and protective instinct she’s built herself out of comes crumbling down. diaries season 1 is a meticulous construction of aphmau, and season 2 is what happens when over the span of three episodes every aspect of that is ripped apart. 

me, externally: nothing 

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her: what’re you thinking about babe 

me, internally: aphmau has always sacrificed everything to make other people feel less alone. her morals, her sense of justice, all of that she will throw away in an instant to protect those she cares about specifically those she acts as a mother for. her very first memories were of complete and total isolation and lacking understand and her frayed sense of self due to her amnesia brings her to pour every inch of herself into caring for other people like a mother. she’s endlessly empathetic and doesn’t want anyone to ever be alone like she was, she doesn’t want anyone to ever feel abandoned, and specifically takes on an incredible amount of duty and baggage for the sole purpose of ensuring that no one, especially no one young and vulnerable, has to feel the way she feels. her being dragged into the irene dimension and spat out fifteen years later is her worst nightmare come to life, as her children come to know her only through legend and story and went through the most formative years of their existence robbed of her presence and thinking she had either abandoned them or was dead. aphmau blames herself for everything and throughout the entirety of season two she is dealing with gigantic repressed misery over leaving alone the people who needed her most, and we see all of this culminate when she is the one abandoned, after aaron leaves her and lilith alone in order to get vengeance, and this pain she believes she “deserves” for abandoning levin and malachi entirely undoes her and every inch of strength and protective instinct she’s built herself out of comes crumbling down. diaries season 1 is a meticulous construction of aphmau, and season 2 is what happens when over the span of three episodes every aspect of that is ripped apart. 

me, externally: nothing 

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rewrite aphmau finds levin

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mystreet’s been on hiatus so long i’m getting accidentally attached to rarepairs i never thought i’d like. shadmau rights!

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OH YOU KNOW

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it was rlly so good?? like jess’ worldbuilding was just wild with it, throwbacks to the old text system of doing things, great lore and wonderful atmosphere... it was just the most polished and clearly most passionate thing she had produced in a long time and i want s2 so badd

hello all i am a Mess and i am here to talk abt aphmau. 

honestly i cannot believe i am doing this. this is my life now. i thought i was done with this story but it has sucked me back in. once again. i am aphmauposting.

so, for clarity, some of my opinions:

god pls just. watch meteora valley!! it is in my humble opinion the best piece of content aphmau has ever produced, deeply and criminally underrated, i adore it, i think about it Every Day Of My God Damn Life. im love aph/phe and travis. i also adore diaries and miss it like an arm. i do not like mystreet season 5 or 6 and i will be absolutely vocal about that, thank you.

so yeah uh… reblog or like or comment or whatever if u wanna be moots, need ppl to hang with because i am dragging myself into aphmau hell once AGAIN . i will write analysis and force you to watch meteora valley at knifepoint if thats your thing!

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Yeah I watched mcd like as it was coming out and recently rewatched all of it and god do I miss it

yeah good lord its such a good show and i just... miss it sm. ive always got the feeling that jess rlly wanted to make more mcd but couldnt because it didnt get enough traction which is why mystreet seasons 4-6 are... what they are. man i miss mcd

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hello all i am a Mess and i am here to talk abt aphmau. 

honestly i cannot believe i am doing this. this is my life now. i thought i was done with this story but it has sucked me back in. once again. i am aphmauposting.

so, for clarity, some of my opinions:

god pls just. watch meteora valley!! it is in my humble opinion the best piece of content aphmau has ever produced, deeply and criminally underrated, i adore it, i think about it Every Day Of My God Damn Life. im love aph/phe and travis. i also adore diaries and miss it like an arm. i do not like mystreet season 5 or 6 and i will be absolutely vocal about that, thank you.

so yeah uh... reblog or like or comment or whatever if u wanna be moots, need ppl to hang with because i am dragging myself into aphmau hell once AGAIN . i will write analysis and force you to watch meteora valley at knifepoint if thats your thing!