pesimisticbitch

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I HAVE TO KEEP GOING

So I can be beautiful like them

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haven't been here in a while

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i have written 3 notebooks trying to understand myself, i still dont and i never will. I ignore the people i care about, i supress everything i feel beacause i feel so strongly and when i feel i want to kill myself. i hate myself. i either feel too much or nothing. i sleep so i have a reason to not be around anyone. i am a different person every day and everyone hates me for it, that is why i have no friends exepct arttu because he is like me and we have a common ground. i dont know who i am so i am who people hope i am for a few weeks and then when i am a different person again no one understands why and neither do i. i dont know why i am like this, i dont know why i hurt people. i dont know why i am so full of hate and anger. i used to have alot of friends but they thought i was odd and then they talked bad and now no one likes me. i dont talk to anyone. i resent myself so i sleep. i dont do anything i do on purpose. i am full of lies no one knows me because i dont know me. i lie about everything simply because i dont know the truth. i am stupid i have no goals for my life because if i think i will make plans that i can not achieve. i have no feelings for anyone, simply because i refuse to feel anything. people dont like me because they cant figure me out i have been asked "whats my problrm" "what is wrong with you". i am sorry for coming into your life.

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[pesimisticbitch]

stop war, have converstation

[pesimisticbitch]

⭐Vitamin Cheat Sheet⭐

Vitamin A: Vision, immune system, skin health.

Vitamin B1 (Thiamine): Energy metabolism, nerve function.

Vitamin B2 (Riboflavin): Energy production, skin health.

Vitamin B3 (Niacin): Cellular energy production, skin health.

Vitamin B5 (Pantothenic Acid): Metabolism, hormone production.

Vitamin B6: Brain function, mood regulation.

Vitamin B7 (Biotin): Healthy hair, skin, and nails.

Vitamin B9 (Folate): Cell division, DNA synthesis.

Vitamin B12: Nervous system, red blood cells.

Vitamin C: Immune system, collagen synthesis.

Vitamin D: Bone health, immune function.

Vitamin E: Antioxidant, skin health.

Vitamin K: Blood clotting, bone health.

Calcium: Bone and teeth health, muscle function.

Iron: Oxygen transport, energy production.

Magnesium: Nerve function, muscle relaxation.

Zinc: Immune system, wound healing.

Potassium: Fluid balance, nerve function.

Iodine: Thyroid function, metabolism.

Selenium: Antioxidant, thyroid health.

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You're talking like you have been trying to change yourself your entire life and it's never worked. I'm guessing you put on different personas when you tried to make friends, but you gave up after enough of the masks you wore were rejected by society. You keep thinking that if you act this way or look that way, people will finally love and accept you for who you really are. But the problem is you don't know who you really are, and that's the whole problem.

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I love her

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Insane im going to fucking kill myself

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I’ve lost 10 pounds in 4 days

🌸🍄reblog so it can happen to you too!🍄🌸

[pesimisticbitch]

How many times did you try to become small and failed? How many times you binged and told yourself that it‘ll never happen again?

Exactly. Million times. But you are stuck in that vicious circle, you will never make it.

Why don’t be consistent once? Just eat nothing when you don’t have to. Eat a small portion when you have to while avoiding other food completely. You will reach your goals fast af. Compensate the calories with a run. You know how to lose weight but your a lazy fuck. Get your life together and show a little self control. Be perfect, clean up your room, go for a walk, dont eat, plan your day. And stop the fucking excuses.

„Oh my family forces me to eat dinner with them“ fuck off with that shit. Say you feel sick or fucking eat sth with your family. And thats all. Nothing more. Small portion. Sports. Purge. Maybe prepare dinner for your family next time and say you‘ve already ate so much while cooking that you just don’t feel hungry anymore. They wont care anyways unless you’re super skinny. But guess what? That will never happen with your lazy fuck excuses mentality

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

NAW

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doesnt get better AND doesnt get easier cant keep lying to my self saying im gonna change im POISON i come from POISON i HAVE poison inside me i destroy everything i toutch THATS my legacy i have nothing to show for the life ive lived And i have nobody in my life whos better off for having known me

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I ALMOST GOT FUCKING OUTEDDDDDDD

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Me feeling hurt by things my mother says when she angry, but then remembering her parents hit her with a stick..

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my mom pretty much yelled at me for not hanging out with my friendss