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Single, Celibate & Over 40 🥴

Picture a tumbleweed rolling by as you stand there, shielding your eyes from the blazing sun, searching for any sign of an oasis. You scan the horizon, but all you see is miles of desert—barren, dry, with the occasional cactus as your only companion. This, my friends, is the journey of celibacy after 40.  It all started with the best intentions: reclaiming your power, rediscovering yourself, and…

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Single & Unhappily Celibate after 40

Being single and celibate after 40 can feel like an uphill emotional battle. This candid piece delves into the frustration, loneliness, and societal pressures that come with later-life dating and intimacy. It offers a raw reflection on the struggles of unfulfilled desires, while questioning societal norms and advocating for personal empowerment and fulfillment. If you’ve ever felt torn between…

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Single & Unhappily Celibate after 40

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Close the Door

Let’s agree to leave this behind, because the pain still lingers, sharp as if it just happened. Why does it still hurt this much? Why do the tears come so easily? Is it the sting of rejection? The loneliness of being left alone, a reminder that somehow I wasn’t worth holding on to? I feel like a walking advertisement for every reason they had to cheat and shatter our family. But were we even a…

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I Am Loved, Therefore I Can Love..🖤

Love is the most intimate gift we can give or receive, but the journey to truly believing we deserve it? That takes time. For me, it took what felt like a lifetime. For so long, I couldn’t grasp the idea of being loved—truly, deeply, without conditions. The road to this understanding was anything but easy. It was marked by heartache, loneliness, and moments of intense anger. I even turned away…

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Boudoir ❣️

Self-love is a powerful force, one that can transform the way we see ourselves and the world around us. For me, it has been a journey of rediscovery—a journey that has led me to some unexpected and beautiful places. One of those places was in front of a camera, during a boudoir photoshoot that, at one time, I would have never imagined doing. Before I truly embraced self-love, the idea of a…

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The Unspoken: A call for Reflection

I see the way you communicate, subtly undermining me and making me feel less than I am. It feels as though you’re trying to position yourself as more intelligent or capable, but in reality, your behavior reveals a deeper issue. Nearly four years have passed, and despite my efforts to support you and give you the space to grow, you’re still displaying the same level of immaturity. I wanted to…

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Touch: A Sensual Intimacy

Touch begins with the silent, charged exchange of glances. Our eyes meet, and in that fleeting moment, an electric current courses between us, igniting a deep, primal connection. Each look draws us closer, a magnetic force pulling our bodies into a shared rhythm. Our breaths start to align, slow and deliberate, as if in sync with the heartbeat of our desire. We inch towards each other, the…

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Embracing My Inner Spark: Self-Love

Self-love is a journey that many of us embark on, often without realizing it. For me, it’s been about embracing every part of who I am and finding peace in that acceptance. It’s about having the courage to face my flaws, not as shortcomings, but as pieces of a beautiful, complex puzzle that make me whole. The path to self-love isn’t always straightforward, but it’s a journey worth taking—a…

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When Does It End..

When does it end? The relentless brokenness, the never-ending heartache? I’ve always tried to lead with kindness, to come from a place of love and sincerity in everything I do. But now, I’m beginning to wonder if I’ve been the one standing in my own way, trying to force my life into a shape that God has been quietly telling me isn’t meant for me. I’ve poured my heart into people who don’t see…

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Have Our Souls Met Before

From the moment I inhaled your scent, to the instant our skin touched, I felt a deep, almost ancient familiarity—as if we’ve met long before this lifetime. Is it just in my head, or is this connection something real, something profound? Have our souls danced in this way before? There’s an intoxicating energy between us, an unspoken comfort amidst the chaos. Your hands, strong and masculine,…

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Nurturing Loneliness with the Love of Your Soul

Loneliness is a profound and often challenging emotion that many of us experience at different points in our lives. It can creep in slowly, like a shadow growing longer as the sun sets, or it can arrive suddenly, catching us off guard. Regardless of how it comes, loneliness can feel overwhelming, leaving us yearning for connection and warmth. But what if we could transform this loneliness into…

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Things That Make You Go Hmm.

There’s something profound about self-reflection that makes you pause and ponder deeply. I’ve tried various paths and activities, yet I still don’t feel fulfilled. I’ve explored different places and experiences, but they don’t bring me lasting happiness. Why am I doing this? I’m not lost or confused; I’m engaging in activities that keep me active and outdoors, yet I feel frustrated and exhausted.…

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My Journey with Food Addiction

Addiction comes in many forms, and for me, it has manifested through my relationship with food. I’ve come to understand that my struggle with overindulgence is rooted in an unhealed part of myself—a part shaped by my childhood experiences. As a young girl, food was often scarce in our house. I distinctly remember the fear and anxiety that gripped me when we ran out of the little we had. Hunger…

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H.E.L.P

Some moments feel like Hell on earth, while others bring a semblance of relief. Isolation was never the plan, yet it has become my lifestyle. I socialize to the point of exhaustion, hoping not to lose myself in the process. These are letters I don’t use often, but they have become pieces of the puzzle in this thing called life. With muffled screams, hair pulls, and pounding fists, my feelings…

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It’s On..

Our love is a sanctuary, an intimate connection so profound that no force on Earth could ever break our bond. The anticipation of experiencing your elegance and grace leaves me breathless. I already feel safe and secure with you, even though we haven’t met… or perhaps we have? That question lingers as I sift through the memories etched in my heart. When we touch, it will be like lightning,…

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It’s On..

Our love is a sanctuary, an intimate connection so profound that no force on Earth could ever break our bond. The anticipation of experiencing your elegance and grace leaves me breathless. I already feel safe and secure with you, even though we haven’t met… or perhaps we have? That question lingers as I sift through the memories etched in my heart. When we touch, it will be like lightning,…