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The Awakening

Have you felt it? That quiet, unsettling shift—like the world is both peeling back its layers and revealing truths we weren’t ready for. One moment, life feels predictable, routine. The next, it’s as if the veil is being torn, and reality is no longer hiding behind its comforting facade. The Illusion. I find myself standing in this in-between space—watching, wondering, and wrestling with my…

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The Energy of Love: Embracing the Lessons and Letting It Flow

There’s something about this space, this connection, that I find hard to let go of. Even as I reflect on the past and remind myself that we may not be in a good place now, the energy of it all remains so vivid—loving, forgiving, and safe. It makes me pause and ask myself: Is this love, or is it my hesitation to let go? The energy I feel is undeniable, though it ebbs and flows. It comes in…

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New Year, New Revelation: Trusting the God of Bigger and Greater.

The phrase “New year, new me”—what does that even mean anymore? For many, it’s a fleeting mantra, one that often fizzles out before February arrives. But what if this year, we reframed it? What if, instead of striving for a “new me,” we embraced a new revelation? A new revelation is not about striving or chasing change in our own strength. It’s about stepping back, reflecting on the journey so…

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In the Loop: A Love Story of Chaos, Healing and Hope.

Evening… It’s another night where the air feels thick with thoughts I can’t seem to escape. My heart circles the same story: loving a man who wants nothing to do with me. Every word I’ve written, every tear I’ve shed, feels like a verse in a song that never resolves. It’s chaos and confusion, yes, but also something deeper—an aching passion that refuses to be extinguished. I’ve asked myself the…

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Is This Really You?

Hey there, stranger. Preaching yet? Life has been…well, transformative. It’s been full of lessons, heartbreak, and blessings in disguise. Depending on how you look at it, I’ve been handed either a mountain of challenges or a treasure trove of growth. Honestly, I think it’s both. But through it all, I’ve learned to see things differently, to forgive more deeply, and to carry peace where I once…

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Breathe: A Life Lesson in Letting Go.

As the year winds down, I find myself mentally exhausted, as though I’ve lived multiple lives in just a few months. Each season has brought its own set of challenges, and I’ve learned one resounding truth: when I push against life—trying to control outcomes—the goal seems to drift further away. In those moments, I hear the whisper: let go. But it doesn’t stay a whisper. It crescendos, screaming…

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Dear Moms..When the Pain is Heavy: A Love Letter to Moms Who Feel Left Behind.

Dear Moms, I see you. I see your heart breaking under the weight of what feels like rejection, abandonment, and loss. I see the tears you cry behind closed doors, the questions you wrestle with, and the ache that never quite goes away. You’ve poured out your heart, your time, your love, and your soul into your children, and yet you feel as though they’ve walked away without looking back. First,…

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Mistakes: Unmasking the Truth

One of the most humbling lessons I’ve learned on this journey as a single parent is the weight of my own mistakes. Not mistakes born from neglect or apathy, but mistakes rooted in love, in wanting to give my children the world. Giving more than I needed at times. I realized I was trying to fill the gaps of my own childhood through them, giving them things I thought I needed at their age. I…

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Push Through

When life gets hard, we’re often told to “push through.” But what does that mean when you feel like you’ve already been pushing, and yet the challenges only seem to grow? In church, it’s said to “pray until something happens.” And I have been praying—still, it seems like things are happening in the opposite direction. Why? Perhaps it’s about my perspective. Maybe it’s a call to growth, to trust,…

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Shine the Light

Even in our darkest moments, there is always a spark, a flicker of light. It may feel dim or far away, but it never truly fades. No matter the circumstances, it continues to shine. With time, the broken spaces within us find their own kind of healing, like seals placed over wounds. Today, I realized just how much the way we start our day can shape it. Mindset is everything—focus on the negative,…

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The Heart’s Longing: Embracing Desire with Purpose.

My heart is awake, stirring in ways it never has before. This season, after so much waiting, is filled with a craving for something more — something lasting, something real. I know all things come in God’s timing, and I’ve trusted in that. But now, there’s a new spark within me, a gentle but insistent whisper reminding me that there is something worth longing for, something worth the…

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Shadows..

Life after divorce is like stepping into a world filled with shadows—illusions and deceptions cast by a broken past and unmet hopes. It’s easy to get lost here, where reality blurs, and the ache for love feels like an endless tease, something you can almost touch but that slips away the moment you try to grasp it. The shadowed places bring a longing, an ache, as if love itself is playing tricks,…

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Change..

Change is uncomfortable—until you’re tired of being tired. I’ve made every excuse not to prioritize the gym, knowing deep down it’s something I need. I look at myself in the mirror or in photos and feel disconnected, wishing I had the same drive as those who proudly honor their bodies. Instead of committing, I’ve convinced myself to stay stuck, holding onto reasons that only keep me from the life…

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Why Me?

“Why me?” It’s a question that so many shy away from, often silenced by the reply, “Why not you?” But sometimes, the question still lingers—pressing, aching, refusing to be dismissed with simple answers. When life feels relentless, like each moment threatens to shatter you, it’s only natural to look up and ask, Why me? In Prayer This isn’t ingratitude; it’s a genuine yearning to understand. To…

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Is Love Indescribable?

Here we go again. Unfinished business? Or was there ever any to begin with? Yes, my heart races at the thought of you. I find myself searching for you—on social media, in a text that never comes, in the quiet hope of hearing your voice. You feel distant, yet so close, and it’s confusing. Your words sound one way, but your actions… they don’t match. Are you simply a tease in my life, a whisper…

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What is Your Truth?

What is Your Truth?

Standing in front of the mirror, you trace the changes your body has endured—each line, each scar, each shift. You look into your own eyes and ask yourself: What is your truth? Are you at peace with what you see, or is there a sense of disconnection? Do you feel whole, or is there a part of you that remains unseen, even to yourself? What makes you feel? Is there joy? Or is happiness something…

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It’s Time to Let Go

Nicholas, there comes a time when we all must face the truth. You don’t have a real relationship with Cameron, and maybe it’s time to stop pretending like you do. I know it’s hard to hear, but it’s harder to live through it, to see you trying to act like you’re the father and grandfather you never truly were. You call me, not to reconnect with me, but because you need me to be the bridge between…