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Our Book of Memories; Han Jisung

genre: angst

word count: 0.9K

warnings: sad and gets sadder, mentions of drinking and getting drunk, manipulation, mentions of suicide

I recommend listening to A Book in Memory by Onewe because it’s what inspired this piece:P

Chan smiled fondly as he turned to the next page of his friends.

Jisung and Chan had known each other for a long time. The longest out of all the friends he had in college and it was a pleasant sight whenever he got to see Jisung again. They had gone to the same international school when they were younger and their families kept in contact every once in a while for their sake. Their families didn’t actually like each other though. They didn’t know why and it was better if they didn’t ask. As they grew older, they didn’t have to keep going through their parents to keep in contact which was a relief as their families could keep their distance now.

Finding out that they were going to the same school had them ecstatic. Minho ended up as Chan’s roommate which was disappointing because Chan and Jisung had wanted to be in the same apartment but not soon after Jisung had met Minho, it was like he was their other roommate because of how often he visited. He was comfortable around Jisung and treated him like a younger brother.

When Jisung and Minho had met for the first time it was awkward because of how opposite the two were. It was satisfying watching Jisung slowly bring him out of his shell and a month later it was like they had known each other for years. The two didn’t start dating until the next school year which finally ended the exhausting experience that their friends had to go through. Jisung would pine after him day after day and Minho couldn’t care enough to do the same. It took a huge fight between the two to finally get Minho to confess that he thinks he also had feelings for Jisung. In all honesty, this should’ve been the first and only sign that they weren’t going to be good for each other.

At first, they didn’t fight often, maybe a huge fight every two months. Then, once a month, twice a month. The group knew things were getting worse when they had a different fight every other week. After that, it was multiple every five or so days. It was worse when they met Hyunjin because Jisung would listen to Hyunjin and agree that Minho was controlling him. Maybe Jisung and Minho could’ve saved their relationship if it weren’t for Hyunjin.

Jisung broke up with Minho, which was the first shock. They all assumed that Minho would end things, because Minho was… well he was Minho. They never actually spoke about it though. It might’ve been their other problem because they would keep so many things to themselves. They were a group of friends but things always felt awkward and tense.

The next shock was less than a week later when Hyunjin and Jisung walked in claiming that they were together. It was baffling and hard to get used to at first knowing Hyunjin's reputation. Chan knew that people never changed but, like the rest of them, he said nothing of it. It was easier to say nothing and pretend like it wasn’t happening than to step in. Chan knew Jisung and knew that he wasn’t going to give in even if Chan tried to talk him out of committing to Hyunjin. But still, Chan thought of himself as a bad friend for not even trying.

The group noticed that the two wouldn’t show up to the things they were invited to. It wouldn’t have been a big deal but most of the time they would accept invitations and tell the group that they would attend. They didn’t even try to make up excuses when called out for it so the group stopped doing it. They missed Felix’s big dance performance, they caused all of them to miss Seungmin’s film festival, and they didn’t attend Jeongin’s art show.

Hyunjin knew what he was doing but Jisung didn’t. He was completely oblivious to the manipulation that he was being put through. He began seeing less and less of Jisung. Once a week at most. He could see their friendship falling through as the days passed. It was sad. They had known each other for so many years but this is what would drive them apart.

Jisung was too far gone to hang out with them by the time that Hyunjin had broken up with him. It was as if walking up to a group of strangers and sitting down like you knew them. The night Jisung called Chan he was so drunk that he was almost hard to understand. Jisung hung up not even five minutes into the call of Chan trying to figure out where he was to make sure he was alright.

That was the last time he heard from Jisung. There were many rumors that went around, he dropped out, he finally let his broken heart get the best of him so he ended it all. Chan hoped that he would move back home. Maybe he went back to the international school where they had met years and years ago. Chan hoped that Jisung found someone who could care for him as much as Jisung cared for them. He missed Jisung the most out of all of them and he was sorry that he introduced him to his first heartbreak.

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Our Book of Memories; Hwang Hyunjin

genre: angst

word count: 0.7K

warnings: sad and gets sadder, mentions of drinking and getting drunk, mentions of smoking

I recommend listening to A Book in Memory by Onewe because it’s what inspired this piece:P

He was almost shocked when he turned the page. It was hard for him to recall the face he saw.

Hyunjin wasn’t around for very long. At least, not as long as the rest of them were. The way they had met was awkward and though they laughed about it after it happened, it was no laughing matter at the time. A smile spread across Chan’s face just recalling it.

Hyunjin and Jisung were in a production together. A simple show that the school’s theater department was putting on. They had been rehearsing a fight scene when Chan came across them. He really thought that Jisung was getting the daylights beaten out of him. They were startled and confused, almost as much as Chan was, when he stepped in to put a stop to the fight. The older didn’t know Hyunjin that well so he didn’t know that they were classmates. He even tried to begin a brawl with Hyunjin for hurting his friend. Of course, things were cleared up and he felt a little embarrassed about it but in his defense, they were being really good actors and it didn’t surprise him that Jisung was out getting into fights with people he could not beat in his free time.

He started coming around after that. It was occasional at first but then, as if a switch had flipped, he was around just as much as the rest of them were. But, he brought his habits with him. He would convince Jisung to go out and get completely wasted on the weekends. It got so bad that they would even go out on weeknights when they knew they had classes the next morning. The group had never really considered smoking until Hyunjin brought it along. Chan would refuse every time he was offered, he couldn’t remember why, but the others tried it at least once to get Hyunjin off their backs. He was a pressuring person but the only one who actually wanted to try was Jisung and besides the first time, Minho didn’t let that happen.

Hyunjin was always one of the big reasons that Minho and Jisung would get into arguments. It was always his idea to go out and get so drunk that they couldn’t remember the night. If someone had told Chan that those two did more than just go to clubs then he would’ve believed it. Hyunjin’s name always came up in their fights, he was one of the main topics. Sometimes, he was on the other end of line with Jisung while they argued which would always get Minho worked up. Hyunjin convinced Jisung that Minho was trapping him, trying to control him, and didn’t want him to have any fun.

Chan knows now that Hyunjin knew what he was doing. He knew that he was the problem. Hyunjin was known for being with a new person every other night, sometimes not even that long. Relationships that lasted for less than a week and one night stands that could’ve been just a few hours long for all he knew.

When Jisung and Minho finally broke up, Jisung confided in Hyunjin. They got along even after Minho had left campus. Chan and many others were surprised that they were together for so long. But, because of this, Jisung got his hopes way too high. Not only was he fresh out of a relationship, Hyunjin never stayed in one. It wasn’t going to work no matter what they had done. It was a relationship that was destined to fail, if you believed in things like destiny.

No one was surprised when Jisung had told the group that they broke up. Chan had been the first that Jisung called the night of the event. The next day, Hyunjin was with someone new and it was as if he had never been with Jisung at all. He never came around after that either. Chan figured that the reason Hyunjin did what he did was because he was missing something in himself and was trying to find someone to fill that missing piece. That person wasn’t Jisung though so it wasn’t long before Hyunjin got tired of him just like all of the others. There was a part of Chan that thought that maybe Hyunjin just liked seeing the reactions of what he did to others and how he hurt them.

Chan didn’t feel sorry for Hyunjin. He didn’t hope anything for him either. He was a great friend when he was around but he caused a lot of harm towards all of them. They weren’t the same after he left. Or were they? Chan couldn’t recall all too well anymore.

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Our Book of Memories; Seo Changbin

genre: angst

word count: 0.8K

warnings: sad and gets sadder

I recommend listening to A Book in Memory by Onewe because it’s what inspired this piece

Chan turned the page with another breath.

Changbin and Chan had a difficult time when they first met. They were nowhere near being friends and they didn’t become friends for a very long time. Actually, Changbin bullied him when they were in high school. It’s not surprising as Chan wasn’t really one to stand up for himself when it wasn’t necessary and the bullying never extended past a push here or there. Maybe it was more teasing than it was bullying.

When it came time for college Changbin didn’t know anybody but walking into his first class as a music major… Chan’s face popped out in the crowd and what do you know he also happens to be a music major. And to Chan’s surprise, Changbin can be pretty shy when he doesn’t know anybody. Though it was slow, they became closer and after a while, Changbin began confiding in Chan. When things got tough for either of them they were able to find a way to cheer each other up. That was their friendship, however, Changbin would never admit that they were friends. It was surprising when he would think back to high school when Changbin did everything he could to make the day bad for Chan. He was just that type of person. Chan introduced him to their other friends and it was great. Things were good.

But, people never really change. Because with new friends, came new confidence. Changbin began making other friends which wasn’t a bad thing in itself, but these friends weren’t good people. He slowly started working insults and backhanded statements into his words. Belittling them and making them feel bad for seemingly no reason. Changbin started getting confused and offended when the group stopped inviting him to things and talking to him all together.

Felix took it the worst because of how close they had become in their friendship. Changbin started out with confidence issues which Felix also struggled with and this led him to get his worries out to the older. They got along well and were good for each other. Chan doesn’t know if they were romantically involved but it didn’t matter because they were happy. But, it started going south when Changbin took those talks they had and used them against Felix.

The last straw of their group inviting him to things took place when Felix was complaining that Changbin didn’t spend any time with them anymore and Changbin told Felix that he was annoying and that’s why he doesn’t come around anymore. Things weren’t looking up for the two and no matter how many times the group tried to confront him, he just acted like he was too cool to be friends with them even if he still hung around occasionally.

Chan remembered receiving a call late into the night sometime during the week. He couldn’t recall how long the group had been distancing themselves from Changbin but that night was the last of it. Felix was on the other end and was crying so hard that he was on the verge of vomiting. He tried to explain that he and Changbin had gotten into a fight and it resulted in him slapping the younger. He left Felix to break down by himself without another word. It was late so Chan let Felix stay over so he could do something about it the next morning.

Changbin had ignored all messages coming from Chan talking about the night before. He tried and tried to let him know that he just wanted to talk things out. When he asked their other friends to attempt, it seemed that he was ignoring all of them. They were blocked soon after. This caused Chan to attempt finding him for a face to face conversation.

He was never without one of his new friends who only egged him on to ignore or bully Chan. This brought him back to their days in high school. The fading memories that had him wary about becoming friends with Changbin in the first place. The same ones that made him wary about introducing him to his friends in worry that he might be doing the wrong thing. This reinforced Chan’s thoughts that people never change.

It was rare to see Changbin after Chan’s last attempt at trying to talk to him. He heard that he dropped out not soon after and he hasn’t seen him since. Chan hoped that Changbin did change. He hoped that he grew out of taking his insecurities out on others as he saw fit. But, Changbin was the reason that Chan stopped trying to help his friends.

People don’t really change. No matter how much you hope that they will. Changbin never changed and Chan was sorry that he never will.

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Our Book of Memories; Lee Minho

genre: angst

word count: 1.4K

warnings: sad and gets sadder, mentions of alcohol and being drunk

I recommend listening to A Book in Memory by Onewe because it’s what inspired this piece:P

Chan opened the book to find a familiar face.

Minho…

Lee Minho was someone who looked like he didn’t care and though he had his moments, no one really knew for sure. He acted like he was the only person to exist and did everything for himself. He wasn’t selfish but it was rare for him to do things for others unless it was convenient or helped him in some way as well. Maybe he was selfish… In his mind, he was the only one who deserved to be cared about. In all actuality, Chan wasn’t sure why Minho hung around them for as long as he did.

There was one time, though, that made him go back on his opinion of Minho.

They were walking to the business building together, Minho had an assignment due that night and he would make it just on time. He was always like this. He liked to turn his work in right before it was due because it was the most satisfying in his opinion. Chan tagged along so they could grab something to eat on their way back to their shared dorm. The older was trying to cheer Minho up. He was stressed due to the end of the semester and all of the work he had to do. But, he was insistent that Minho take a break every once in a while. However, Chan let himself get too carried away in his little dance for Minho and didn’t see the crack in the sidewalk. He tripped.

Chan insisted that Minho go turn in his project while he went to a nearby convenience store for some supplies to clean up his knees. He was ignored and the two went together. Chan tried to remind Minho that he would miss the deadline if he didn’t turn it in but still, he was ignored. To this day, Chan still doesn’t know why Minho decided to miss his deadline and help him. It wasn’t like the scrapes were life threatening. Chan wasn’t going to bleed out before Minho got back. But still… Minho stayed by his side. By the time the duo arrived at the building, it was closed and the teacher was gone. This was no surprise because it was well past the due date by then. Minho shrugged it off and they got their food like planned before heading back to the apartment.

Chan wanted to believe that Minho was okay. But, even though Minho never showed his feelings or let people know what was going on in that pretty little head of his, Chan could just tell that something was off. He chalked it up to Minho being annoyed about the missed deadline and tried to ignore it. But… he couldn’t.

The next day, Chan was startled when Minho slammed the room door closed upon arriving from his classes. He could only assume as to why but still, he asked anyway. This caused Minho to explain that the teacher was going to have him do a different assignment because he didn’t turn the original one in on time. The sooner he got the assignment turned in the better his grade would be. Chan didn’t realize it then but the turn of events the night before is what began the downfall of his friends. Maybe, not blaming himself was part of the problem but in all honesty he couldn’t remember everything correctly.

For the next couple of weeks, the only thing that Minho seemed to care about was his work. There were things he would put his attention on but Chan wasn’t sure if it was care or curiosity. Minho took an entire week to finish his new assignment, he spent hours and hours in a single day just working on it. Chan didn’t know what the assignment was about but obviously it was something big. Chan saw Minho sitting at his desk when he left for his morning classes and saw him sitting in the same place when he came back from his night classes. It was a repeating cycle and Chan wanted to break it but he knew how important it was for him to finish it, so long as it didn’t go on for too long then he really had no problem with it. It was Jisung that they had to worry about.

Minho didn’t leave that room for a week which didn’t land him on Jisung’s good side. It sparked many arguments between the two which were not fun to listen to. Jisung was passionate and dramatic and Minho was just… not. He didn’t meet Jisung’s energy which caused Jisung to become more upset every time he tried to start a new fight with Minho. If Chan was being truthful, it was a long time coming. They were very opposite from each other and though the saying is “opposite attract” these two could not handle it. Minho would rather be inside working than living in Jisung’s party life. The two, separately, were great people. But they just weren’t great for each other.

Chan recalled so many arguments that the two would have over the phone because Minho wouldn’t go out and party with his boyfriend and then he would get upset when photos of Jisung hanging all over his friends, drunk as all drunk can be, were posted. Many things made Chan think that Minho did care about Jisung but then there were many things that proved he didn't.

One time, Jisung was dropped off at their dorm and he was so horribly drunk that it was hard to watch. Minho spent all night making sure his vomit was making it into the toilet and then spent the next morning making Jisung breakfast and ensuring he went to class on time. All of this while Jisung was wailing about how he wished his boyfriend was there so he could tell him he loved him. But then there was another time when Jisung called Minho crying, Chan didn't know about what, and Minho did nothing but sit and listen to him cry. After what seemed like five or so minutes, Minho hung up and shrugged it off.

They broke up before the end of the next weekend. You would think that it would have been messy, right? But, Chan was sitting in the living room or their shared apartment when there was a knock on the door. Jisung had been behind it and he didn’t look too happy. Chan didn’t even ask why he was there and Jisung made a beeline for Minho’s room. It was quiet for a very long time before the door opened and Jisung left the apartment, crying. Chan tried to ask what happened but Minho wouldn’t say a word.

This had Minho focusing on nothing but his work. He became so consumed by it that Chan had to remind him to eat and shower. He was a mess because his work was all he had to focus on. Chan was so concerned for his friend because he couldn’t be there for him like he wanted to. He tried and tried but Minho just rejected it everytime.

At some point, Minho became fed up with the constant nagging that Chan did. He lost it. The two got into a very heated argument that had Chan almost in tears because he didn’t know how to help his friend. Chan remembered yelling that Minho didn’t care about anything but his work which led to him and Jisung breaking up. Minho told him that he didn’t care what Chan thought.

“That’s exactly my point. You don’t care about anything except yourself.”

Chan regretted his words now but in the moment they seemed right. Minho left the dorm for the first time that week and it surprised Chan. He was so exhausted from the entire ordeal that he went to sleep quickly. He wanted to wait for Minho to come back like he had when the two had first met.

Chan found it awkward to be asleep when Minho would return from the library so late so he would wait up to make sure he returned safely before going to sleep with his mind at ease. It ruined his sleep schedule at first but he didn’t mind it. He stopped when Minho began staying in their room to do all of his work. Maybe they could talk things out in the morning when the two had calmed down.

Minho wasn’t there when he woke up. Most of Minho’s things were gone too. The key to their shared apartment was hanging on the ring by the door. No warning, no note, no sign of him. Chan was devastated. Minho had blocked him and the rest of their friends on all platforms. It was no use trying to contact him. Chan doesn’t know where Minho is anymore or where he had gone all those years ago.

Chan hoped that Minho finally found something to care about.

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voicemail; hyunjin

genre: pure angst

word count: 0.8K

warnings: one curse word, just a lot of sadness

please listen to gravity by chase atlantic while reading this!

"h-hey."

a few muffled sounds could be heard from the other side of the line, as if the owner of the voice stumbled over something the moment the word left his mouth.

"i'm sorry for calling so late," hyunin spoke up again. "it's only normal you're not picking up, i mean it's four in the morning," he chuckled, his voice hoarse.

"although, i think it's a little naive of me to think that's the reason you're not picking up." another airy laugh could be heard coming from the man.

it was quiet again for a few seconds.

"i know you're seeing him now, y/n."

you swallowed, your eyes glued to your phone.

"and that is why i won't say anything about how i wish you would give me another chance," he took a pause before continuing, "about how i wish i was the one holding you close right now, the one giving you all the love you always deserved."

you blinked a few times, the grip on your phone tightening.

"you're not mine anymore and i should respect that."

looking away, you ran a hand through your hair.

"but i just want to know how you're doing."

you felt your heart skip a beat at the softness of his voice.

"i was wondering if you ended up taking that job you were always talking about. i-i hope you did. it really suited you a lot."

you shut your eyes as you felt a painful ache hit your heart.

"i think you took it. you never backed down for challenges, if you wanted something to work out, you would fight for it. i always admired that."

he was right. you fought for the things you wanted, the things you loved.

why did the fact he still knew you well, hurt so much?

you placed your phone on your desk as you sat down on the chair and propped your elbows on the desk, letting your forehead rest against your hands.

it was quiet on the other side of the line and for a second you wondered if he had hung up.

his voice suddenly interrupted the silence in your dimly lit bedroom again.

"i wish i had joined you when you were fighting for us."

it felt as if the words punched the air from your lungs.

you pressed the palms of your hands against your eyes to prevent tears from falling.

"i know it's not fair of me to say this now. i am sorry, baby," he softly spoke.

when you heard the name he used to always call you, you couldn't hold back the tears anymore.

memories of when he would call you baby flashed through your mind.

'you look stunning, baby.'

'baby, there's no one like you.'

'i love you, baby.'

"shit, i didn't mean to call you that. i'm sorry, y/n."

you let out a scoff. the damage was already done.

"how, uhm, how is your mother doing? i saw on your instagram she finally decided to take that trip through europe she always wanted to take. i bet she is living her dream right now. i am sure you're proud of her."

it felt as if someone was gripping your heart and squeezing it as you listened to hyunjin talk about your mother.

when you and hyunjin were still together, your mother and him always had a good relationship. he admired her a lot and she had often been there for him when he needed someone, when his own parents proved once again that they should have never become parents.

hyunjin cleared his throat and you could tell he was thinking about what to say. about what the right thing to say was.

"just tell me what is really in your heart," you whispered, even though he couldn't hear you."tell me if you want to fight for us again."

the silence on the other side of the line almost made it seem as if you were on a call with him and the words you spoke reached him.

"i wish you all the love and happiness in the world, y/n."

you ran your hands through your hair as more tears started falling from your tired eyes.

"i'm so sorry i didn't try hard enough to give you that love and happiness when i still had the chance."

his voice was thick with emotions.

"i hope in another universe i did try hard enough and i did fight. i hope in another universe i did make you happy."

a sob escaped your lips as you hands trembled.

you looked at his name on your phone as he spoke his last words.

"i hope, somewhere in another world, we did get our happy ending."

and with that the line went silent.

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Younghoon has so much to say but so little time. He just wants to leave his mark on this world. But he is alone. Younghoon's time is running out.

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my pronouns are he/him and i’m 18+

I’m a mexican artist and writer

the fandoms I write for:

KPOP

stray kids(ot8)

p1harmony

txt

seventeen

nct 127

nct dream

wayv(ot6)

nct u

ateez

the boyz

enhypen

bts

xdinary heroes

ANIME

soul eater

ouran high school host club

your name

erased

the promised neverland

blue exorcist

haikyuu!

BL SHOWS

light on me

semantic error

my love mixup

mr. unlucky can only kiss

until we meet again

bad buddy

not me

love mechanics

kinnporsche

the eclipse

history 3: make our days count

we best love

OTHER

voltron: legendary defenders

the owl house

the maze runner

over the garden wall

sweet home

miraculous ladybug

stranger things

little nightmares

coraline

I may have forgotten a few so ask me about any other related fandoms!! 

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