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A bit of an update

So you all have noticed I have been gone from this account for awhile now, and I feel there should be at least some explanation of where exactly I have been the past few weeks. 

So back around I would say February I started experiencing really bad panic attacks. My heart would race and I would get really bad tunnel vision before having to sit down from dizziness, because of this I’ve been secluding myself to only talking and being around fairly close friends as well as family. Personally I think the main reason I’m feeling this way is combination of having to get off my current medication since it was giving such horrid reactions as well as stress from planning my wedding in September. That being said because of the sudden spike of anxiety I’ve been dealing with I just been kinda sitting off to the side not really saying much and I apologize for that. Also I kinda just been falling out of this fandom. Do not get me wrong I love and will always love FMA but recently in past few weeks or so I’ve been noticing myself take interest in other things which is why I haven’t been paying to much attention to Lea. I do want to keep her account alive but I just think a much needed break is in order to feel refreshed in coming back here. Again I do not plan on leaving this fandom any time soon, but I believe a nice haitus would benefit me in the long run. Last of all is I need to spend more time with my family. On Monday if this week my father had a stroke which of course resulted in him being sent to the ER. I wont go into detail of what happen of course but I will say my dad is fine, although he’s not doing super great either.He’s currently on some medication but his balance is off and it hard for him to work right now which mean my mom is having to take care of a bunch of work at home. So for the next few weeks I plan on visiting my dad as well as helping my mom with her work and around the house until he makes a full recovery. I do apologize for being gone, I hope that sometime in the near future I can be as active as I used to but right now I’ll just be lurking in the shadows. I hope you all are well, and I’ll see you all soon. -Beary ♥

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ishvalanlancer replied to your post:            ❝ What did I miss?❞

((HOLY SHIT YER ALIVE HEYO FAM <3 ))

KENNA! EYOOOO! How have you been boo uvu?

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So yeah since I am here mutuals like for a starter ♥

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ooc; So yeah so I’ve been gone for so long....DnD kinda took over my life and been investing all my time in my character and the campaign I am currently in. Not to mention Im also working on my second wedding for September (I guess you can say vow renewal???? I paid for my venue before I got legally married soooo...)

So yeah that is why I have been gone, but I kinda want to come back so here I am!

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           ❝ What did I miss?❞

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five word prompts

[inspired by this]

“actually… i just miss you.”

“alright, i’ll leave you alone.”

“and slowly… i was forgotten.”

“and then everything just disappears.”

“and where do i go?”

“anyone could tell from here.”

“are you finishing that or…?”

“are you stupid or stupid?”

“anything, just call me, okay?”

“bitch better have my money.”

“bro… that’s so… not cool…”

“but did you do it?”

“call me now. it’s urgent.”

“can’t you listen to me?”

“cross that. don’t answer that.”

“don’t even think about it.”

“don’t you dare walk away.”

“do it. i dare you.”

“did you think i forgot?”

“eventually… you just move on.”

“even if you still do.”

“everything will fall into place.”

“fight me, you attractive stranger.”

“for once, i need you.”

“for once… i was right.”

“for once… i was wrong.”

“forget i even asked you.”

“forget it. you fucking suck.”

“fuck’s sake, what’s your problem?”

“fuck off. i mean it.”

“give and take. that’s life.”

“great. perfect. nice. fuck this.”

“have you lost your mind?”

“hello? it’s me. i was-”

“hey… that wasn’t so nice.”

“here’s a glass of whatever.”

“how about a hug, hm?”

“how about you make me?”

“i haven’t forgot you yet.”

“i can’t be around you.”

“i don’t need you, really.”

“i don’t need this now.”

“is this your first time?”

“it’s just a cut, really.”

“it wasn’t me, i swear!”

“i said i love you.”

“just don’t fuck it up.”

“just… come back alive, okay?”

“just make sure you’ve eaten.”

“kick his ass for me.”

“killed him? wait, what, literally?”

“life really sucks. feel better.”

“letting go hurts… a lot.”

“let me live, will you?”

“no, i don’t need you.”

“nothing can hurt me now.”

“nothing matters anymore to me.”

“okay it was me… so?”

“people lie all the time.”

“pipe the fuck down, asshole.”

“please, you can’t die now.”

“please don’t leave me alone.”

“quiet. they can hear us.”

“quick! give me your phone!”

“quicker, you freaking piece of-”

“quit it or i’ll bite.”

“quit staring! they’ll notice us!”

“really? do i look stupid?”

“real smooth, tripping over air.”

“rise and shine, sweet thing.”

“rise and fucking shine, motherfucker.”

“seriously? give me a break.”

“so… what are we now?”

“so… did you miss me?”

“so… can we go eat?”

“so… when’s the next flight?”

“so… how did everything go?”

“sometimes, i wish you died.”

“so what? you did it.”

“time passes slower without you.”

“then what do you suggest?”

“the fuck? who are you?”

“then you tell me why.”

“this is not working out.”

“this isn’t what i wanted.”

“this is all a fucking disaster.”

“when did it all happen?”

“who knew you’d be here?”

“why do i even bother?”

“why do i love you?”

“why didn’t you tell me?”

“you’re just… so, so stupid.”

“you can’t be here now.”

“you look like an accident.”

“you really need to go.”

“you know who to call.”

“zero fucks given. next please.”

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ooc; I need to come back to this account....

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Send my muse “👀 + a question” and they’ll have to answer with 100% honesty.

No deleting questions, either!

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          ❝ Not a whole lot to be honest....Although, you should warn us next time you go away for a mission for a while...It get lonely ya know? ❞

“So… what did I miss?”

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ooc; hey all Im not dead, just been dealing with personal stuff and just when all of that was sorted out I got a nasty fever, so yeah I’m still going to kinda lurking for a bit more!

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Just a PSA

Reblog if you don’t ignore rps and asks but sometimes it takes you a while to think of a response, or you only have time to answer a question or two before doing other things.

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ooc; I’ve been rewatching FMA and decided to FINALLY draw my other OC’s besides Lea. Meet Lea and Sawyer’s dad Dominic. He’s a stern quiet man who takes his job very seriously. Sawyer hates him because he never came to visit after the divorce but Lea just happy to have him back in her life again. He’s kinda of an ass but means well and makes mistakes and is currently trying to get back into his children’s lives since they moved to central.

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ooc; thank you everyone who gave me words of encouragement yesterday. I’ve been knocked around a lot and it felt good to actually talk about how I felt. I know that nothing going to change and my depression isn’t magically going to go away but I at least feel a slight bit better than yesterday. I’ll try to be here as much as I can, but I wont promise anything. I think I really need to focus on whats good for me right now and if that means that I only pop in when I feel good enough than that’s how its going to be.  I apologize for those who are waiting to replies, I just ask you wait a little bit longer ♥ 

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ooc; lol figures I’d loose a follower the moment I talk about my emotions...