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Suddenly I was 13 again and remembering how I felt about you and sitting in my closet crying because it felt so wrong to be around you so if I looked like you maybe I could feel closer, close enough to be apart of you and maybe you would finally see me as a worthy hand next to you or maybe just a prize to be put on your wall a plushie you don’t even have to touch but you love it so much that it goes on a special shelf and everything but I left that closet tears staining an already dark blue dress I thought would make me feel like me but I had never felt so cold and far away from who I left in the corner of that dark closet crying out perhaps someone would open the door but I didn’t know anyone I would want to see, god only know a if I’d had wanted to see you. I fear I’m still in that closet confused and hurt about where I went wrong. It was never what I did, I could atone for that. Whatever it was. the when is what leaves me frustrated.

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Daily ask your bf if you’re a narcissist because you overthink about yourself too much

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my niece showed me the lore for her ocs they’ve been making and they described the goddess as this beautiful being of light representing the sun and all that but she’s desperately in love with this witch who is, “ugly as shit (bc gay ppl)” and I can’t stop laughing she’s like 13

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The pipeline from Magnus archives to return of Obra Dinn is long and dingy and full of angry British lads

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my dealer: got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called “memento mortem” 😳 you’ll be zonked out of your gourd 💯

me: yeah whatever. i don’t feel shit.

5 minutes later: dude i swear i just saw a ghost crab set charles on fire

my buddy brennan pacing: the captain is lying to us

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The worst part about getting better is knowing no one’s waiting on the other side to congratulate you

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5minutes into playing disco Elysium and having to reevaluate my life after finishing a thought and hearing “All the gifts your parents gave you, all the love and patience of your friends, you drowned in neurotoxin. You let misery win. And it will keep winning till you die- or overcome it.”

bit too eye opening fam gonna try and snooze that one off

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But I’m sorry forcing you to look at a wound I kept open just to feel your remorse.

It’s sick and twisted but at least you were looking.

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Just finished disco Elysium but I have to replay it because I didn’t take any of the story in the first time and the ending didn’t have as much of an emotional sting as I would have liked it to