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ok i take it back i feel like shit and full af i hate myself and my life i’ll never accomplish anything

metabolism boost day🥰 ate a lot of healthy food today and didn’t binge on any unhealthy shit. my body is feeling so good how i wish i could eat like this everyday 🥲🥲

for reference, i didn’t have time to eat breakfast cause i went to school early, i had some sushi, ramen and gyoza for lunch and i just made myself a bowl of blueberry oatmeal. about to make myself a yogurt bowl even though i’m super full cause i’ve been craving it all week and tonight i’ll probably just have some weetabix or veggie burgers for dinner

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metabolism boost day🥰 ate a lot of healthy food today and didn’t binge on any unhealthy shit. my body is feeling so good how i wish i could eat like this everyday 🥲🥲

for reference, i didn’t have time to eat breakfast cause i went to school early, i had some sushi, ramen and gyoza for lunch and i just made myself a bowl of blueberry oatmeal. about to make myself a yogurt bowl even though i’m super full cause i’ve been craving it all week and tonight i’ll probably just have some weetabix or veggie burgers for dinner

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not when i'm like this

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one month difference

small difference but whatever still proud

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does sex burn lots of calories or just meh cause yesterday i weighed myself after having sex and i was 54.9

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just snorted ketch loving my life

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I HAD MY FREAKING FIRST TIME TODAY AND HE QAS SO NICE

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why r all my readers so inactive :(( hmu if you want to be friends i’m lonely

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tonight i have to have dinner with my grandparents i’ve been crying on and off for the past hour. i just want to die honestly

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listening to lana del rey while shaving my pussy what a vibe

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being self indulgent is so important sometimes. i don’t necessarily love the person i’ve become but i understand why i am the way i am and i forgive myself for this. you’re all trying your best and i want you to know that i love you and you’re still a good person, even on the days you feel like you aren’t

I feel like self compassion is actually SO much more important than self love. By self compassion I mean being able to understand yourself- why you do the things you do. To look at what you've done wrong and take responsibility for it but also to look at everything you've done right and take credit for it. Loving yourself is something to work towards but understanding yourself is more achievable sometimes.

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i don’t think people on this app talk about how your disorder takes over your life. it takes over every thought that you’re able to have. something switches in your head and months and months later you realise that this disorder is used as a ‘coping mechanism’. it’s not just wanting to lose weight anymore or wanting to feel the euphoria of seeing the numbers drop. it’s the distraction that this disorder supplies. i haven’t cried properly in months because my mind is constantly full with the voice of my disorder. my eating disorder coaxes the miserable thoughts that now lie deep within my head. it may be a good thing if you look at it in a certain light, but it’s exhausting. this disorder takes over your fucking life so please try to get out when you can.

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i’m back to 55 kilos after two months of being forced to eat. relapsing feels safe but i’m afraid my mother and my sister are going to notice and force me into recovery. so i’m scared but also like so calm?? i hate eds 🥲🥲

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i love bruises so much

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why does my whole body shake every time my heart beats

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yesterday i went out w this cute guy and i didn’t eat anything at all until dinner, and i regret it sm cause i felt like i was fainting half of the time we spent together and i just wasn’t there mentally and couldn’t focus. even if it’s something small, please eat something at home every time you have to go out, even if it’s just with friends, or you might miss the opportunity to have fun :/

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Reminder: abusive siblings are just as disgusting and pathetic as abusive parents and partners. And they can all choke.