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not normie enough to fit in but not fringe enough to lean into being a freak, worst of both worlds, pure liminality, just the weird coworker, and unrelatable classmate. and your mutual

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barbie and oppenheimer

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Fuck it. Moo Deng posting on main

© Khao Kheow Zoo, Thailand

By the way, her name Moo Deng are Thai words translated to “bouncy pork” which is a common Thai dish — as Moo means “pig” or “pork” (Thai language uses Moo for both pig and pork interchangeably), while Deng means “bouncy and slippery”. Thus Moo Deng (bouncy pork) got her name from her “bouncy and slippery” nature :)

Also for those who were wondering, here’s what the actual Moo Deng (bouncy pork) looks like as a dish

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Gender's a performance time to have fun with it

My personal theory about why queer people have a reputation for being weird and loud is that once you figure out that being yourself even in the most mundane and semi-normative way will piss people off you may as well throw off every trace of normative behavior and sensibility you don’t want because if you’re going to be hated anyways you might as well have fun with it

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This whole post is me btw. Weird-ass noises (growls/chirps) are way more common for me than echolalia and most people find it funny thankfully.

My psychologist said it would be good to do a test, but it's been quite dificult to find an expecialist in my country. So for now selfdiagnosis and inconclusive results are all I have.

friend asked recently how I knew I was autistic (late self dx) and after a joking answer of ‘five autistic people told me unprompted in the span of about two weeks, I settled on: I don’t.

I don’t Know that I’m autistic. What I do know is that my life makes more sense, and is easier to navigate, when I view it through the lens of being autistic.

I learnt what masking was, and started to undo the damage of 20+ years of it. I let myself stim for the first time out of joy and it was incredible. I recognised it as a regulation skill and started using it for coping. I stopped being cruel to myself about making ‘weird’ noises, I let myself ask for tone clarification from friends. I stopped thinking I was being rude by mimicking others (echolalia). I started respecting my own communication needs and differences. I started being able to communicate these with friends and loved ones, and had the language to do so. I recognised my sensory needs and was better at reducing shutdowns and meltdowns (which is also been confused by and blamed myself for in the past). I also could better identify things that were genuinely impeding on my life and ways to work with myself around them. (Social situations are easier now that I know what information I need before hand, and can prepare. I know what the difficulty involved in switching tasks is and can work with myself on it.)

Mostly I stopped bullying myself the way I’d been bullied growing up for everything that has made me ‘weird’. I stopped policing everything I did the way my parents had in an effort to ‘help’ me blend in. (I don’t resent them for this- I understand that what they did to me is likely what was done to them and they didn’t (and don’t) recognise it.)

Not a weird or broken horse, but a regular zebra.

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Maeve, the Owl

Nice picrew btw ^w^

do this picrew!

:3

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I wanted an eclipse god OC, but I think it has ended as a self portrait with a bit of OC.

Made with pastels, black and red colored pencils and a mechanical pencil.

The photo colors were dull, but now I altered it and the drawing has become way brighter than it was... How do yall take good pictures?

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I was feeling agitated and artblocked yesterday so I decided to give my brain a rest by watching TV and then the next thing I knew these were in front of me

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Tried to sketch a pixie hollow oc while watching demon slayer, the result was interesting... What a battle scene does to a motherfucker

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The joke that the bats see their contingency plans as a form of love is super fucking funny, don't get me wrong but honestly they probably do see it as that cause they just forget to say the second part out loud.

"after I've taken you down, obviously I'd find whatever made you like this and then find the cure."

They come from gotham where mind altering substances are basically everywhere. One of the most profound ways a gothamite could say 'i care about you' is admitting to having a plan to disarm/capture you in the case you go off the deep end, so that they could then get you a cure.

Unfortunately for the bats, no one else thinks like that cause what the actual fucks guys

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I hope he know how loved he is... Maybe he does and follow me around to say he loves me too

I wonder if they know how loved they are

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Heterocromia and pointed ears, if I can get spikes like the graveborns will gladly take them too

ok I am curious

AFK-ers, do you headcanon anything for your magister’s appearance that the in-game mechanics don’t allow yet?

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Nobody was doing it like Mary Magdalene. Tits out. Standing on a mountain. Holding a skull. She’s like the lesbian catholic hamlet. Aesthetically an absolute win for the gays.

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Such a distinguished gentleman

Occurred to me that I never told his name to you guys, it's Apollo (Arty for short)

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Merlin deserve to have boy/girl failure energy. Also, Mirael and Hogan deserve to be a little moronsexuals (Even if Merlin's the embodiment of magic itself)

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Guys, how do I know my server in AFK? In trying to convice my irl friend to play, but I don't know how to put her in my server...

Please someone help T_T

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I painted my bunny biting the sofa pillow

The muse