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“Weil du gar nichts verlangst, hast du alles verdient.”

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“As long as you’re trying, I’m staying.”

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One Hour Photo (2002)

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I snapped.

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At this point it doesn't even matter what I am doing, everything feels wrong.

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Wenn du schlafen warst und morgens nicht wieder alles gut ist weißt du, dass du ein wirkliches Problem hast.

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I am so scared of losing my boyfriend that I overthink the whole situation and am worried 24/7. There goes not a week without being scared that he will leave me or I will leave him.

It's so confusing, I love him, like really, noone makes me as happy as he does. But I can not think of a future with him anymore. I am just not convinced that I will stay with him that long.

I don't know if this should concern me or if it's a sign for me to break up with him. I don't know anything at all so I just keep going. I'm getting used to this feeling. I just ignore it until I talk to him again because when I talk to him I am happy.

I wish I would know what to do.

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I just came to the shattering realization that in like 20 years I won't have contact to most of the friends I have now. Maybe to none of them, maybe not even to my boyfriend. Since I lost my Ex-bestfriend, my literal soulmate, I am so scared of losing people that I distance myself from everybody while also getting attached to soon. I am so scared to be alone that I am a not able to have a normal friendship with anybody.

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You.

It's been less than 5 hours since we said goodbye and still I'm laying in my bed, crying my heart out about whatever is fucking me up right now. I don't even know anymore.

I just know that you made everything easier.

You hold me when I had fallen and gave me the power to get up again.

You are the light in my darkest times and because of you I am not afraid of the dark anymore.

But now you are gone for the next 2-3 month again and I don't know how to get through this time.

I am too weak to get up by myself.

Your hugs give me hope.

Your odor makes me feel safe.

Your smile makes my heart light up.

I need you by my side.

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lgbt flag scenery edits for pride month! (original images belong to their respective owners!)

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“Du ahnst garnicht, wie gut du mir tust.”

— (via stillesgeschrei)

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“don’t be afraid of losing people, be afraid of losing yourself trying not to lose someone else.”

— (via liebeficktunsalle)

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“Sometimes people just want to be happy, even if it’s not real.”

— Veronica Roth, Insurgent (via thoughtkick)

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“Immer wieder holt es mich ein.”

— stillesgeschrei (via habdichverloren)

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“Ich hab’ ‘ne Zeit lang mal gedacht, dass uns’re Freundschaft ewig ist!”

— Vist, Es tut mir leid (via habdichverloren)

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“You look like an angel but I know you ain’t one.”

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Unknown

(via quotefeeling)