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poetry

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So, I have a fear of losing people and being the last to die. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk…

No just kidding, I find myself having frequent panic attacks when I can’t attend something or my friends don’t invite me to something. Anxiety sucks. I get self conscious if my other friends are going somewhere without me and just generally being alone scares me.

I regret arguing with anyone I argue with even if I know I’m right. I’m really scared my friends or people in my life will leave me and I won’t be able to get them back. The thing I hate about myself the most is the fact that I couldn’t tell anyone this in person because I’m too much of a “they aren’t going to like me if they know I have feelings” person.

thanks for listening.

also I’m here from @monsterofcampblood

“thanks for coming to my ted talk” lolll

i absolutely love your longing for connection. that’s so important and human and just such a lovable characteristic in a person.

the people that you feel aren’t going to like you if you express what you feel, i hope these are people that reciprocate your desire to connect. if not, the anxiety isn’t worth it. although, that’s obviously easier said than done 100000%, you just seem like such a genuine person and deserve meaningful connections with others.

i had times where i felt like that, too. i used to actually wish people didn’t invite me places because, you know, people have snapchat and need to take picture at every moment, so i didn’t want people to take pictures of me because i hated the way i looked. YET, of course, i still wanted to have friends, have meaningful connections, but i was cutting off those opportunities like the dumb fuck i am.

i admire your courage to connect with people and i know you’ll figure it out and find amazing people because they exist!!! just like you exist and life is so fucking awesome because of that.

sending my love to you.

🖤🤍

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just wanted to share this badass pic of mr moog

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me. me when a poem says something ive felt before

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The thoughts they're afraid of:

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i’m watching gossip girl for the first time and why did nobody tell me the soundtrack is absolutely excellent

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This is just an amazing capture.

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Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

The original post only has US helplines. I’ve added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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i refuse to be bashful of my loser era

Love you guys it's ok to be lonely and sort of feel like you're in your loser era lol the ups and downs are proof we are alive and not just coasting

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i love telling people "godspeed" it adds so much weight and dignity to everything i'll say it to a friend driving cross country or a coworker grabbing lunch from the corner store like good luck bitch!! may the road rise to meet you and the wind be at your back!!!

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I often wonder how you’re doing, you’re always a message away but I know it would be selfish of me to reach out.

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“Old movies are secondhand dreams.”

— Pablo Neruda, from “Ode to a Village Movie Theater,” Selected Odes of Pablo Neruda (California Press, 1990)

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Rirkrit Tiravanija

Untitled 2017 (fear eats the soul)

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let your soul breathe

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