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girl I LOVED your alternate ending!!! I hope you would plant some doll's-eyes at my grave, my favorite flowers would be a haunting reminder!

frankly ive never been so open about my fetishes to a stranger, but I'm tempted to jot down another fantasy once my usual hypochondria attack fucks off

oviposition/egg laying isn't normie territory here, right? It'll still be evil & nasty femdom [I don't write much else]

<3 room temperature regards,

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My thoughts below

Thank you!!!! I think doll's eyes are perfect, especially given their poisonous nature to humans. Some sort of metaphor or symbolism for the way I poisoned my poor creature's mind and body...

I'm glad you feel comfy to share here, 🧬anon. :3 I'm sorry to hear about your hypochondria attack. Hopefully you're feeling better now.

Oviposition is one of those things I've never really explored much! Definitely not normie territory, haha. We <3 evil, nasty femdom in this house. Grace us with more fantasies, 🧬anon!! ^_^

P.S. I love the idea of having a dedicated emoji anon. :3 how exciting!! I <3 u, 🧬anon. c: !!!

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i just feel disgusting all the time and i hate it so so much

My thoughts below

🫂 sending hugs your way, if you're comfy with that.

Feel free to dive deeper into what's troubling you. This is a safe space, love.

I assure you, any thoughts you have are not harming anyone or anything. Thoughts are just thoughts. We can think any number of horrible things without acting on them. If you treat your fellow creatures with respect and such, I'm sure you are doing just fine.

But feel free to share if you want. Good luck, anon. Stay safe. ❤️

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Tw sui ideation

Sometimes I wonder if the reason that I’m a thanatophile is because I would think about dying so often that my brain decided “okay, this is going to make you hard now” as a coping mechanism.

If only I had actually been treated right. They just threw a bunch of SSRIs at me and didn’t care that I just became drowsy and nothing else. Instead of assessing and trying to treat my fairly obvious PTSD symptoms.

Yeah. Anyway, guess I can’t fault my brain for its own coping mechanism? Given that the doctors failed me?

My thoughts below

I'm sorry that the doctors sucked for you, anon. ): I think it's definitely possible that your brain made that decision in a way to protect you?? Or something? Maybe your brain was like "hey, if we're attracted to this thing, maybe it will manifest in sexual fantasies, rather than actually killing us" ? Lol. Isn't the way we're wired silly? Good luck with everything, anon. May you get proper treatment for your PTSD symptoms. 🫶

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Idk if this is a really unpopular opinion, but I wish that people could put trigger warnings on graphic posts about minor/adult relationships. Even if they're SFW, if they go into detail about physical actions or things like stalking, I think they should have a trigger warning. Of course, it's not wrong to fantasize, it doesn't hurt anybody. But that doesn't mean it isn't very triggering for some people to hear. I think it's kind of wrong to make those posts on any broad tags without a trigger warning. I'm a gurophile, and I think the same of violent fantasies. It would be wrong to post explicit gore on the #paraphile tag without a trigger warning because it's a well known trigger. Trigger warnings aren't an insult, they're an accessibility tool to protect the mentally ill.

My thoughts below

I'm not sure, I don't think it's an unpopular opinion? Maybe a little bit in the radqueer/para community, because, sometimes, it's just talked about really openly here. I agree, tagging things so ppl can avoid what they don't want to see is important. Please let me know if I need to tag things differently or better than I have been. I'm pretty bad at tagging, so I'd love some advice!

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TW: medical play, dehumanization, death

one of my most vivid fantasies [key word, fantasy] is being the captive test subject of a gorgeous and insane woman. at first, she'll gently put me under the knife and rewire my brain to be more docile to her further modifications. I may become confused and forgetful, but additionally, an affectionate lapdog to her, as no other face is familiar anymore. in fact, the others likely presumed my death by now.

then the physical changes. she hijacks my biology, engineering it to her sick liking. my heart struggles to sustain a body so incapacitated by the woman's alterations. my vision is warped, and I can only drag myself on the floor and whine in unintelligible suffering. she feeds me by hand, and I cling to her with my entire adoration.

a few months pass until spring. lately, my love hasn't visited me in her cellar as often. without her gloved hand to occasionally get me off, I've been left humping against the bars of my cage and soiling the bedding. I have become a chore to her. she no longer smiles when she sees me, despite my best efforts to please her.

one morning, before the sun, she comes downstairs. despite how she scolds me for my messy condition, I crookedly smile and crawl to her boots. she attaches my leash and takes me outside, into the back of her pretty red car.

after such a long drive, we stop at a wooded area, the sun beginning to rise. I hadn't been out in so long, let alone on a hike with my lovely girl.

she drags me through the trail, she must be eager to get there. once we're deep in the woods, she sits me in the grass and takes a final, revolted glance at me. she says she is disgusted of what she's created.

I feel a pinch on the side of my neck, and as my consciousness fades, I watch her walk back the other way. I will be patient for her. when they find me, a dead and disfigured thing, will they know it was once human?

long story short, I might be crazy, especially because I typed that while shoving pizza into my mouth with the other hand

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My thoughts below

I may be crazy too because this sounds like a cute twisted love story that I would read the fuck out of. Maybe a small part of me would want to be the insane pretty lady, too. ^_^

Except in my version, I become attached to my pitiful creation, feeling a twinge of guilt for what I've done. I'd take the best care of the ugly thing, I might even experiment more to see if I can undo anything that I've done. Make it more bearable to look at, make it easier for it to move around... But when everything has failed, the time has come to put it out of its misery. Instead of some remote location, I take it out back in my yard. I smash its head in, like you would a suffering animal that's been struck by a car, putting it down once and for all. Then I bury the body in my garden, and, being attached to it as I am, make a little flower bed over the dirt that covers my mistake.

I hope you liked my contribution lol. Thank you for sharing your fantasy, anon. :3 I enjoyed reading it.

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I'm so bad at remembering to come on here daily. 😅 Forgive me. 😭

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I’m a urophile with contamination OCD. I hate myself and everything I am.

After indulging in my para, I then have to go clean everything. By hand. Immediately. I feel like I do, at least. I hate this. I always say that I’m never going to do it again. Ever. Because I’m always feeling like I’m going to have a panic attack afterwards. And then I go back to it when I want to get off.

Why did I of all people end up with this para? Someone who has had panic attacks in public restrooms because they felt unclean. What is wrong with me.

Fuck OCD. Fuck being a urophile. I hate this so much.

My thoughts below

I'm sorry. ): *gives you a big hug* do you have a therapist for your OCD? Maybe if you disclose your para, they could help you find alternative ways to indulge in your para without triggering your OCD? I'm not sure. It sounds very difficult. )': good luck, anon.

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previous asker here, im the one who recently discovered I'm a n*crophile. i did tell my partner about it because i wanted him to know and he was really nice about it, he told me that he was here for me and that he isn't going to break up with me. he doesn't want me really talking to him about any specific details because it's a little triggering for him but he does want me to come to him when i need comfort so im feeling a little better about the whole thing

my thing now is wondering if it's okay to get some of these urges out by watching horror movies, since it's not real. i would think that would be a good coping skill but im not really experienced with any of this so

My thoughts below

That sounds like a great idea to me!! Coping with fictional content is pretty common for most paras methinks. :3c I'm happy your partner was able to be there for you!! Good luck with everything, anon 🫶

Y'all's thoughts?

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I always get really turned on when looking at gore and always wanna conflict it onto myself in a way,,,,I feel like I would also wanna just the bodies,,I been feeling really bad for thinking the way I do but uggh

My thoughts below

Just be safe !! ❤️ It's ok to explore kink and sexuality in "harmful" ways, when you inflict pain or injury on yourself or consenting partner(s). Try to be as safe as possible, though. Research and recognize the risks, be prepared for the worst... Yeah, just be careful! But exploring that side of yourself can be fun and exciting. It's important to know yourself and your limits, and trust whoever you may practice with. Have safe words. Etc etc. ^_^ good luck, stay safe!!

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Traumaphile confession

I’m sometimes scared I’ll never genuinely recover. How could I? If I’m literally turned on by some of my PTSD symptoms? Why am I like this? Why?

I sometimes wonder if I don’t actually *have* PTSD. If I’m faking it for sexual gratification. But I wouldn’t do that. It makes my life hell otherwise.

My thoughts below

You're struggling with a lot of self doubt, anon. Have you considered talking to a therapist about any of this? Maybe some coping skills and some kinder self-talk is what you need. 🫶 Recovery takes time. Have some patience, and don't beat yourself up over how you cope right now. There is absolutely nothing wrong with getting sexual gratification over "darker" things. So don't let anyone shame you. Sometimes, expression through sex is just how we cope. Or how we learn about ourselves. Try to be nice to yourself as you figure it all out. I believe in you!! ❤️

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i discovered today that im a n*crophile. im so scared of what this means about myself, and scared about losing my loved ones as a result. i wish i wasn't so so bad but i can't do anything about it

My thoughts below

It going to be okay, anon! 🫂 Try not to beat yourself up. You cannot control these feelings. If you have urges, sit with the feelings and recognize that you have all the control. You do not have to act. You don't have to tell anyone until you're ready, and if you never do, that's also okay. Personally, my partners know, because I implement kink related to my paras into our sex life. But it's not necessary to do anything about it, if you don't want to. Remember that shame will only make the feeling to act worse, so try to be patient and kind to yourself. You got this!!

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(nsft!) being transage n little n looking at 🍭 👀 😋😋😋 im not sposed to be looking at stuff like this!! >_< how inapropro! im bein so bad! >///<

⚠️ NSFT/W WARNING ⚠️

My comment below

Is 🍭 for lxl! ?? Sorry to have to censor. 😒 As long as it's fictional, you're ok!! Imo, kids and teens, transage or cis, should be able to look at certain spicy stuff if they desire to. I did?? It's natural to be curious. Stay safe, though!!

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I am freshly (turned 18 2 weeks agk) an adult, and I want a minor partner, like 16-17, but that feels weird to say. why are dating apps all people 20+, id rather be with someone 2 years younger that 2 years older, im still in highschool and I don't want to date someone in college. Does that make me a pedophile? I do not want to date anyone 18 or older. i feel no attraction for anyone my age, it feels weird.

My comment below

I'm not sure... Maybe you just see yourself younger still? But it's not like dating someone a year or two younger than you is bad. I don't think it makes you a pedophile, because maybe you will grow out of it?

Anyone else have thoughts for anon?

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Sorry again for being away 😭

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Wait, lemme resend that and censor the word so you don't get in trouble. I hope ppl get what this emoji means, I can't think of a soundalike so idk what else to do

I HATE that my favorite 🧸 is from a relatively small fandom. Not so small that people would definitely know what it means, but small enough they might be able to put it together with other details about me. HE'S SO SWEET AND SOFT AND CUTE<3 I was SO upset when I first found out he was 15, but now that I'm a pro-para proshipper, I'm okay selfshipping with him! IF I COULD POST IT ANYWHERE!!

He's insecure about his age and not being taken seriously for it, which makes the idea of him dating an adult even more interesting. (Could also have transage headcanon potential, if you wanted to.) I'm also an agefluid age regressor, and I think it would be SO cute when he was older than me. I bet he'd enjoy that a lot >///<

My thoughts below

Anon, you're so real. You can always self-ship in my inbox and tell me not to post it! I'm also comfy revealing my main account is @flesheaterzomb, if you ever wanna dm me feel free!! Idk what it is about 🟢 boys, but they're so freaking cute !!!!!! I tend to be attracted to femme people and women, but fuccckkkk...... 🧸s have my heart. Irl & in anime/shows haha 🫶 freakin (ficto-)🗺️ struggles. T-T

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I might be an ephibophile?

Most of my life after aging past early teenhood, I've been trying to push the thought away every single time it comes out. I blocked it out so much, I didn't even think of myself when I started being pro-paraphile, I was just thinking that I was an ally to paraphiles and MAPs.

It's hard to let go of a lifetime of associating paraphilias with abuse, and I can't deny I still feel creeping dread when I consider this might be true. There's traits I prefer in adult men because I'm generally attracted to teenage boys, like longer hair and less facial hair. I also like teenage male characters.

I try my best to avoid teen boys IRL. I would never even dream of doing something like touching a minor, but I fear I might stare or accidentally flirt if we spoke, which is still harmful.

I know I'm not hurting anyone, but I still feel a bit disgusted with myself writing this. I even still break down sometimes thinking about the fictional boys I like, fearing I'm doomed to hurt someone some day. I hope I get over it soon. I'm jealous of people who can accept their paraphilias. I guess I just need time.

My thoughts below

I feel this so bad. But you are certainly not doomed to offend, anon. It's going to be okay.

Also, flirting and looking is harmless! Like yes, flirting can cross a line, but it's important to remember that you can be kind to someone and come across as flirting without actually having any romantic intentions. And if you are kind and you did feel your heart flutter or whatever, that's fine!! You are not harming someone by talking to them or interacting with them, given the interaction is appropriate. And the only one making it inappropriate is you in your head because of your attraction. Anyone else looking in on that interaction would probably think nothing of it. I hope that makes sense. I, of course, do not condone abuse or intentionally seeking out minors to flirt with, but should it happen, unintentionally, I think that's not a bad thing really. Maybe I'm biased, idk!

Thoughts, everyone?

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I have nowhere else to say it,, I haven't ever said it anywhere else,, but,, I might be a monkey/ape zoo,,,,,, and maybe a squiriphile,,,

I know it's not really bad or anything, but I'm not at the point of self-acceptance yet,,,I can't help feeling like I'm really wrong or a bad person for even considering it. I know it's not, I guess it's just because of how the media portrays zoos,,

I'm jealous of zoos who can be proud of it,,,at the same time, I feel scared of embracing it,,,

My answer below

The first step is admitting it to yourself!! I'm proud of you anon! I know it can be hard to accept your paraphilias... It is even harder to feel pride in them. It just takes time. As long as you are safe and not hurting anyone or anything, you are not wrong or a bad person. Be patient with yourself. There may be times where you get urges or disturbing thoughts, but you do not have to beat yourself up. You can control yourself. You are going to be okay. 🫶