pandemskinny

[pandemskinny]

ladies we need to start frantically and obsessively reading books in less than 24 hours again..remember how happy we were

[pandemskinny]

im back and im vv toxic so avoid my posts bc it may trigger u :((

[pandemskinny]

9kg away from first goal weight... so so proud but i seriously have not been restricting as much. Gonna restrict for a week now to see if i can jump under the 14stone mark (190 pounds)

Its horrible having an ed with obesity because it's passed off as laziness. Imagine if the one thing you hated to be, terrified of- is literally what u fucken are. Terrible mate, fucken terrible.

Well i have another 30 pounds or so to loose before i hit 18. College (and then uni) is a priority first though. x

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On my period. Manic. Gained. Dont fucking care. I bought american style pancakes, noodles and a whole cheesecake to eat on top of my safe foods and. I. Dont. Fucking. Care. Anymore.

[pandemskinny]

encore en fois, its time to starve ,,,,

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I swear if i restrict and gain i will hurt

idk what else i can do to make myself suffer

But i will do smth

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So i did an 80 hour fast and then binged but according to the scale (weighed myself in the morning now 😎😎) i lost about 3kg. So imma eat what i want tonight and then fast tomorrow?

give my ol metabolism a ride

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63 hours in.... 9 left although ill probably go another 12 hours

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God i feel fat

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i see all of these accounts that have like three pounds left until they make it to their ugw, and i feel so behind. 

reblog if you have to lose 40+ lbs to get to your ugw!

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21 hours in woop

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Now that ive started i may as well finish.

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Im 17 hours in atm

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I rly want to do a three day fast

Does anyone want to do it with me

If i dont do it im going to gain every thing back and im so close to breaking my lw

[pandemskinny]

skinny people will really be like yes you were bullied to the point where you hate running eating laughing and existing in public for fear of being made fun of or viewed as disgusting simply because you're fat and had to scrape out your own self worth because people constantly reminded you that they think being fat is the worst thing you could possibly be and yes you never saw yourself represented in media except as the butt of a joke and yes you still despise clothes shopping because you never get to wear anything cute made for people your age because trendy fashion is almost always made for skinny people and yes people on tik tok and instagram and twitter take all the clothes in your size to make their two piece sets making it even harder to find things you like that fit you and you've had diet culture pushed on you since you were a kid but people used to wrap their thumb and pointer around my wrist so im the victim here actually?

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I rly dont wanna say the term 'ana buddy' but i wish i had some self control rbn

bearing that in mind mssge me or send me meanspo or whatever i rly fucking need it, it worked before, if can work again

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im gonna start this tomorrow...