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WAKE UP, FUCKWEASEL! IT'S YOUR GIRLFRIEND!

hey Lynch I didn’t leave that car for it to just sit while you blow III

You know, I asked nice the first few times. Are you coming to the Fourth? Are you coming? Are you coming? Here, have a motherfucking car. Are you coming? You made it ugly.

just realized i never posted these in a post despite using them as icon/header. first cosplay post on this account iirc yippeee. ive never had a more gender affirming photoshoot in my life

pls go support my awesome boyfriend who took these pics for me! he's visionsofmayhem on instagram and check out his cosplays at alesmayhem :)

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cleaning along desire paths

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in another universe I’m sleeping on your chest while you play with my hair

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hey if something about your environment or body is bothering you right now & if you’re able to, please take a moment to adjust that thing. turn off the lights if theyre hurting your eyes, grab a pair of socks if you’re cold, move into a better position if you’re in an uncomfortable one.

it’s easy to get stuck in a “this isn’t good but I’ll survive” mindset, especially with executive dysfunction, but you deserve to feel more okay in the spaces & body you’re in.

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this is coming from a vulnerable place (sunday afternoon)

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all is not fine

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maybe if you bundled yourself up and went for a walk out in the cold then came back inside with rosy cheeks and cool skin and warmed yourself up with a nice warm cup of herbal tea with honey maybe then you'd calm down

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Defund Don’t Defend

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every tv show ever made wishes it had the extensive lore puppet history has

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elmer walter williams: got some straight gas🔥😛 this strain is called phorgedytol😳 you'll be zonked out of your gourd💯

me: yeah whatever. i don't feel shit

5 min later: dude i swear i just saw estranged producer shane madej warning me of treacherous forces abound

my buddy ryan, pacing: I don't seem to remember

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college aus are kinda crazy. they would not be doing all that. There's midterms

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he's such a cringe loser, but those big brown eyes enchanted me

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To be a true batman fan you must simultaneously believe that batman is a middle aged man loser with mental issues, an eldritch monstrosity who is human in all the long suffering torturous wrong ways, and an cunt-serving diva with a face card so lethal it's a partial reason for inter-galaxy peace.

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I've been rereading some of my old travel diaries from my early 20's, and one of them seriously reads like a slow-burn fanfic. I was on tour with a small indie band and there was a cute guy my age traveling with the band. And we spent two weeks "accidentally" hanging out and sitting close to each other at the merch table in smoky bars and reading Tolkien poetry to each other and taking walks at the beach and sharing food and stargazing and sleeping next to each other on living room floors and giving each other back rubs and talking late into the night gazing into each other's eyes.

We never kissed. We never even held hands. I pretended to fall asleep on his shoulder once in the car, and one day I gave him a little kiss on the cheek. And that was it. We said goodbye two weeks later and we both thought it was forever and I pined so hard that I threw up.

A month later he sent me an apologetic letter saying that he was sorry for being so presumptuous when I clearly had no romantic interest in him, but that he had to be honest that he was in love with me. And I was like, "What?! He was in love with me this whole time???"

So yeah, we're married now (celebrated ten years last autumn) but if you're ever wondering if your slow-burn fic is too slow, or that your characters are too oblivious, just remember me and my now-spouse mutually pining over each other every single second of the day for two weeks without ever saying a word to each other about how we felt. I was reading my own diary yelling, "JUST KISS HIM ALREADY!"