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The one friend I had hope in never doing drugs went ahead and ate an edible... No I don't give a fuck if you don't think w33d is a drug/bad or whatever the fuck. I don't like being around it and I really don't want more people in my life doing this shit.

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How my 138 hr fast went 😚

(Around 5.75 days 9/25-30) I did this like a week ago... I know I'm posting it late. Also I'm fasting again 84/93 hrs.

DAY 1 (9/10) ~ Always the easiest day for me. I just got a little hungry and that's it. Told my mom I felt sick that day so she wouldn't try to feed me.

DAY 2 (8.5/10) ~ Still a little hungry but it didn't bother me as much. I had more cravings than anything.

DAY 3 (5/10) ~ Brain fog and fatigue was kicking in. After school I felt supppeeer tired and kept taking micro naps. Reminded my mom I was sick and told her I'd eat something light at home (never did but I ran the microwave and went into her room when it was beeping so she thought I was).

DAY 4 (2/10) ~ VERY BAD brain fog and fatigue. Felt like I was gonna pass out. Completely lethargic, I wasn't even hungry or craving anything anymore just tired 😭 Pretty much did the same thing I did the previous day for my mom.

DAY 5 (8.5/10) ~ I don't know how but I regained so much energy that day (despite not switching to a liquid fast). Had work that night and my sister came so I gave her my food, told her I was tired and went to bed.

DAY 6 (9.5/10) ~ Literally didn't feel like I was fasting anymore. I went to work and ended up eating part of my meal to make it look like I was eating (they're still suspicious but who cares).

I lost 9.2 lbs and I didn't binge afterwards, but I gained back 4 lbs (I wasn't sure why so I started fasting again. I think it's because I'm on my period and it might just be water weight 😭???)

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Almost done fasting 🤗 90/120hrs

I've been fasting for 90~ish hours and I have 30 more to go (might end up doing 46 more). Low-key fatigued as fuck but I've made a commitment and I'm gonna follow through 😚 Total hours should be 120~138 afterwards. I'll post like a "recap" and how much weight loss I had and stuff.

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Please just call me so I can forget about everything and focus on you 🥹

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Day One: Successfully complete

Cheese quesadilla - 650

Sour Cream - 55

Guacamole - 30

Pistachios - 427

Burned - 800

Total in 1,163 cals

Ok overall not that bad first time in a while actually counting cals instead of just eating however much I think is good.

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I work today so I'll just continue drinking a lot of water and eat a quesadilla with sour cream afterwards and that should put me around 990 cals. I have 410 cals to do whatever with so either I'll decide what to do with it.

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New Diet

It's officially Monday and I will be starting this diet. Literally my first time doing one of these seriously so hopefully it goes well 😚

Also DM me if you want to try it together. Expect to be disappointed because I just got on my period and all my self control goes out the window.

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August calorie tracker: Day 1

Tracking calories again because it makes me feel productive and show's me how I'm actually doing. Also I got the calendar from RIKCALS on Twitter

My eating patterns are beyond chaotic and so is my schedule. Literally had two cups of milk yesterday and like 4 bites of a burrito and then today I gobbled down a 12-inch sandwich and a bunch of chips 😭😭😭??? Plus yesterday I worked a 13 hour shift I feel like the days should be swapped 💀

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I feel like I'm slowly breaking inside and everyone's taking a little chip of me as a memento...

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I'm beyond homesick. I can't restrict here. Not only that but my mono diet ass is constantly being offered food outside of my comfort. I want to go home but if I do I'll have to deal with even more than I do here.

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Close to my SW = Back in my 📴myself era 🤗🤗🤗

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The walls in my mind keep tumbling down before I get the chance to rebuild them again. My dreams let my terrible memories and regret take over and I'm left broken again when I wake up. There's no escape from anything. I don't even feel worthy of escape. I'm a terrible person and I deserve nothing but suffering. I want the noises to stop, the lights to shut off, but they don't and I'm silently suffering inside because of it and no one can hear or see it. The little happiness I think I'm gonna get is always torn away. I just want it to stop.

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It's so funny how one dream singlehandedly made me fall back into depression 💀💀💀

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Praying getting this job will balance out my life (aka help me restrict again because I'm terrorized by boredom hunger and I just keep eating 😭???)

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Walked 3 miles and lost a pound 🤗

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Do I really have the right to be angry?

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I’m trying to ease back into restricting after overeating/binging for so long. I’m trying not to jump into it and just end back up in the same spot. The first thing I’m doing is stop going to restaurants/ordering out and this will probably be the easiest thing to do 😭