p3tchescorner
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p3tchescorner · 3 days ago
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About to crash out I gained while fasting
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p3tchescorner · 5 days ago
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Dissociating...
I think I started dissociating and experiencing derealization. I'm not sure when it started but recently I start going out so easily. Just a little stress and then I try to calm down with some deep breathing then *poof* I'm gone. And everything already feels disconnected but at some point nothing felt real at all and I started thinking everything was a terrible dream (Like the logical part of me understands the world around me is real but on the inside I feel like I'm wearing someone's skin or something and I'm actually in a dream). I desperately want my life to feel real but anytime it actually does its just so incredibly intense and I start feeling panicky and then *poof* I'm gone again. Its not safe inside or outside my head and I don't know how much longer I have to hold on.
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p3tchescorner · 8 days ago
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I'm sick
For some reason I feel a little impulsive now that I'm sick. Like my appetite and hunger is pretty much gone and I wanna eat up my moms cookie supply just because. I'm so fatigued but I accepted a shift at work just because I wanna work with my friend. Ughhh I'm so sleepy too lord 😭
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p3tchescorner · 10 days ago
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Trying to study so I don't snackkk
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p3tchescorner · 11 days ago
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I think battling my depression will help me stay on track...
Like I got upset yesterday and that led me to eat 3k calories... in one day. I think if I can find healthier outlets I won't have to binge/overeat to make myself feel better.
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p3tchescorner · 14 days ago
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Nothing feels real again 🥲
I just binged and I feel like shit physically and I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I just got some bad news literally the worse timing. i want everything to be ok but its not and it never will be. I can't do anything right and I don't feel right. I feel broken and my life feels broken. And nothing ever feels real again. Its like every time I try to calm myself down I take some deep breaths and I'm gone again. Nothing is going right for me. My job is shitty, I feel like I'm losing the only people I care about, I've been binging and gaining so much weight everyday, and I'm an academic failure. I just want to be fucking happy but I don't even think I deserve it at the point. It feels like no one even cares anymore and I hear that they do but its not in the same way. They only care when your perfect when your not a burden. I'm just done. I may be going into 2025 but I can assure everyone 2026 will not be my reality
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p3tchescorner · 21 days ago
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There's a cute on my face and I think its from when I was spiraling on Sunday
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p3tchescorner · 22 days ago
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Gonna shower and go to the gym so hopefully I won't actually kill myself
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p3tchescorner · 22 days ago
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Returning + Life update
I've been on Twitter a lot and so I don't post here anymore. I'm sure all my friends on here are not active anymore. I've been hitting wall after wall and I'm beyond depressed. Absolutely nothing is going right in my life and I'm trying to stay sane. I stopped restricting months ago and I've just been binging and over eating. I've gained over 20lbs back and I physically feel unwell. My life continues and it feels like all my goals are running away from me.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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The one friend I had hope in never doing drugs went ahead and ate an edible... No I don't give a fuck if you don't think w33d is a drug/bad or whatever the fuck. I don't like being around it and I really don't want more people in my life doing this shit.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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How my 138 hr fast went 😚
(Around 5.75 days 9/25-30) I did this like a week ago... I know I'm posting it late. Also I'm fasting again 84/93 hrs.
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DAY 1 (9/10) ~ Always the easiest day for me. I just got a little hungry and that's it. Told my mom I felt sick that day so she wouldn't try to feed me.
DAY 2 (8.5/10) ~ Still a little hungry but it didn't bother me as much. I had more cravings than anything.
DAY 3 (5/10) ~ Brain fog and fatigue was kicking in. After school I felt supppeeer tired and kept taking micro naps. Reminded my mom I was sick and told her I'd eat something light at home (never did but I ran the microwave and went into her room when it was beeping so she thought I was).
DAY 4 (2/10) ~ VERY BAD brain fog and fatigue. Felt like I was gonna pass out. Completely lethargic, I wasn't even hungry or craving anything anymore just tired 😭 Pretty much did the same thing I did the previous day for my mom.
DAY 5 (8.5/10) ~ I don't know how but I regained so much energy that day (despite not switching to a liquid fast). Had work that night and my sister came so I gave her my food, told her I was tired and went to bed.
DAY 6 (9.5/10) ~ Literally didn't feel like I was fasting anymore. I went to work and ended up eating part of my meal to make it look like I was eating (they're still suspicious but who cares).
I lost 9.2 lbs and I didn't binge afterwards, but I gained back 4 lbs (I wasn't sure why so I started fasting again. I think it's because I'm on my period and it might just be water weight 😭???)
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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Almost done fasting 🤗 90/120hrs
I've been fasting for 90~ish hours and I have 30 more to go (might end up doing 46 more). Low-key fatigued as fuck but I've made a commitment and I'm gonna follow through 😚 Total hours should be 120~138 afterwards. I'll post like a "recap" and how much weight loss I had and stuff.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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Please just call me so I can forget about everything and focus on you 🥹
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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Day One: Successfully complete
Cheese quesadilla - 650
Sour Cream - 55
Guacamole - 30
Pistachios - 427
Burned - 800
Total in 1,163 cals
Ok overall not that bad first time in a while actually counting cals instead of just eating however much I think is good.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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I work today so I'll just continue drinking a lot of water and eat a quesadilla with sour cream afterwards and that should put me around 990 cals. I have 410 cals to do whatever with so either I'll decide what to do with it.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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New Diet
It's officially Monday and I will be starting this diet. Literally my first time doing one of these seriously so hopefully it goes well 😚
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Also DM me if you want to try it together. Expect to be disappointed because I just got on my period and all my self control goes out the window.
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p3tchescorner · 1 year ago
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August calorie tracker: Day 1
Tracking calories again because it makes me feel productive and show's me how I'm actually doing. Also I got the calendar from RIKCALS on Twitter
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My eating patterns are beyond chaotic and so is my schedule. Literally had two cups of milk yesterday and like 4 bites of a burrito and then today I gobbled down a 12-inch sandwich and a bunch of chips 😭😭😭??? Plus yesterday I worked a 13 hour shift I feel like the days should be swapped 💀
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