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vent coping fr fr

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(vent post tw sh)

I'm in a weird point in my life where I'm technically the best I've ever been but I just have a pit in my stomach.

It's been years since ive sh'd but I have had the genuine urge to relapse- and having dreams of like- disfiguring my face. Idk if it's cause of my sh urges or a deeper reasoning as to identity- or both.

It's so hard for me to have genuine connections with people and myself- and the way people are perceiving me is so far from what I actually want to be perceived as but because I'm anxious- and try to like, be the funny haha person so I can't even blame others for how I'm viewed.

I'm tired of how people treat me but I keep fighting myself saying I deserve it idk.

I feel like I'm always hearing, understanding- and when I want that extended to me I just don't get it.

Either way here is a doodle I did before bed somewhat expressing how I want to cut my face like bread or sum.

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Doodled my second life character :3

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Teehee haha I'm feeling a pit in my chest that is making me wanna give up on everything, I honestly feel like I'm hating everyone I ever known and if I don't hate them that I'm quickly turning indifferent towards them. I want to be a online personality and make a living off my work but I'm so down in a rutt that I can't do anything.

I'm so mad at my family, I wanna pass away but I know I can't. I hate everyone, fuck them all. I'm so close to like- leaving all my accounts without telling anyone and just starting fresh with everything. Which sucks cause that is so 2021 me but like, ughhhh.

I hate art, it doesn't make me happy. I wish I was better but with my mental and physical illnesses I'm just so fucking drained that I quite literally cannot focus on it.

I am so ugly that I've just ruled out transitioning out entirely, I don't pass and feel like every aspect of my life holds me to ideals primarily led by men and having to uphold them. Like- it's terrible and I know if I prolong it, it's gonna all get worse.im giving up

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Pov Orca just asked you to keep the change (it was 20 cents)

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“ur just mad bc testosterone turned u into an ugly hairy bald fatty and not an anime twink”

i wonder why young impressionable trans ppl who want to go on t would be afraid of being hairy and bald and fat. i wonder if it’s maybe bc they’ve watched the queer community treat fat queer people in general, but particularly fat queer ppl who are hairy, bald, and/or not feminine, like absolute fucking shit. i wonder if it’s bc our society assigns morality to looks and fat hairy bald ppl get literally treated like predators simply because of the way they look. i wonder if it’s because they watched the rest of the queer community idolize and prioritize white thinness. i wonder if maybe, just maybe, there are deeply seated issues in the queer community that we might wanna address when they make themselves obvious instead of falling back on mocking individuals for the way they look.

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I was seriously pissing and shitting when my hubby didn't win, it was so fucked up fr fr

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Made this awhile back! Mwahhhh

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The supreme court should literally be met with VIOLENCE, I'm tired of this "you must always have a peaceful protest" bullshit. What the supreme court has done is violence, not only against women but poc, low income communities etc. Violence should be met with violence period.

A rock to their head isn't even comparable to the amount of damage they have inflicted.

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Forgot to post this here, gift I made for my epic (perhaps swag) s.o.

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Me wanting to archive all dsp/funamusea posts.

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Forgot to post this here!

An animation I did a hot minute ago flipnote 3ds.

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Vent art of my vtuber Sona thing

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Had a twitch stream where i drew the chats oc's ❤❤❤ hope you join in sometime on twitch.tv/orcapeaches.

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Heyo! Its your boy orcapeaches! And i want to make an Announcment, i am going to be hosting a small unofficial identity v tournament and hosting the games on stream for everyone to watch on my twitch channel.

Twitch.tv/orcapeaches

You need a team of five to register! Dont have a team? Thats okay! We have a channel in the discord for you to join and find people willing to team up. The discord is in my bio! Make sure to join 👌👌👌

https://discord.gg/THy8CfG

The discord is full a chill individuals, make sure to join even if you arent going to be in the tournaments. Remember that word of mouth helps these events grow ❤❤❤

#idv #identityv #tournament #twitch #identityvedit #identityvfanarts #idvedit #idvfanart #idvmemes #idvcosplay #identityvmemes #identityvcosplay

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Had fun with my friends on my twitch stream awhile ago!