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sometimes, the winter nights feel eternal. i keep trying and hoping and waiting for a spring morning that seems as though it will never come. when i finally throw my head back and my hands up in exasperation, there lies in my line of sight a reminder that a new season is coming. ambling and meandering, slowly. taking its precious time. bringing those of us who await it the patience for which we never asked. 🌻 #springiscoming #thursdaythoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/ButkW0RhixQ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s52a6s8cpveb

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issa #mood all 2019. 🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq8kNYjhsjJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8qleh1an7r37

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periodt. #mondaymessage #note2self 🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/BqX5XONh-6D/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17gkz9gn6y7ah

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i looooooooove @blackgirlinom 🌻 not only is their founder @hellolaurenash total #goals (and her first name is lit, just saying), the podcast and monthly newsletter help me get my life together on the regular. 🌻 i plan on going into 2019 with focus and clarity, so BGiO’s articles on intention and manifestation were perfectly timed. and of course, it isn’t real until it goes in the journal 🙃 #yesitooknotes #nerdalert #blackgirlinom #bgiomindful 🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp9stoOB6Nk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vxa798la3smr

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how come “don’t ride” is never stated as an option? because if i have even an inkling that you’re gonna kill us with your foolishness, I’M NOT STEPPING FOOT IN YOUR CAR. period. 🌻 thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. 🙃 #RideOrDontRide #ImTrynaLive https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp7QRu-h7V0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1got3oesrwcfu

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anytime you doubt why you are here, remember that there is something unique that only you can bring to this moment in time. once you figure out what that is, your doubt will disappear. 🌻 #morningmessage #affirmation #notetoself https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp1pvEUB5IS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1b8374lffus4q

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#bookwormwednesday: y’all. this woman and i go waaaaaay back. i’m talking freshman year over a decade ago back. yeah, we’re getting on up there 😂 🌻 anyway, @elleglenisepike wrote and published a beautiful book, #EveryDayBloom. just reading the introduction had me nodding and “yaaasssss”-ing. yeah, she did the damn thing! 🌻 make sure you grab a copy or three. also, check out L’s anti-racism work over at @wherechangestarted. i am so proud of you, L. keep puttin’ in work. 🌻💛✊🏾 #wellreadblackgirl #blackgirlsread #blackwomenwriters #goalsAF #collegeroomies https://www.instagram.com/p/BpVbmo0hCUq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uzioqq2i143r

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literally. my mind has been going 1,913 MPH lately, and focus has been hiding from me (probably the beginnings of a hypomanic phase, now that i think about it). one thing about my bipolar disorder: when i’m in a high, i want to do everything and feel capable of doing so and try to do so. and usually fail spectacularly. so some things that have been helpful to me during times like this are: 🌻 accountability from my mom and sister. they regularly remind me to focus on my daughter and career and not get caught up in the extracurriculars. and sometimes they have to tell me that multiple times a day. 🌻 doing a brain dump and writing down everything swirling in my head so that *maybe* i can focus on one of those things afterwards. 🌻 goal-setting. i have specific things that i want to accomplish in a specific time period, and reminding myself of those things helps keep me from chasing arbitrary, irrelevant things. i am only one person and i can only do so much. i acknowledge that, and i accept that. finally. 🌻 also: apparently, it’s #worldmentalhealthday. so here’s my contribution: realize that living with a mental illness is HARD. even if a person outwardly makes it look like sunshine and rainbows, inwardly they may be fighting a war of epic proportions. be kind to others. be kind to yourself. take care of yourself. 🌻 #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bipolardisorder #mymindisstillracing 😩😩😩 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bowlx2ehvkB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10vupl2s888ss

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If you take your young kids out anywhere there’s absolutely nothing for them to do and expect them to stay completely still and quiet without providing them anything to occupy them and just tell them they need to be patient or punish them when they start to ‘act fussy’ or ‘act out’

Literally what the actual fuck is wrong with you

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self love: most needed, least practiced. i have not been feelin' myself at all lately, so i'm dedicating my birth month to self love and embracing who i am, authentically. no filter, no facade, no frontin'. #phiLEAUXsophy #selflove #spreadingauthenticity

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word. #phiLEAUXsophy 🌻

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growing pains and all that jazz. it can hurt, but the end result is worth it. #phiLEAUXsophy #morningmessage #growthroughit 🌻

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#tbt, 12.14.14 what if all that i am is a cheap imitation of what i’ve seen without a trace of originality? what a tragedy that would be; just another copy floating in the galaxy. and what is to become of me? will i get my shit together eventually? become The Shit, or just stay shitty? when i die, how will y’all remember me? as legendary? or ordinary? that’s up to me. so what’s it gonna be, elle dee? what to be, who to be, why to be: what’s my thing? my purpose? my destiny? my life’s meaning? what will be my legacy? just my offspring? or am *i* meant to do great things? i don’t know what my future brings; but i do know that it’s up to me. my destiny is up to me; i control who i will be. so i choose to proceed so that i may succeed and be all i can be. . . . because IT’S UP TO ME.

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#TwoTipTuesday: finding YOUR method of #CreativeCatharsis. #ontheLEAUX #phiLEAUXsophy #usingcreativity 🌻

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change is the only constant. via the G.O.A.T., Octavia E. Butler. #MondayMusing #phiLEAUXsophy 🌻

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new blog post: “Creative Catharsis” | #UsingCreativity #ontheLEAUX link in bio. 🌻

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change is life and life is change. get with it or get lost. #morningmessage #ontheLEAUX #phiLEAUXsophy 🌻