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Jammin This isn't the first time I've posted after a Marley quote. I love the man. I love it.

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It's Nice To Finally Meet You

It’s Nice To Finally Meet You

But who is? Everyone changes. Some of us at a higher rate than others, but we all change. 

I used to think sex was the way to a man’s heart. Sex was what made a man determine if he loved me. Pretty stupid, eh? Well, that must be my middle name. 

I used to think people changed as fast as I do. I thought people actually learned from their mistakes. I also thought people would change into what I…

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Dearest Sister

It’s hard to even call you my sister anymore. Sisters don’t do this to each other. Sisters are supposed to love each other and have a bond like no other. But that’s never been there, has it?

From the day you found out mom was pregnant with me, you hated me. How dare I take away your mom, step dad, grandpa, grandma and whoever else you’d like to add you this list! How dare I take away the…

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11 Months, 26 Days

In 4 days I will have 1 year sober! Do you understand how excited I am??? Probably not since I haven’t said how excited I am! Well, I’m extremely excited. I have accomplished so much in the past year.  The first thing I’m proud of is that I actually got off the drugs, more specifically, the pills. While I was in my addiction, I always went up in the dosage and never down. Well not because I wanted…

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Good Things Come To Those That Do Good

This past weekend was the beginning of our summer here in central Washington. We actually had a spring this year!

It was scorching hot, as it is in the desert, so Alonzo and I decided to buy popsicles and hand them out to the homeless. 

The homeless have been in the news a lot the past month. They set up camp in the middle of town, which really pissed off a lot of businesses and neighbors. 

The…

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Harley Quinn

Meet Miss Harley Quinn! She’s a purebred Yorkshire Terrier, and my new best friend!

Harley was born on April 24th, 2016 and is the niece to Marley, my other Yorkie that stayed with my ex when I moved.

She is such a good puppy! She is learning very fast and is just a good dog.

She approaches everyone with caution, but everyone loves her. Even my dad who didn’t want me to get her.

Here she…

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Just Let Go This just came up on my Facebook news feed. I am shocked at how I was spoke to tonight.

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Third Times A Charm!

Third Times A Charm!

Let’s try this again! I need to learn a lot of things in life, and one of them is to press the “save” button when I’m typing up these blog posts! I just poured my heart out and lost it all! Oh well. You don’t really want to hear about all my problems. Wouldn’t you rather hear about my progress and happiness? This world is full of negative shit, and I don’t want to feed into it anymore! From now…

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You Decide

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So, He Loves Me... A Lot!

So, He Loves Me… A Lot!

We have been on this rollercoaster ride for around three years. Ups and downs and sideways. Many don’t have faith in us, especially family members. That hurts. It’s our own faults though. We shouldn’t run to our close friends and family when we’re having problems and then expect them to support our dysfunctional relationship. They need to hear the good things because it’s not all bad. The good…

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What do you think about this quote? Wanna know what I think?

I think I’m about ready to give up. And that’s ok, because I need to move on for my own well-being.

I ask the questions you have asked me so many times. “If you loved me, you wouldn’t already be replacing me!”

Maybe it is true. Maybe we do need to go down our own paths. Find someone on the same path as we’re on.

But really? Did ya…

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Trauma Today is my last day of trauma therapy. I haven't had PTSD since January, and I feel like a whole new person.

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Six Months and Six Days!

I can’t believe it’s been six months already! I’m so thankful for Suboxone and Ideal Options/Ideal Balance. They really are my heroes! They are my cheerleaders in a world of haters.

About seven months ago, I was using, and at the beginning of the month it was to get as high as I could. Towards the end of the month, when I was having to rely on other people to give me drugs, it was so I could feel…

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The pictures on this blog post were obtained by a Google Search. They are not mine. 

A hammock on a Maldives beach   

I have clicked my heels. I’m laying in that hammock. Can’t you see me?! Just laying there, soaking up the sun and salty air. The sight is paradise. This place is paradise. White, fine sand in between my toes, a slight breeze flows through my hair.

Our chairs on the beach in Maldives

I would love to be here with the man that I love. He doesn’t like to travel, but maybe by this time I can convince him to come with me. This is, after all, my new forever home. There are two chairs out on the beach. One for you, and one for me. Baby, you’ll love it. Not too hot, not too cold, but just right. Doesn’t the water feel great running over your body? I know it feels great to me.

Our Home

Our weekend home

The big vacation home

I have found three homes to accommodate our lifestyle. It might seem like a bit too much, but don’t you want to have everything? When the kids and grandchildren come to visit we’ll have everything for them to have a wonderful and memorable time. They won’t want to leave, but when they do, we will still have our home. Our beach. Our sand. Our water.

That’s it baby. I’ve clicked my heels and you’re the lucky one that gets to go with me. Please come with me. I want to experience paradise with you. This will be my home for the rest of eternity. No I won’t live forever, but I will be here heart and soul forever.

  With Just A Click of the Heels…. The pictures on this blog post were obtained by a Google Search. They are not mine. 

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6 Months... And A Day

6 Months… And A Day

6 Months and a day. Can I start today over? I’m having a day. What I would do to get high right now. He doesn’t want me. I did everything he wanted. I got sober. I fixed my teeth. He’ll never find someone like me. Never. I moved out of Jeff’s grips. Got my own cell phone, without anyone else’s help. Sorry I don’t have my own place.

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My Head Is About To Explode!

I don’t understand. Are you jealous because I’m sober and you’re not? You say you want me to feel how I made you feel. Is that love? Oh hell no!

If you love me, let me go. Let me find someone that will appreciate my love. Someone that wants the best for me, not the hell from the past over and over again. I don’t need to be punished. I’ve been punished enough!

I’ve always believed in karma. Not…

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5 Months and 2 Weeks

Hi followers! It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. I haven’t relapsed, I’ve just been busy getting my life back!

Suboxone is still working! I’m down from three strips a day, to two strips a day, and my appointments are every two weeks now instead of every week! Progress is being made!

The picture pretty much explains all. I was pretty high in the left one and I’m very sober in the…