one-time-a-week

[one-time-a-week]

im a fallout fan in the worst way possible bc i can tell you every single one of hancocks voice lines but if you ask me where supermutants came from or what my wifes name is i couldn't tell you

[one-time-a-week]

I enjoy writing but I’m not very good at it :(

anyway read my jessica jones fic 'If I Believe That..', inspired by that scene in season 1 where malcolm says he'll die on purpose if he believes ppl are inherently evil

[one-time-a-week]

how to stop?

[one-time-a-week]

Ah yes, the age old question

Do I not hold grudges because I'm a kind and understanding person, or do I just not care about myself enough to stay pissed at someone for that long?

[one-time-a-week]

stopstoptsopstoptsop

el oh el pls help haha

(I'm fine, I think, maybe, idk if expressing myself to strangers is gonna do anything but hey mabe it'll make me SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I need to calm the fuck down frfr, take a nap, or just sleep its 3 in the gosh dang morning.

Uhhhhh closing remarks for today : don't do drugs, stay in school, seriously don't do drugs the come down is not worth it, or so I've heard, love yourself - you're worth it, uhhhhhhhhh understanding yourself is important (that's a good one!), finally -- if you get assigned an essay about your identity in realtion to the poem Identity by Julio Noboa Polanco do not - I repeat - DO. NOT. wait to work on it till it's night and you're approaching the come-down-zone

I've never before experienced something so unpleasant as trying to figure out who I am AND figure out how to put it into a "well-developed" sentence while I'm also trying to decide if I'm just gonna bullshit the whole essay or be somewhat truthful, while ALSO trying to not be a pretentious dickhead - bc apparently special sauce *winkwink* makes me think I'm smarter than I am and good god does it make me chatty, not a good combo -

Don't worry though, I managed to not only completely forget about the other assignment that was due 4 fucking hours ago, but also not write a single line for the essay due tmmrw. Even better, I am no closer to figuring out what I'm gonna do for it. I'll probably just pull the homo card and be a little silly and goofy with it "I think I'm more similar to a weed than a flower because society doesn't like gay people."

oh. I meant for this to be short:( sorry? I've been sitting in my kitcken for the past 3-4 hours just typing everything that comes to mind. I deleted it all ofc I sounded insane, maybe not just sounded. huh. just now realizing(i definitely already realized that) it may be that sitting for hours typing every thought that comes into your head, creating a hard to follow im-losing-my-shit memoir thing is unusual and possibly deranged behavior. Shit I made it even longer, bye bye!

[one-time-a-week]

All I want from life is for a deep sadness to grow deep inside my bones, a sadness I will carry with me for many years untill I finally stop being fucking stupid and realize feeling bad isn't fun or cool. But by then it will already have been too late, as the melancholy has already become permanently etched into my psyche and it will be completely my fault because I wanted this.

lol

[one-time-a-week]

I think supernatural single handedly turned me into both a homo and a transgender what the fuck

[one-time-a-week]

I keep saying "I love you" but I'm not sure if I'm even capable of love so it just feels like a lie.

[one-time-a-week]

y'know it's actually so funny, I would really love it if I could Just.