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i warned you they were depressing

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the world is not scary plus im strong as hell

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“I moved to Malibu. I’ve spent not one day on the beach. Just spent a ton of money to be in my bed for weeks.

My son’s taken to running. He splashes in a creek. He looks just like his father, but he’s taken after me.

Familiar tension on your face. I know your little heart will break if you’re left locked inside a cage. You’ve gotta get out all that rage.

(I wish I gave you something better. But I don’t have much to give.)

Summoned you from above.

I put you in my blood.

Swallowed you up.

You will be loved, if it kills me.”

- Mother, 2022.

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My therapist once told me, “You are the guiltiest feeling person I’ve ever met” and just to prove her right, I took it to heart. An astrologer said, “You have so much water in your chart. What is it like to feel the emotions of every single person alive, everyday?” and I wept because I sensed he was displeased. A teacher told my parents “She’s very sensitive. Far more than the other kids in her class.” I took my SATs at 9 years old, but they encouraged my mother to hold me back because of how my eyes glistened when I heard the word no. She told them to go to hell. So I cried my way through my education until high school when they said “You take everything so personally, you’ll never survive in a company environment. You wouldn’t make a good employee.” So I employed myself (out of spite or…necessity) and then later, I hired 200 people. A boyfriend told me “Don’t be so dramatic, everything isn’t a movie.” Fine, so it’ll be an album then. The doctor said “This shouldn’t hurt a bit.” I tread daily on a minefield that leaves me classifying the variations in footsteps, the tonality in voice, a change in breath. “Is everything okay? You seem mad” is my pledge of allegiance to this tightly wound bundle of flesh. I am cut open, butterflied and flayed, with every single nerve exposed like live wires and, yes, they all hurt to touch. Each interaction is a litmus test of how well liked I am, and therefore how worthy to live. I wake up every morning and the moral barometer resets, T-minus 12 hours to prove to myself that I am not the bad person I believe I must be. Sleep, repeat. An amnesiac nightmare. Prometheus on a rock and the gull in my guts is myself. I once envied those with greater armor, but not anymore. “Why do you care so much?” Guard yourself from the little grievances, but the shield does not differentiate. The space where I am vulnerable to the pain that passes through is an entry point for the microscopic good that others may miss. I live in technicolor torment. If I could do it over again and choose the comfortable grey, I would seize a knife and cut the little keyholes back into my every limb. So the light can get in.

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bro hello? fucking hello?? tumblr blaze has put an entire purple cock and balls upon my dash???

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Not much focus on rehabilitation

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Sirius: You know, I’d look good with earrings. I think I’m going to get my ears pierced.

James: Right on, dude! But remember. If you get only your right ear pierced it means you’re gay.

Sirius: Oh… I thought it was because I keep putting Remus’ dick in my mouth

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I was seeing the first photos for the new daisy jones show and this image right here called my attention:

But especially the background of this particular picture:

The paper that the girl is holding reads "they can't break our daisy chain" and just like that I was reminded that Daisy Jones is inspired by Fleetwood Mac's band drama during the rumors album 🤣 I just loved the little Easter egg they gave us by playing with "the chain" lyrics "you'll never break the chain" 🤣

I'm actually really excited for this, March needs to hurry up!!

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Daisy Jones & The Six first official look

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I think too often we forget that besides being incredible powerful magically, El has to be fucking JACKED. Like, her primary form of mana building was exercising and she's had to do more crochet because exercise is too damn easy. Like, she's doing literally hundreds of push-ups just to get ANYTHING mana wise.

In conclusion, El can, should, and does bench-press Orion on a regular basis and you can't convince me otherwise.

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yes girl you are so [if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more] [hands are unbearably beautiful] [i'll take care of you it's rotten work not to me not if it's you] [if you are intolerable let me be the one to tolerate you] [i could recognise him by touch alone] [i love you i want us both to eat well] [on purpose i love you on purpose] [whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same] [i am half agony half hope] [you have bewitched me body and soul and i love love love you] [he is half of my soul as the poets say] [i'm sick of people saying that love is all a woman is fit for but i'm so lonely] [i love you most ardently] [let me stay tender hearted despite despite despite] [someone has to leave first this is a very old story there is no other version of this story] [mostly i want to be kind] [tell me how all this and love too will ruin us] [you said i killed you haunt me then] [someone somewhere can you understand me a little love me a little] [i will love you as misfortune loves orphans as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong] [sorry about the blood in your mouth i wish it was mine] [who will come into my kitchen and be hungry for me] can we kiss now

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jane austen was right!!!!! i AM half agony half hope!!!!! if i loved you less i COULD talk about it more!!!!!!!! i WAS in the middle before i knew i had begun!!!!!!!

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jane austen was right!!!!! i AM half agony half hope!!!!! if i loved you less i COULD talk about it more!!!!!!!! i WAS in the middle before i knew i had begun!!!!!!!

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We’ve made flashlights but we haven’t made reverse flashlights

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i’m always like “i can’t wait to feel good and confident and grow into the best, healthiest version of me!!!!!” while doing horrible acts of self sabotage like girl it doesn’t work like that u are pressing the gas and brake at the same time stop it

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An Idea To Prevent A Nuclear War