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Omg hey chat it’s been forever!

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It’s truly insane how little overlap there is in my safe foods (3d) and my safe foods (autism)

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I am going to lose weight healthily (lying) by setting an attainable healthy calorie intake (truth)

I really need to lock in and recover

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I really need to lock in and recover

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Chat how to tell my therapist that I have been a forest fire, I am a forest fire, and I am the fire and I am the forest and I am a witness watching it, I stand in a valley watching it, and she is not there at all

Chat how do I tell my therapist that I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors if that what it takes for me to look in the mirror, I’ve tried every diet to make me look thinner so why do I still feel so goddamn inferior

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Chat how do I tell my therapist that I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors if that what it takes for me to look in the mirror, I’ve tried every diet to make me look thinner so why do I still feel so goddamn inferior

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sorry for 34t1ng that wasn't very 'i’m willing to do whatever it takes to r34ch my ugw' of me

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Me right now

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Buh, I binged (ate a normal amount) but I stayed under my net limit of 1,100 so ig it’s fine. I really don’t like high restr1ction but it’s what’s best for me rn (other than recovery probably but oh well)

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High restriction is such a mixed bag. I’m not b1nging so I’m literally doing better but I still feel like I’m eating so much.

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DON’T MAKE COMMENTS ON CHILDREN’S WEIGHT

This is the fucking reason for my disorder

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soup is honestly the b1gg3st s4f3 f00d ever.

- l1qu1d f4st1ng but want something substantial? -> SOUP

- want something warm and l0w c4l0r13? -> SOUP

- wanna consume an entire can for under 250 c4l0r13s? -> YEAH GET THAT GODDAMN SOUP

- want a reliable f00d that comes in SO MANY VARIETIES AND TAKES LIKE 5 MINUTES OR LESS TO PREPARE? -> SOUP BITCH

reblog if ur a fucking #soupwhore bc same

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I love how most thinspo is “soft” and “delicate”

Like no I wanna look like a skinny and ratty teenage boy not a goddamn angel

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I’m going to try and make time to keep my food log here again, it won’t be as extensive as before but it’s something to keep my spirits up

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They’ll always see me as a woman until I lose weight. I want to look as sick as I am. I want to look dead.

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I want to k1ll myself so bad it’s not even funny. I don’t think my meds are working anymore but if I ask to up them they’ll send me back to the hospital. I guess this is my life again.

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if my body's hungry it can just eat the fat off my bones idk what it's deal is smh

i'm literally a walking buffet wdym you're hungry????? greedy asshole