omniscientrabbit

[omniscientrabbit]

if I were an animal then I wouldn't have to think so much, I would be going on adventures and moving all I want, I have a goal of what to do, and by the end I can die with a short life. I would rather be stupid and be an animal than being human.

[omniscientrabbit]

I wish smth interesting happened in my life I'm so tired of being human.

[omniscientrabbit]

I just never felt this close connection. like I only see them as my caregiver and that's that. talking to them feels tiring sometimes even

[omniscientrabbit]

I was never ever comfortable telling my parents about my life, only school stuff bcs I don't see them as someone I trust I see them as a family member. as a parent only.

[omniscientrabbit]

I feel so alone and stupid bcs things that are basic common sense I myself don't know bcs I just forget and forget. things my parents teach me usually never last long bcs I keep forgetting and it's so embarrassing and lonely bcs I'm already a teenager so I should know these things but even if I don't know I can ask my parents bcs I'm not close to them

[omniscientrabbit]

it could be that bcs my parents both work full time, my cousins are usually too young or too old for me. and if I do have a cousin that's near my age I still feel awkward bcs I never knew how to interact and get close to them

[omniscientrabbit]

no one ever acknowledged how much it sucks to not be close with your family members. like I see my friends go to photo booth with their moms, hangout with their cousins, and be able to talk about their problems to their family members. while I barely even talk to any of my family's

[omniscientrabbit]

I wanna get out so badly you don't even understand

[omniscientrabbit]

also it's fucking sucks not having to talk to anyone except like one person bcs I don't have any friends online and I'm a really physically active person

[omniscientrabbit]

I'm going somewhere at like the END of summer break and that's when my friends are finally free bcs that's usually the time they get home from their trip

[omniscientrabbit]

and the fact that I can't hangout with them bcs they're all going somewhere and I can't go anywhere bcs both of my parents work

[omniscientrabbit]

summer break sucks ass, all of my friends are going somewhere while I'm stuck to rot in my room

[omniscientrabbit]

goal glow up:

1. smell good, wear perfume and bring gum EVERYWHERE.

2. buy lotion for my dry ass skin and start dealing with my dark spots

3. get a haircut and start styling my hair

4. get new frames that are classy and cute

5. learn how to do makeup (goal is to make my eyes larger)

6. wear jewellery

7. look good in my school uniform, need to buy a cardigan that shows off my figure but is also not too tight

[omniscientrabbit]

I NEED TO GET A GLOW UP URGG

[omniscientrabbit]

I DIDN'T EVEN KNEW HIM AT THE TIME AND I JS HAD TO BE INTERESTED ON HIM NEOW FUCK MY LIFE 😭😭

[omniscientrabbit]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE HAD A CRUSH ON ME BEFORE R U FUCKIGN SRS

[omniscientrabbit]

need him real bad OMG