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a little something i drew for @themazine ^^ check the zine out here !!

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This fandom focuses so much on the bad depictions of Bruce, it's easy to forget that there have been plenty of examples in the last few years of him being good to the rest of the Bat-family. Here are some of them, because I think the fandom could use the reminder.

(The set of panels about the kids stealing Dick's wallet don't involve Bruce, but I included them to give context to the next screenshot.)

edit: Added a couple more.

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Down with cold but the yaoi the yaoi can't believe I went from orv fandom where there's literally more angst than the fics to find only 1k from 12k superbat fics being angst

Guys give them hard days they're superheroes they can take it let clark question his humanity his own identity even his hands let him break the mirrors that casts different reflections

Let bruce be hungry too hungry to be broken to be eaten for nothing of him to be left.... he wants Clark's to consume him because he's so good he is a better man than he'll ever be

*No more fluff I speak into the microphone and run away*

Cannibalism superbat when...

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These days all I think about is suicidal bruce wayne and the lack of fics and I feel the need to change it but like he's so nonchalant about his emotions the fic would end up being just the canon

Does he even have inner monologues? it's so hard to write him I'll give him that but his passive aggressive suicidal tendencies needs to be studied more

I can't find a way to hurt him more than he's already hurt like manipulated? Done killed? Done admitting his suicide attempt? Done he's such a loser and I need more of him losing

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Anyway i really really loved the part in today’s Catwoman where Bruce is just telling Selina she doesn’t have to be alone, she’s loved, she’s important. This coming right after her literally killing herself multiple times (magical cat resurrection dw abt it)

Bruce, who is historically very bad at handling his loved ones becoming suicidal, (Dick, Selina) in the past reacting with anger, feeling betrayed even-

the way he tells Dick he could forgive the Blockbuster situation. But he could NEVER forgive Dick throwing his life away.

The way he takes how little Selina values herself at this point as a personal insult.

It’s so…realistic

And now he’s gotten to the point where he knows this is delicate. he just wants her to know she has people who love her and that she is important not just to him as a lover, but to gotham and to their family

“none of us have to do it on our own.” “This City couldn’t bear to lose you” “We love you”

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Bruce taught all his kids how to use a gun. Even tho he doesn't want them to use guns, he still wanted them to have the training. It's important in their line of work.

However (and I know I'm going against canon with that one), he isn’t the one who has the guns, Alfred does.

Alfred keeps all the guns in a secret place even Bruce isn't supposed to know about. And when it's time to teach the kids how to use one, Bruce goes to Alfred to get the guns. Why? Well, Bruce has suicidal tendencies. Especially, he sometimes wished he died that night with his parents. When he became Batman (that's canon tho), he stole the gun his parents were killed with and sit in the Batcave, contemplating shooting himself, until Alfred found him. Bruce dislikes guns because they remind him of that night, but also, because of how much he wants to point it toward himself.

So, Alfred, who deeply cares about this young man that he may or may not see as his son, makes a deal with Bruce: he will take all the guns in the house and keeps them somewhere safe and secret, only the butler knows about. Even the weird alien gun brought back to be studied for the JL. Once it's done, they dissapear in the secret guns' safe, they don't stay in the Batcave, in access for Bruce. This way, if Bruce is taken by the dark desire to shot himself, he will not have access to a firearm easily. More time for Alfred to find him and understand what's going on. He can still try to kill himself, but it will leave enough time for Alfred to save him.

And maybe, Bruce has a secret gun hidden somewhere, but Alfred prays that it's not the case, and that he will not come home one day to his boy with a bullet in the head.

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I dont think he wants help Bruce…

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…yeah to be honest i think i destroyed with this one

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balcony talks

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different flavors of the same feeling

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TW// Blood

Kim Dokja doodle

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doksoo week day 7: 😏

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Life starts when you realise it's fine to enjoy different "childish" media you're who you are and that's fine

A lot of shame was carried all my life since back when anime wasn't that popular till recently when my friend would tell me about her books

I think I haven't thought about it like that since I've read ORV how it decipher it from the first chapter where kdj shies away comparing the webnovels to ysa till hsy lesson in class where she says only you decide what a piece of media(smth) means and I'm here to remind myself that there's no shame in truly enjoying life