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girl help I’m crying over an astronaut meme

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Life is not daijoubu....

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Orv novel spoilers. Doksoo...they have sm love for eachother...

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feeling very normal about punisher

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Orv stuff

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trick or treat

we only have cotton candy

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It's funny to me that everyone is worried when the anime/live action ORV comes out the new fans will mischaracterize the cast, as if 95% of the fandom doesn't already mischaracterize them to hell and back...didn't realize you all had such high opinions of the fandoms media literacy currently, my bad, but nothing will change for me. it will still only be me and the same 7 enlightened tumblr users against the world

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yoo joonghyuk number one guy with a hole inside him that will never be filled. kim dokja number one guy who wants to crawl inside that hole and stay there forever but will never let himself. what do you do when you are made to hold someone and they never let you

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SELFCEST WINS LETSGOOO ofc I enjoyed it sp999 content is like whole course meal

Tw/bdd

Also the body horror part I meant it more as mental I thought of him dying gruesome ways and opening his eyes to see he's fine again what if he took it for granted and proceeded to die even more painful ones or the injuries he'd live with for years

the lost limps and scars he grew familiar with just to open his eyes and see they're gone...sure looking at the mirror would be tough one and oh the word isn't body horror my bad (I think I was thinking about the yjh mpreg ones like out of canon ) but bdd

Thoughts on yjh and body horror?

Hmm, some. I think Yoo Joonghyuk's whole deal is a lot more often about mental anguish as opposed to physical. Regression resets all his wounds and scars except the mental ones, so those are the ones that take a massive toll on him. 'Hell of Eternity' is hell because he can never escape his own memories. He is weak to mental attacks but his body is usually near indestructible.

Secretive Plotter's damage is the 'curse of immortality' and his only motivation is finding eternal rest, so that's all mental. Even outergodification is a mental process. Losing his appearence as a 'human' was a secondary side effect to losing his identity as 'Yoo Joonghyuk' and just asthetically speaking, turning into a shadow person isn't really 'body horror' to me, which I associate more with viscera and flesh, not cold and clean intangibility.

I'm not just bringing up SP because I have brain worms (also that) but because there is a specific regression that I think does exemplify 'body horror', and that's 999, baby!

Hear me out. I don't say this soley due to 999's lack of limbs, since there's nothing inherently horror about being an amputee (though removing his own eyes is a bit saw trap energy not going to lie) BUT because his was the one regression where his main problem wasn't mental - he had all his companions, was as happy as one could be in an apocalypse - but the fact that his physical body failed him. He didn't die in battle, but instead wasted away due to the 'outer world covenant'.

Kim Dokja might be self-sacrifical but this guy was on another level.

999 didn't hesitate to take hits for his companions, which is how he lost his limbs, and at the same time he borrowed an outer god's powers to win battles (I'm imaganing a chaos version of advent of a half-god) , which probably looked really epic, but unforunatley was at the expence of his soul. The covenant ate away at him piece by piece, and it's said his 'bloodstream went haywire until he couldn't walk or use his skills' (the translation was wonky here but you get it) which I take to mean he had some kind of cell damage, kind of like radiation or chemo.

This was a years long process, from when he first signed the Outer World Covenant up until the 99th scenario, and that whole time he kept borrowing those powers even though he saw it was killing him. What I mean is, it probably didn't look or feel great to see him falling apart, but the level of gore is reader's choice to imagine (anywhere from a tasteful coughing up blood and nosebleeds, to skin peeling off and hair falling out etc.).

Oh and since I know you would enjoy this, I'll say this too.

I don't think Secretive Plotter knew what he would do to 999.

He meant to save 999, not kill him.

This was almost assuredly his first Outer World Convenant, since I figure changing the 999th regression was the first thing he tried to do after he gained the ability to worldline hop/ had the tiniest bit of control over his outer god powers. He was still young and hopeful - 'foolish' as the Secrerive Plotter reminices. But he clearly fucked something up badly, maybe since he didn't have the clear grasp of probability manipulation that he developed in the next thousands of years or tried to directly change too much.

Canon era, he gives both KDJ and HSY a covenant just fine and they don't have any issues from it. (He's very careful to take the probability on himself - remember the finger thing?)

I wonder how horrified young SP was to see 999 destroying himself using SP as the method. Did he try to back out at some point, but couldn't due to the covenant? Did he try to make 999 stop, which he of course refused to do? I think about them a lot.

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Maybe there is a universe out there where we could’ve lived peacefully together.

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