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different flavors of the same feeling

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TW// Blood

Kim Dokja doodle

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doksoo week day 7: 😏

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Life starts when you realise it's fine to enjoy different "childish" media you're who you are and that's fine

A lot of shame was carried all my life since back when anime wasn't that popular till recently when my friend would tell me about her books

I think I haven't thought about it like that since I've read ORV how it decipher it from the first chapter where kdj shies away comparing the webnovels to ysa till hsy lesson in class where she says only you decide what a piece of media(smth) means and I'm here to remind myself that there's no shame in truly enjoying life

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Life changing

art for the dtiys challenge from twitter

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The thing is what if they found my presence annoying what if they hated the coffee what if they brushed me off even before we had it

I wonder if we tell our old friends more about when we miss them

Like hey I know we haven't talked in seven months but I saw this cute seal and I know you love seals also hello I miss you can we chat for a while?

Even if our paths diverged I'll still enjoy a cup of coffee with you

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I wonder if we tell our old friends more about when we miss them

Like hey I know we haven't talked in seven months but I saw this cute seal and I know you love seals also hello I miss you can we chat for a while?

Even if our paths diverged I'll still enjoy a cup of coffee with you

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do you guys like my boots i spent way too long modeling them for what they are

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Love of my life tbh

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Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

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It's actually really chill out here two years in and I'm finally understanding something

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Im actually not normal about this because wdym it's okay if you went through hell and beyond if it meant your existence mattered???But like they used you?? They used you to reach their ending and you're okay with it?? Even smiling and all happy like the loser noble hearted you are?? Like you finally found peace?? oh my god I can't

If I had a nickel for every time I obsess over a character that is so pathetic, morally grey, die-hard yearner, heart so full of love, gets used, do all he can to save the world but there's no one to save him, finds out that his all existence was manipulated to only save one person and they take that fate with contentment and love because they're so full of it.... leaving everything behind for this one person....

I'll have two nickels which isn't much but it's weird it happened twice

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I hate whoever said "since Mel's theoretically and literally a mirror then it was about Viktor all along" because now gay Jayce won't leave my mind

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This scene from 1863 arc was sooo normal it made me feel normal. about everything (lying)