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Bruce Wayne won't even be batman of he reached the apathy level some writers project into him

For him to be Batman he'd have to be a bleeding heart, an empath if you will

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The kids had to be stopped from doodling on their faces though

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Bruce Wayne going to therapy is just somehow won't work because everything they'd tell him he already knows or tried he can escape mind reading ?? So yeah he just he is stable? he should be? that's the paradox he is batman he went on that journey around the world to learn all about discipline and he should know to contain his anger and all emotions except he doesn't not nearly as back in the time he did get a lot of stress and I'd give him that after his one year gap he comes back calmer so the best solution for fix it fic not therapy but a worldwide journey for self re-exploration

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Reading this one Batfam/ bruce wayne centeric? Fic it's so good I never thought I'd enjoy batfam fics tbh I thought it'd be painting every character in a way or another that I won't like ...but it's been three? Four days losing sleep reading it and I'd call myself winning

It's just everyone does act in a way that is logical and human making so much mistakes yet yearning for this parental connection with bruce while trying yo see a bigger perspective

Also all the hurt and torture bruce goes through its delicious....sorry b but we love our blorbos miserable sometimes...

It's called Patriarch by autumngray wish the author a very pleasant day

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I check suicidal bruce wayne tag twice a day not even kidding

It's just woth the way Bruce cherishes lives every aspect of it it'd be too hypocritical not to do his and he is he is a hypocritical bcs in a way if it meant saving anyone's else then his life could be discarded

He'd argue it's necessary the mission is too important but at the end of the day it's just him being a hypocrite

Bruce: every life is important we don't get to decide its worth

Everyone else: what about yours?

Bruce:....

Oh just love me a hypocritical character who'd die for his ideals at the same time

The things he wouldn't say is that he did blame everything on himself what happened to steph what happened in general the deaths the casualties he was already in a really bad space that never got expressed outside of this scene

It leaves everything to you you get to decide what it really means

This is another scene that didn't hit me at the time but it came down later

It's not just about being stressed out of his mind no he doesn't think he deserves to be cared for not after all what happened because of him

And bruce carries his guilt so sewn with his soul it drives ppl away unconsciously

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The thing is Bruce's heart is so big I believe he would be a good father if the narrative allows it

He wasn't the best father but he did try his best with dick and Jason and after the one year gap he really did

If the narrative was more linear more developing there would be more of "chum"s & "lad"s and steady warm hands on lonely shoulders

It just makes me sad he makes me sad...

Dick said "you were the best father you could be" and it means everything to me

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a little something i drew for @themazine ^^ check the zine out here !!

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This fandom focuses so much on the bad depictions of Bruce, it's easy to forget that there have been plenty of examples in the last few years of him being good to the rest of the Bat-family. Here are some of them, because I think the fandom could use the reminder.

(The set of panels about the kids stealing Dick's wallet don't involve Bruce, but I included them to give context to the next screenshot.)

edit: Added a couple more.

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Down with cold but the yaoi the yaoi can't believe I went from orv fandom where there's literally more angst than the fics to find only 1k from 12k superbat fics being angst

Guys give them hard days they're superheroes they can take it let clark question his humanity his own identity even his hands let him break the mirrors that casts different reflections

Let bruce be hungry too hungry to be broken to be eaten for nothing of him to be left.... he wants Clark's to consume him because he's so good he is a better man than he'll ever be

*No more fluff I speak into the microphone and run away*

Cannibalism superbat when...

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These days all I think about is suicidal bruce wayne and the lack of fics and I feel the need to change it but like he's so nonchalant about his emotions the fic would end up being just the canon

Does he even have inner monologues? it's so hard to write him I'll give him that but his passive aggressive suicidal tendencies needs to be studied more

I can't find a way to hurt him more than he's already hurt like manipulated? Done killed? Done admitting his suicide attempt? Done he's such a loser and I need more of him losing

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Anyway i really really loved the part in today’s Catwoman where Bruce is just telling Selina she doesn’t have to be alone, she’s loved, she’s important. This coming right after her literally killing herself multiple times (magical cat resurrection dw abt it)

Bruce, who is historically very bad at handling his loved ones becoming suicidal, (Dick, Selina) in the past reacting with anger, feeling betrayed even-

the way he tells Dick he could forgive the Blockbuster situation. But he could NEVER forgive Dick throwing his life away.

The way he takes how little Selina values herself at this point as a personal insult.

It’s so…realistic

And now he’s gotten to the point where he knows this is delicate. he just wants her to know she has people who love her and that she is important not just to him as a lover, but to gotham and to their family

“none of us have to do it on our own.” “This City couldn’t bear to lose you” “We love you”

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Bruce taught all his kids how to use a gun. Even tho he doesn't want them to use guns, he still wanted them to have the training. It's important in their line of work.

However (and I know I'm going against canon with that one), he isn’t the one who has the guns, Alfred does.

Alfred keeps all the guns in a secret place even Bruce isn't supposed to know about. And when it's time to teach the kids how to use one, Bruce goes to Alfred to get the guns. Why? Well, Bruce has suicidal tendencies. Especially, he sometimes wished he died that night with his parents. When he became Batman (that's canon tho), he stole the gun his parents were killed with and sit in the Batcave, contemplating shooting himself, until Alfred found him. Bruce dislikes guns because they remind him of that night, but also, because of how much he wants to point it toward himself.

So, Alfred, who deeply cares about this young man that he may or may not see as his son, makes a deal with Bruce: he will take all the guns in the house and keeps them somewhere safe and secret, only the butler knows about. Even the weird alien gun brought back to be studied for the JL. Once it's done, they dissapear in the secret guns' safe, they don't stay in the Batcave, in access for Bruce. This way, if Bruce is taken by the dark desire to shot himself, he will not have access to a firearm easily. More time for Alfred to find him and understand what's going on. He can still try to kill himself, but it will leave enough time for Alfred to save him.

And maybe, Bruce has a secret gun hidden somewhere, but Alfred prays that it's not the case, and that he will not come home one day to his boy with a bullet in the head.

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I dont think he wants help Bruce…

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…yeah to be honest i think i destroyed with this one

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balcony talks