okcyounever

[okcyounever]

They say you heal after a heartbreak. I don’t think that’s quite right. I think the reason why it hurts so much is because in order to actually heal, you need to break your heart completely, get rid of the pieces wrongly placed, hammer it all completely out of your system and then heal while growing a new one. But you need to break it after it is already broken. That’s why it hurts so much. That’s why it hurts to heal.

18blackhearts (via wordsnquotes)

[okcyounever]

I got this random message from a guy I matched with saying that he “wants to paint me green and spank me like a disobedient avocado.”

[okcyounever]

* Goes on date *

* looks around *

“I’m sorry, will the dog in your profile photo be joining us?”

[okcyounever]

Something I would do

Swiped right on a guy whose description said “I sing songs about my dog to my dog” We met up under the condition that he would bring his dog. He ended up being a weird and kind of unpleasant guy but the dog was very cute

[okcyounever]

I wanted it to be you. Oh God, I wanted it to be you. But you didn’t want it to be me, and I just have to learn to be okay with that.

3 a.m. thoughts #103 (via hell–and-silence)

[okcyounever]

My kind of guy

[okcyounever]

[okcyounever]

I think when it's all over it just comes back in flashes, you know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories; it just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It's not really anything he said, or anything he did -- it was the feeling that came along with it. Crazy thing is, I don't know if I'm ever going to feel that way again. But I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned to bright, but I just thought, 'How can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?' Maybe he knew that when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him. It was losing me.

TS

[okcyounever]

[okcyounever]

I just feel numb.

[okcyounever]

I never hated him. God, I tried, but I never did. I never could. I hated what he did to us. I hated that he fell out of love with me. I hated that he wouldn’t talk things through. I hated that he gave up. I hated so many things, but I’ve never hated him. I love him too much to hate him, no matter how much he hurts me.

(via state-of-grace13)

[okcyounever]

there is no fate because I remember we used to wish at 11:11 everyday and I never told anyone that almost every wish was about us staying together but one day we split up, I tried wishing on a shooting star in hopes of the external world helping and it turns out nothing happened and that’s when I never wished on anything ever again because I believe everything happens for a reason and my own self controls my own life

there is no fate (via 2ndsong)

[okcyounever]

[okcyounever]

i wake up in the morning hoping that maybe something’s happened while i was asleep, that maybe i’ve moved on, i’ve let go. i go to sleep at night knowing i’ve spent another day being stuck, missing you and being stubborn. i go to sleep hoping that tomorrow i will awake with a brand new consciousness. i go to sleep hoping i will never miss you this way again - never this hungry, never this desperate. i go to sleep afraid to dream.

marina v., two years and counting. (via thelovelyloner)

[okcyounever]

I hate this

[okcyounever]

2015: november

[okcyounever]

Fuck.

well this is scary as shit 😳