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@promqueengreen

[ofwittyardor]

Ross did know Rachel despite his own comment regarding of guilt. He knew how self-centered Rachel was at times, her actions prevailed to what felt the right for her, what served her. Which was funny because if you wrote Rachel and I’s qualities down on paper you may find that we were opposites. I was work driven, I loved grading papers, I loved the intense atmosphere of teaching college kids I loved Science I loved when a new idea popped into my head. And Rachel was fashion, selfish at times. But I also witnessed her growth the care she has for her friends, she’d drop her plan for a day to be there for Mon at the time when she was experiencing heartbreak, she had passion and man did I instantly fall even more in love with her; when we had Emma the sight of her leaned down playing with our daughter. I had been in love for years; but I watched the versions of us mature over time. 

And Ross knew why our paths had shifted, why we made a stance here. Aiden was never a real obstacle I was realizing. He was the flavor of the city; a distraction. I had been jealous for no reason, if Rachel ensuring my safety tonight was any indication. She aided to my injuries, she picked me. And it was a feeling that felt strange for Ross, but he also knew Rachel wasn’t anywhere she didn’t want to be. A soft smile laced upon his lips now. “ I know, I just given the recent history a part of me thought it was guilt, cause you know if Aiden never showed up here..” Would we have talked? Had it all out in the open? The hurt the voicemail.. And so on. But Ross knew his love for Rachel wa on going; and never washed away. All that to say as he entered into his bedroom. He listened for the movement in the kitchen, as if she was home. Ross wanted her here; he missed her. Her smile, the corny jokes, and he wanted to lay with her now, he was a guy in love and perhaps this love had found its way back to him. 

“ Okay, And I promise you’re invited for dinner.” A promise Ross was going to stick to. A soft smile aged against his lips now. As he took the ice from her hands a brush of our fingers now. The male held his breath as the cold compress was hitting his once bloody nose. “ there may be a few beers in the fridge, a beer, I think I’ve earned it from my fighting skills tonight.” A lame attempt at a joke, Ross knows. As he laugh which made the pain go to his nose. He reached for his remote now as he went to a holiday movie, cuddled up for the night; it sounded perfect in his head. 

Rachel and Ross it was us, our paths lined together; if only our messy shit could work itself out.

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@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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Ross personally didn’t care if Rachel wanted to fuss over him it indicated she meant what she said in Monica and Chandler’s apartment she cared, and perhaps once this eventful night felt like a distant memory we could be open and be more honest and see what that future unfolded like. I just didn’t want the dirty blonde to feel inclined to take care of me. I had a busted up nose; I wasn’t dizzy Once I was laying down and icing the damage to my nose I’d be A-okay. Not that I felt my reassurance would be enough for Rachel. She probably felt guilty for what happened with Aiden and I. This is why you don’t bring home flings from an adventure trip over seas. But I did the same thing once so I couldn’t be one to talk. 

At the soft tones; I felt comforted in her presence, and I had to roll my eyes now. “ Something tells me no matter how many times I tell you i’m okay you still won’t leave tonight. It’s okay I want your company but not out of guilt.” A sternness to my tone. Because I love Rachel I wanted to be with her but not out of obligation due to the events that occurred tonight. I was at fault too I kissed her but I didn’t care. Broken nose or not. 

Once we’re outside; the soft breeze of the air of the night, Ross wasn’t in absolute pain or anything. His nose would sting here and there but he didn’t show it. Once the familiar cab pulled up; he carefully ducked himself inside the seats. And he waited for Rachel to close the door. Once inside; he noted that Rachel apparently forget where he lived despite all the constant visits over the years it was kinda funny. But he kept his laugh to himself; and he said the address. He got himself comfortable letting the comfort of her touch her head on his shoulder as his eyes shut. Emma his pride and joy; he was excited to see his little bubble of joy. He wasn’t apposed to Rachel joining but was he wrong or greedy for wanting time with his daughter alone? He hadn’t seen her in ages; she probably grew so much in her absence. And he exhaled lightly as he mumbled. “ We can get coffee and breakfast like we planned, then I’ll take Emma when she arrives. As much as I love spending time with you Rach.. are  you okay with me wanting to take Emma on my own and then we can do dinner if you want?” Together as a family it was left open ended because I was being selfish but I also believe dinner would give us all an opportunity to find our footing again.

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@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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Ross was painfully aware that he got into a fight. Which let’s be honest it was probably his fault if only he had kept his hands to himself, or morso his lips perhaps Aiden would’ve just sniffled up his own loses and left on his own. But no Ross allowed his emotions to pull the best of him. And yes his nose was throbbing, despite the fact the bleeding had stopped. He didn’t want to be fussed over; and he knew if he uttered the words he was fine Rachel would stop playing nurse with him. As for Monica if he allowed her to escort him back to his place still he swore he’d never hear the end of it. THe hit; the swollen nose, the pain his head was most likely in now or would be later. 

But as he pulled himself onto his feet he half expected the dizziness swirling around in his head, surprisingly he felt light on his feet. He felt okay to walk on his own. The small touch from the dirty blonde was reassuring for him. As he slowly took a step at a time towards the kitchen. Hand touching the surface of the kitchen table for support where Rach went and fatched our friends and my sister. And I sported a brave expression now. Ross didn’t want to pity himself; or feel as if Rachel felt responsible for what happened here tonight. Within minutes Chandler and Mon came out of their excluded room and Mon wrapped an arm around me as a protective sister embrace. And I pretended as if I was hurting. “ Mon I’m fine.” Uttering before she released me and aired out the obvious. “ If you need anything call, Chandler and I will rush over.” And I nodded kinda overwhelmed from this protectiveness, given how I had felt like my sister betrayed me just hours before. 

The male had his arm through Rachel’s now as we edged towards the door, and with my hand wrapped around the handle we slowly pulled ourselves outside the familiar apartment and hallway. “ Rach.. I’m okay. I’m not dizzy right now, as sweet as it is you fussing over me, I don’t need you to.” I more so reassuring the female I was okay; but it was sweet of her to worry. But I also knew Rachel it’s in her nature; and she probably was feeling the weight of the consequences of tonight; and I hoped with day we could just leave it all out in the open.

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@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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It was an uphill battle when it came to our relationship. From pinning for Rachel, the need to be her knight and shining armor, to being a genuine friend. Cross paths to being completely and utterly in love with each other. Ross would never regret loving Rachel Greene, loving her had changed me, I knew she was the real deal; I would live a thousand lifetimes if it meant I’d end up with her. Looking into her light eyes, looking a gaze that made me feel unsteady. 

Mistakes were made; Ross tended to jump to conclusions, he tended to be overdramatic at times. He allowed his mistake to haunt him, he felt remorse regret for that night. The night he screwed a damn good thing up, and that’s when he slept with the copy girl. He still firmly believed Rach and himself were on a break. But that was a debate he felt he’d never win. Ross wasn’t looking elsewhere; I had waited a year for Rachel. Despite all the mountains he felt he’s climbed his paths always led back to her; we were two pieces of a puzzle that naturally always fell back together. It wasn’t because of Emma; our daughter; it was because of a mutual deep love we had, as friends and lovers. Ross knew tonight definitely didn’t go as planned, he should’ve stayed pulling himself a pity party, instead he allowed the guilt of knowing Rachel of knowing how important he was to her that led him back. To the apartment; to the dinner, to his nose hurting each time he had a sniffle. The redness from the impact of the hit; I had it coming. Was I swooping in to steal Aiden’s girl? Yes but she was mine first; I was the idiot holding a torch, I was the one who had loved her for years; who knew his future was meant to be with hers. 

As I slowly to shift up into a standing position, I pondered the movement of our relationship. I was crazy in love with the dirty blonde, I wanted to jump in, but I also felt the hesitation in her voice, the fear we’d lose each other again. If our romantic history if our third attempt failed. I didn’t want to put her into an imposition, I wanted to go slow for Rachel; be the man she was throwing out the benefit of the doubt to. A soft smile rolled over his lips, As his arm reached forward to loop through her arm. I was about to ask if this meant she’d be staying over for a bit not wanting to assume the female would crash with me, I’d go at her pace, whatever slow pace was for us. 

A quirked up grin as the suggestion, the male nodded before he aired out his words. “ Sounds perfect, although I have no idea how long i’ll make it through a movie.” His wounded face, but he’d have her with her; a safety; a source of comfort; our souls together meant to be.

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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Ross was an active overthink. He suppose it came with his personality. He tended to over exaggerate. He tended to let his emotions heighten in the moments. And when it came to falling in love; he never quite felt he deserved that unconditional love. Rachel had always been the girl he loved; from that first night. Harbored feelings on his end; she was perfect in every way. But he knew our timing sucked. Ross felt lost without her; she was this wonderful women that loved him. Rachel he did feel was out of his league she probably was better suited for someone like Aiden he was handsome, he was smart, and he adored the fashion world right in her ally. But to hear the words from her; that Aiden had only been a fling he felt a flash of relief that flooded his body. 

Aiden wasn’t the real thing; he was Paris; but it did force a pit in his stomach realizing even after knowing how he felt; that he was so in love with her. She still opt to date or sleep with in this case a guy like Aiden. Of course the male wasn’t going to hold that against her; she was miles away.  But it still stung knowing she heard my words; confirming I was indeed in love, and she had no issue being with Aiden. Ross didn’t know how to feel; he was relieved now but he also felt that pain or perhaps that was just the pain from his nose. 

Eyes shifted easily to take in her features; Rachel was here tending to him. She allowed Aiden to walk off. And she said the words I longed to hear for a year; that she loves me. But I agreed with Rach; our timing was awful. I didn’t want to jump right in; especially with our hearts needing to heal to catch up with our minds, and their was Emma; our pride joy, her happiness had to come first. Swallowing thickly before he took in her touch; her lips that brushed against his forehead. At ease; a comfort with her. “ I love you Rach..and I do agree, I think as much as I love you and I know now you love me. But Emma has to come first, I think we ease into us.” Us; just saying the word forced a giggly sensation within his body. Ease into us; and all that started with allowing the dirty blonde to led the dance home; his home, and tomorrow we can flip open that book of us; what that future would look like. Slowly he started to shift his frame up reaching for her arm for balance. “ I doubt Mon will care when you tell her you’ll be helping me home.” Knowing Monica she’d just order an update to know I was home safe, its the sibling bond we shared; with a slight smile formed he managed to stand up on his own now.

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@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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Ross was never one to crack the jokes. He was more considered the serious guy. He was over dramatic at times. He was definitely not the joke kind. But he also knew this situation he felt pain on his nose, on his cheek. Granted his beating from Aiden was warranted. He did kiss Rachel; he did admit to how he felt about her in front of her boyfriend? Her fling? Honestly Ross had no idea the right terms for it now. He wanted to laugh at himself now. But he had also had monica who gracefully stepped away enough to allow Rachel and I to hold a banter; To be able to be real and joke with the other. 

I felt numb, I felt the redness on my cheek now the second she let her hand linger onto my cheek. The second she raised the ice from my cheek. And my eyes light and angled now to reach her own. “ At least I didn’t fall easily.” I echoed out into our innocent joke. Of the brawl between Aiden and myself. I felt her touch which lingered onto my skin. Which had my attention drawn directly to her; to Rachel the girl I had thought about for years. The one who made my heart race. The one that made me want to swoon under her touch. And I felt relief in knowing the brunette was here aiding to my own wounds instead of chasing after Aiden. Call me Selfish but its how I felt in the now. 

He was leaving. Brows that nearly furrowed now together in confusion. Wasn’t Rachel with him? They came back from Paris together. She was living with him right? Or had my overthinking mind had spoke for me. Did I overreact to the nature of their relationship? Ross had to ask himself as he raised his hand to rest upon her palm as fingers slowly laced through her own now. “ He was?” I asked not really paying attention due to the pain I felt. But Ross had to ask the obvious i was us, Rachel and I. We had a love like no other. We came together and fell apart so easily. I knew what I felt but it was Rachel she changed her mind weekly; I had to know if my heart was now in the right place for an us. As my gaze fell upon her; I let out a lazy remark. “ Do you love me Rach?” An ask that felt impossible now. But I had to know. 

Our history page by page for us; I knew my heart but were we finally on that same page for our love story?

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@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

A tumble in the hay; you know how the saying goes. Ross Geller was never a fighter for obvious reasons. One his fist were weak; he barely worked out unless it was to impress a girl; that girl being Rachel. He could barely throw a punch on his own; so he was proud of himself for putting up a slight fight. Or he may actually of fallen off the railing and tumbled right down to his death. But instead he was left with only a bloody nose and possibly a bruised up cheek. It didn’t feel pretty but on Ross’s end he meant it when he uttered the words; he had it coming. If Aiden believed he and Rachel were serious and here Ross was not only kissing his girl, but confessing how underlying love for her; it was going to land up knocked out on the ground. 

A slight whine left his own lips as he felt the blood hit the tip of his upper lip. God; this was ugly. Slowly finding his own weight on his feet again he did catch the dirty blonde running after Aiden. Aiden preppy boy; the fashion man, that she probably fell so hard for in Paris; instead of answering a phone call. Yes I learned it was a mixup but it still stung to realize she didn’t want to call and have that conversation. And now it wasn’t me she was tending to; she was running after stupid tough guy Aiden. A wounded heart; as he let Monica help him through the window. Once he got both legs over he nearly stumbled over once, before catching himself. 

With effort; he managed to get situated on the couch, head resting upon the backrest, as he felt Monica barking out orders to her husband to retrieve the ice for my banged up cheek. And she was tending to the nose bleed, and I had to shut my eyes as it stung. A numbness at the touch, How did this happen? I vaguely listened into the brief encounter with Rachel and Aiden, and I was relieved to hear her voice promoting my eyes to lift open now, And monica handed me the cloth she was dabbing my nose with. “ Thanks.” I muttered. And Ross was the one to hold the cloth to his nose as his eyes landed on her; the girl who always made his heart race. “ I’m peachy, I think Aiden got the worse of it..” I uttered obviously joking. 

I was the wounded; the weak one in this pathetic fight. But hey Ross had to give into the effort.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross Geller had always been the type of guy that over exaggerating, he assumed before he thought. But in the case with Rachel what was Ross supposed to think? He left a message, he told her exactly how he felt and what he wanted. Our history was all ten times of complicated. But from the second we saw each other; her walking into Central Perks I felt my heart racing, I knew I was a goner for this wonderful women. Her wit, her smile was lighten on fire. And over the years we had mastered the art of friendship. We co-parented where it counted. But this last yeat was torment, Rachel never thought I was worth calling, to tell me I love you too, or the more rejected notion to let me down gently. Instead she got the wild idea it was okay to keep me in the dark, to practically ghost me. It stung; and in this moment I was hurt, I was angry, I also felt love for Rachel. 

And I reacted, I did think i cared more about her than she did me. Obviously my message or the misclosure of our now opened wounds didn’t leave her awake all night. How could it? When she was sleeping next to him, another man. Ross was stung hurt, He had put up with this dinner for Rachel because there was never a world where I could deny her what she wanted; which was me sitting at that table. I was ghosted in the dark, left out to learn of Aiden of her new boyfriend when I stupidly picked her up from the airport. Ross wasn’t going to just brush it under the rug; he felt like he couldn’t. But he saw it the sadness mixed with anger in her eyes; and I felt like I could burn it down right now. Ross knew he had to say the words, he had to say I love you and he did. He didn’t think about the consequences when he brushed his lips against hers. 

Melting molded lisp pushed together in a soft moment, and he felt whole with her again. The only reason he let go of her face was because of a punch that was thrown in his direction. Probably earned given I did kiss his girl; if i had the balls earlier I would’ve tossed a punch or tow. But knowing Ross he was going to end with a wounded hand in that process. He stumbled a bit back as he landed on the floor. His head nearly bumped right into the railing. Instead he rolled his fist up and was ready and did manage to aim and shoot his knuckles right into Aiden’s jaw before a loud scream on his part was heard. 

This guy was trying to pumble his face, Until Joey had managed to tug the man off of me. Was I sorry any source of apologetic for my actions? No. I kissed Rachel, it should’ve been what I did at that airport; but now it was all kinds of messy. I laid still on the ground as I felt the blood on my nose from the hit. I lifted my hand to my nose which was only confirmed, Suddenly Rach was towered over me, along with Monica who was reaching for my arm to help me sit up. “ Look at you getting into fights.” She whispered the word Proud in my ear therefore no one was able to hear it. As I felt groggy now, As I soon managed to stand onto my feet. WObbly at best. My hand came to rest on the railing. “ I’m okay, I probably had that coming.” I echoed out as Monica and Chandler had soon wrapped arms around me, to help me back inside. “ Chandler will walk Ross home after we clean him up, let him rest.” I could’ve bumped my head for sure, Monica the protective bear she was.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Passion and hurt feelings. Ross was never one that had control over how he felt. He was never one to be able to wear a mask, to pretend he was okay. Although he mastered up the courage to attend this dinner party, to sit in a chair across from Rachel and her new boyfriend, and pretend I wore that smile a forced one and acted as if my sister didn’t betray me, acted like I was the smart one. When the reality was Ross had been the fool. To pine over Rachel to hold onto a torch for her; for months; a year since he left that pathetic love confessing, hoping expecting a different outcome. But here we were screaming probably raising our voices a tad too loud. 

Ross wasn’t intentionally trying to hurt Rachel, she was the one that wanted to act all high and mighty over the pain she caused, over the ache that was persistent in my lungs everyday. Each time I woke up I checked my phone and prayed to see her name across the screen, a message or a phone and each time I was left feeling disappointed. Ross didn’t want to make a scene, but he hated the idea of the dirty blonde believing I lost faith in her; that I wasn’t the man she always thought I was. I felt the prying eyes; I swore if I were to glance at the glass we’d see faces pressed against the window, we’d see Monica’s brows raised more so in disbelief I was willing to hash it out here, or perhaps out of curiosity. Ross knew the timing felt wrong; to bring up his own set of questions, but the opportunity had arose for himself. 

His hand wrapped around her wrist as a means of stopping the female from leaving. He held his breath, his eyes staring at her tear stained face. His heart breaking knowing he was the cause of these tears. But he had to know, Ross had the right to know why he was left in the dark. Was our love nothing? Did that night; the last time we touched, kissed mean nothing to her? And I felt that pang in my chest; the way she was loud and said the words. Months? How could it had been months? Did she lose her phone? Did she not care to check why I called? Ross loosen his hold on her wrist as he allowed his hand to drop back to his side. He was hurt; months of agonising pain, of unknown. But all those feelings washed away when I heard her say those three words. I love you. Not loved, I love you Of course I love you, she always had. 

And I felt my face dissolve, soften, as I debated what to say, I would give anything to stand here and fight with her; than to be miles apart, I would’ve hoped a flight to Paris if I had the indication she still loved me. And I knew I had to decide what I felt in my heart. It’s always been her, from the day I first laid eyes on Rachel Greene, I was a mess up with relationships, would we be perfect? No of course not but I was her lobster I always would be. “ Rach..” I started to say as I stepped closer invading her space, and I didn’t care if Aiden ended up climbing through this window and punched me out. All I knew was I needed to make how I feel known. Invading her space, Ross brought his hands to her cheeks as he whispered the only thing he knew how. “ I love you Rach, I have since that first day.” 

Which was true and then I leaned forward and pressed my lips to hers, Nothing but feeling; the love I always had for her; a year of longing, of waiting now coming complete.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross was loyal to one person and that had always been Rachel. Since the day he met her; even when she was in high school. Back then and older guy like himself who was seen as the dork had a pipe crush on Rachel, he remembered obsessing over the times she smiled back; or the time our hands brushed. I was naive then it wasn’t until she left Barry, until she moved here to New York did I see how desperately in love I truly was. There was never no other option for me. It was always Rachel, her charming smile, even when she had to learn how to hold the tray of coffees, she wore it with pride. I watched her take on her career the fashion world by storm. And I was so proud of the adult, the women she’d become. 

And yeah our relationship was rocky, we either fell completely in sync with each or one of us was falling apart. But it always reminded the same, An anchor that tugged us together. Timing wasn’t partially on my side, she was out of my league, so no it was no surprise the dirty blonde arrived back to the states with a dare I saw handsome guy like Aiden. I knew I should’ve boarded the next flight to Paris, but I also know now I would’ve made an idiot, a fool out of myself. On her behalf. Because if Rachel loved me and listened to the message; she would’ve called. And I was harboring that aching feeling in my chest with me. My emotions were running high, when did Ross truly cover how he felt up? Monica would echo that she was surprised I lasted through dinner. 

I knew I probably opened the can of worms I was trying to avoid, and seeing how the anger was flaring through her nostrils, and Rachel was one to sometimes control herself. But I knew and I could tell I hit a nerve. Well she hit quite the nerve with me too. I could barely echo out two words as I stood stunned by her outburst. I was surprised I didn’t turn to witness our friends leaning against the window to hear every word. But as my frozen expression mouth gaped open I saw Chandler was occupying Aiden and Joey as the men were flipping through basketball games, more so Joey than Chandler, but I could see Monica in the kitchen she must have heard the outburst because her eyes were glued to the open window. I was stunned, Rachel missed me? She thought about me about us? Everyday? Then why? Why did she leave me in the dark for the last year? Why did she never call? Why was our own contact in the whole damn year pertaining to our daughter? I was hurt, I was feeling betrayal and it may be easy to allow Rach to have the last word, but I wasn’t in the mood, I had reached out and let my palm grab a hold of her wrist enough strength to pause her from climbing through the window. 

Jacket forgotten as I let it fall to the ground. “ You don’t get to walk away.  Not when I’m the only you left in the dark. If you felt that way? Why? Why didn’t you call? I left you a message.. I told you I love you. And you still left, you rather hurt me for a year, then call me back. That’s not the Rachel I know. Even if it was a rejection she would’ve called. You can say I don’t know you, but I do. I know the way you get frustrated. I know the way you hate when your hair gets stuck in your face, that’s why you always pull it back unless it’s for a gorgeous dress. “ 

His own words come firm, he was feeling anger himself, but he wasn’t going to be gaslit to make her feel better for hurting me this last year. I was always the nice guy, the gentleman. But I couldn’t roll over; not this time. I didn’t care if Aiden ran out here; I needed to know. Why? Why didn’t you tell me how you felt? Even if it left us both with despair.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross was debating in his mind of stepping outside on the balcony was a good idea or not. He knew the tension was heavily felt in the air. Ross was hurt; his heart felt like it was stomped on. And Rachel was the cause; and he had to wonder did she realize what my message menat? Did she realize why I was at the airport with flowers? Or was her words, her doting eyes just a game to play with my heart. Being here tonight; it was nice to have the whole gang back together. But it also stung and I think every one of our friends felt that tension, I could feel the protective gaze of my sister throughout dinner; although this mess was half her fault. She’s the one that left me in the dark, and I was forced to wear a smile, and pretend I was cool as a cucumber, when my heart sank each time Aiden whispered some form of endearment in her ear, each time he smiled and lit up her face. 

But right now, I wasn’t sure why I walked out here; where I climbed through the familiar window that led me here. But I saw that doted smile; the one that warmed my heart, and I reacted out of habit. Of all the caring times I’ve given the female my coat, and tonight was no different. The male had placed his coat over her shoulders; and he felt the smile that creased against his lips. “ I always will Rach..” And he would. He’d always put Rachel first; and he hoped she knew and felt how important she’d always be to him. Letting his arm drop down to the railing after a lingering touch. The male let his eyes zone out into the city; the beauty of the city; tall buildings. The fun in the night; you could see the skyline and he let his eyes feather towards the lights. 

“ The year without you, it wasn’t the same.” He uttered; apparently feeling brave in this moment. He was brave but also felt the anger flash on him, his lips opened and closed debating if he should say what echoed on his mind. He tilted his head towards her. “ We missed you, I missed you.” I echoed out as a desperate attempt to open this door; one final time. “ You did good this long without me, I doubt me coming tonight would have mattered.” Ross was hurt; and it tried to hide it in his voice; but he was scared his own tone betrayed him. Licking over his lips, “ I was going to head out, I just wanted to say goodbye.” 

Goodbye for the night; to close off his own wounded heart.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross was never the most graceful person. He was never the kind to be humble or to lack of better words never make a foll of himself. Because he definitely felt like a fool, an idiot. Ross knows his own errors he knows his flaws. He was too smart for his own good, he had hurt the one women he truly loved, and given our horrid history it made sense. Why the timing, the confessions never lifted in our favors. Ross never blamed rachel for leaving, for pursuing her career one she dreamed of each time she caught herself in a retail job in one of her famous clothing stores. Ross felt the tension in the air because of who she came home with. The male had hopes, he had waited practically held up a torch for rachel since the day she left, when he missed his chance, an opportunity after their night together; of goodbyes? 

No closure would ever be enough, and Ross always tended to fall short, fumble on his own merits. But he also felt blindsided now, tonight, at the airport. He felt betrayed by his own friends, his sister who obviously knew. But against his own judgements tonight; the male came. He came because he cares about Rachel and knew how important this dinner was to her. He didn’t want to be on the list of men that disappointed her. But he was fighting the urge to sulk in his chair. He felt the prying eyes, each person holding their breaths for our outburst or my pending excuse to step out. And Ross made a deal with himself; an hour and if the pain of seeing Rachel and aiden together became unbearable i’d dip out. But i didn’t want to reach the anger, the phase of lashing out. Instead i wore a timit smile, I nodded and answered honestly. All that to say i knew how highly the dirty blonde thought of me, i knew she respected me and the importance of my career, the department was hanging on because of me. I was the guy who stepped up to devote his time to students to help the paleontology department. He had student hours, he quizzes his students after each lesson. And he loved the reward of seeing the amazement each time they understood the fossils. And for a moment it felt like old times, and i was able to forget about him; forget why I felt uncomfortable to begin with. 

“ Thank you Rach, it’s been a long time coming.” Which it was; even if the offer wasn’t quite official yet. It was nice to have a dinner together; to relive the warmest of old times, us all together. But i did decide to put my plan in motion of dipping out shortly. Once the guys started to get up, I had pushed my chair back and stepped onto my feet, clearing my throat, the male had entered the familiar comfort of the living room. Corners of my eye I stole glances to the kitchen where the women were out; but my eyes was solely on her; the bubbly dirty blonde, and i swore my breath hitched. It was hame on me for being naive, for holding what was inside my heart in. And now I had to feel stuck, My attention was moved to Chandler who had turned on one of the football games, Engrossed into one of Giant games, losing again I had to laugh to myself. Not that I cared for the game, and of course Aiden had to settle in besides me. “ It was really nice of you to excost us to our place earlier, I know Rach appreciated it.” man he had to open his mouth holding the urge to roll my eyes, Ross had pushed his lips together in a thin line. “ It was no problem.” And it wasn’t but If i was going to have to hang out here, play nice when it was making me sick, I knew I had to leave. I slowly lifted myself up from the couch, and i caught her outside on the balcony before I could dip, And i slowly walked the distance through the cracked door opening and I came to a stop outside placing my hands on the railing, and I had slowly shrugged my jacket off, and with one quick movement; I had placed it upon her shoulders to make myself known. 

“ You don’t want to get sick your first night back.” The gentleman in me, feeling the brisk of wind hit my neck, but i didn’t care, I may be hurt, but Rachel would always remind important to me.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross Geller was never the type of guy to hide his discomfort. How awkward the tension in the room felt. He’d normally be the one making weird faces, that weird laugh of his at a non amusing joke just to make it feel normal. Ross knew his friends felt the tension in the air, he could even tell Rachel felt his discomfort. Ross rather be anywhere but here. If the roles had been reversed, he would’ve understood if Rachel had declined to show up for this get together, a reunite of sorts. Considering some of us hadn’t seen Rachel since the day she left New York,the day she decided to never answer my voicemail. And yes he was holding a slight grudge, was he angry with her? No he was upset, and hurt. But not angry, as if Ross could ever stay angry at Rachel. She was his shining light; she had that adorable laugh that made him heart beat. 

She had that smile, that made his body move completely, we had the complete history. From dating, to raising a daughter together, the love was always present. Even now as the male sat at this table, purposely avoiding her eyes, or he was scared he’d be the one to crumble over. He showed up for her, to support her return to the city despite every excuse he made to himself, every reason to be sitting at his own apartment. But at the end of the day Ross knew why, His heart still beat for her, and he never wanted to be the why the female was let down. Despite the fact she had let him down, she let him down disappointed him. Not because she obviously didn’t reciprocate how I felt about her. It was because of how Rachel handled it. One call was all it took, one message to let me know she received how I felt, that she appreciated that I was in love with her, but our ship had sailed. Our time came and we missed the chance. It’s called respect, and instead I got rubbed in the face of her new found happiness. 

With Aiden.. Stupid pretty boy Aiden. I said to myself, He was pretty, definitely more Rachel’s type the way I saw it. I was choosing not to be biter, I was trying to find comfort, in the two occupied seats next to me, Chandler on one, and Mike on the other. Mike was a more serious guy and considering the new development of he and Phoebe expecting, it was a clear shot, perhaps I could fade into the shadows. Of my own embarrassment. 

Hands slowly place onto the side of the napkin where utensils were placed, the shiny plates. The good ones monica appeared to have taken out. Small chatter was heard as we exchanged the handing off of different dishes, the bread, the different sets of mixed vegetables, mashed dishes, the different sets of meat displayed, Mon truly went out tonight, it was flattering, and Rach definitely deserved the star treatment. Keeping my head down, I used my fork to dip into the mashed as I slowly began eating my meal. Purposely placing food in my mouth each time I felt her hues on me, each time I had the nagging notion the dirty blonde may direct a question at me. Awkwardly is what I felt; in one of my own places to be. And I thought I may be shown mercy on, until I heard her voice, and I thickly swallowed the food down my throat emitting a cough before I felt the sets of hues on me. 

“ uh.. I “ I shuttered more so out of the sudden attention on me, forcing my hues to meet her own. “ not official offer yet, but i’m in talks of it. For now I’ve been taken on a few more classes In fact I had almost forgotten today was the day that you were returning with how busy I’ve been.” I aired out as means to make it appear I’ve been occupied but I knew myself, that expression of denial, the expression when I’m faking it. And Rachel I knew she saw through me each damn time.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

The screaming in my head to leave only kept echoing the second I saw Monica. Was I still mad at her for keeping the Aiden elephant from me? Yes. I felt betrayed I felt like I was now left in the dark. It was no secret to anyone in this room the last night Rachel was in the city the night her plane left I tried. I tried to run to her; or in this case risked the awful driving of Phoebe, in order to get to her. And Ross thought he had made it until the gate doors closed right in his face, and he felt defeat. He tried he left a damn message not that he wanted to release all his love confession into a phone but his options were limited. And he was naive to believe in her; in us. He was the fool that held out hope that when Rachel did return she’d tell him she got the message, that she was in love with him. A pathetic pipe dream right? He wanted to laugh at himself; the only way to get through tonight. 

A dinner he tried desperately to avoid. A dinner he tried to forget; he went off on Monica, on Chandler threatening to burn any bridges he could. Why? Because he was upset; he was hurt by all his friends. But he was a damn people pleaser. He tended to show up despite the toll it took upon him. And that’s why he was here; he wished he could say it was against his own will. But he was awful at denying Rachel anything; and the idea of him showing up and being a glimpse of a smile from her was enough to keep Ross planted here. And as he stepped into the familiar apartment; he saw her and he swore his breath hitched at the sight of her. Beautiful; and he forced a smile to his lips. “ Yeah, well Monica damn good at convincing..” Lying through his teeth, yes cause nothing Monica said was able to get Ross here. It was all him, and that desire not to let Rachel down. 

Awkwardness; but he wore it like a pro. Ross opened his arms and gave a half hug; breathing in her familiar perfume. Her scent drove him nuts; in the best possible way. The male soon stepped back; and offered that same smile of his as he soon stepped away; and made his way over to Joey and the guys who were gearing up to sit at the full length table. Adding besides the small circle one; and a few extra tables. He noticed through the rooms his daughter was playing around with her cousins, she was older; meaning I could hear her bossing her cousins around, I had to grin to myself; that’s my Emma. 

By now he had found a seat besides Chandler; and Adien was on the other side; obviously sitting by Rachel; it should’ve been him. But he felt that lingering thought to himself. By now everyone had sat down; and her voice of thankfulness; and he had to grin; he cared about her; and ultimately wanted Rachel to be happy. Even if that left his chest broken. We all were in good spirts as the food started to get moved around; passed from each person to the next; a real family dinner. 

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

A dinner Ross was dreading; one he had no idea of he was opting to attend. His conversation with Monica left him feeling confused. He was stubborn and set in his ways when he spoke to Chandler in the parking garage, but Monica had a way of swaying him; of knowing each strings to pull with him. And that’s why Ross sat in silence. He had the game playing but his thoughts were elsewhere. 

Rachel, he never wanted to let her down. And he knew she might want him at this dinner. But he also didn’t feel he was capable of stomaching through a dinner with her and her new boyfriend. Of course Monica’s words of it not being serious swept through his mind. But if it was only a fling why would Rachel bring him to New York? Be living with him now? His heart sank at that own reality. Because Ross had been hopeful, he had hoped she had gone radio silent on him because she wanted to talk to him face to face about his own phone confession. But it was dawning on him that it was a naive thought. Rachel didn’t have the balls to tell him that she moved on; instead she left him completely in the dark. But he spent a hour or two debating in his mind what he should do. 

But his heart raced against his chest, as his eyes lingered on the clock; in 10 minutes this dinner was starting, and he hadn’t moved. He loved Rachel with every fiber in his being. But if she was happy with Aiden he wanted her to be happy. He didn’t want to overstep, he didn’t want to feel like he was intruding, and that’s why he sat still, until he knew himself. Rachel; the love of his life; in his mind we were meant to be together. Monica was right he’d fight against hell and water for her, and that’s why he found himself standing onto his feet. He strided through the apartment as he slowly pulled on a nice shirt, and a pair of jeans. Ross stood in front of the mirror and slowly set his hair in place. “ You got this.” A pep talk; pathetic he knows, but he wanted to make an impression. He wanted to be the man the dirty blonde expected of him. The guy that shows up despite awkward tension in the air. And Monica was counting on him. 

And Ross was a people pleaser and this was why he grabbed his keys and he made his way down to the sidewalk; he walked to the opposing complex, being it was a short walk; he was late; probably 20 minutes late dinner. But he was being the better man; he was holding his pride up, he was walking through the door; although he regretted it the second he found himself standing in front of the door. His hand raised to the door to knock. He listened for the chatter; the laughs behind the door. 

Feeling awkward and out of place, he heard the click and he was face to face with Monica. “ You were right.” He whispered as shoulders were pulled into a shrug and she pulled him inside. Fight for love; face the music even if every fiber inside of Ross was screaming at him to leave.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[ofwittyardor]

Ross was normally the dependable guy; the guy you could count on. The guy that showed up for you good or bad. And truth was he wished he had the strength to be the guy he always. But he was hurt; it stung to be left in the dark. To have convinced himself our break was simply a break; and Rachel would want to tell me how she feels in person. Instead the joke was on me when I came to realize she had moved on. Our history; the ups and down didn’t matter; the love I always felt we had for the other always present would overcome each obstacle thrown our way. I was the idiot and the one left and humiliated. 

I was the idiot that showed up at the airport with flowers, with hopes shattered. And Monica my own sister let me go knowing Rachel was bringing a boyfriend home with her. I felt betrayal and maybe that’s why I was being defiant. Why I was choosing not to attend this dinner tonight. I was honest with Chandler, and I knew within minutes my abandoned phone on the couch next to me was going to be lighting up. The game was on; and I did pay attention to the long throws; to the score and it was like clock work. My phone was lighting up and buzzing. Out of curiosity the male had let his hand find the home screen and he lifted it up. Monica, and I wanted to scream and lash out. But I knew if I avoided her; she’d be pausing her preparations for tonight; and stomping her way to this very apartment. With a reluctant touch he hit green and put her on speaker. 

“ I see my message got back to you Mon, now I couldn’t say the same to you.” For once I was grumpy, I was far from pleasant with my sister who in return used his bubbly tone to add. “ Ross. don’t behave like this. You’re coming. You can be defiant all you want but I know you. And Rach is very upset you aren’t coming. Please..” Rolling my eyes; I wanted to give a careless retort about boo woo cry me a river; I was upset; I was embarrassed, my heart sore and broken all in one. And Monica didn’t warn me. But instead I changed the subject kind of. “ Why didn’t you tell me? Why did you let me make a fool of myself? I told you I was picking her up, to win her over and you said nothing Mon. You knew and said nothing.” Silence was heard over the phone. Did I hit a nerve? Or did my sister make sense to her own mistake. I was seconds from hanging the phone up; let her swallow her own mistake. 

“ Ross, I knew but the way Rach described it as it was casual not serious and I figured if she saw you with flowers she’d realize what was still here. I didn’t know Aiden was coming, not until after the fact, I’m sorry.” Remorse it was sweet I guess; shrugging shoulders; the male let his finger linger on the end call button. Before I shut her off I heard her last attempt to plead her case. “ It’s Rachel she’s confused, one night with you, with us here she’d know what’s in her heart, and you, you fight like hell always to make her happy. Please.. If you love her you’ll come tonight. She wants you here.” A low huff swallowed as I pressed the end button. Monica knew how to sway me; I could never let Rach down; even if she was constantly letting me down.

A debate; an hour or two before I was forced to make up my mind; fight like hell and be the man Rach always knew me to be or wallow in my self pity; to be sad and pathetic because I was letting her go again.

Continued

@promqueengreen

Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.