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Soooo I did a thing? 👉👈 Tbh Nadia is my only and highest muse rn. I really want to get more going with her! I'll probably get her bio / more information up tomorrow. Alot of you already know her.

𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘮 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 . . .

{shardsofstark} — independent, highly selective, mutuals only original character blog for Nadia Stark of the Marvel Cinematic Universe. Blog is mostly based around canon events but takes some aspects and runs ten miles in every direction on five different tracks. (i.e. very chaotic). Lover of AU's, angst, chaos and heavily runs off ✨vibes ✨. Blog will contain faceclaims some people consider to be toxic. May also contain triggers regarding: emotional abuse, self harm (emotional), mental health issues, death, loss and grief, abandonment, betrayal, violence and survivors guilt. Blog may also contain mentions of: alcoholism, smoking and may contain dark themes.

. . . 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨.

A study in: living with ghosts, embracing the darkness, standing apart, grief that lingers, scars that stay, losing yourself, fractured family, the true meaning of family, fighting demons, running from it all, burying rage, vanishing into the background, the battle between light and dark, pushing love away, the cost of survival, the lies we tell ourselves, quiet rebellion and more.

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We threw in an appendectomy two days later 👌 two days after the op I went to London because apparently I am insane and we've been going on trips on and off since then! I'm officially back at work Tuesday and my friend leaves Monday. If I get chance to be around next week I will bc I miss you guys ❤️

(but also I'm making a Nadia blog BC I have insane brain rot and like ten aus etc to add. K. Bye. )

Hello, the next couple weeks are going to be busy for me! My friend from Canada is in the UK so for the next two weeks I'll be going on adventures to give her the best trip! I will be around a lil via mobile but won't have access to my laptop!

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Hello, the next couple weeks are going to be busy for me! My friend from Canada is in the UK so for the next two weeks I'll be going on adventures to give her the best trip! I will be around a lil via mobile but won't have access to my laptop!

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                      INNOCENT, RUTHLESS,  BLOODSTAINED.

❛   ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀  I  did  not  ask  to  be  this.   .   .   this  hideous  creature  of  cracked  skin  and  snarling  voice.  But  this  prison  of  flesh  is  the  only  thing  you  ever  gave  me  so  I  will  stretch  this  skin  until  I  fill  every  crevice  and  I  will  wear  it  until  you  regret  that  you  created  it.                                                                            You  made  me  a  creature  to  be  feared.  So  fear  me.  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❜

#OBL1TUS—   independent,   highly   selective,   mutuals   only,  multi-fandom  original   character.   Blog   is   mostly   based   around   canon   events   but   takes   some   aspects   and   runs   ten   miles   in   every   direction   on   five   different   tracks.   (i.e.   very   chaotic).   Penned   by   Leia,   28,   GMT.   Crossover   and   original   character   friendly;   Anti   J-plec   etc.   Hate   or   'phobia'   of   any   kind   not   tolerated. 

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Her features soften; earlier anger seeping into something milder, more tolerant. . . something akin to regret. She exhales heavily, a small dip of her head in acknowledgement as they pull away. " I know. " she says gently, blue hues full of sincerity. " I don't enjoy it either. " her lips twitch, trying for something teasing " Even if I am difficult to deal with sometimes. " The truth is; they both have their demons. Years of distance and time have fractured the bond they once shared; the people they used to be. They're both different now, both re-learning the other and Bryn is no longer the girl who would follow at his heels as a child of pull him into games. She was no longer the girl who was full of optimism and joy, always smiling. Perhaps she had never been that girl. And Finn? Finn was darker now too. She's silent for a beat, then speaks again, voice tentative. " Do you want to get out of here for a while? " there's no expectation, just a quiet offer. " Some air might do us both good. "

Isolation was a cancer to the soul. It had consumed all his light and positive thinking throughout the course of his imprisonment. His mind had him convinced he no longer mattered to anyone. He was forgotten. Unimportant. That's why he knew with certainty this moment was reality. Her reaching out and actually pulling him in for a hug was something he could not have imagined during his years in slumber. His response is delayed, but his arms circle around her frame and he holds her close. The weight on his chest lifts and he finally feels like he can breathe again. "Good" he says after some moments, when he dares to try his voice again. "Then let us put this behind us." He pulls back so he can look at her, his expression softer and his features visibly more relaxed. "You know I hate fighting with you."

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She's leaning against the railings of the upper floor of the compound when he joins her, head dipping in acknowledgement before tilting. A brow lifts, curiosity lacing her features as she angles her body to face her elder brother slightly.

His words are unexpected and for a brief moment she freezes before breaking out into a grin, a choked laugh reverberating in her chest. " I can't tell if you're trying to be funny. " she drawls, lips twitching into something akin to a smirk. " The day is still young; don't get your hopes up for any notions of lasting peace. "

( @obl1tus liked for a starter call from Elijah Mikaelson )

The tension in the Mikaelson household was at its usual high. He was growing quite accustomed to it but he couldn't help but feel for the others stuck in its chaos. "Sister," he began as he came to stand next to her. "I see we have managed to avoid starting any fights today. I think this is a new record."

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" Yeah, well, I'm smarter than her. " Bryn deadpans, unable to help the defensiveness that creeps in her tone. " the difference is, I don't need someone to protect me. " Bryn doesn't give into the whimsical notion of love her sister holds and her trust isn't easy to gain. She rolls her eyes, snatching the bottle from him again and taking a long swig before sliding back across the bar. " Teaching her would be a waste of time anyway, she's incapable of learning. " blue hues roll. Because how many times had her sister been through her fantasy of love? Let herself act as though she was human? It doesn't surprise her she wants to become human. No, it angers her. It worries her. But Bryn doesn't know what to do with that. " She doesn't listen to me anyway. " she points out finally, fingers drumming against the bar. " You can handle bex far better than I ever could. " and it's true. If Bryn was to get involved. . . it would likely end in screaming matches and things shattered. The two had never had much tolerance for one another.

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Every Mikaelson had their issues. The things that had ate at them in life continued to do so in death, and being turned had only made everything worse. Old wounds had been given far too long to fester in the face of their immortality, and somewhere along the way they’d begun hurting each other out of spite for grudges that should have been laid to rest long ago. It was a vicious cycle of pettiness and revenge that drove Kol crazy, yet he was just as guilty as the others for perpetuating it when slighted. So he had no leg to stand on in the face of Bryn’s (somewhat deserved) bitterness. He had his own issues with his siblings.

It wasn’t her fault she was envious of Rebekah. Bekah had always been adored and doted on in a way that Bryn herself had never been, and the girl had never been given any real explanation as to why. To the younger Original, it must have seemed utterly unfair the way they all subconsciously seemed to prefer Bex over her. And perhaps that was their own fault. None of them had ever actually told her that she was adopted. Mikael and Esther should have back before everything went to hell, but as they’d never told her…

Well, there was no point in bringing it up and shattering her worldview now. Even if Kol felt slightly guilty for the centuries of silence, he knew it wasn’t his place to say anything. Bryn might not have been his flesh and blood, but she was still his sister. He remembered the day his mother had brought her home just as clearly as he remembered his mother’s belly swelling with Bekah and the long hours of labor leading up to Henrik’s birth. Perhaps it wasn’t quite the same thing with her as it was with them, but he still loved her. How could he not? They’d grown up together.

“It’s not our place to teach her, darling,” Kol countered, stealing the bottle back from Bryn’s hold. “Least of all things she already knows on some level. It is our job as her older brothers to protect her from herself though. And I’d do the same for you, dearest sister, if I thought for a moment you were doing something particularly stupid that wouldn’t end well for you.”

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Hello. Smol update? Kinda.

I really, very much, strongly, want to come back to writing and creating and screaming at y'all but time is just not something I've had recently. Life has been lifing and I am just— tired tm. I even started a GV that I then immediately had to step away from, joined a RPG I had to step away from— 🙄 very annoying, very not fun.

My biggest challenge rn is getting on my laptop... And also making my brain work. No promises on when I'll be back but I'm actively working on it.

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Just a little update: My grandad is doing better— he's been moved onto the main ward now. Not sure how long he'll remain in hospital but some of the anxiety is starting to ease and I'm starting to feel a bit better about everything. My dad saw him today and said he was looking really good. Which is good. We think he's finally out of the woods.

Hopefully I'll start returning soon. Thanks to those who reached out or replied with well wishes ❤️ I just needed some time to process because I've been running off fumes. Will start responding to people again soon.

Apologies for lack of activity— life has been lifing. Came into January with a mental health drop and then just as I intended to return— my grandad has had a really bad accident. A lucky to be alive accident and I am living on anxiety and exhaustion. He's doing slightly better. But he's not entirely out of the woods and I don't think I can breathe easy until he is. Until I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Will come back as soon as I can.

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Apologies for lack of activity— life has been lifing. Came into January with a mental health drop and then just as I intended to return— my grandad has had a really bad accident. A lucky to be alive accident and I am living on anxiety and exhaustion. He's doing slightly better. But he's not entirely out of the woods and I don't think I can breathe easy until he is. Until I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Will come back as soon as I can.

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friendly reminder that even if i take ages to reply, i still want to roleplay with you

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Honestly thinking I might make Nadia her own blog at the weekend and just make this blog and Nadia my primary ones and temporarily ditch my multi? Truly, Nadia and Bryn are always my highest muses, fighting for attention in my head! My other muses I write on discord more than Tumblr anyway...

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Happy New Year to all my mutuals ❤️ I hope you all had a fab evening and that you're not too hungover today 👀👀 wishing everyone the best for the new year.

Going forward, this blog is very much remaining but I'm gonna put much less pressure on myself to be here. I'll probably post / reply sporadically when the muse appeals rather than keep stressing about it.

I'll also be writing all my muses via discord if anyone is interested in writing there— with much faster reply times.

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Haha, this did not happen because I am ridiculously sick 👌fml

Merry Christmas and a soon to be Happy New Year to all- I know I still owe a lot and haven't had the time/energy to be around but I will try to hop on both here and @ruinsought this weekend! I hope everybody who celebrates had a great day and those who don't are enjoying time off because of the holidays at-least?

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A shaky exhale follows his words, but she doesn't answer or acknowledge what happened. She continues to keep a tight grip on the box that had been cracked open to reinforce her mental shields. She rises from the armchair slowly, her movements stiff. " That, " she responds tersely, heading towards the room's exit. " Was none of your business. " her tone leaves no room for negotiation. She's not discussing this with him. Not now, not ever. In fact, she doesn't want to think about it ever again. There's a pit in her stomach and she feels nausea rise. But her gaze darts to her brother as he dares to impose bed rest upon her, a bitter laugh ripping from her throat as she whirls on him, ignoring the way her head spins at the fast movement- her body still adjusting to no longer having unnatural speed. " You may be my brother but I have outgrown the brotherly concern by a few centuries. " a tight smile adorns her lips. " Our agreement is off, I'll deal with this on my own, however, I see fit. " she was nothing if not stubborn. She sucks in another breath, feeling her self-control ebb. The last thing she wants is a repeat of before. She makes a mental note to speak to Freya about control. " I have spent the better part of a millennia on my own, I think I know what's best for me. " she doesn't. She goes to turn again before pausing, gaze hard. " and in-case you hadn't noticed, I'm not Rebekah, I don't follow her fanciful notions about love and becoming human. I don't want to be a mother, I don't believe being human makes anything better. If I could, I'd give this to her in a second. I don't want to be weak. " there's definitely no heat to her tone, no bitterness when she speaks of her sister and her voice definitely doesn't crack.

            elijah had not expected such a strong reaction to follow. but when the lights started to flicker rather violently, elijah became suspicious but also worried. "bronwyn?" his gaze was directed at the different lights that all seemed to follow the same scheme before he gazed at his sister again who now appeared strangely impassive.

           "was that you?" she mentioned she turned human, so he expected her to be human. he had almost forgotten that she was born with magic; had basically forgotten that she had as a small child clearly possessed signs of magic and therefore there had been accidents again and again. he did not expect that this change would mean that magic would return. at the same time, he didn’t know why he never questioned why she stopped having magic before they turned into vampires.

           he shook his head, highly irritated. "what was that?" now he spoke no longer of the outbreak of magic, but of the reason for her reaction, which he took as very fierce for the fact that he had exclusively her welfare in mind. elijah was well aware that she seemed to allow no discussions on the subject, but he had never been deterred by a particular tone.

           "even if there's a way to undo this and if that's something you even want." – he left the possibility open because he knew not all members of their family would necessarily go back to wanting to be a vampire – "i assign you to bed rest for the time being. no exertion and no agitation." he considered it as the safest option for the time being. || @obl1tus  

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tragic fictional siblings... save me...

tragic fictional siblings

save me tragic fictional siblings

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Guess who still didn't talk about the thing? Another reblog for another note to self...

A very vague thing I'm throwing on the dash to remember to talk about but the exploration of season four and in particular The Hollow will be slightly different on this blog. I will elaborate further when my brain works but putting out the vague thing so I don't forget!