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out of curiosity, does everyone have a certain type of character they get attached to or are urs random

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It's so hilarious to me that Carlos invited some random Texas Ranger to TK’s birthday party for Tommy to flirt with, but his actual partner didn't even know his husband's name 🤣

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Let’s spread a little sunshine ☀️ drop this sunflower 🌻 into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! 💛

Thank you, Lua 😘

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How did Rafa enlarge his eyes by 20% in this scene?

They were so big and soulful and cow eyes here.

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if you're worried about the new ToS for AO3, please remember that you are primed to distrust because of the way politics are intertwining with the internet right now. remember to look into definitions yourself, fact check, and look through the logic lense before jumping to conclusions.

AFAIK right now, the update clarifies terms that have already existed. it's not changing as much as it is clarity-rewriting. i'm still looking through the legalese (law student, i'm learning as I go) and I will be checking in again later, but don't despair.

however, don't get lax. download fics, connect with the authors, build out your communities. comment and bookmark and save, and please don't stop writing.

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hello beloveds ☺️

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Them: Describe Star Trek: The Original Series in three images.

Me:

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(It's baking) not rocket science

“We’ve got Banana bread with walnuts, peanut butter loaf, avocado loaf, pumpkin pie, almond cookies, ANZAC biscuits and Foccacia.”

For a moment Karen could only stare at the ever growing pile of baked goods in her kitchen. “You realise there’s only four of us, right?” she said eventually.

Buck looked a little sheepish. “I know. I know. I just… Denny’s growing and I thought maybe you could give some to Hen’s mom, if it’s too much. Or you take some to work. I kinda already fed everyone at the station. And Athena’s precinct. So…”

Karen nodded slowly. She was a little speechless. “Wow. Hen wasn’t kidding. It really is that bad.”

To her alarm Buck seemed to shrink right in front of her. “I’m kinda going through something at the moment, and…”

“Tommy broke up with you and you’re channelling your grief into baking, I know. Believe it or not my wife actually talks to me.”

Buck deflated even more. “Yeah. I’ve been trying to distract myself from wanting to call him.”

“Wow,” Karen repeated.

Buck chuckled mirthlessly. “Yeah, I know. And I know I shouldn’t. The others keep telling me.”

“What would you say?” Karen asked.

“What?”

“I mean if you did call him, what would you say?”

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Now that we've arrived at this storyline I think it's a good time to lovingly remind everyone that Carlos never said he was certain about not wanting kids. The whole point was that he wasn't sure if he would ever get there, and TK made it clear that he wanted to be with him either way.

But Jonah isn't a hypothetical kid. He's TK's brother, who already exists and is in a tough spot, to say the least.

TK would never force Carlos to have kids but it is completely reasonable for him to not want his brother to be shipped off to the other side of the world and be without parents or any family at all. These are not normal circumstances. He definitely approached the conversation with Carlos with a lot of frustration, and a lot of it is understandable because they're both stuck. Not just with what to do about Jonah, but with everything.

"You're not the only one."

While he could have been more patient in having the conversation, if we step away from Jonah and look at the bigger picture you can see how this isn't just about him. It's about them. It's about the pain of the past that is still holding them both hostage. What happens when the next curveball comes? What does their future hold if this case never gets solved?

I told myself I wasn't going to write another essay but TLDR, both TK and Carlos' perspectives are completely valid and understandable. Let's not make TK out to be a villain for simply wanting to make sure his brother has the safety and support of the only family he has left to take care of him. There's also no reason to distort what Carlos said in 4x12, which was "I don't think we're ready" and "I don't know if I'm there yet, or ever will be" so he's not going back on anything he said if he wants Jonah now, and if they do end up with him.

And judging by this smile, he does want him. He wants this family.

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Never in my life have I had strong feelings about a man's shoulders before.

Enter Rafael Silva.

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Maddie YOU ARE SPEAKING MY BRAIN!!

I do think we have to also remember that we don't see every conversation tarlos has on screen so Carlos' not immediately saying "I told u I don't want kids" does lend to the theory that they probably have discussed it more at length, but determined that they both were not ready yet anyways. UNTIL JONAH

And I think Carlos has so many valid feelings and thoughts here. But he's seeking out pictures of his husband and this little boy that he didn't know he adored so much.

And I didn't know I adored them all so much together!!!

yeah, they clearly have such a good give and take off-screen that it’s such a good conflict because we can see where both of them are coming from. we now know this has been a year and a half of unimaginable pain for them both. they’ve learnt so much about how to talk to each other throughout their relationship and have so much shared history…but what standard are we holding them to? carlos is trying, tk is trying. this has been a season full of tk being there for carlos and carlos being there for tk. this has been a season of love despite despite despite. one moment of them being human, of them letting their emotions take over, doesn’t suddenly take away all the grace they’ve given each other. tk’s bluntness was meant to hurt, as he started to shut down. we’re not supposed to love it. carlos leaving for work was meant to leave its mark, as he felt burned. we’re supposed to wish he’d have stayed, even though that’s an impossibility. all of this happened so quickly, and they didn’t get the chance to reconvene properly and talk things through, and i think it’s important that they left this as an open thread for them to pick up on.

and exactly! @strandnreyes said it best here because they’re showing not telling that this is something carlos does want, even if he won’t let himself admit it. his fears are so so real. his trauma from his childhood is so wrapped up with his father’s case and so much of that is wrapped up in his desires around fatherhood. when this comes to a boiling point…oof. i’m eager to see where this goes! especially since we know at the end of the day the love they share for each other raises above the noise.

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i don’t care that you’re weird. in fact, i encourage it. hell, I’ll be weird with you, the fuck..

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people who write fics. how do you feel about comments on super old ones you wrote like 2+ years ago

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Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

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Five people in hq standing around a secret message, trying to figure out what the agent could have meant with that one word that doesn't make any sense. Later we find out it was a typo.

Searching the wrong house/bugging the wrong phone because the guy who provided the adress/phone number accidentally flipped two numbers

Would love to see more human error in spy fiction (or fan fiction). Getting the wrong dead drop site. Forgetting the exact spot where something was buried. Misremembering a coded message. Falling asleep during a mission. Forgetting to hit 'send' on an important transmission.

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I hate that Tommy was basically like "the world has everything to offer you now and in this world I am nothing. And as much as I wish I could be that guy, I'm simply not him. And I'd rather tell myself that I meant nothing than you prove it in the future."

Yet he doesn't realize that Buck is basically like "I have to take every thought of you and throw it into the oven and let fire turn it into something that I can hold. That I can consume. And I'll do it again and again and again until my fridge is full of all the ways I can eat this feeling without letting it eat me alive. You are everything and I am addicted to you."