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kinda wish hrt was instant but also very in love with the joy over time of gradually becoming. and not knowing where it will end. if ever

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(icon by @neladoesart)

Hi! I'm Natalie. I'm trans of gender and ace of sexual and I write dark fantasy and dark sci-fi adventure stories full of boners and thud-and-blunder action violence wherein no swash remains unbuckled, nor pot unboiled. I also blog about books and history and languages and I write essays and poetry sometimes, and don't forget about the many exciting Age of Empires 2 scenarios available at Natalie's Cool Website.

You might have heard my short story The Wishing Tree on the Tales to Terrify podcast! (now available as a zine from Grinning Kitten Press). Other stuff I’ve published to date includes:

THE LAST GIRL SCOUT: A post-apocalyptic wasteland adventure story and transbian romance about two women who fall in lesbians together and fight Nazis and draculas in the bombed-out ruins of Old America

LEAD AND ROSES: LOVE SONGS AT THE END OF THE WORLD: A collection of short fiction set within 23rd-century post-nuclear wasteland we’ve all come to know and love

IN THE COURT OF THE NAMELESS QUEEN: A collection of dark fantasy f/f erotica about sexy swashbuckling swordswomen (both cis and normal) and a giant scary monster lady in a far-off realm of adventure and dark magic.

If you're curious I'd really like it if you'd check out my Patreon because there's even more fantabulous treasures on there and you can subscribe for the low, low price of just one American dollar. Your one American dollar will go toward the ever topical "Natalie can make rent and doesn't starve" philanthropy fund.

I'm gonna stay here on Tumblr until they forcibly remove me from the premises, but I'm also on Pillowfort, Bluesky, and Cohost

:)

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No one ever tell me anything bad about the person who runs this account.

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I will never watch Death Note b/c Ryuk's face scares me, but my impression from fan content is basically the iocane powder scene from The Princess Bride but it's Vizzini on both sides of the table.

damn you got it exactly right

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let's get ✨vulnerable✨

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Frustrated that people continued to consume so much alcohol even after it was banned, federal officials had decided to try a different kind of enforcement. They ordered the poisoning of industrial alcohols manufactured in the United States, products regularly stolen by bootleggers and resold as drinkable spirits. The idea was to scare people into giving up illicit drinking. Instead, by the time Prohibition ended in 1933, the federal poisoning program, by some estimates, had killed at least 10,000 people. [...] By mid-1927, the new denaturing formulas included some notable poisons—kerosene and brucine (a plant alkaloid closely related to strychnine), gasoline, benzene, cadmium, iodine, zinc, mercury salts, nicotine, ether, formaldehyde, chloroform, camphor, carbolic acid, quinine, and acetone. The Treasury Department also demanded more methyl alcohol be added—up to 10 percent of total product. It was the last that proved most deadly. The results were immediate, starting with that horrific holiday body count in the closing days of 1926. Public health officials responded with shock. “The government knows it is not stopping drinking by putting poison in alcohol,” New York City medical examiner Charles Norris said at a hastily organized press conference. “[Y]et it continues its poisoning processes, heedless of the fact that people determined to drink are daily absorbing that poison. Knowing this to be true, the United States government must be charged with the moral responsibility for the deaths that poisoned liquor causes, although it cannot be held legally responsible.” His department issued warnings to citizens, detailing the dangers in whiskey circulating in the city: “[P]ractically all the liquor that is sold in New York today is toxic,” read one 1928 alert. He publicized every death by alcohol poisoning. He assigned his toxicologist, Alexander Gettler, to analyze confiscated whiskey for poisons—that long list of toxic materials I cited came in part from studies done by the New York City medical examiner’s office. Norris also condemned the federal program for its disproportionate effect on the country’s poorest residents. Wealthy people, he pointed out, could afford the best whiskey available. Most of those sickened and dying were those “who cannot afford expensive protection and deal in low grade stuff.” And the numbers were not trivial. In 1926, in New York City, 1,200 were sickened by poisonous alcohol; 400 died. The following year, deaths climbed to 700. These numbers were repeated in cities around the country as public-health officials nationwide joined in the angry clamor. Furious anti-Prohibition legislators pushed for a halt in the use of lethal chemistry. “Only one possessing the instincts of a wild beast would desire to kill or make blind the man who takes a drink of liquor, even if he purchased it from one violating the Prohibition statutes,” proclaimed Sen. James Reed of Missouri.

This isn't particularly relevant to anything specific. I just wanted to remind everyone this is something the US government did.

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everybody is drooling for the blond guy from dungeon meshi. that guy is 100% real and I know like six of him, what you are looking for is a marine biologist

1. spends a long amount of time doing something weird far away from society

2. will not stop talking about their animal

3. has definitely eaten their animal and has strong opinions on how to cook it best

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i don't like to sound like a conspiracy theorist but lately i've been seeing some takes on people potentially detransitioning that feel primed to drive wedges in solidarity. like i keep seeing stuff that very subtly seems to be based on the idea that people who detransition medically and/or legally for safety reasons in the future are inherently untrustworthy, duplicitous, and actively likely to throw other trans people under the bus and assimilate into cisnormativity on purpose. and i feel pretty shaky about that because i think a LOT of people in the usa are about to medically and/or legally detransition while still being trans. like distrusting trans people who aren't putting ourselves on the legal registry of trans people (or are actively taking ourselves off that registry) in the next few years feels on par with not trusting gay people who hide their relationships at work in 1995. like i think we should all get really cool with closeted people really fast again because as the stakes for being recognized as [x identity] by the state go up, the number of people who can afford to identify themselves to the state as [x identity] goes down. and the state frequently is tied into other structures of power in such a way that we need to make lifestyle changes to hide that identity trait from related authority figures (doctors, psychiatrists, employers).

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a video on my channel was hit by a spurious DMCA strike

for those who need a refresher, markscan (nor sony) does not own the rights to this specific video

youtube automatically rejected my counter notification. time to pressure TeamYouTubes twitter account

it's ridiculous that youtube just lets scam corporations screw over youtubers like this with no ramifications (im sure anyone familiar with stephanie sterlings work is familiar). the only way forward is kicking up a stink on twitter. ill need ur help.

here is the link to the tweet

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Reading Lancer's rulebook and the sheer difference in learning it's rules vs DnD is staggering.

DnD rules were meticulous and expansive but simultaneously so niche and kinda useless, inconsequential to the game overall I guess? Like someone else on here summarised, those rules were there just because the writers felt like they should be there without any actual care for their impact on gameplay.

Meanwhile, every little bit of Lancer's rules I'm reading feel like they have, and certainly will, a major impact on how the game's played. Like, the levelling system isn't something I can half-ass and basically ignore like I have with DnD because fuck XP calculation.

LLs are so stupidly simple, it's great. Complete a mission, level up. Profit.

Lancer fans, I'm really starting understand why you love this game (beyond the cool-as-fuck mechs).

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After 12 years, I have finally had an epiphany that made me understand the basic character themes and parallels that the whole core of Death Note is based around

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People: The Jews aren't talking about Musk!

The Jews: Are in fact talking about it.

The Jews: No one is talking about rising and rampant antisemitism.

People: Are not in fact talking about it.

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remember in 2007 or 2008 when emo was at its peak and gay marriage wasn't legal and so we had boys in eyeliner and skirts making out with each other at the mall in protest. i think we need this again

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The red cross: *historically has not treated jews well numerous times despite being a humanitarian organization*

Goyim: *silence*

The ADL: *defends elon musk once despite being the educating against antisemitism organization*

Goyim: ADL bad. ADL is a zionist puppet organization. Fuck the ADL. We should ignore all of their work against educating against antisemitism. All of their work is now discredited

****disclaimer, this post is not defending the ADL. What they did was wrong. This post is about pointing out hypocrisy in how jews and Jewish organizations are treated****