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[nyesnwavy]

[nyesnwavy]

“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve”

— Unknown

[nyesnwavy]

i crave deep ships. deep love. deep being. deep existence. first with myself, then externally.

this is the journey through vulnerability and intimacy.

who would’ve thought.

[nyesnwavy]

• entering space

as if only the wind lifts you

as if your energy already forced you

to float

as if the feet that hold your crowned body

have rooted you

through diamond bearing earth core

as if your soul came here to spark flames in others you

are the space you

are the definition

of love and essence •

elements — nye.

[nyesnwavy]

• sometimes i have writers block

i often times try to not get caught all in it — in my brain

cus that’s where shit like pain lies.

still. steady. stable.

how is pain more balanced within me than being in touch with us three?

yeah i said us three,

mind, body, soul, … or better yet,

lower, higher, solar self

baby, come through for yourself

keep promises you never kept

because you owe yourself that.

self asks, “forever”… yeah my love, forever.

this time i won’t let you go.

this time i won’t skip you a thousand in a row.

this time i’ll show you unconditional love

and we’ll move through this life vibrating above

together

higher— more love.

power— more gratitude.

earth runs deep

flow of energy runs deeper.

feeling my soul deep in

as my root deepens

tethering me between universe and

my crown its

a blessing…

where lessening ya being isn’t taking place

cus this is finally a space meant for me.

a space where —breathing

is possible and no fear being the key to life is actually fathomable

a void where nothing, not even self love is retractable

the lock that holds unconditional self love

is unlocked with lacking fear of being the only one

to fill ya cup up first in order to fill others

up not with bubbles .

carbonation leaves room for the impression that you

done filled up enough

to pour onto others. — doomed.

into another life again

here you gotta buy all the pins

in order to move freely through the

multiverse .. that’s sims.

so free your mind from this prison

escape the reality you get taught, times a ticking

learn to be a multidimensional sim

a way better way of playing into the system.

the key to that tho is going deep within.

has your shadow ever seen the light of day?

you know, the further in the shadows you keep it,

the more darkness and heaviness remains.

it’s kinda like experiencing low oxygen to only the left side of your brain.

that’s where speech takes place.

so if i leave my shadow in the dark

my processing, being, and speech gets delayed.

“thought you said you were 23. “

well yeah.. my body is but the inside of me?

a child.. she’s like three “

some how she’s the shadow that gets brought into broad daylight

she’s the annoying one that lingers in the night like them damn street lights.

she’s the one that comes out during fight or flight

because that’s the same shadow that helped me to survive all this time.

you see, i now allow my shadow room to speak..

space to play, rest, cry, then debrief.

i am the sun

so my shadow does wat more than just follow me

she’s now light

peter mother fucking pan… yeah that’s right

i figured it out—

how to live in this vessel, on this Earth.. no fear, no doubts

welcome to unconditional self love

i call it well deserved, self served clout •

“free” - nye.

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Body Experience: Love #3

•i’m talking to you

whispering whenever you need me

sometimes screaming

letting you know the truth

sending shivers down your spine

Hot flashes and shit

Forcing you to breathe and your ears to whine

Why don’t you listen to me?

Why do you you wrap me up so tight?

How come you hardlyy ever let me shed a little light in you?

You already embody it..

But you dont embrace me

Can’t you see?

I’ve been right here all along

Holding your hand

Various clumps of sand

Singing your songs

loving you through the moon comes out then the sun comes up and falls

I get you through this day to day shit

Like your internal mom

But im your age

A lil more experienced and wise

But fuck the time

It doesn’t exist

Im yours and youre mine

Thank you for allowing me to speak through you

Feel through you

Breathe.

For feeding me things like cacao and nutritious ass greens

I’ve always feened

For a love like this

I mean…coming from you,

My love..

Youre my greatest and only love.

Who knew a life like this could exist?•

~nye.~

[nyesnwavy]

•level but never linear.

fine but always visible.

love that only feeds the soul.

focus is to fill my cup.

taste overflow, you know wassup.

essence like a waterfall.

intense but super smooth for all.

guaranteed won’t let my guard

keep from embodying unconditional

presence in the physi— spiritual.•

~nye.~

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s h o r t & s w e e t

• this feeling is insane

my brain feels like it’s going to burst

the pain my heart feels first

then gut sinking deeper is what’s worse

only thing holding me back is myself and the thirst

i have to be understood •

~nye.~

[nyesnwavy]

me: finally keeping myself.

me: *gets a glimpse* “daaaammnnn ma, when did you get this fine”

[nyesnwavy]

•when the time is right

i want to love and protect you

unrealistic to never trigger fight or flight

you deserve someone who’s consistently respectful

of your crown, energy, and time

our love is soulful

please be mine?

this won’t end up hurtful

because we’re finally existing as two dimes— I meant diamonds. •

-nye.

a queen and her crown✨

[nyesnwavy]

tis a human thing, what can i say?

[nyesnwavy]

•gaze at the sun with me

take early morning/late night walks round 3

fall on your face because you tripped but really just saw my feet

run towards you, repeating every step and hearts beating

so fast— depleting each others energy entirely in a way that

completely fills up the entirety of both of our beings.

you feel me? you see me? you hear me?

mm, finally.

these sungazing walks never been so replenishing and pretty. •

-nye.

Alone or together, life goes on.

l Bao Tran Trung l Vietnam

[nyesnwavy]

•inebriated thoughts

turns into calls

un remembered voicemails

prolly makes it easier

to keep falling

back from me

no apologies this time

just patience

and unintentionally

reciprocated days

return then gone, keep

going away till the timelines

met. so you found my

dimension again. cool.•

-nye.

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— it will be me. know that. —

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•i’ll learn all languages

that way

communication

is never lost •

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• lmfao— dreams.•

Credit belongs to owner x

[nyesnwavy]

•enter if you dare•

by Matti Varga