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[nycsmythe]

"i don't know if i'm the right gay for that vibe, but i can try my best." sebastian offers as he removes his coat, dropping it over the back of the couch once inside the apartment. "and i'm having whatever you're having, as long as there's a lot of it. just pour yourself a glass and then hand over the bottle. i'll replace it next time i see you."

"You wouldn't be the first gay guy I hooked up with," Rachel quipped, rolling her eyes fondly and laughing. She nodded along as he spoke, "Well, just for that, I think I will give you good morning, princess texts from now on, just so you know that you are my most special princess there is," she grinned and poked his cheek lovingly.

When they got to her place, Rachel turned the key and discovered that her roommates were either out or in bed, "Good, we can have an honest girl-to-gay talk. What are you drinking? I think I'm going to have some Moscato."

[nycsmythe]

is there any reason why you can't change it again? not being a dick, genuinely asking - is there some sort of cap? because there's a woman in my dance class who's been married four or five times at this point and has changed her surname with each new hubby, so...

if you'd like a suggestion, i'd recommend sebastian. it's a strong, classic name, that sounds great when it's moaned.

everyday i wake up and i wish i'd picked a funnier name for myself. i could have named myself princess consuela banana hammock or crap bag, and i picked hendrix??? what was i even thinking? if i could go back and smack my 15 year old self...well i wouldn't that's child endangerment and possibly a hate crime - but i'd have a stern talking to him. and tell him it gets better, and gender affirming care is right around the corner.

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seems like a marketing ploy, and, considering you're here talking to all of us about it now, i'd say it worked.

i'm more of an instagram guy, personally. i had those thirst trap dudes on my tiktok page for awhile, but i've found them to be better in photo form than in motion. it gets cringy way too fast otherwise.

can someone tell me why my tik tok is full of people in the disney parks? I haven't been to disney world since I was about 21 when i thought it would be a fun idea for a 21st birthday. It's not that I don't like disney world but I don't think I ever want to go back it and looking at the tik toks makes me not want to go back. i do not miss it at all. what's something that keeps coming up on your for you page?

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you know, you'd think i'd get tired of hearing it, since it's so often the truth, but even after twenty-five years on this planet i haven't gotten sick of being told i'm right.

tragically, a lot of the most creative minds we've got have been put into the shittiest people.

thank you sebastian. I need to keep this mentality you have just given me because you are so right.

oh trust me, phantom is a good musical and i love it and wish I could pull off any role in that show however opera is not my forte. However it is a great show, but definitely agree with you about him being a douchebag.

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damn. obviously i knew there were people in the circus, kids included, but i never thought i'd actually have a conversation with someone who grew up with that experience. it always just sort of seemed like more of an abstract concept.

i'm curious - since there's the whole trope of kids threatening to run away to join the circus, did you ever do the opposite? threaten to run away and attend public school or something?

Then you have your answer.

We're circus folk. Born and raised. When the troupe comes near I join the show until they leave again.

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"i mean-" sebastian shuts his mailbox, turning the key to lock it once more before bringing his attention fully to emmett. "it's not like it's an entirely unfounded speculation, the possibility of me trying to get with her husband. married guys have been my type on more than one occasion." was it a shitty move? absolutely. but the thrill of the chase, and the ego boost that came with being desired enough to be worth damaging something as important as a lifelong vow... it was too tantalizing to ignore.

at least, it had been. karma had given him his punishment for it, and since the failure of his own marriage-to-be, the thought of going after a taken man just didn't seem very appealing anymore. ...even if there was a pretty strong impulse to break apart every happy couple that crossed his path. still, even that he knew he wouldn't be able to find joy in, really, considering he had no one but himself to blame for the situation he'd found himself in.

it wasn't much, really, just some small talk in a mail-room, but this conversation with emmett had been more needed than he'd realized. just a few minutes of distraction, a chat with someone who - probably erroneously - didn't see him as the terrible person he'd been feeling like lately. not without good reason, sure, but all the same, it gave him the tiniest flicker of hope, like maybe there was still a chance for him, someday, to redeem himself and get back to working on becoming the person he'd been trying so hard to be, before he'd inevitably fucked it up again.

"definitely." he answers after a long, introspective pause, coming back to earth. "do you have a shower buddy? i'd recommend getting one, if not. they can help make sure you get all those hard to reach places covered."

In reality, Emmett could not fathom why someone would pull some kind of prank like that. Sebastian had always been kind to him, probably kinder than Emmett realized, but there was still a disconnect there. "I don't think anyone would do that. And if they did, it says a lot more about them than about you." Emmett reached into his own mailbox, where a set of scores he'd ordered were waiting for him. Grinning, he ripped into the package and his fingers were already itching to get a hold of his cello. "What?" Emmett asked, confused suddenly. "Oh--" He looked incredibly mortified for a moment, but then swallowed and tried to reset his brain. "It's... very important to keep clean, right?"

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i sleep just fine, but thanks for your concern. i was nice literally two seconds ago, when i showed excitement for the show, and said you'd crush it. a mistake, clearly. but, like i said, won't happen again.

please, tell me more about what blaine wants, and what i've considered when it comes to him. you were the one in that relationship, after all, right? the expert here? the specialist on all things blaine anderson?

right.... if that's what helps you sleep at night, then keep telling yourself that. right.... and when have you been nice? look, you might want to see blaine, but maybe blaine doesn't want to see you. did you consider that? i doubt you did.

yeah.... there won't be any stumbling on my end. if there is, it'll be from me stumbling to smack you.

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...you know, it's been years since i last watched that episode, but i think i would have remembered that.

are you fucking with me, or is that actually what the two of you get up to?

Only if that involves aerial acrobatics and knives.

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rip then.

you're not? that's a shame.

...my curiosity is like the cat or whatever.

maybe i should check this out. i'm not a pervert. or a violent person though. for the record.

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were you not looking for feedback here? or did you only want it from people who were going to pat your ass and cry for you, rather than trying to offer up valuable advice about a solution to your problem? i'm not the one who didn't tip you, i'm the one trying to help. but i won't make that mistake again. as usual, it goes unappreciated. sometimes i think you people don't want your problems solved, because then you can't bitch about them.

gerber? as in, kaia? you're related to cindy crawford? why didn't you lead with that?

and yet that makes you entitled to commenting on how to do my job? and i should care.... why exactly? i've been busy attending a top school as well, yet i still manage to find the time to balance my job, studies and going to open mic nights. so.... what? you want a gold star or something for choosing to work the service industry over working in a law firm? hey, i stand by what i said. your face just screams meerkat to me, and that's coming from a former gerber baby.

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it's tempting to continue, to play this all off as a big joke and pretend like he's unfazed by everything going on - something he's usually pretty good at, but blaine knew him too well. humiliating as it was, the other man had discovered that there was a depth behind the facade, and once it had been uncovered, there was no pretending now.

the snarky question given in response to his drink suggestions is enough to chip at the metaphorical ice, making his lip twitch upward just slightly, never immune to a sassy blaine - easily one of his favorite versions of the man. he was usually so nice, so friendly, that the rare occasions he got to see this bitchy side come out were always a treat, even if he was the one on the receiving end of it. "i'm sorry." it's not much, but it is, in fact, genuine, even if it's only being murmured after some encouragement on blaine's side. "and i wasn't abducted - by aliens, or otherwise." and, because of course he's simply incapable of helping himself, he adds, "i could use some light probing, though, if you're free after this."

for a moment, he considered leaving. this wasn't the right place to have this conversation, especially not when it was clear that neither of them had been prepared to see the other, and the last thing he wanted was to fall apart in the middle of a bar. but then sebastian started listing off drinks in that casual tone, as if he hadn't already humiliated blaine enough, and something in him snapped. "seriously, sebastian? you're just going to stand there and list drinks?" he said. "how about 'i'm sorry'? or 'surprise, i did in fact not get abducted'? or, i don't know, an explanation maybe? do you have that on the menu?"

[nycsmythe]

when: monday, april 21st, late afternoon where: a local dance studio who: sebastian smythe & cassandra july ( @cassandraxjuly )

he feels pretty damn ridiculous for it - like he's some angsty teenager in the footloose town or something - but there's no denying how cathartic shutting his brain off for an hour and focusing on nothing but the instructed dance moves can be. "you got dinner plans?" the question comes out in a panted breath as he dabs the sweat off his forehead with a hand towel, a hint of an invitation towards someone he didn't always get along with, but, at least in here, had a good amount of respect for when it came to her talent. "i'm starving."

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when: sunday, april 20th, night where: scandals bar who: sebastian smythe & dana timms ( @nycdanat )

"did i tell you who showed up here friday night?" sebastian speaks to the glass in his hand as he pours margarita mix into it, but the question is directed at his coworker beside him. "short, dark, and handsome? used to be engaged to the hottest guy you know?" they hadn't been working together long, but long hours at the bar had led to inevitable conversation, even if it had been mostly surface level when it came to his feelings about everything.

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when: sunday, april 20th, afternoon where: rinky dinks skating arena who: sebastian smythe & finn hudson ( @nycfinn )

"so on a scale from one to four-twenty, how absolutely toasted are all the employees in this place right now?" sebastian smirks as he leans over the counter, searching finn's eyes to try and find the answer for himself - one that's to a slightly hypocritical question, considering his own current state of being, displayed pretty blatantly by the half-eaten nachos and mozzerella sticks in front of him. "i would imagine this is like your guys' christmas."

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break a leg, annie. and quit introducing yourself. you've got to carry yourself with the mentality that anyone who doesn't already know who you are at this point is someone with shit taste, and, therefore, shouldn't be given the time of day. you think beyoncé introduces herself? or just walks in and waits for the jaws to drop?

i know it's probably overrated at this point, but seeing as it was the first one i saw as a kid, and what got me into musicals, i think i'm still going to have to go with phantom. there's just something about the whole spectacle of it that's always fascinated me, even if alw is a bigger douchebag than i am.

well here I am enjoying the last two weeks of rehearsals for bonnie and clyde on broadway. I am honestly living for this, getting to play my dream role of Bonnie Parker and to be 1/2 of the iconic duo of bonnie and clyde. if you want discounted tickets to the first week of previews and opening night, let me know. oh if you didn't know who I am, I'm Annie Bridgeport and I am a singer/song writer, actress and broadway actress. Tell me what your favourite musical is?

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...your routine? is this like a monica and ross thing?

Aaaah, my sister is going to be nearby this summer. Which means I have approximately 2.5 months to refresh my memory on our routine... But, hey, that gives me something to look forward to when TST is over with.

[nycsmythe]

well, it's no fun if you give me permission. stand up, emmett.

i was being facetious. but, you know what? i'm open to trying new things. maybe i'll learn a little something about myself. ...that being said, i'm almost positive that "being into djs" isn't one of them.

Oh. I'm sorry. It's pretty silly, you can mock me for it.

Um... that is definitely an interesting fantasy. I'll let the DJ know for when he plays it?